To have a hero or to be a hero

As kids, we all have heroes. It is a totally natural way of evolving. Some of these heroes may well be fictional, but they serve an important purpose of moving a kids belief in themselves. That boost in confidence results in the kid trying things they may not have otherwise have tried. They evolve even quicker when their heros are other tangible entities that they can follow on a daily basis. Sports heros are an example. Here the kid can actively strive on a daily basis to become like their hero. They know that what they seek to master has already been mastered by their hero, so they never give up, and that persistence leads them to success. The interesting thing is that another indication of becoming an adult is that you yourself want to become the hero. You strive to be the hero, and here in is where we run into trouble. Once we lose sight of a hero, we start the journey on our own. It is a lonely path, the way is not lit. We stumble constantly over the obstacles that never cease to unite with our feet, and no matter how often we pick ourselves up from each fall, the darkness never gets lighter, and the obstacles never stop coming. This is the life of Einstein. To fail is to be one step closer to success yes, but 100 failures and a lifetime of darkness is still bad for morale. So here I am now seeking inspiration. I can see that I have tried to be an Einstein for the last 20 years. I have been learning by stumbling rather than evolving as fast as I could in view of the others who have been before me. So now I seek to see what has gone before me. Now I seek to explore the skills, and creative experiences of those that have already succeeded. Now I drink from the fountain of inspiration. To fill my soul with the energy and life that flows from the discoveries of others before me. My hero was always J.C. He inspired me because I saw him as someone like myself who made discoveries here, and worked out the creative process. I do not believe that he came in with the powers he had, but that he got them once he got in here. This led me to be confident that I could do the same. It has not felt like it has been very easy. I do not feel I have succeeded. But I can justify my failure with many things. I do not feel I have lived on a day to day basis seeking to follow in his footsteps. Also there are many things I do not want to do that are the same. Power is the same today as it was back in his day. Those that have power seek to keep it and gain more. They will use whatever is necessary to do this and attempt to remove anything that is threatens their sense of control. I do not seek to advertise a similar power to what J.C had without complete protection. Back then word spread by person. Now days in a multi media environment, there would be no peace, and many threats. This is not what I see as positive. And when I think about it I think only about the positives. It is like dreaming about having a luxury sports car. You dream only of having the car. Not of the powers of darkness out there that would like to have the same car, and are prepared to take yours away from you for free. So too would those that are of the dark side of life seek to have the powers of J.C if you showed them that you had them. If you had the power to protect yourself completely, by being invisible and immortal, and untouchable with some sort of impregnable force field, then the world would demand a hero of you, and expect you to save them, and scorn you when you cannot. This is not a life. So the key is to be clear about my intentions. To look deep at the dimension of experience rather than the illusion of the image alone. A fictional hero is someone who has powers that you yourself may desire, but have no connection or pathway as to how to gain them. A real live hero is someone who has abilities that they have gained themselves, which you can aspire to because you know that through action on your part following the same pathway as your hero before you, you too will be able to gain the same status. So my question to myself is….is J.C a fictional, or nonfiction character in my mind, and if I want to be like him, what exactly do I think that entails? If I am to be like him, I must first know how I see him. In my mind he has conquered his ego. He has mastered his emotions and he is disciplined in his connection to his life manager. These are all obtainable by me now. Where his abilities come into it, thi I have yet to figure out, and perhaps this is evolution of conquering the ego and releasing the soul.