creation

Expanding my comprehension, I have decided I am definitely an Alantean citizen. I have been accustomed to great personal and group power before.

Making money

Isn't it interesting that we call it "making money".

In reality what is it that we are doing? We aren't making it, we are trading in something of greater value for lessor value energy. This is not creating...therefore it is an illusion. We do want to create the experiences that we wish for without the cost. Hence the attraction to lotto.

So what is the correct way to do it? Everything I have tried todate has been successful initially then it has failed spectacularly.

Is that because I changed my perspective or intention? Is it simply because I did basic fundamentals incorrectly via a behavioural iniative, therefore I repeat the same behaviour given the same situation, and in doing so, because that behaviour is destructive, ends up costing me everything. This could be worth exploring, but it still feels not correct. It feels like the creation of energy should take no effort on my part at all, at a human level. If this is true, then where should the creation of this energy take place? I have been appreciating, and been good, yet I have not manifested money. So lets put all the pieces together and see what comes up. Appreciation is creative energy. Centering myself at my soul point, means I am not anchored in the material world, so my intentions are not to manifest something for myself which then requires me to go and find the energy. ie if I decide I want something like an mr2. Once I have decided this then the context is created. If I then try to pursue it at a material level, then I will have to trade more valuable items for it such as my time, or I will go into debt to create it. Both are undesireable. The other alternative is to create the context...I desire to buy an Audi TT and a luxury home for Ji. This also creates the context. Then I begin to pour real energy into this context. This I have not had a go at doing. I have always converted back to working out how I will create it materially, or dreamed about creating it metaphysically by creating a lotto win, but I have not put the energy into the context. So here then is my new project. To create first a luxury home, metaphysically, then to put an Audi TT in the Garage.

I am unsure what to do. The cafe still lingers. Coaching is thin, as is enthusiasm for it. Academy is stifled by the potential to go to Dubai, and by a lack of belief that this is my correct direction. The dubai thing doesn't seem to feel like it is correct either. Nor does going to Korea. So here I am in a position where I don't know what on earth I am supposed to do, and so feel I am falling into a void and risk creating nothing, as I have nothing to be enthusiastic about. I do know I need to create a sense of urgency for myself regarding my development and be more aware of my environment as a school, and more accepting of the events that occur as metaphysical lessons, and points of development. I can also be proactive more in the areas of prempting testing, by acknowledging where I am weak, and focus my attention on these areas.

I can also invest my time expanding my comprehension of reality.

One thing I do feel I need to do is to clean out my old or at least let it go.

A Note from "ponder on this" by Alice A. Bailey

"Your major need is for an intensification of your inner spiritual aspiration. You need to work more definitely from what might be called a point of tension. Study what is said about tension and intensity. It is intensity of purpose which will change me from the plodding, fairly satisfactory aspirant, into the disciple whose heart and mind are aflame.

notes from surfing the net

Although Tantra often refers to the Ajna Chakra as being located in the brow region, the implication is that this is its external manifestation, whereas the actual position is in the middle of the brain behind the brows. I differ from this conventional explanation in positing a front (descending) and an internal "Ajna" centre, as well as the back-of-the-head (ascending) centre. In Taoism, this primary chakra in the centre of the brain is variously referred to as the Square Inch [ Secret of the Golden Flower, p.25], the Heavenly Heart [Ibid], the Crystal Palace [Mantak Chia, Awaken Healing Light, pp.222-223], the Upper Tan Tien, the Original Cavity of the Spirit (Yuan Shen Shih) or the Ancestral Cavity (Tsu Ch'iao) [ Taoist Yoga - Alchemy and Immortality, pp.5, 9, etc]. As with the other mid-line chakras, the Ajna is not a Chi-energy chakra, part of the ch'i circuit or microcosmic orbit, but a subtle consciousness centre, located along the laser line or Sushumni nadi that extends from the Perineal (the lower or yin polarity) to the Crown (the upper or yang polarity). It constitutes the central focus point or governing centre of the other head chakras.

Antahkarana - The Science of the Antahkarana

From Education in the New Age By Alice A. Bailey "Antahkarana The path, or bridge, between higher and lower mind, serving as a medium of communication between the two. It is built by the aspirant himself in mental matter." As a preparation for what students need to master, I would like to emphasize certain points by tabulating the information already given. The Science of the Antahkarana is not an easy one to learn because of the following points. These emphasized points must be accepted by students as a working hypothesis prior to all attempted work: 1. The Science of the Antahkarana is connected with the entire problem of energy, but peculiarly with the energy handled by the individual and with the forces by which the individual relates himself to other individuals or to groups. For the sake of clarity, we will give the name of a.ENERGY: to all forces pouring into the individual form from whatever direction and source. To these major energies, the names of "sutratma" or "life thread" or "silver cord" have frequently been given. b.FORCE: to all the energies which - after due manipulation and concentration - are projected by the individual or group in any direction and with many possible motives, some good and many selfish. 2. The Science of the Antahkarana, technically speaking and for group purpose, is especially the science of light manifestation with its results of revelation and consequent changes. It should be remembered that: a.Light is substantial, and from the angle of the spirit is a sublimation or higher form of material matter. b.Light is also the quality or major characteristic of the soul in its own realm, and of the etheric body (a reflection of the soul eventually) in the three worlds of human evolution. c.The object of the science with which we are dealing is to fuse the lower and the upper lights, so that one light shines forth in physical manifestation and a synthesis of light is consequently brought about. d.Technically speaking, two light bodies exist - the vital or etheric body and the soul vehicle. One is the result of aeons of incarnating life and becomes in time a powerful repository of energies gathered out of a wide range of contacts, though conditioned by the ray type in its three aspects. The etheric body exists and is today functioning powerfully. The soul body is in process of being slowly constructed, and is that "house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens" to which the New Testament refers (II Cor. V, 1). It is interesting to note that the Old Testament refers to the etheric body (Ecc. XII, 6-7.) and its construction, and the New Testament deals with the building of the spiritual body. 3. The Science of the Antahkarana must be studied in three ways: a.Concretely and in relation to the etheric body, which is a substantial, tangible form, and is being so considered (though not as yet universally admitted) by modern science. b.Egoically and in relation to the soul and to the "light body" through which the spiritual man must function in the world of souls, and which - when blended and fused with the etheric body - produces the manifestation of divinity upon earth to a greater or lesser degree, according to the extent of fusion and the conscious recognition by the individual of the attained fusion. c.Abstractly and in relation to knowledge-wisdom, which are two words used in relation to force and energy, and their use by the individual in his environment and contacts. Ponder on these words. You will realize how necessary it is that there should be some capacity for abstract thinking before the true implications of this new science can be understood. 4. The Science of the Antahkarana is concerned with the problem of the continuity of consciousness and with the problem of life and death. Keep these two themes clearly in your mind for they are basic and important. 5. The Science of the Antahkarana deals with the three fold thread which connects: a.The monad, the soul and the personality, linking all three periodical vehicles and unifying all seven principles. b.The triple personality and its environment in the three worlds of human enterprise, and later in the other two worlds (making five) of superhuman expression. c.The consciously creative man and the world of ideas. These he must contact and express through creative work, thus bridging with the light: i.Between the world of souls and the world of phenomena. ii.Between the realm of subjective beauty and reality and the outer tangible world of nature. iii.Between himself and others. iv.Between group and group. v.Later, when the divine Plan has become a reality to him, between the fourth kingdom (the human) and the fifth kingdom (the Kingdom of God). vi.Finally, between humanity and the Hierarchy. 6. The Science of the Antahkarana is the science of the triple thread which exists from the very beginning of time and links individual man with his monadic source. The recognition of this thread and its use, consciously, as the Path and the means of ever expanding contacts, comes relatively late in the evolutionary process. The goal of all aspirants and disciples is to become aware of this stream of energy in its various diversifications and consciously to employ these energies in two ways: interiorly in self-unfoldment, and in the service of the plan for humanity. 7. The Science of the Antahkarana teaches certain fundamental truths about the thread, some of which might be enumerated as follows: a.The life thread comes directly from the monad or the ONE. This thread is anchored in the heart during incarnation. There is the seat of life. b.The consciousness thread comes directly from the soul. It is anchored in the head. There is the seat of consciousness. c.The thread of creative activity is initiated and constructed by the human being. It is anchored, when sufficiently constructed, in the throat. This thread is an extension or synthesis of the two basic threads. The creative thread itself is triple in nature. It is slowly constructed down the ages by the man. As he becomes truly alive, from the standpoint of intelligent awareness and the desire fully to express himself, the process is materially hastened. These three self-created lesser threads which constitute the third thread of the antahkarana extend eventually: a.From the physical body to the etheric body, passing from the heart to the spleen, and thence to the body of prana, the vital or etheric body, unites with force from the egoic will petals. b.From the etheric body to the astral body. This thread passes from the solar plexus to the heart and from thence to the astral body, picking up the energy of the thread mentioned above, unites with force from the love petals. c.From the astral body to the mental vehicle. This thread passes from the ajna center to the head center and from thence to the mind body, picking up the energy of the other two threads mentioned above, unites with the force from the knowledge petals. Though these three energies are woven into one thread finally, yet they remain distinct. It should be borne in mind that the soul body is constructed of pure white light, whilst the light out of which the etheric body is made is golden. 8. The Science of the Antahkarana deals, therefore, with the entire incoming system of energy, with the processes of usage and transformation and fusion. It deals also with the outgoing energies and their relationship to the environment and is the basis of the science of the force centers. The incoming and the outgoing energies constitute finally two great stations of energy, one characterized by power and the other by love, and all directed to the illumination of the individual and of humanity as a whole, through the medium of the Hierarchy composed of individuals. This is basically the Science of the Path. The antahkarana, therefore, is the thread of consciousness, of intelligence, and the responsive agent in all sentient reactions. The interesting point to bear in mind, and where we must now lay the emphasis, is that this thread of consciousness is evolved by the soul and not by the monad. The World Soul pours its gossamer thread of sentient consciousness into all forms, into all body cells and into all atoms. The human soul, the solar angel, repeats the process in relation to its shadow and reflection, the personality. This is part of the creative work of the soul. But, in its turn, the human being has also to become creative in the mental sense of the term and must repeat the process, for in all points the microcosm resembles the macrocosm. Therefore, through the life thread, the soul creates and reproduces a personality through which to function. Then through the building of the antahkarana, the soul first of all develops sentiency down upon the physical plane, and later bridges the gap - through meditation and service - between the three mental aspects. It thus completes the creation of the path of return to the Center, which must parallel the path of outgoing. I have now completed my introductory presentation of the fundamentals which will in the future age dominate the educational systems. It was necessary for all of you - and for those who will later study these instructions anent the new education - to have some grasp of past foundational implications and basic tendencies and also some ideas, however vague, of the line along which major changes can be expected to come. You can begin, therefore, to work intelligently and with as little loss of time as possible. It remains now to make the teaching which I have given practical in its implications. The New Education now must take the place of that which is old and which has proved so wrong that it could not prevent the universal holocaust which distinguished the years 1914-1945. It must be superseded. The next stage of human evolution will emerge as a result of the purificatory action of the World War. There are steps which humanity must take, and only a new type of education and a different attitude to the educational processes (imposed upon the very young of every nation) will enable mankind to take them. A new cycle of experience, of psychological development and of new educational processes is imminent. What I have given here and elsewhere on the Science of Meditation, of Service and anent the Antahkarana gives method, mode, promise and point to it all. Science of the Antahkarana. Keyword Tags: Antahkarana, The Antahkarana, Antahkarana Symbol, Antahkarana Symbols

