Purpose

Exploring the concept of purpose more, I really need to understand what I am about, otherwise like I talked about yesterday everything I do is just wasted. I originally believed that my purpose was to understand the creative process. Now I believe that is just a goal. Actually my purpose is to experience perspectives of my perception of self. Not ego self, but soul. This is true happiness, for happiness is what I call the state of being I am in when I am experiencing a perspective of self I can relate to. I can relate to laughing, and love, to romance and giving, to learning, and inspiration etc. If I set about my day aligning all of my decisions with my purpose I would live my day and feel fulfilled. My life would feel like it had meaning, because it has purpose, and I would experience success often as my decisions and actions align to my purpose. I had been chasing my perception of this purpose. My goal had been to experience images of self, that I deemed to be appropriate. But everything related to the image, rather than the feeling. It was about the thing rather than me.

Perception determines which possibilities we end up experiencing

Perspective determines the value of something, and how you react to it. Based on your perception you will fear or love something. Which one is the truth. If you have a baby weta that has jumped on to your pack in the bush, which you had placed down beside you to have a rest from tramping. What is your perception of the value of this weta? The answer will determine your reaction, and the following decisions and actions you take. Do you percieve a thing to be feared, react with fear, and retaliate it's invoking of your fear with it's death? Will you see it as a young curious baby that is likely to be more afraid of you than you could ever warrant being of it, if it is yet old enough to have learn of fear. Do you determine that something has great value, enormous unreachable value, something that requires astromonical odds to create, something that you naturally deeply do not expect to experience due to this accepted believe of random luck. Or do you agree with Yoda from star wars when he trys to show Luke, that big and small are all the same, and that you find yourself deciding that if you were Luke right now you would be able to lift the spaceship out of the swamp. These perceptions are on/off switches, or doors to our potentials. It is through our perceptions that we create limitations on our infinite possibilities, and narrow down our potential, to experiencable form. There is no right or wrong as far as the reactionary universe goes. As we decide it so, so it is. If we believe weta's are creatures to be feared, then we will be afraid. If we decide that winning lotto is a once in a lifetime luck of the draw, then we either wont win, or will never repeat it if we do. Lucky for us, that Universe is constantly reactionary. This means as soon as we change, it will reflect our new perception. If we perceive we are unattractive, then so it will be for us until we change this perception, then once we genuinely change, to the degree we change we will find ourselves surrounded by images of our new perception right through to being surrounded by many who find us handsome/beautiful. The sickness or death of anything relating to us including the bodies we currently possess, is directly related to the blockages that occur from our lack of motivation to change perceptions that no longer serve our purpose, yet we persist in pouring resources into them.

favourite sites

The following are links of sites I have come across that I think are worth a visit. http://www.taketheleap.com/ This is an excellent site. It has so much truth in it. Take your time, and savour the words. I love the rules of life, and the einstein page with all the quotes, but there is so much more. Kudos to the owner.

Self ish, or self interested ego

To focus on my true self is to listen to my soul. I am in the process of changing my habit from puting my ego first, to doing things for my'(true)SELF". In this new habit, my purpose is never for material energy = money, for that is a mirror from the reactionary universe, reflecting back the energy I have been affecting. The more positive effects I have had on paridigm pathways, the more abundant the effect that is reflected. With this in mind, I would need to look carefully at the purpose behind every single decision I make. I need to make sure that the purpose in that action or decision matches my true purose, so that I go with the option that will have the greatest paridigm shift for the universe. If I cannot match the purpose of the direction I am going in, with my life's purpose, then that pathway will fail, as it does not have the energy to fuel it's development. The pathway to evolve it will not unfold. This goes for any idea, big or small. Waste is doing something that has no true energy to sustain it.

Paradigm pathways

It never ceases to amaze me how one event can give you a sense of having had a "great day". I have that sensation today. It has a to do with how successful I feel, which of course is determined by how I defined success. Successful for me is feeling I have learnt something today that will cause a shift in my potential. I call this Paradigm Pathways. Because of a decision I made today, I have turned left instead of right, gone to this event or not etc. (I have talked about this in an earlier post). The basic principle is that my actions/decisions have a marked affect in such an enormous way, that I can never know. But if this becomes the reason why I do things, then I will have great satisfaction with my life. I will have a true sense of meaning. If this is how I define success, by following my intuition, and being available to the opportunity when offered, (to be a change agent), then I will can say today, I have felt successful. Today my lesson was to define my purpose. Why, well, because without knowing this , every other decision I make may well have not point, and it would be a great waste of resources and potential to be pursuing perceived ideas of success, that actually did not match to my true sense of self worth, or my true purpose. I had been caught up in the academy trying to get it up and running, but didn't feel that it was my future. All the work I am doing on it feels pointless, because it doesn't relate to my purpose. I had for a very long time believed that my purpose was to 'understand the creative process'. I also knew that in order to succeed, I would have to one day, let go of that goal, even though at the time, this goal was my purpose and life. Now I understand. I needed that purpose to get me to here. Now I am here, that purpose no longer fits, works or is relevant. Therefore I need to change it. By changing it, I find my true purpose, which plugs my soul into the Universe, and the creative process is engaged. The energy flows and luck, abundance etc flows through me and to me. I have been exposed to the idea that my new purpose was to be a change agent. I really didn't have a clue what this meant, nor what it entailed, therefore I didn't really relate to it, in which case I certainly wasn't engaging anything practical. On this basis, nothing in my life changed. Today I have had the opportunity to learn more about what the job entails. How a change agent affects the pathways/potentials and realities of others, and all that are connected to them. It is an incredibly fulfilling job. I see this as my new purpose in life. To be a change agent, changing the pathways of others, to improve the overall outcome of feelings for all those connected to them. One person can make a difference to the world.

what happens when a Schizophrenic asks his other self whats real?