MOVING FORWARD

I have had a very good boost over the last few days with alot of info coming in from many different sources, giving me a lot of homework to do.

The premise is it seems that I am heading towards the evolvement of my conscious awareness to develop control over my lower mind, my emotions, and to shift my perspective to infact protect myself as my power grows. In short if the karmic value of power matches the increase in power, then as my influence on others increases so does the potential whip lash from karmic fallout if I make errors of judgement, or decisions or actions that result in catacylsmic or negative chain reactions.

Also in a belief that I am moving into a position of management such as a life manager's role, I have to first remove all emotional attachment, and lower self domination, to enable me the capacity be patient enough and persistent enough to do my job effectively.

Potentially I am moving forward towards the development of my energy potential. It seems this has the capacity to be in many forms....psyhic, electrical, fire, gravitational, mental/thought, love, music, elemental, intuitive and potentially more aspects.

The key it seems is in control, which of course makes perfect sense. Control when you are in darkness, must be a progressive process. First stage is gravitational...creating a sense that there is something else out there, and therefore a sense of being drawn to discover is born. From there one must let go of the connection one has to each stage of development, like a butterfly needing to let go of the catapillar stage to move on, inspite of the comfortability of staying with the status quo, and the inability to be able to conceive what lies ahead, the catapillar must let go of what he has first, and this requires faith.

Right now I am at a phase of understanding where I can see the importance of having no attachment at all to anything, including the things I will obtain such as powers. After all, such a power only has it's usefullness in this realm.

And if I get too attached to something, I will be slow to move forward to the next butterfly stage.

One thing that is resounding to me at the moment, is this statement..."I must let go of the need to battle." I feel this encompasses any form of competition. For all competition is a battle to some degree. Is the addiction to battle what causes a man to gamble?

Ok, lets see where I am at. I am happy to move forward in Ji's life and get a home. However, she will be away for several years. Potentially 3. If we get a home now, as the property market moves, we will be in it. This is very much human thinking. We have done the mortgage calculators. We are capable of paying off 100,000 in the first year based on our incomes. All we need to be able to do is come up with a $100,000 or so deposit. We have until July. So 6 months. Based on all things being equal, I would need to gain the money elsewhere from where I have gained it todate. Potential human sources...sharemarket, currency trading, cafe, coaching, and academy, or Dubai Job. Of interesting note...is that all of these opportunities have failed in the past....so what would be different this time?

Also if you see it as the correct way forward to buy a home, then technically you would provide the means to do so, and not subject us to years of debt.

You could also have done this, through any number of lotto wins. Yet you have not. If we had won lotto todate, or in the near future it would change the direction I am heading. So perhaps there is somewhere I need to be, someone I need to intersect with etc. I can see that the direction of my life is being sculpted and for this I am open. I just am not sure how to plan and i think this gives me a sense of waiting.

personality

thinking about this...what actually is this? Is it actually an expression vehicle for the conscious vehicle.

Aprentiship

Today I was given a new perspective of things that expanded my comprehension considerably. I have been given the opportunity to realise an apprentiship. To realise the reality of being guided by a master.

All I have to do is follow the instructions. I have to decide and commit fully to his leadership. No more mucking around...This is it! This is what I have always wanted. Now it is up to me to prove it is my passion. I have been given a number of tasks to do relating to the chakras. This is my first priority to achieve this starting requirement.

This Master lives with me. He is here, all of the time watching everything I do. He intercepts my thoughts, and knows my intention. There are no secrets I can keep from him. He is not clothed in a human shell, but he is real. I hear him very strongly. I have been blatently ignoring him on so many fronts, yet he has been there all of the time, and never judged me.

He has just waited for me to be ready.

Bottom dweller

I have just been informed that I am a bottom dweller. The definition will fit with most of us...people who mindlessly go through their day, most attempting to hide from the mundaneness throught temporary escapes such as drugs, alcohol, computer games, and fiction. Some try to escape through gambling, others don't try to escape at all and just wait to die.

I must rise up now and become an officer. Someone who can lead others out of their prisons of hopelessness, and emptiness into a life that ends up fulfilling for their soul.

So what is it to become an officer? Well, it means I have to start training for it. This means I have to give up my bottom dweller activities which I have become addicted to. I get addicted because they fulfill a daily need to sustain life. Without my addictions and nothing else I would become so depressed ....my inner light would go out and I would die.

So where are we then with this. The addiction is strong. My will has to be strong. My will to improve is strong, but perhaps at this point I am so lost it is not strong enough. Only my will to Live is strong enough to pull me out of this rut. Now this is very very interesting, because it will be a justifiable reason behind all cancers and other life threatening diseases. Like a final opportunity to save yourself. Unfortunately in the material world, most people resign themselves to their predicament so instead of using the opportunity to spark their way forward and change their ways, they simply continue. This is an interesting concept. The same thing that can save you, will kill you if you don't use it properly. If you don't use the cancer to spark your will to live and change your bottom dweller life, the cancer will kill you.

Ok, now lucky me, I am getting this information without having to go through the cancer first. I guess I am getting the information now, but will get the cancer or whatever if I don't do something with this opportunity.

Interestingly enough, there is a mass perspective coming in 2012 of death. The end of an era through the mayan calander. This is a grand opportunity on a massive scale to kick start the entire population into a will to live situation. It could also mean on a grand scale that if they don't their will be a massive culling of the human population.

Heres another thought. 1000's of years ago we were visited by very very advanced cultures from other solar systems. They are still here, protecting us, and helping build our technology. I would propose that when they first visited mankind was so technologically inept, that there was no way for a relationship to be established. Therefore they put a calculation of how long it would take for mankind to develop to a level whereby they could return and begin a relationship. Now they have been coming here for years. But they use cloaking technology which is a very simply process of emitting a frequency field from their ships that would be outside the field of reception the human eye can perceive. This gives them the freedom to come and go as they please. The governments know they are here, because a few of their smaller scout craft have had problems here over the years by being in the wrong place at the wrong time when governments were testing weapons perhaps, and these interferred with the electronics of the craft causing them to crash here.

If on this date they make themselves visible to us again, and begin to build a relationship with us, then this would be a parigdym shift which is what Metaphysians believe the end of the mayan calender signifies. Revelations in the bible, will then occur a few years later as there may well be a significant intergalatic fight being brought to us, in which once a gain, our will to live is triggered, but this time not by perception but indeed by the reality of a true global threat. There will be a great beast.....could well be a monstor spaceship, that brings a billion aliens. There could well be one of these giant craft in every country or even several of them in every country. They come, they stay, use up all of the earths natural resources completely, effectively enslaving the human race because we cannot get around their technology that protects them and tortures us. They will be far superior to us in every way. They will completely strip away this planets resources and then leave again insearch of the next earth.

They will be here for as long as it takes. Generally I would say they will be here for a 1000 years. 10 generations of human years. 2 generations for them. This is why there are so many of them. When they have gone, there will be very few humans left. They will have taken most of them with them, and there will be nothing left here. It will take another 1000 years for the earth to recover. Some of the population will be relocated to other planets. Others will simply take up residence in the super city spaceships. It is possible that if the technology was sufficient to indefinitely store something live and fresh, that these super city ships may well rape the planet of it's resources faster. However I doubt this greatly because will their development would have come experience and they would know this was counter productive. It would be far more productive to have the planets and inhabitants survive and flourish when they are here, and have the capability of recovering when they leave so their future generations will be able to come back here and take again. This way they could have a circuit of planets they visit.

This then would tell me that atlantis is true. We were once an advanced civilization. Or rather we once had an advanced civilization living here. One of two things occurred, they raped our resources so badly they had to leave early, or they simply repositioned themselves to not be so obvious. It says they went to the bottom of the ocean. This would be the best place to hide, because it is the last developement in technology here, to enable us to go to any great depths in our own oceans, therefore a perfect hiding place for our visitors who could come and go without ever being seen. So potentially there are enormous cities under our oceans which are going to be discovered or revealed at some point. These cities are necessary for the future prosperity of the human race. They are so far down that nothing that occurs on the surface of the earth will affect them. We could have a solar flare, world tsunami, meteor strike, nuclear war, biological war etc.

The most interesting thing, is that there is nothing to fear. These people are so advanced, that if they wanted us dead, we would be dead already.

Ok, so what does this mean for me? This means I need to begin preparing myself? I am not sure what it means. I do know I need to change what I am doing. But I am not sure why. Perhaps why is irrelevant, and that is ok for me.

So what changes? Officer material. 1. Diet. I need to start eating live food. Stop eating processed food. I need to go to the movie food inc. I will need to give up sex? I will need to spend time focusing myself on inner energy.

There is a fine line between no desire and depression. There is a key balance point between where I am all powerful = full of power. Desire sucks my power, either by leakage, or by simply creating a negative situation. The other issue with desire is it changes the direction your life is going in. This usually not to your benefit, and therefore creates a negative situation which you then have to correct. It is interesting actually the mathematics involved. The less desire I have the less complicated the math. Imagine the formula at the moment, of energy splitting that is going on between the desires of the average human. The number of desires x the duration of each desire, divided into an ever decreasing energy value. The more the energy value decreases the more the desires increase. This then is result

power points

Power points are the areas in our world that illuminate energy. At the moment my world is surrounded by appliances that are inefficient energy suckers. The escape from the rat race is where I replace these with power points that add energy or exude energy.

Charging the magnet

I was called to change today. By having a friend come in who mirrors me exactly it gave me an opportunity to see where I am at exactly and do something about it. I have been doing the same stuff for so many years and have not moved ahead because I cannot without changing my behaviour. The behaviour I need to change is spending money before I get it. The new behaviour I need to do is to replace my debt with abundance, by taking the money that is allocated for something and use it to pay that thing into an abundant perspective. Then with any surplus money, take that and pay another area of my life into an abundant perspective. Continue to do this in every active perspective in my world now, before I try to create new perspectives. This hall will create an enormous perspective of debt. Am I prepared to live with this? If so why?

Right now my life is very simple. It would be even more simple if I get rid of the cafe. The cafe is still here, there is a reason. What is critical is that I take stock of my situation now. That I prepare myself for success now with what I have. That I use the knowledge of what I know to do this without first wanting more as a prerequisite to moving forward.

2012

The mayan Calendar has once again presented itself. I think this is going to become a feature in my life. I had felt that I would not grow old. I felt that nothing I do now matters. What if that date was a date of significant change for me. A change that strips away everything I have now. This is an interesting thought. Even if not in death, it would be like preparing for death. What does one do to prepare for such a significant change. A change whereby you will take nothing with you. How does one live their life leading up to that point? One of selfish decadence to do and experience everything you can by then? Or one of selflessness of dedication to the comfort and wellbeing of others? Or do we just continue on in ignorant bliss focused on our day to day grind ignoring the impending date and it's consequences.

This is a very important issue for me to address.

If I wanted to do some universal investment I would focus on appreciation.

Why am I here in this time frame. Why have I had the awareness of the Mayan Calendar date this far out, where I have the capacity to enact change?

Back to square one?

I am back to square one. I feel a bit stink. Any of the options I have available to me at the moment feel empty, and it feels like I am just waiting to die. None of the ideas am I passionate about. I need to find the passion. I also don't want to compicate myself, so Dubai job feels like it will be complicated, difficult. I need some direction again. I feel like I should be focused on something that is not about me.

One thing I can do better is more appreciation. I can also look more carefully at the tiers. I do know I need to look outside the square.

So, where to begin? Well I will begin by going back over my own blog entries, and see what I have missed. Relook at the Cafe. Something has to be done. Get rid of it, or put some signage up and make it work.

Clean up and clear out all my old gunk, including my motor bike.

Oct 26th Up date

Well, everything has ground to a halt. The Dubai Job is off, or unknown. The cafe sale fell through. I have no money for anything. And I am seemingly addicted to playing online at pogo. I am wasting my potential enormously. I need to do something with my life. I had put everything on hold to wait and see what comes up. I have not been appreciating or doing anything. So nothing has been happening. Don't know what to do next. This is a load of crap. I know exactly what I need to do. I need to start my appreciation programme, and stop stuffing around.

What needs to change in my world?

my metaphysical cv

If I was to write myself a personal cv, how would it look? How would it stand up in the metaphysical perspective.

metaphysical balance sheet

At the end of a cycle it is very important to have a positive energy balance. If not you will enter into a state of depreciation. You must start with a value, perhaps left over from last life. You must have a timer set to exit, or a limit of depreciation that you reach that determines your exit point, otherwise you have too much negative karma to start the next life.

So a tier one person who only generates their own energy via appreciation or not, will find it difficult to end their lifetime in a positive energy balance, unless they become a monk in a monastry of silence.

A tier two person will have a much better chance of ending their lifetime in a positive energy balance but note that most people in a relationship are actually tier one people coming together for something they want. Hence it doesn't last. A true tier two person would sacrifice their own enjoyment to enable another entity, (animals included) to be happy. The appreciation gained from this entity, would add value to your balance sheet if it occurred often enough. There is also potential that the affect you have on that person goes deeper usually by one person. This occurs because you have an affect on them, this improves their demeanour and morale, and in turn their reaction to each person they come in contact with for that time frame that their energy is positive from you, they will react accordingly and give a positive experience to those around them. (They will deliver a tier one experience to others).

A tier three person will have an affect on many people. They motivate people to become better personalities, which makes them better entities to be around for all of those around them. They make them change behaviours in certain areas, which creates the result of that person becoming a tier two person. A tier 3 person will have a lasting affect on another entity. They will be affected for days, even weeks. The energy network of all that are affected by all that they affect, will feed back to them. This can be hundreds, even thousands of souls worth of energy. Like network marketing it will feed back to the source that started it.

Then there is a tier 4 entity. This is one who has a life changing affect on an individual and not only changes their behaviour permanently, but puts them on the path of becoming a tier 3 person, permanently. Their behavioural changes influence others to change also. The energy generation through the whole network is massive. The effect is so significant, that 100,000s of people are affected by one tier 4 person.

Perhaps Buddha, JC, Kristna, Alha, are tier 4 entities. What about famous people who inspire millions to take up a sport. This is perhaps not the same, as they are focused on themselves. The michael jordans, and other great sporting role models, inspire millions to chase their own goals of becoming a legend. So JC inspired me to become a JC, doesn't mean I am going to become a tier 4 entity. It means I am a tier 1. It is not until I give up this goal, that I have a chance of becoming a tier 4 entity. Interesting. So, what's next? Perhaps a training programme for each?

A tier one entity has appreciation. So there must be a non tier one. Perhaps I have gone ahead with my numbers too soon. There must also be a destructive side, and therefore a negative tier, esculating in tier 4 destruction such as Hitler, or the devil?

Anyway, lets say that we use level zero to denote an entity that focuses only on their own wellbeing, and goals, with no desire to move forward and develop themselves. Perhaps they have the capacity to go backwards, and fall into the trap of negative pathway. I think the negative tier 1 is where an entity uses a physical substance to generate a positive feeling about themselves. They begin to rely on this substance to achieve this feeling. It becomes the only time they feel good, and they strive to reach these peaks which get further apart.

Regardless of which tier you are at, negative or positive, the first thing you have to do is give up what you have. This is probably the most difficult exercise for everyone. We get comfortable where we are, and we feel safe because all parts are known. We are getting something, and there is a perception that if we give up what we have we will end up with nothing.

So a negative tier one person who has an addiction to cigarettes, or heroin, will have to give up their vice to be able to move forward. A negative tier two person is someone who makes someone else feel bad so that they can feel good. So someone who steals something from someone, or cons someone so they can get their physical desires met, is a negative tier 2 entity.