Ok, I think I have it. oh, you might want to sit down for this one, it might make you dizzy. Imagine, I am a caterpillar who thinks I am way overdue to become a butterfly. The more I focus on it, the more discomfort I feel. But what if my discomfort is not from 'not'having yet made it to butterfly status....but actually it is the universe telling me that my destiny lies elsewhere, that message coming to me as a feeling of discomfort towards the action of focusing on butterfly status, when infact I am supposed to be a caterpillar teacher, or some such sort of thing, and then, what if I am actually dreaming from within my seat in caterpillar classroom as a student. What happens when you are dreaming about thinking you are right, but it's just a dream...should we wake up? It is late, and I think I am having a brain explosion trying to comprehend what is real anymore.

the one time I would read instructions...there's no manual in sight.

I feel I am in a shopping trolly that has been pushed down a hill. I am facing up the hill laughing at the joy of the ride oblivous to the impending cliff coming. I have continued on with my current reality goings on. All of the things in it are beginning to feel more and more foreign. I am starting to feel like a stranger in my own skin. It is an awful feeling. No no, I am not gay, and need feeling like I need to come out or anything. I am married to a beautiful woman, whom I adore, who is the greatest most amazing wife a man could ever dream of having. This is my sweetheart here. Her name is Ji Hyun. She is from Pusan Korea.

She tells me she loves me 6 times a day, and shows me with little actions and gestures about 100 times more. But, she is the only thing I would take with me in a reality change. And I am in this current reality feeling very much out of place. Let me ask you this. Does a caterpillar feel like a butterfly? Does it long to kick off it's crysalist, and fly. I am a caterpillar who feels like I should have been a butterfly a long time ago. I apprecitate caterpillar food and clothes, and home I am given, but all the while inside me, isn't this ungreatful desire for more, but a sense of 'I am supposed to be somewhere else' . I feel I am supposed to be in another completely different reality...eating butterfly food, in butterfly clothes, and most important enjoying a butterfly's view of the world. The thing is...I can't the instruction manual for making a crystalist.

a roller coaster ride is standard classroom seating

It feels like forever since I have been here. Yet I have come here everyday, but had nothing fresh to say. Went to visit the blog of the day, as you do. It is like going for a stroll to get some fresh air and a new perspective on things. Some days I relate some days not, usually I just come back home, and retire to my own thoughts. The blog I looked at was "as good as it gets"...with a very uplifting author, and a real feel good story. Today for some strange reason I had the urge to look at the 5 comments that were there which usually I would not, and even stranger....(the universe works in mysterious ways, so who knows the mechanics) I was drawn to go to one of the authors that had left a comment, and look at her blog. Again it was an up lifting, down to earth writer....a real person with a great outlook on a tough situation who was choosing to find the goodness in it. Her blog name is xmiamigirl, and her blog is thoughtsx. She is obviously new here, just having started out, but her blog was my inspiration to get back into thoughts. So here goes. There universe is full of twists and turns that are there to make us into better entities. Like fitness, if our challenges are near maximum intensity, we get fit faster. No challenge works if we see it coming, and are given enough time to carefully plan out the full detail and put in place all the perfect coping mechanisms...then it simply can't be called a challenge any longer. Challenges are the life blood of our sense of achievement, and the motor of the word motiveation. Challenges are like dark tunnels that we often are dropped into without warning. But only through first enduring the darkness of the tunnel, and choosing to pick a direction, (even if we aren't even sure if it is foreward), only then can we expect to experience the exhilerating sensation of our first sight of light. The interesting thing is that if we dared to dig we might find that it is this sensation we seek, more than the end of the tunnel itself, for once out of the darkness, the challenge and all of the emotion we drive ourselves on, on a day to day basis, which is released in an explosive sigh of relief at our first sight of light, is all gone. Life goes on, but without the challenges we are often lost. The danger here is...do we quietly, when no one is looking, deep down at a somewhat subconscious level perhaps desire the challenges to in our life. We might tell others we don't like them when they are here, but is it really our closet secret that infact we crave them enough to be attracting them? Food for thought. For sure there is no doubt for me, that I remember to strap myself in when I get up in the morning now, because I know that my classroom seat, has four wheels on a track, that gains some pretty hairy speeds when the momentum gets going. I look forward to learning more about myself by following the lives of other positive people like xmiamigirl.

what creates desires

What creates your desires?Active visualizing? Before I can learn the next step I must first get the foundation below it. Is it my desire or something that belongs to the world or the object, that draws me in like a drug.

Operation Cafe 13th Jan

Last night by no coincidence, I was plonked in front of TV to watch something. A programme came on that was made for me personally via the universe. The reason I say this is that for a start, I don't own a TV, so for me to be in front of one watching it, is a rare as hen's teeth type of scenario. Secondly, I own a small cafe, like the one that was shown on TV, in a kind of reality TV show. I have owned mine for a similar length of time, (6 years) and have lost a lot of money through it as had he. I had the same types of problems as him in terms of what he was doing wrong, and how naive he was. I did the same type of mistakes as him. Anyway, it gave me great motivation which I had been greatly lacking. Today I was up there with a critical eye, looking at a money no object what would make it a successful cafe perspective. I came up with a list. Now my focus is to start doing the things I can do, and stay focused on my goal to attract the things I do not currently have. If I had to put a monetary value on what is needed to change, I would say I wouldn't get much change out of $100,000. This includes a new coffee machine, grinder, refridgerated food cabinet, Ice cream freezer, landscaping, menu board and internal and external signage, painting, new bakery chef, and new dinner chef, internet connectivity and computer terminals, new comfortable seating, and a feature wall, a new salamander and chopping boards. Heres the thing. I am actually technically broke. I have $55,000 in debt, and no cash. But, I believe I can do it. So watch this space, and see how long it takes me. I am picking that by the end of this year, this same cafe will be making a $10000 a week net profit. This post will be my cafe diary. 7th of March I have attracted a very large amount of help from a good friend Ryan,who has brought me his friend Tam who is a legend. They are giving me lots of help. Tam has brought in some of his friends and contacts, and is helping transform the cafe. I have manifested the capability of getting sky installed and Badminton screened in from singapore. We have a new menu on the way. I have had a big weekend which helped get me a bit of cashflow, and the season has started. Tam is working with me once a week. From next month he will be working with me every day I hope to get it set up. I have the capability of a new coffee machine coming in. I have some new decor coming. I have a new seating plan already in place. The floor in the kitchen is completely rotten and needs to be replaced. I am looking forward to the next few months. Money is still very very tight, but I have a feeling things are going to be very different very soon. It is the 24th of June, this is an update. Tam ended up charging me $500 a week. I nearly went broke. He is now gone. The cafe has had help from another person, Wayne and Richard who have helped transform it even more. I have new heaters in now. I still do not have a black board menu, but I do have lots of good feedback from customers. Also food is really good and new menu is functioning well. Still feel I will give it up at the end of the year though, and focus on academy possibly, otherwise give it over to the girls to run, if they want to.

Doing it for the love of it.

Here is a list of ideas, (which I will keep adding to, and which you can too through comments), of things we can do that will have an affect on other's and on ourselves to create a feeling that we know we would love to experience a reflection of. Feelings of laughter, love, appreciation, excitment, inspiration etc.

• LOVE NOTES. These are small notes you hide in places your partner, kids, parents, staff etc will find at some point. They should be appropriate to the person you are leaving them for, and be sure that only they will find them.
• treasure hunt: taking someone to the movies? Perhaps do a small treasure hunt around home or work, where they have to follow clues and solve puzzles in order to eventually find the hidden movie tickets.
• Write a letter put half a bar of your favourite chocolate in it, and send it to someone, tell them it is your favourite and you were thinking of them, and wanted them to share the experience with them.
• watched a super hilarious movie. Have a movie night at your home, and invite some quality friends to enjoy a laugh. It can be after dinner so no pressure to have to cook for eveyone. Maybe make some homemade popcorn and chips with dip to share.
• Connect to someone new, by noticing something about them. "Wow, that is really nice perfume, where did you discover that?" "Those are really nice ear rings, they compliment your bone structure beautifully". "You have really great taste in shoes where is your favourite haunt to buy." Guys find this harder to do to guys, but it is the same for sunglasses, watch, car. The reason is because guys are generally eagles, so when the speak, they tend to compete. "so, what do you do?" Find common ground...."seen any good movies you would recommend? " " Have you into snorkling at all, any recommendations? Where would you recommend for a game of pool?" Guys love to asked for their favourites as much as girls do.
• Engage a group of new friends in a travelling activity feast. Basically get 4-8 people to organise one activity each. It needs to be a task that has to be completed, to be able to go to the next level. It can be at their home, or at a park somewhere. It can be simple like basic kids birthday party games, or it can be more time consuming like a poker game which requires a certain amount of winnings to move on. You can do it on points, so the participants gain certain points for winning, coming second etc, and points for achieving a task, ie, can you get the apple out of the bucket of water using only your mouth? If yes, you gain a point. You can have an agreed prize at the end of the day, but the real winners are everyone, because you would have had a great day. Each place you go to, that 'organizer is responsible for nibbles. Just finger food. The last persons place may have supper, and finish with poker for example, or a board game such as monopoly, (can have several boards going in one room at a time, or a card game called frustration. Enjoy a few drinks, or even end up watching a funny movie.

Going forward or round in a circle..what's it going to be?