A negative tier 3 person is someone who makes other entities do bad things to many other people in order to get what they want. A negative tier 4 person is someone who changes a person down a tier in order that they will be advantaged, and that this person who changes will go on to change others. A negative tier 4 person is someone who affects millions of souls making them hate others, and actively strike out against them, for the gain of that entity through the perceived gain of all involved.

A tier 5 entity would be a perception of God or Devil? There is a natural magnetism towards ascending. Inside every entity at every level, even negative, there is this magnetism. In some it is very very weak, and may take many lifetimes to become strong enough to act upon.

To become a tier 1, a neutral entity must add appreciation for what they have. The must focus on what they have rather than on what they do not have. The must identify what they do like about what they have and appreciate this. They can have a sense of intention. The closer this is to the magnetism of going forward towards their tier 5, the faster they will achieve it. Appreciation must become a habit. It must occur more often than negative focuses to end up your cycles with a positive energy balance. It takes a lot of discipline to do this. This is a time when you feel the most trapped by the system, and wish to escape from the clutches of the rat race. You are programmed to believe that physical wealth is the answer to all of your problems, and that desire for this wealth, often via some form of gambling such as casinos, lotto, tab betting, is the short cut way to get there. And everyone knows someone or has seen someone in the news who has made it. So this situation becomes our goal. Our focus switches outward, and to the physical avenues that we percieve to be the source of our escape. The problem is that your focus is constantly on what you don't have. Imagining what it would be like, gives you a glimpse of it, and makes you feel good for a moment. But it creates an enormous gap between what you have and what you don't have, and you carry that around with you the rest of the time. You have no connection to how you will gain this and so you exist on hope, and nothing changes, so you become depressed over time as you are exerting energy but getting no return.

So by letting go of these, you are able to free yourself up to focus on what you have.

Identifying what you have gives you a constant source of energy food. Because you have it, you are surrounded by it. The cues are around you all of the time. This will change how you feel and position you to receive things, as you will end up with a positive energy balance at the end of your smaller cycles. If you end up with a positive energy balance at the end of this day, that provides the energy to gift you with that balance. Your manifesting tempo may be slow, so this may take a little while to come back to you, but it will come. When this does, you will receive this gift. Potentially there is the capactiy to appreciate more from it. You still have the same number of things you had before which you appreciated, and now you have an additional one. If this continued you would eventually have so much extra energy you could afford to give it away. At this point if you did this, you would then be entering into the realm of becoming a tier two person. As you give things away, others begin to appreciate you. This energy flows back to you and adds to your balance sheet. The more energy flowing back, the easier it is to have a positive balance sheet at the end of each cycle. The more positive the more energy is there to manifest, and the greater the capacity to give away to even more people. Eventually you have such a habit of gifting, that you begin to inspire others to gift. This puts you in line to be a tier 3 entity.

So a Tier

Slow study

If you had asked me, I would have told you I was definitely a fast study when it comes to Metaphysics. Well what a joke this is turning out to be. My wife keeps reminding me how many years it has taken me to have achieved nothing. This got me thinking a lot.

Why is it that it has taken me so long. The only reason I can think of, is that I have missed the point. I have missed it because I have continually looked for the answers in the same place or in the same way. Today I did some revision to test my theory, and low and behold, there it was. The answer in broad daylight, right under my nose.

I have talked about how important appreciation is. But as I discovered today, this is all about me. There seem to be a number of tiers. The first is about me. I do things that make me feel good. This may involve doing something for someone else, for the purposes of making me feel good. This I believe is the most common level of human existance. I believe this is what life is about. It is about the evolution of this concept. To move our comprehension of energy generation from inside a single circle, looking inwards, to not just bringing someone else into that same circle, but then onto looking outside our circle, to the final level of encompassing all that exist within the sphere, which contains all other circles. This is a profound concept, but it all makes incredible sense. This is why I have felt so strange whenever I have offered myself different choices and then felt uncomfortable. Simply because non of those choices were right for me.

So lets go over the other tiers. In tier two we evolve from being completely selfish, to involving another entity, which we seek to connect to and to appreciate. They become our capacity for energy generation. We want to do things for them, because yes this makes us feel good, but we have our first level of selflessness, which is, that it makes them independantly feel good. We would sacrifice for them. We would give up something of value to us, as often as we could, that they would be happy even, if this cost us our own happiness. The human experience is programmed to go through this evolution via instinct. We are naturally attracted to connect to another entity. And it doesn't matter what or who that entity is. It can be a person of the opposite or same sex, it will often for many be an animal. What or who is irrelevant. What matters the most, is more the connection and the appreciation that is created by the second entity. It is stronger, longer, and more profound than the energy that is generated by yourself in a state of appreciation to self or God, mainly due to our tiny attention spans.

The third evolution is to influence many entities. This is often done by great authors, or COI. (Centres of influence). It is often done by great leaders, and excellent managers. It is done by inspirational people such as great athletes, heros, legends and role models. To become one of these and in doing so affect the energy of so many people people, is the next stage. Karmically you are responsible for this mass energy generation, and because of this it will feed back to you.

The forth evolution is to instigate a behavioural change in others, that they will become ambassadors of appreciation and dynamically change the energy value of an entire population. It may be the population of a class or group, or an entire school or business, it may be an entire town or city or even country. It could even be the entire world. That behavioural change will go forth and generate change in all others around the change agents. You are responsible for change agents, who in turn change the behaviour of others, who affect all the people around them, who influence all the people around them. The network is massive. It can easily be world wide. The change can be small in percentages, but yet it has an indefinite and accumulative affect. Now sit back and think carefully about where all my decisions and actions have been directed lately. Everything has been about me, and Ji. I had almost given up on my metaphysically journey, which would have meant I had stopped my progress to the fourth tier. Now it is time for me to reassess things dramatically. If I do keep my focus totally on my task then everything in my current reality may have to go. All I have to do is ask myself what is it about? Why do I want to go to Dubai? It is all about tier one and two it seems. What about the academy? This is potentially about tier 3. So what is a tier four direction for me then at this point? Is it writing a book? Is it metaphysical power to demonstrate?

This is interesting and worth a lot of thought. The cafe has been a source of Tier three. If the sale falls over, then perhaps this is supposed to be my new direction? This doesn't feel true. I think the cafe has failed on an energy level because of my perfectionism, and lack of appreciation as a result of this disease within myself. The cafe has a huge potential to be energy abundant at tier 3. But my destiny is tier 4. Gaming is frowned upon because it is keeping me at tier 1.

So J.C and Buddha, Krishna, Ahlah, are all Tier 4 entities. They have influenced behavioural changes in millions of people. So there is a need for me to connect into the system and say I am ready for the next tier. I have been on tier 3 by default for some time. Now it is time for me to go forward to tier four, but I am not sure yet if I decide what that is or if it is decided for me. It seems in the past all things have come to me, as most things sit well outside my comprehension, so the only thing I need to do is to open myself up to the opportunities that are out there. I can also start training myself to think in terms of level 4 concepts. This is a radical shift. Actually I think every level or tier is a radical shift from it's predecessor. When you are a self centred single guy or girl, who gets into a relationship, your relationships fail, because you do not meet the tier two standards. On this basis you are unable to keep another person around you. You don' t have enough magnetic pulling power to keep this person so they leave you. Having desire for another entity does not constitute being unselfish. Actually it is still selfish, as it is your desire. It is only when you finally put their desires before yours, and would give up your desires to help them fulfill theirs that you truely become selfless. To say that you love someone or something is false, unless you can say that you would give up your love for them if it benefitted them in some way.

Once you stop being selfish, and begin to have another entity at heart then you can say you are tier two. To go one step further to tier three is another radical step. This is where you help strangers, in a way that you cannot gain anything back materially. Your affect on that stranger is temporary. It is usually not life changing, but it does have an impact on those around them. This tier is designed for mass marketing. It focuses on one person (you) having a small effect on many people often. Each of these affected people deliver a combined large quantity of positive karmic energy that like multi level marketing, leads back to you the cause. This tier can often feel thankless, and you can often feel like your life is not really going forward much, as you have gone from a direct link at tier 2 where you get instant feedback for your gifting, to seemingly invisible in tier 3. What you don't see in tier 3, is how many things don't happen to you (negative things) because you have a positive energy balance from all the good karmic work you do. You also may not see the link between what you do and the excellent things that do happen as the accumulation of energy is small, and therefore takes a while. Without understanding the tiers it is easy to fall back down the tiers. Self focus is an expensive exercise, as it costs you a lot of energy to make yourself feel good all the time, and therefore generate enough energy to have a positive affect occur in your world. I am not sure if that is even possible. For if you have a desire you don't have that item. You will feel empty for the time between when the desire is made, till when you get it. If the desire is for another person you will feel empty without them, and this is a negative state. So perhaps you are able to produce a positive energy balance if single provided you don't have any desires. If you have desire for one person, once you have that person in your world, then you have the potential for a positive energy balance. Unless their expectations on you, or yours of them cause a negative energy balance. If all is good, you will be fine until you have new desires. You will run into huge problems if you begin to see this person you have attached yourself to, as the source of your desire being granted. When there are two or more in my name I will be there. So the energy of two is greater than that of one. It is possible to have a positive energy balance for two people from each other. Whereas two individuals may not be able to. There are more ramifications for this as we go up the numbers.