Today I had the opportunity to borrow money from my wife to get back into currency trading and attempt to do what I have done before and get ahead. Now I would dearly love to be successful at this endeavour, however, am I being tested? I think so. This is a straight up clean clear example of will I take the opportunity to go straight ahead down this path and expand my current reality, or will I turn right and go for the true path, by rejecting the offer, and staying focused on my goal. My goal is to understand the creative process so that money will manifest itself around me in abundant quantities. It is not to make money myself, but to have a reactionary universe be an abundance of energy. For this to happen, I need to be my true self. Removed from the state run personality, and back to being enthusiasm, excitment, fun, laughter. This is who I am. As I am so I will experience. Without desires the energy will manifest as money in abundant quantities because I am an infinite source of energy. All I have to do is be in flow, in the one direction. If I am successful at trading, the ego enjoys the success. If I am unsuccessful the energy level of my soul is very very low. The idea is to engage in activities that stimulate my soul, not my ego. So laughing a lot. Planning so as to initiate excitment. Now this is interesting. If planning is for something for the ego, there is no passion for it. If it is to make another soul feel great, then there is a great deal of energy in the idea of it for my soul. When the Ego sets goals, it has no capacity to create them, so it is a negative situation, and becomes negative to my soul when it steals from my soul to try to create, such as it steals experiencing time by making the body work. If the ego tries to create a goal and is unsuccessful, the soul suffers, because the soul is experiencing through the personality/ego. So it seems the soul may be able to gain from the ego's sense of success, but this is very limited, and short term, because as soon as the ego has exhausted it's list of other egos to sound off to, it then has to go off and repeat the process to be successful again. When the soul does simplistic things to generate feelings, without an intention or alteria motive attached, then the reactionary energy will reflect that energy back. What is laughter when it is reflected? Situations that make me laugh. What is excitment? Things that make me excited. OK, lets make a list of all of the experiences of feelings that I want to experience of myself. Appreciation, excitment, laughter, romance (without the intention of receiving behind it) , giving (without an intention of receiving back). Success is an interesting one, this has intention in it before I gain it. So much so that when I gain it, the energy from it is very short lived. Success is denoted by my interaction of competition by comparing myself to others if I have a point of differential....a bigger tv, or newer car, or newer house or newer job, or better job etc. Usually it is more the latest news that is the one that catches the energy. This is a singular energy extraction/reaction line, not a self perpetuating method of energy production/reaction. By acting in a way to ensure I laugh, the reactionary field reflects this back and produces an experience of laughter for me to experience. If I involve someone else, and I am directly involved in their gain, I will interact in their circle of experience when the reactionary field reflects back to them. The more people I can affect, the more circles I will be in when the reactionary field reflects back. If I am unable to be, then there must be a manifesting producing for which the energy connected to me comes...ie money as money is manifested energy. Now it may sound like I am overly fascinated by money, well, I am, no buts; but, actually I am only fascinated because I see it as a direct parallel reflection of our energy. If I didn't make a metaphysical conection to it, it wouldn't have the attention I give it. I would be up on a mountain in a monastary with an orange robe on, where I had no interaction with the outside material thinking. Action is required by me to instigate the intial process. If I continue to act, and interact with the reactionary field's responses, then an accumulative effect occurs. This is abundance. What happens in a place where money is not used? Perhaps there an increase in personal metaphysical power, or energy intensity or tempo. The most fundamental part of this idea is about what I do when when I am in action, or intention. It is to do with what my intention is. If my intention is to make someone feel good about themselves, or to be a certain energy (feeling) then I have indeed begun a productive process. So, how can I do that? The answer to this is what will give my life meaning. How can I use what I have now, to be able to do this, enables me to get started. My next post will have a list of all the ways I can think of as to how to act with what you have, in such a way as to have a meaningful affect on others, such that their reactionary field will reflect their positive feeling, and give them a boost in the right direction. A lot like "Pay It Forward" movie. (kudos to the makers of that movie, and everyone who has watched it, and to everyone who has acted in someway in line with the concept of it.

was that turn to your right or my right?.

Once an intention is created, the possibility is formed. The pathway to it's experience is set in place and you begin your journey like you are following gps (your intuition is your gps). Within the matrix of mathematic equations of a great magnitude, is the upteen turn lefts, go straights and turn rights that you need to take to connect to this formed possibility. If I ignore my gps (guidance system = intuition) and I don't go to that party I was supposed to, or take that opportunity when it was offered, then I miss my connecting path. I don't think a new path is created...I think the possibility goes back into the soup...of infinite possibilities, because effectively I have changed my intention. I have gone for a new idea instead. Now I can reinforce my intention further down the pathway, and a new possibility will emerge. It wont be the same one, it might be the same one, it is irrelevant, but it will be freshly formed once again, and the whole process of attempting to get me to intercept with that experience will begin. It is a fascinating thing, but it would make sense as to why a planet full of creative beings, are not actually creating that often.