The instinct to battle

I recently registered my interest to enter into a competition along with thousands of others, in which the contestants will compete to see who can last the longest with both hands flat on a car. Winner will get the car. Competition rules leave lots of back doors for the organizers to remove participants for various reasons, and if more than one is left after 3 full days, after numerous bribes to get you to take your hands off the car, then they will go into a lucky draw to win it. Today the pick the entrants. I was asked why I want to do it, so...here I am to answer. It seems to me that it is the instinct to battle, because I seem to see this as the same as poker, and any of the other games. I only like to do it if I am going to win. I have no desire to do the car competition and put my body through 3 days of hell, only to be put into a lucky draw and end up with nothing. Equally I don't like to play badminton, or poker or anything else and end up with a lose situation. So, what then is the answer. Why do I battle? What if everything was already decided, that any battle is already won or lost before it was started, so only the perception of chance is kept. This is an illusion. So what is the goal? Is it to lift myself above the idea of battling, to feel a sense of success? If I didn't seek success through battle, how would I measure my success? Is working for a living, and trying to survive also a battle against the system. Trying to make it against great odds, taking a lifetime to save enough to accumulate the basic needs. Success is doing it sooner than later. Success is doing it better than anyone else that you know. I would have to say it seems this realm is the realm of battle.

I asked my self the other day, if I was to exit tomorrow, what would I have achieved this journey? Have I done anything truly significant at a metaphysically level? If the answer is no, which it is, then what am I waiting for? Now is a good time!!!! Nothing like the present. So if not for battle what is it about? Lets see if I can figure out what is gained by battle. It is a sense of worth. I determine my worth by my statue after battle. This has been going on for millions of years. Religion, woman, land, status are just some of the reasons used to instigate battle. It seems there are two tiers of battlers. Those that instigate, and the followers, reluctant or not. The instigators are those that determine their worth by their success in battle to achieve a win. The followers determine their self worth by adhering to a heirachial system whereby the others around them, and above them determine their worth. The instigators are at the top of the heirachy, so battle against other instigators for a separate prize is what they seek. The followers only want to be told they are doing well, and to given the opportunity to move forward to a point in front of them. Be it their next goal, their next rank, their next achievement.

Success of the instigator means success for them also. They thrive on a patriotism, on a sense of belonging to something, and being a part of a team. So where am I at, and what is beyond being an instigator? Am I there yet? In the beginning I was definitely a follower. Now I am reaching a point where I am looking to have others do my bidding. I am an ideas man. I seek others to fulfill those ideas to fruition. What is beyond even this. I do not expect to gain recognition for my ideas. But I feel more successful if I did. So what to do from here? This is about understanding myself and my motivation going forward from here. Why I am chasing this or that. ie Chasing Dubai opportunity? Money? Why am I chasing Lotto win? Money? The suzuki car? It is money. The cafe was money. What is the attraction of Money? Power to create what I want. Here we are back at the same point we have been at for years. I love puzzles, but this is a toughy. Money is the goal of followers. It is not the goal of instigators. Is this true? Money as the symbol of creative freedom? Does money have different meanings to followers than it does to instigators? Followers seek to become the instigators of their own destiny rather than than to stay in the rat race of following another person's dream. But they fail because even when they get the money, their behaviour doesn't change, so they are unable to control their power. So the goal of an instigator is the object of the battle. The goal of the follower is to become an instigator. What other job discriptions are available for me to apply for? To create without being in battle is to create something. To create in battle is to still be pursuing something therefore all that I do is a means to an end, and it is lost. So followers and instigators have this in common. All of their actions are a means to an end. Therefore to live outside this realm of this type of existance, my actions and thoughts must reside with the experience I am having, not that which I wish to have. This ties in with appreciation. I consider that the games I play give me an escape from my current reality as a follower, and for a short time enable me to become the instigator. They enable me to be a successful instigator or to erase and start again with little consequence and have another go. So interesting enough is the idea that I am still actually a follower.

I believe I had myself under the illusion that I was infact an instigator by nature. So. What would make me an instigator? Have I been a follower simply because I have been sitting on my arse waiting for things to happen. An instigator by nature doesn' t wait, he goes out and gets. What is it that I go out and get? What is it that I want. Most of my wants have revolved around a means to an end. I put all of my wants on hold until I get the money. I don't actively say I want children, because I feel I need to be in a better position financially first. I don't say I want a house because I don't have the money to buy one. And so on. I have not said I definitely want the dubai job, I have just said it would be great. But actually my academy would be better. To be an instigator, I need to make decisions. To be a follower I don't need to make any decisions, just follow the decisions made by other instigators. So what do I want to experience? Well this is an interesting question. If I won lotto, what experiences would I choose to have? Would I go to Dubai? No. Would I do the academy? No. At least not initially. And when I did do it, I would be doing it for the thrill of doing it, not for the money. Would I buy a home? Yes, virtually straight away. I would initially buy one in Auckland. I would go travelling for a year. Enjoying following spring and summer around the world, and going to various events that are on. Then I would settle down in NZ. What does settling down mean? Well, back to having kids I guess. But this is another story. The fact is, that there just aren't that many goals I have...from a strategic point of view, that have any passion behind them. I am not an instigator, nor am I a follower. What about being a follower of God? But metaphysics seems to imply that this is an illusion, and that the goal is to to be a god myself. What does that entail? Making decisions. Managing people for the betterment of themselves. I made mention before I was interested in being a life manager. Perhaps then I should be looking at practising on myself. Keeping things simple would be a great place to start. I think that is what children are for....to practise being a life manager. If I dont know what I desire to do, then I will automatically end up following the decisions of those around me, defaulting into being a follower. I think desire is actually a natural pathway. I think I stifle it, by bring in blockages, and limitations, and also I have significantly reduced my desire for anything in the process of becoming more metaphysical focused on reducing artificial value of something. Is it about setting goals, and sticking to them. Not waivering, not setting any middle management barriers or means to an end. So not focusing on Money/winning Lotto, but on the home itself.

It seems I am actually a follower who plans on being an instigator, rather than is an instigator. I plan on what I will do with my day, week, month, year. Sometimes I even do it, as long as it is within my reach. But you wont see me doing the strategic changes that would be made by an instigator. I will come close to finishing a project, but then I will change my focus just before it is completed, and go off and do something else.

I think there is a need for a strategic view on my life, no what do I want to achieve, for wanting and planning is the domain of followers, but rather what am I going to do for sure, and start it now. Then I will be an instigator. To a degree I have been avoiding doing anything or having any wants as they all seemed false, and empty, but this is preparing me so I can see now the content of what I do is irrelevant. The action is important now.

Tunnel vision

I have learnt an interesting exercise the other day, for reaction time which entailed having a player chase after a shuttle that had been hit by me from behind them. It is amazing how limited our vision is when something comes from behind. This got me thinking. What we class as reality is basically what we see in front of us. Yet this would have to be such a tiny % of what is there, and all of the rest is behind our vision. Why is this I ask myself, that we have such a limited range of vision. Well, I conclude it is because a/. evolution is a part of developing our vision. Why is it not just dropped on us in God like fashion? Well, because the process is actually a bit like a movie, it is the fun part. The second is that we are afraid of what might be out there, so we don't allow anything to come in. We dare not play near the edge of our comprehension incase something we cant control gets through into our reality. What we do do is that we find things within our "reality" that we use to 'escape' our reality. This is of course an illusion. All we are in fact doing is putting our head in the sand for a short time so as to not have to look at what is in front of us, which we obviously don't like because we are seeking to escape. Appreciation must bring things into our vision from behind us, inspite of ourselves. So what is the answer. Well really it is to look in expectation and excitment at what else there is besides what is here. We have a natural instinct to be attracted to what we don't have. But usually we direct that at other things inside the 'reality' infront of us. In fact it was designed to get us to chase the ideas that we can't see yet. Here I am now in a current situation now where I am tossing up between two options or more but actually I am sure, neither of them are correct. I keep seeking to win lotto because of what it represents. I see it as a free ticket to turn around and see what is currently behind my field of vision. But of course I have a metaphysical desire which is stronger. Because of that I have a believe that I can access that area without needing to win lotto and without acruing the hassles that will come with winning large. So lets test the water. I open myself up to discover new things, that are beyond my current comprehension, without any fear, or predjudious towards anything.

Up date on life

It is the 17th of September, 2009. I thought it is worth doing an update to see the progress I have made, and to be able to gauge where I am in a few months. Right now I have the cafe for sale. I have 10 people interested in the info, and two weeks left for the tender period to run. I have been working on a proposal for a project in Dubai for the last month or more. I will find out in a week whether I am in contention for the top job to run a 24 court badminton hall. It is an exciting position that will challenge me thoroughly. If this is not the direction for me, then I will be focused on the NZ Academy, although I am still open to the opportunity to recieve a $20 million lotto win, which is on it's way next weekend. We are living in an a small somewhat cramped apartment not far from work. Still in possession of the same vehicles. I am two invoices away from clearing my personal debt which was due to be cleared in jul 2010. Instead it will be gone in about 3 weeks. A couple more weeks, and I will have also cleared my mastercard, and amex, and with the sale of the cafe, I will have cleared my visa, and have cash in the bank to play with. One of my shares finally rose from the dead. Went up 50% in a week, and hopefully will rise up from. It is a good time to be in the markets now. We will look back on this time in the future and go, if only I had had money to invest back then. I am back to being in full health after having the flu for what seemed like ages. My relationship with my wife is incredible. It is even better than when we were dating. We have now been married a year. The academy is ready to launch but for funds. So lets see what happens with the Duabi opportunity.

time is flying

So much time is gone. It is a few days away from my 1st wedding anniversary. I have done nothing to prepare for it. I am still in the same environment and same life. It is time for a change, and I must instigate it. By the end of this coming week, I will officially have the cafe on the market, and keep it on the market for at least a month in a tender process. I will also finish off my presentation for Dubai, and complete the bookings process for each of the venues for the academy programmes.

If this all goes well, then I will have the money to start the academy off properly in Northland. I will do that for as long as it takes, then move down here to Waitakere and do the same here. It is time to do things differently, it is the time for action. But also I am in need of a comprehension shift. I have held the same thinking. I am still thinking that Dubai is a good option when in fact it is not as good as the Academy. With the Academy in full swing my earning capacity is way higher. This is not as good as my capacity to win lotto, or even do other ventures. I am not open to attracting these options. I am not open to the difference in potential that is currently occuring. What could I get for my cafe.

This needs to change. I can see I am on the verge of losing control and having to repeat this life again for lack of having achieved anything substantial in this one. If I keep going down the path I am following now, that is exactly what will happen.

I need a thorough examination of my current situation in order to identify what I have been missing and to rectify my current situation and put myself back on track before it is too late.

The mysteries of change

We are on the verge of a great change. There is an opportunity on the table of going to coach in Dubai. There is little advantage I can see other than the money would be great, and you are living in a luxury environment. However, to be honest, I would rather stay in NZ, or go an live in a Buddist Monastry to further develop my metaphysics.

On the other hand there is nothing to lose by seeing where the opportunity takes us. We are going nowhere here. The academy feels like it could work, but then so did everything I have ever done, and this doesn't feel like it has a good ending to it.

If the money was really good, then perhaps we can do for 5 or 6 years, and never have to work again ever. There is nothing stopping me from coming back here and doing the academy in 5-6 years anyway, if I really wanted to.

Ji sees more of the challenge in the task where as for me there is no task I desire to do, so I just see the money. This then is my lesson. To find the task I wish to do. Previously I had wanted to discover my true creative energy, so I would have god like powers, like Dr Manhattan. But then I feel that I was supposed to not pursue that power, because that was egotistical, and the release of the ego was critical to the attainment of the goal.

So here I am now, and I am not entirely sure what I should do?

Do I continue to pursue the academy, knowing it may come to nothing.

Do I begin to shut everything down, including my coaching company, etc,

So I guess I need a bit of direction.

What would be ideal?

Would it be ideal for me if Ji went to Dubai, and I went to visit her for once a year? I stayed and kept the cafe going for one more year, but improve it again? Or I stay and focus on building the academy up, so that by the time she arrives back, she will have a job here, and can enjoy the lifestyle she wants? Or I go with her, and get a job there, that is still the same as here, but of course I am coaching say a junior squad or setting up junior academy, but am on the US$120,000 even if Ji is on more. And all of our expenses are taken care of so we don't have any. We get a day off a week, and Ji obviously travels to where she needs to go to take the players to the tournaments.

Hmmm. I think the obvious thing about the academy is the lack of passion I have for it. I think this is the same for all things. I simply lack passion for anything. I seem to be like Dr Manhattan devoid of passion.

This must be within my control surely. Otherwise I am just waiting to die. This seems a silly waste of potential.

Update on Dubai. This fri the owner is coming. I will do my presentation within the next week. I am now in line for the top job. That of being responsible for making him the money. Now I believe that the money can be unlimited. There is no reason why I can not make more than a million a year. My presentation is good, but I can do better so it is a case of more research and more detail to put forward the best possible case.

Then I will have to deliver.

Putting all the pieces together

Apreciation of what I like about what I have.

Intention of what will change

Retain an expectation of change.

Visualize the new in my now, using my physical environment

Watch and follow clues to intersect with the opportunities to manifest

Peeling away the illusion

The illusion is my perception of what I see. If I see the tip of the iceberg, that is my reality, if it is all I encompass in my comprehension. If I do not expect that there is more, then to me there will be no more to my reality that the tip. If I dare to believe that there is more, even if I do not know or cannot at this point comprehend that there is more, if I believe there is, then I will be shown the truth of what is. What if everything is, what then? This is to believe that all potentials exist including conflicting ones. Well this is true, all potentials do exist. What you then experience is relative to what you believe exists, and what you want to experience. Is the iceberg more than just the tip. If you say yes, then so it is, if you say no, then so it is, if you don't know then it will be random. If you there is but you need there to not be, it can be gone. You can say that underneath all the illusion is truth, but that can only be true if truth is the first and last thing in existance....but it is not. Before truth is potential. Before Potential there is space in which potential exists. Each man attempts to master and control his own environment. If he becomes corrupted he attempts to master and control the environment of others. But this mastery is only of the matrix. The next stage is for the I in the man to gain control of his potential. The next stage is gain control of the space in which his potential exists. A man commits sin if he seeks to control the environment of others, but he is truly lost once he seeks to control the potential of another entity. To gain control of his potential a man must first understand he and his potential exist beyond the reaches of the tip of the iceberg that he sees. I am more than just the flesh and material things. My energy and therefore my potential to create exist beyond what is in front of my eyes. This is the illusion. To try to manage my potential from within the matrix is to believe that my potential is limited to the matrix. This is truely the pathway to death. The matrix is only the experience realm. It is not a creative realm. This is the illusion. If I use it as a creative realm, I will soon see that all I can do is swap items for a decreasing value. Abundance is the opposite. It is to have an endless supply. Therefore my potential must exist outside the matrix. I have to know who I am. I have to have faith in this truth which must stretch beyond the limitations of this realm. I must be connected to something greater than myself, in order to move forward, otherwise I am limited to in the first instance my own experience, and then secondly to the speed as which I can learn via mistakes to discover things. Once I am connected to something greater then I can avoid much if not all of the mistakes on my journey. This is why much of what we need to know is mimicked in the matrix, because this is where we have our attention most of the time. People want to belong to churches and organizations because it enables them to connect to something greater than themselves. But of course any connection within the matrix is still within the matrix, and is therefore still an illusion. The only way out is through yourself.

Mental plane v physical plane

Since the mental plane is a reflection of the physical plane, and visa versa, what I am doing incorrectly on the mental plane will get reflected in my mirrors. So here I am having a large number of consequetive problems with my computer, denoted to be a reflection of the mental plane. What then am I actually doing incorrectly? Limiting my potential by deciding I am not good enough yet to do the task. In the beginning I decided the cafe was not good enough to open to the public. Like wise I before decided on many occasions I was not a good man, good marriage material yet because I didn't have enough assets etc behind me; back further I was not good enough to attract a beautiful woman etc etc. It is a theme that has been running for quite a long time. In the beginning there is not specifics...just generalizations that result in inaction. Then the universe begins to push me to change, and in being pushed for a reason to justify my indea, I pick something random, and use it as an excuse. This then becomes a concrete thought. If I chase concrete thoughts there is not energy to create them. So they cost a great deal to manifest. A great deal of sacrifice, of time, money, potential. I may well go in to debt chasing them too early. What then is the answer? It must be to become aware of my destructive position. This act of self destruction. Something I have been doing for my whole life in different guises. What thoughts can I change immediately to cause a change in my action and a change in my potential and experiences. Abstract thought...is generic ideas of things. I often have these. They are hopes. Ideas to which I attach my imagination, but not intention. Once I act on them...then things change. I have not been connecting to the Universe to bring people into my cafe. I have been saying NO don't send people to me, I am not ready yet. So it doesn't. The people don't come. I say, oh, whoah is me, my business is going broke, as I am operating in a deficit situation. I have nothing to appreciate. I have been saying, I am not good enough to have the luxury life etc, or what ever it is. I have been doing so much of this negative self destruction. On one hand I say it is in my potential but I can't access it, but if you look, I have been trying to access it through the physical plane. I have been very very unmetaphysical about things for ages. I can clearly see what is in my potential, but I am not in it. This is because I am in a different stream. I am in the physical stream, but my potential is still in the metaphysical realm. I have to pull it into my physical stream to experience it. I keep my potential abstract, but staying in a different realm to it, or being in the same realm as it, but having either no intention for it in the physical realm, or having action that is contradictory to that intention. To be in my now visualizing my intention into reality. When I visualize a potential in my now, it is real, as I am emerced in it. I disconnect from it, and therefore I stop the transaction of transforming the idea from it's mental state where it is easy to store, awaiting to descend/manifest into the experience realm. Like pulling a video or dvd out of the case and sloting it into the player. I decide the dvd costs me. I may decide it costs to rent it or to buy it. But in fact I can just borrow it for free. The key there is to not get attached to my entity, so that the entity feels the need to own it. This is where the cost gets made. To keep the experience in the player, the entity must pay a fee to keep it. I don't need to own it. Just draw it down.

just an update

Why is it that I still feel I am on the wrong track? Probably because I am still gauging success on a financial basis. I still keep deciding that if I was doing everything correctly I would no longer be in a deficit basis. And for sure I am still am, and there seems no end in sight to this currently. I am still absorbing both our incomes, and 4 people worth of time, with the two girls here as well. This is wholely unsatisfactory, yet I am blind to any solution at the moment. Every day I am still in coping mode. Cashflow wise things have improved, as has profitability, so I guess it is just time to get back on my feet, and make sure I don't buy anything I don't need to between now and that happening. Over the next couple of weeks, I have the opportunity in the cafe to use up a lot of the supplies I have already, which will help lower waste I guess, so lets see how that goes. The cafe is beginning to feel terminal. Lets see where life takes me. This though I also have an issue with because it is like I am just waiting for things to happen, and nothing happens unless I make it happen, except for appreciation created things.