In the end I am back at the beginning

I am indeed a perfect entity, that is tainted only by me creating a sense of separateness from the whole. This separateness is founded with an illusion of self, using an "alternative perspective otherwise called the ego. The purpose of the ego is it creates a different perspective. Now by theory i should only be able to hold one perspective...the I that I am. But through an ego, I am able to effectively create an imitation perspective, thus giving me the capacity to view things from a different point of view. The only issue is that that point is always less than perfect. The ego starts off in it's infant state, as a complete ratbag. Moody, impatient, rude, bad tempered, greedy, dishonest, lustful etc. The full package of the seven deadly sins, with an untamed emotional machine. Deep down inside is the conection to self, and so there is a feeling that there is more to life than what I am experiencing, and so a natural journey of discovery and self development begins. This process is the control and removal of the ego perspective, which will leave me back to being my true self. The Ego always wants. So to remove it completely I have to stop wanting. The ego is never perfect and never acknowledges perfection, as it is unable to reach perfection, this can only be done on it's death. (the removal/death of the Ego, means only my perfect true self is left). When I decided I was average...insignificant in my own world, this was my ego first emerging? I wanted to be special...this is ego. The ego begins life by rejecting it's connection to anything else particularly where it is the hand or foot of an organisation such as a family/culture/religion. Children reject being their father's/Mother's son/daughter because the ego wants to establish it'self as it's own entity as soon as it can. Once it establishes itself, it goes into competition mode as it seeks to make itself feel more and more special. It becomes greedy, because the more it has the bigger the difference between it and other ego's, thereby the more special it feels. The more the ego becomes established, the more lonely the soul becomes. Depression is the sense of connection one has to their true nature and their perceived and expected images of self, that they feel they should be currently experiencing in view of what they are actually experiencing. This creates very strong negative energy. What is the solution here. I feel that the closer my new reality gets the less attractive my current reality is, and the more I reject it. My intention is strong. It is interupted by new potential in my current reality which is difficult to ignore while "life still goes on". Yet pursuing that potential may prevent me from making that jump into my next reality. The negative energy may well be from the fact that I am pursuing that potential instead of staying focused, as this is the opposite to my true reality. So here in lies my dilemma. I have responsibilities still going on in my current environment, that are taxing of time and money, gaining little in the way of appreciation from me, and in turn producing little in the way of energy return. I have new potential to explore which is requiring a whole lot of work from me and time, and money but which doesn't fit into and is taking away attracting time for my new reality. I want to focus on my new reality. I want it to manifest now. Then I can simply walk away from my current reality. This would be the easiest thing of all. So what separates me from all of the other people who want to win lotto? Every other person who buys a ticket believes they are worthy; they will win this week; that they are special; that it is their destiny to win. There are so many who are using intention, who are visualizing themselves in that new reality. Is winning truly destined? Or is it attracted? If it is destiny, it is like death, nothing to do but wait for it. If it is attracted then is the energy that is generated put into the context, and it simply becomes a case of how much energy is in the context based on how intense and how often you appreciate or do whatever you are supposed to do, that will determine when the content is complete enough to manifest. This would be to say that most people would then in their lifetime win lotto, if they focused on it often enough. So this doesn't make sense. Are the winners doing something different from everyone else? Lets start back at the beginning again. Do I accept myself as I am without adding anything to me? If this is yes, then I do not need to add anything including a lotto win. I am perfect as I am. If I am perfect, then I will let go of everything that belongs to the ego, and everything that the ego desires. This is all desire. This will feel like I am left with nothing. But I will be left with myself. If you can understand that all of these things, make you feel less than perfect. You may decide that when you get your new car, or new house, or new ph, etc that you are whole once again. That you are somehow complete, but this illusion only lasts for a short time, and you once again find yourself feeling a sense of emptiness. You perceive that if you had the wealth of the major lotto wins, you would be able to continuously replace the old images of how you see yourself with new ones, which is true you can, but the fact remains you cannot quench that sense of emptiness. The reason, is that your image of yourself is always through the ego perspective. So no matter what you do, no matter how wealthy you are your image is never a true sense of self. Because it is always you plus the image that makes you whole, rather than you are whole, and the image is an experience. This is an important distinction, and how you comprehend the nature of this idea is the key to true happiness. You see in the beginning there is you, the soul, and you express yourself as love. You have no intention other than expressing yourself (as love). This love is enacted by Universal energy which is "reactionary" energy. That means as you do so it does. So it behaves like a mirror in effect, and enables you to experience images of yourself. What has hapened along the pathway somewhere, is that we have chosen to have a different perspective of ourselves. This different perspective means we have taken up a vessel such as a physical body. With this body comes a mind to enable the body to function on auto pilot, to free us to experience ourselves all of the time. The computer system of the body is designed to learn so it can adapt to any environment it is put in, and that it can protect the body. This learning has evolved over millions of years of evolution, to the point where the computer of the body has effectively taken on it's own identity. One entity works with another entity to help it learn, and so personalities are created in order to distinguish one from the other. This personality falls into two camps as far as I can tell to date. The dove or eagle. Due to the fact that this amazing entity is housed within the body which is capable of creating images of it'self, the personality sees this and wants to be able to copy. It is unable to do so- that is, it is unable to have any effect on the reactionary energy field that the sould interacts with. This makes the personality feel insignificant in what it sees as it's own world. This feeling of insignificance results in the personality wanting to feel special/significant. This need to feel special or significant is the begining of the ego. The eagle personality creates a sense of importance through competition which is usually with doves. It wants the better house, the faster car, the higher income, the better job/conditions, the better mate, the better business etc. If another eagle impinges on their territory they will fight if they can win, or move away. (most of the time they will avoid competition unless they can win, otherwise they will move to another environment where they can win such as exclusively among doves). The dove personality creates a sense of feeling special by doing things for others so that others look upon them as "good people" and exalt them in some way. Most of the time the doves do things for eagles. The eagles are happy to give praise, although they do so sparringly, which adds to the value of it when they actually do do it. So you end up with an environmental co habitat, where the personalities create a sense of importance amongst themselves. Like Yin and Yang balancing each other. The issue is, that the ego doesn't feel whole without the image or itself, or the activity of praise for example, and so it sets out to create teh image or do the activities in order to get it's 'fix' so that it can fill that need. Because the Personality doesn't have the same capacity to affect the reactionary universal energy as the soul, it seeks other ways to create, namely it sends the body off to work to earn money ( creative energy) so it can manifest images of itself. What sort of result are we getting in our reactionary field when the soul is not expressing it'self? When the personality is trying to get the soul to express itself for a "purpose" with intention, when in fact the original objective of the soul was to experience it'self. Perhaps we are getting negative images back, to show that in fact we are not the personality. Once we answer the call back to self, and begin the journey back to self discovery, which means a separation of soul from personality, the reflection will guide us, and intuition will guide us back to the beginning, back to who we are. Everything that belongs to the ego will get stripped away because that helps to make you turn inward, and clears the view.