Multi level marketing and abundance

It never ceases to amaze me, just how clear the messages are each and every day. It is like a blind man could see them, yet I do not for lack of looking see the obvious. One thing that you have been trying to bring to my attention for a long time is multi level marketing. You were trying to sell it's advantages, yet I only rejected it. It was the right thing for me to do on the surface, but I missed the point. Now I can see it clearly. When I have an effect on one person, it changes how they feel. In turn that changes how they interact with others, and what actions occur from one individual to another as a result. All of that energy comes back to me, as I am at the top of the chain. I am the causation of the following events. I only get a small percentage, but it is of many transactions of energy over the time it takes for my original act to dissipate. The more profound the more effect perhaps, but small acts made more often will mean more networks of energy in action. This is a significant concept. If I do an act for someone that directly relates back to me, there in lies my reward. It is direct. When it is toward a stranger who is unable to connect back to me, they are drawn to pass this feeling they have on to another, and another, and in doing so start many networks themselves. Of course at a Universal level all of these are connected back to me. This is a fantastic idea. This moves us away from the idea of being selfish completely. If we do something for someone in need...this need is met, that person is little above zero. If you do something for someone is is not in need and not expecting anything, then everything you do is abundant. When you do something for one person, the return is perhaps 3 fold. When you do it for someone you are not connected to, who has no way to repay you, the return is perhaps 100 times. This is true abundance.

Why am I here?

I had a fascinating day today. I have quite possibly arrived at the answer to my life long quest. To understand the creative process. If I do not recognise when I have arrived, I will overshoot, and end up back at the beginning. The creative process is based on a simple formula. End your energy cycle in a positive balance, and you will have an abundance of creative energy. This will manifest as "luck". Then when there is more appreciation then it may manifest as money. Positive energy is about decisions being made to have an effect on your appreciation.

seeing the opportunity

My current lesson is about seeing the opportunity in something. There are two aspects of this as far as I can see at the moment. One is the opportunity that is inherently in something, such as a job/task/experience/object, and the other is the opportunity other than the original objective of something. Such as the opportunity/potential that exists in my day. When I first wake up I will have a programmed response, or ritual or habit or behaviour I entertain or utilize each morning. This will set the frame of mind I have about my day. The fact is how much intention I have and how much I expect from my day in the way of opportunity is exactly what I will get. If I expect to experience the same as yesterday, last week, or last month, then so it will be. If I expect to experience something new, fresh, abundant, or magical, then so it will be. My expectation is based on the opportunity I perceive exists within my potential which may be my day, the cafe, the board, the coaching etc. This is a very important distinction. I have long seen my potential as far greater than what I am currently experiencing. But interestingly enough nothing seems to change for me, even though I have learnt so much about my metaphysics and spent so much time on my self development. My current homework now is to change my perception of the opportunity and potential that exists in my day. I have long looked at the potential that exists in all things in my life, but relative to how much money I can get out of them. This is not the way to do it, and as such the money aspect is always stripped away from me to show me. I will remind you that this is only because in doing so it has made it easier for me to see the pathway to my goal of understanding the creative process. So what sort of potential should I see? The potential for energy creation is correct but just not money. This connects nicely into the multi level marketing principle. The potential to create a multiple pathways of energy creation, through my actions. The more I gift feeling that causes someone to interact more positively with someone else, causing them to change their behaviour, and the way they interact with someone else, etc all flows back. So what is the potential in the cafe? I have the capacity to make many people people feel better about themselves. Coaching, I have the capacity to make life altering changes here by up loading life skills, confidence, perception and perspective changes, behavioral changes. This is a very important job actually. If it were so important, other things may fail to ensure I stay on course to stay coaching. I think anything that I see the financial windfall in will also fail due to seeing the wrong side of the creative process.

The secret to abundance

The secret to abundance is in fact hidden within limitation. Only if I limit myself, will I be capable of experiencing abundance. I have covered pieces of this concept before, but the total picture had escaped me until now. If I set a budget, then I have set a boundary of creation. I have given a reference of limited form to be manifested which will give me an experience. Anything over and above this will be abundant. If on the other hand continue to want constantly, then I am permanently in deficit, never reaching my fill, always feeling like I do not have enough. This is what I have been manifesting the debt etc for to show me the importance of this concept. By setting a budget for this coming week, I have made a request of the energy to form. Whatever else comes into manifestation is abundant to my needs, and will therefore attract maximum appreciation. The key is therefore to set my goals, and commit to them 100%. I can have many many goals. But if I prioritize them and only focus on a limited number in the current time frame, then I will be successful.

Detoxing the mind of the seven deadly sins

I have recently been going through a physical Detox, and was doing so because I felt there was a metaphysical reason behind it all. Now I think I have figured this out. The objective was for me to do a mental detox. The idea of the seven deadly sins came up again. These have been a feature in my past, which I knew at the time would be useful at a later date. I can see clearly that I can completely clean up my mind of the reminents of these sins, that still have aspects there, and I will go through the exercise of doing this in order to purify myself. However I also knew that the next step was within my reach now. That is, what makes the sins attractive or even existing in the first place. What is the cause of them or their purpose. Because if I identify this, then I will not fill up with toxic sin again. Example: I can clean up my mind of all lust. But if I have not removed the purpose or magnetism that causes lust to be there in the first place, then I will simply fall into lust again, and the cycle will repeat itself. So reincarnation is a cycle that is repeating itself because I am still in the system. The idea therefore is that I will break the connection to these sins, and their role, and possible exit in the process? Sounds like suicide, but actually I don't think the two are equated. An entity that reaches a point where they release themselves from the rat race, still exist to go on and teach others. So what do I think is the connection? Ego? A connection to the physical perspective of Ritchie? After all....who lusts? Who craves? Who seeks more, because they have not yet experienced anything that has thus far gone, who is jealous or envious of others and is it other souls or other perspectives? Who knows anger and for what purpose....for who lacks control in reality? Who is lazy and wishes to do nothing and not go forth with a zest for life and opportunity and take an experiencing role. This then is the entity I continue to portray the illusion of being. But this is an illusion indeed. I can only pretend to be this entity for it is not who I am. I can pretend for a short time only, to lay as if sleeping. So to know the motivation of my true self, and to pursue this wholeheartedly without condition, is to employed as my own. To stay awake enough to see the requests of this illusion, to prevent me from taking them on as my own is critical to my success to regain back myself. Who craves energy...be it sugar, or money? It is not I for I have infinite supply. Who craves that which I do not have? Not I for I am all. Who lacks control, and therefore gets angry? Not I for all is a direct reflection of me. So here is the deal. Detox the ideas individually, and stay aware of who I am and live as the I that I am. Who am I ....I am not Ritchie Marr, this is my illusion. I am. There is no glory in "I am" There is no competition, there is no lack, limitation nor waste.

Lost again

Now I am starting to feel like a dick.

I have just taken my $4000, turned it into $6000 in one week, and blown it all in 2 days down to zero. I broke every rule I set, particularly the one about only having one position of $200 in one currency pair at a time. As a result instead of being at $8000 now as I would be, I have nothing. I am gutted. I am going to have one more go. In a couple of weeks I will get another $4000. This will be my last chance. My wife will be away for a month. I will have every night free to be able to trade. I will do so until I have made back everything. I will make $1000 a day, every day 5 days a week for 50 days. From this I will pay off my credit card, which I will do at the end of every week. I will pay off my debt. I will pay all of my bills. $50,000 will enable me to clear everything, and start again fresh.

This is the dream I have.

Now lets have a reality check. I just had the opportunity of a life time and blew it, by not following my plan. I have the opportunity again. It is critical that I do not blow it again.

If I go long for $200, and it goes against me. Every 100 points against me I buy in a fresh 200. I let each one ride for a max of 100 forward. So if I buy at 55c, and it drops to 54c I buy again. If it drops again I buy at 53c. I Will sell at 54c, in case it drops again. I will buy on a redrop at 50 basis points, and so on. Likely to put a trailing stop loss on the rises. If I do this I can sustain a big drop. Objective isn't the dollar value of the currency, only the $ in profit of $1000 a day. If I take a $1000 position, I can make $1000 in 50 points. But I have proven conclusively that this doesn't work in the long run.