Digging Deep

Sometimes it takes a bit of ranting to be able to dig deep enough to see the truth. Today I had one of those mining days where I think I might have struck the good stuff. I discovered that I always say yes, because I want everyone to like me, all of the time. If they do, then I feel special, because so many people like me, and how many people can say that they are as liked as me. The thing is, I get so many people to like me, because I basically never say no. I always do what everyone asks me, no matter how simple. If you have a look at the type of people that like me, most of them are Eagles. Anyone who doesn't like me, is quickly removed from my life, or becomes insignificant to me because I don't associate with them unless I have to. So here I am, a dove, wanting to be an eagle, but behaving like a dove. I am liked by eagles, because I don't ask for anything, and I give whatever I am asked of. This is like a wuss. I dug deep to see if I could find where it came from. Actually as far as I could see, I felt very very average, if no below average. In my child hood I always got bullied by the eagles, and was overshadowed by my oldest sister, so that I had no identity of my own, at a time when I was seeking to understand who I was. I determined that I was very much average. I created this sense of importance, that I was someone very special. I was the next J.C. I created this alias when I was 13. I have held on to it until after I turned 33. As my life unfolded many of the situations I used as measures to prove I was indeed a special person failed with great celebration. In deed the failures now have been so many and so grand in scale, but all the time I would still continue the idea that I was someone special. My main stay method for doing this was to always do what other's wanted. That gave me a sense of feeling special. What I am looking for is the back to zero concept that exists with perfectionism. I have some sort of perfectist streak about me. Perfectionism is no good because you are only back at zero when you are successful, the rest of the time you are in negative territory. So lets say I am at a core feeling very much like an average human. Insignificant in my own world. So I create a sense of importance within my own imagination. The issue is that this illusion has moved me to behave in a particular way that has made me into a dove, in an eagle population. Also, it has been feeding my debt mirroring. So question is what exactly is the solution. Is it some sort of "love me" scenario? I do lack love. I am really good at pretending. But in truth my heart is empty of it. Why is that? If I am love, how can I love anything else? What I do is actually look for images of myself...images of how I see myself...as love? What if I don't see myself as love? What if I see myself as average? Then I am looking for images of love, but not feeling worthy. This then is a negative or debt basis. I feel I have to add something to myself to be worthy. For girlfriends, I was never good enough. I always had to have money and gifts, and provide the perfect experience for them in order to be good enough for them. I saw myself as average...and woman I liked as greater than me...considerably. I would constantly seek to add value to myself, through what I did for them and what I gave them, in order to get on equal level to them. This would just leave me at zero. I would never be able to get higher than zero because of this. The illusion is that I somehow see myself as average. This perception is completely self destructive. If I saw myself as something special is that the answer? It doesn't feel right. I have tried to make myself out to be something special by being a dove among eagles. This has not worked either. So, what exactly is the answer? If the problems of the world come from separation where each separate part is seeking to see itself as special, and it does this by competing against others to prove it's worthiness, and have itself exalted by the defeated, then the solution must lie within the opposite. If all those who would see themselves as needing to be special were already perfect...then the only way they could do it, was to separate themselves from perfection and become different levels of imperfection. The less imperfect they were seen to be by others, the more special they were. This makes sense. So the answer it seems is a complete acceptance that I am perfect already, and that so is everyone else. No one around me is any different from me, and any differences I see are illusions of the ego. The only way to be separate is through the ego. But through the ego, I am less than perfect for I have no control. I cannot experience myself, for I am under the influence of the ego. In order to detract from perfection....add ego. The greater the ego, the further from perfection you get. No ego, you are back to your true nature.

It always keeps returning to perception

Why is it sometimes you feel blind to the signs in front of you. Why is it that we choose to ignore the trumpeting signs that appear in their place once we walk past. Are we all secretly closet massacists? I think we are. I think I have a pretty good grasp of my emotions, but infact I do not. I am not able to maintain a positive energy level when I am being constantly bombarded. When I do not know the answer to the sign, I get frustrated at my own inability to be able to find a solution. I find myself reacting to the messenger, when it is not their fault. What if I don't see what I am doing wrong, but am being told consistently that I am doing it wrong. It gets frustrating because I cannot see what I am doing wrong. I am being used. Yes. So this is the dove and eagle theory yet again. It is easier for me to say yes, than for me to have conflict. But this comes back to perception. I perceive that if I say no, I will put them in a bad situation. I also don't want to face the transition of them having to go through the change of reality, that I will no longer be helping them. Yet, it may be exactly what they needed to be able to get to where they wanted to go, particularly in the long term, or in other areas as the mathematics of the matrix move to shift parts of or whole realities. My lack of capacity to say no may well mean I am retarding their progress. What is my reason for saying no? Policy? Staying on target to my goal and recognising that what is occuring is not apart of my goal? Deciding to become an eagle...this is a transition of reality, that requires the pain of removing the perception of being a dove?

Everything is FOR me

Although this first sounds like a statement made by a very greedy person, it actually is made by an optimist. It means everything is in created for my favour. This means everything. The key is to be able to see that when you are in front of the event. Perception is about the view you hold, perspective is where you view from. Due to the fact that we all have different perspectives, doesn't mean we automatically have different perceptions on things. My perspective changes when my reality changes. My perspective is what I am trying to change when I change realities. My perception is my view from that perspective...is this thing that is happening to me good, bad or indifferent? Under this ratio, I only feel good at best 30% of the time if all things were equal. If it was my habit to see things being against me all the time (the universe is seeking to teach me a lesson all of the time if I take my mind off my metaphysical pathway) or to see my life in a direct human view, then I will be reactionary. When not, if my habit is to be indifferent, then my % time spent generating appreciation, and generally feeling good is very very low. If this was my accumulative creative energy, then I would not have very much of it. By changing my perception to see that all things, without exception are FOR me, then I will be in appreciation mode all of the time, not just when I think I am successful at something because I have manifested a goal. Every single thing that happens to me is a part of my new reality/goal, once I have decided on a goal. If I see this, even if I do not understand it at the time, then I will feel successful all of the time.

Evolving perception to where there is no bad.

For quite some time I have had some fundamental things occurring regularly in my life. But like picking up the same jigsaw piece for the umpteen time, when it's is still not clear where it fits into the picture, I still end up none the wiser in my search of meaning, and once again find myself resigning to having to put it back down into the pile. Today I had the most enlightening of days. One of these pieces of my puzzle is perception, and another is bullying. I would like to elaborate on perception first. For this I have a short story. In the beginning there is a fisherman, he is a simple man, he enjoys his experience of possible success. The fact that it is only possible that he will succeed and not definite is what motivates him to do it in the first place. He seeks the kind of success where failure is a possibility. This is his habit. He may even seek success where failure is a probability, so as to improve the potency of his feeling of success when it does occur. When he goes out into his sea of possibility, is he a pessimist, because he seeks success with the possibility of failure? Or is he an optimist who goes out to fish on the expectation of success in spite of the possibility of failure? Is he hoping for success, or expecting success? If he hopes his success is stronger, for there is less expectation. If he expects, his success is enjoyed but not as intense. This is man whose pleasure is simple. Then he evolves his thinking, and decides one day, that all life are equal, and that he should no longer fish, for he is killing another being. Here our man who has gained from his varying experiences of success is no longer successful. Does he gain a sense of success because he goes through his day, thinking of all the fish who are still alive because he didn't go fishing today? Or does he not think of such things, and therefore there are no gains, and no sensations of success? Is this man richer in his soul than than the first man? Today I went one step further and became the fisherman who went fishing again. This time with a sense of connection to the universe. On my mind was the idea that there is a fish out there who has been developing his metaphysical wisdom and has evolved to a point where he is ready to become a bird. But first he must strip away the his earthly body so that he may be born a new one. Would I the ex(monk)fisherman feel that it is justifiable that this fish that has worked diligently in his efforts of self development, be confined to the imprisionment of his body's current restrictions until the natural term of the fish's bodily life? Or would I like to have the priveledge of being a part of the celebration of graduation that crowns this fish's self development achievements in a new fresh start. This is the art of perception. Taking a fresh look at how you see the same thing. I have a situation in my life where I am seeing the same results occurring such as bullying. This comes back to the dove and eagle story from yesterday. Only today have I realised that I have been a dove my whole life. I have been the monk fisherman in every aspect of life. The turn the other cheek type of guy. Well, now I am being presented with the idea that actually that doesn't do anyone any good. I am not improving the life of good people because I do nice things. They are good people, their life is already good. I do not improve the life of agressive people by being a dove, because they deem that their behaviour is acceptable as it gains them success, and since we are all here to feel successful, this behaviour is repeated because it works for them. However, if I were in a place where I could move a bully's success to a different avenue, they could still go fishing, but they weren't stealling everyone elses fish in the process. Is it a case of a bully being successful without being a bully? Well, that would take an evolution of perception on a grand scale. If one dove fights back against the eagle in view of the potential of losing it's family's food to the eagle, the family loses a father/mother dove, the eagle gets it's food anyway, but the next time the eagle comes across a dove prepared to fight for it's food, it may well move on. It is not that it can't win....it can and it will, it is just that it is a bully by nature, so it seeks out birds that are passive by nature to take food from. Bullies are bullies, they are lazy by nature. They don't want to work for their bounty. So all the entire dove population needs is a couple of martyers, and the rest of the population will never be bothered again. This is a sacrifice of great proportions. To be the dove that fights back. Now this is not the end for me unfortunately, for as a bullied dove, ever since I was 5 years old having my head flushed down a toilet on my first day of school, I have fought back as soon as I was bold enough. (13 yrs old onwards) I have despised bullies as a result and been quick to attack back whenever I am confronted by them, or see that someone else is. The question I have to answer is what is the next evolution, because I feel I have missed the point. I am still surrounded by eagles. I am still behaving like a dove. Someone asks for my help with anything, I don't have to be asked twice, it is done. I have evolved to where I first seek to aid them to do it themselves. This is always my first port of call. Teach a horse how to get to the water themselves, rather than always fetching the water for them. I considered this a great step when I became assertive in this way. However, it seems there is still yet one more stage of evolvement for me to go through, because I am still attracting these people. They are leaving, there is no doubt. Most of the eagles are rapidly departing from my world. But I feel that I am missing something, which unsolved will bring more eagles back. Herein awaits an evolution of perception. My wife gave me many compliments today as we tried to work through this concept together. Why am I a beautiful flower that is surrounded by other flowers that are not the same. Why is it that if I am such a good person, that I am attracting, or reflecting so much debt, and lack in my life. I am super optimistic. I am well focused on my true reality, how I know I am, and what truely reflects me, yet the picture I see is contradictory. This doesn't make any sense in line with my understanding of metaphysics. Like attracts like, and opposites attract? So which one is it? Doves will attract eagles in order to learn to become assertive, because assertion in the future will save their lives. Doves attract doves and peace reigns. So is it both. From loss comes motivation, from gain comes experience. Is it simply a case of perception? I am seeing my debt as a bad thing when it actually isn't? It doesn't feel like that. It feels like my debt and current entire reality is foreign. It feels like I should be in an entirely different reality. I am trying to figure out how to make the jump to the next reality, when it feels like I should have been there yesterday already. Perhaps I feel I am doing something wrong or haven't completed something which is why I am being held back. Perhaps this perception is incorrect. Today we waited down town on a friday night, in a very busy part of town for two ladies who we thought might be leaving. So we pulled over and indicated infront of them while they fussed around as if to get something out of the car. This took about 5 mins. Which when you are precariously double parked is a long time. Then it turns out they were not leaving at all. Now that may be an opportunity to be mad, because you look at it from the perception that they have just wasted your time. However, as we then pulled away to go further down the street in search of another opportunity, one came up 20 metres further down the street. In perfect time for us to arrive. These two girls took precisely the right amount of time to get us that park. People get mad, because they see life happening in front of them, and see it at the surface as being things that are happening to them, rather than from the perspective of things happening for them. Is the debt like increasing my apprecitation of my new reality? Like a greater sense of thirst before I receive? Is it therefore not such a bad thing after all? Like the fishermans day where he catches nothing. Does he come home unhappy? Never. He had a great day as long as he had bites. Also it was a day where besides fishing, he had time to contemplate his life, and so gained in this way. Is it as simple as changing my perception about what is good and what is bad in life, to arrive at a point where I fully comprehend that there is NO BAD.