My $200 definitely works. This I have proven time and time again also. It seems to me that greed gets in the way. This is my last chance.

Is there anything else I have missed?

I feel I am a bit pre occupied with this. I feel, I am trying to hard to be a financial success. I feel my life could be a whole lot simpler if I wanted it to.

Lets pic forward for a sec to all potentials.

It is Dec 2009.

The cafe is fully staffed and managed. It is now turning over a several million a year, generating me a personal return of $1,000,000 cash without having to step foot in the place.

I have a buyer for the cafe, who is signing in a few days for $3 million.

I have won lotto powerball twice this year, once at $10 million, and once at $20 million.

I have won big wed twice. Once at $10 million with all the prizes, and once at $5 million plus all the prizes. My trading is generating $1 million p.a without risk. My shares generate me a current wealth increase of $1 million per annum. We have just built the perfect home with the lastest security and luxury features. We have a current combined wealth portfolio of $100 million.

I do not feel anything...this just feels empty.

I am missing the point.

How is the rest of my life?

i have all that I need

I am trying to figure this out. If I set a desire now for the money I am making ( but have not yet made) then I am creating deficit. If I simply appreciate the energy is in motion. If I focus on the needs I have but not how I am going to achieve them, my life managers can then get on with the business of helping me out. I just have to keep my intention in line with my soul's desire to express and experience that expression in form as an image of my expression.

I am a god. My role is to express myself and experience images of my expressions. This is my role every day. Nothing more. Desire gets mixed up in the mix and shouldn't. There shouldn't be any desire, because I have all I need to be able to express myself well. I just need to get rid of the rules that limit my ability to experience or limit what I am capable of expressing.

If everything I express must be through money, then I am in negative already from the beginning. Because I believe I need money to be able to express myself which is not true, yet I will behave and my intention will be stiffled or negatively charged....ie i have to earn money to be able to express, because of my belief. Therefore I am my own worst enemy.

My intention is key.

Hold all the parts of the team in my mind at the same time. Who does what, so that I am not trying to do someone elses job.

money is energy

I feel like I am back to it again. I am trying to make money. I am trying to make energy, externally. Appreciation is the key, but there is more. It is like desire and appreciation go hand in hand, as if appreciation fuels the capability as if appreciation is the energy of desires. So when my desire is based around money, that doesn't make any metaphysical sense. I am a god...wishing I was a god basically. I have the creative energy, but I seek it in a way that comes from a belief I don't have it, because I am seeking it in a less efficient form, and perceiving it to be better, than the energy I have. Therefore I am not seeing the value in the energy I do have. ie appreciation. I am seemingly stuck in a situation of negative energy. Like an energy deficit. I am trying to get myself out, by pursuing money, because money is how the energy deficit has manifested. But it is not how the energy deficit was created. If I address what created the energy deficit in the first place, such as a lack of appreciation and enjoyment of what I was doing, or a lack of internal reasoning such as soul motivated intention within what I do on a day to day basis, to something like, a money intention, then due to the fact that I desired to know and understand the creative process I would then have to go through the hand smacking that I have had, to get me to look in the right direction. I keep looking for money. It is about my intention. You see desire is an intention to see an image of myself. That in itself is perfectly acceptable to have. But when I then set about trying to create that image myself, at a physically level, instead of letting my team do it, then I am I going down the wrong path. I am like board getting involved in the operations. There is more on the intention front. I need to look at it carefully.'

Made in my image

When we go to the supermarket the escalator has a mirror wall. It is interesting to watch myself and most others with their fascination of our image. This is the basis of all that we do. Woman do make up, men do weights; we buy fancy shoes and outfits, we spend exorbitant money on facials, and haircuts. We even go further afield than our bodies and engage in the affairs of images of externals such as cars, homes, businesses or positions of power. Everything it seems revolves around images of ourselves. Our happiness is directly related to whether our experiences are of the images we perceive to be correct interpretations of how we see ourself or not. This is an interesting concept because there is much to be said about images. God made man in his image. Hmmm. I think this sentence should read 'we as a god make our own image of ourselves as a man, based on how we define ourselves. The problem is that I look into the mirror and forget I am the looker, and become engrossed in the image eventually taking it on. This is the other thing. This definition of who we are as god, which we seem to be in an eternal journey of discovery about is full of traps that end up with us focusing on our image...instead of on ourselves to the point where we become the image. This would have to be the greatest sin. We indulge in our images, by becoming them. We see ourselves as xyz, and we end up becoming that entity, instead of being ourselves. Our confidence becomes based on our ability to compete in the image world. If we are unable to compete effectively in the preconditioned races of societyin the for a mate, the job, the home, the car, the status etc, then we feel unsuccessful. These conditioned races are the basis for our desires, which we chase, but this is us as a god, seeking to gain images not of ourselves, but of the man we have become conditioned to be. As a god, our journey is to experience ourselves. To explore emotion, to taste, touch, see, hear and smell heavenly creations. These will not be provided by the man. Each god is assigned a legion of angels to manage their journey. It is their job to protect me from myself, to lead me when I get lost, to guide me to go forward, and to provide me with all the tools and all the things I could ever need to explore myself and enjoy my journey. Everything is about me here. It is my world. But it is not Ritchie Marr's world. It is my world. He who I am. The more involved I become in Ritchie Marr's world the more I reject it when I become aware of where I am at. Appreciation is something we have when we are ourselves and we receive a gift of an image of ourselves. Appreciation is like a fuel source it feels like. I am not sure about this in terms of whether this is a fuel source for my potential and therefore for the angels to be able to provide for me...this feels a little limiting and unnecessary. It could be a fuel source for life itself, this feels more likely and more real. I actually think it is most likely a guiding direction for the angels/life to know where I am (I am the instigator of the energy). It is like a gps so that life knows where I am. A desire is an outward movement of energy...but how does it know where to return...it doesn't. If I show appreciation then it knows where I am...and will deliver more...desire is therefore not needed. Desire then is onlyof the man....and with desire comes cost sacrifice, and death. Also how I currently see myself so it is a guage of what i currently determine are images of myself. The trouble I get into is that once I have been delivered an experience I would describe as an image of myself as love, that the entity I am housed in decides it wants to have the experience all the time. Of course it doesn't have the means to create as it is only an image, therefore it must go forth and swap something of more value in order to obtain it from another entity. But when we become the image or seek an image instead of being given it, then our focus goes to desire or wanting the image...not seeing it as an image...but as something separate that we have to gain. This is an illusion. The next step is that we feel empty without it, lost and incomplete we then set about making ourselves whole again by obtaining this thing we deem ourselves to need It is all a catch 22 situation. Everything relates to our image of ourselves. This includes the food we eat, what we expect of ourselves, the rules we set, how we interact with others and much much more. So this needs some serious review to clarify my behaviour going forward. I am a god. Is all else made because I have an image of myself I wish to explore. Expression of self There is a two way expression of self going on. That of self, and that of the original. I express appreciation to the origninal, the original expresses to me. "do unto others" I create images of myself in an effort to experience these perceptions I have of who I am. Why am I so fascinated with self perception. I love who I am. I love who I am when I am laughing, or feeling romantic or creative. This is who I am. What I do when I feel this way and other ways, is I seek to express that feeling to someone else. This is my method of interacting with others as ME...as I AM. Once I interact because I am doing so within the confines of an entity, then the entity gets the credit for who I am. So I become this entity. The more I interact with this entity the more lost I become in it. I end up so engulfed in being the entity, I stop being myself...I lose myself. Then I begin the journey of self discovery, in order to 'find myself' again. So if I cut out all false images of myself, which is effectively what Jesus was saying, then what would I infact be doing. To see this we need to identify the difference between a self image, and a false image. A false image is an image of an an image. A self image, is a direct translation of how we see ourselves. It is our image. It is not the image of others, nor fears etc. An act of love, or selfless appreciation is an image of ourselves for we are love, and as love energy beings, we naturally reflect images of ourselves as love, so as to gift others with one set. But if the man that houses me, decides that I will make images of him, then he is looking for the cool car, nice body, perfect wife etc. He is the one who seeks all. And it is his seeking that gets me into trouble. This needs a lot of work. I fabricate images of myself in an attempt to define myself. Is the issue in how I define myself, or is it in fact that I define myself at all. In the beginning I would have said that my role was to define myself. So is there something else? You have got to learn to laugh it is the way to true love. We are love. What is love? It is laughter? It is a touch? But laughter is how we feel or what we do, it is not what we are. We are what we are. Everything else is interpretation. We only believe we are our images. Am I Ritchie Marr. I think not. This is an idea; a perspective through which to have opportunities to explore who I am. How does appreciation fit into it. I know it is so important. Older lost ones prime us unknowingly in a sequel to blind leads the blind. It starts with "what do you want to be when you grow up? This is stage two of death. The first stage is being your fathers son, or sister's brother. Hence we rebel. The second stage is this entity and give it depth. Perhaps in itself this would be ok, as long as we dont forget who we are, but we do forget. We become emerged in this character. Intuition: like appreciation - a connection to an internal image instead of a external. It is my connection to self, my bungy when I go into an experience to help me if I get lost in an image.