The old verses the new

Here I want to look at the direct relationship between the old reality and the new and see if I am able to spot where I am going wrong in relationship to keeping my mind focused on the old. In some cases it may be worthwhile taking up a new activity or doing something new like say becoming a vegetarian as a way of triggering a new line of behaviour that I associate to my new reality. An important point though is to make sure it is not too difficult so much so that I begin to desire to revert. So lets identify contexts and compare behaviour, decisions, intentions, and actions in relation to each. The most important of these are intentions and actions. The first context is income: In my current context I have cafe, coaching, shares, and currency trading, poker, cfds, options trading and buying and selling something small for a profit. All of these are legitimate and excellent ways to earn an income. The reason they are all failing is because I set out to learn the creative process so that I would be able to change the word earn to have. I don't want to earn an income, because it uses up my experiencing time, which makes it a conflict of interest. I am interested in experiencing life, technology, fun, metaphysics, peoples beliefs and my potential, and this takes time, hence the conflict for it takes the same time if not more as earning an income. In my new reality, income comes to me. I am not quite sure of all the ways that this is possible, but the effort on my part is not linked to it. Winning lotto multiple times, in multiple countries springs to mind as an option, and is certainly pegged as my first point of call. Lets say that winning Big wed, and lotto powerball consequtively was the start to the income for my new reality. In order to make that leap into my new reality in relation to income, I need to stop all together with any thoughts of intention that have anything to do with my old reality's method of earning income. So no more thinking about currency trading, nor shares, because these are expansions of potential in my current reality. Even if I did it from a perspective of being in my new reality I would be missing the point as the purpose of investing in currency and shares usually is to make more money, but my new reality is about having an abundance of money, so much so that i have no need to "make more". My team produces so much money so often, that I cannot spend it all even if I wanted to go into full time spending. Therefore I do not need to pre occupy myself with investments etc. This then shows how the contents of the income context in each reality are incompatible. There can be only one. Lets look at another context- accommodation. We both want to live in a beautiful spacious home. We have just created a expansion of potential in our current reality, and can see how we can create further. However we have both decided that what we really want is not in this reality. We have created a home which has many improvements on what we have now. It is more spacious, and homely, it has 3 bedrooms in total but but one is taken by another person for now. This works to keep our costs down. It is fully furnished. It has a spa pool, bbq and entertainment area, 3 TV's and security gating, and separate dining and lounge. It is a far cry from what we seek, but it is a major improvement on what we have. The key is to see that this is an improvement on what we have, and to not be attached to it. Our focus is on a home that is magnificient. Huge spacious rooms, central heating, giant modern spa, and large heated swimming pool. It is outside the realm of our current reality's earning potential. It has an abundance of rooms, it is modern, technologically advanced, secure, homely, with great views, lots of light, a magic kitchen, games room, and multiple living areas, study/library and incredible entertainment area, and home theatre. What is important like income is to recognize the differences between what are extensions of potential in my current reality and what is a new reality. This home is in the reality I seek to move into. The potential in my current reality is an improvement to what we have. An example: we could get a house sitting position in a super luxury home exactly what we desire to live in. But we would still actually be in our current reality because we do not "own" the idea. We may own the experience, but that doesn't shift us into another reality usually, because it has the potential to end. Also, an experience in one context doesn't constitute a change of reality, because I may well be in an executive home, but what am I still driving, and what income and I still on, and what do I do with my time? All of these components constitute a reality, so changing one on a temporary basis cannot change the whole. This is one time where the sum of the parts doesn't make the whole. You cannot change a reality one part at a time. This is an improvement in your current reality, it is not a new reality. New realities are cleaned out contexts, that start with all new fresh content simultaneously. What is the trigger to move to a new reality? This of course is the $64 million question. The answer is me. I am the centre of my universe. All things revolve around me. If I want to change my reality, it has to come from me. So it will be my intention to change that makes it happen. If my intention is to change one context...then this is what will change. So my current reality will improve. But if i actually want to change completely then my focus must be on a total revamp of myself...my thinking...my intentions...my acceptance of what I am experiencing. Next context: Transport. I see myself in a reality where I up grade my cars every year or so. I see myself flying first class to my destinations, and staying in suites of first class hotels. I see myself riding a bike as well, both motorbike and push bike, but as hobbies rather than transport. I see myself getting taxi's alot also, tour buses etc. One major difference is that I will not have my current bike, nor either of the current cars I now have. Also there are no cars that exist in my new reality that I would ever buy in my current reality. My relationships context: I see myself in new friendships with people that are fun, interesting, wealthy enough to do the things with us so that money is not an issue, they are creative people, people who are organisers and participators. They are philosophical and patient, relaxed but respectful. They are generous and forgiving, flexible and motivated. I see my wife getting new "girlfriends", and also our relationship developing strongly over time. How does this differ from relationships in my current reality? It is more about how I relate to people. Like the Dove's and Eagles Story I read on Ernest de Cugnac's rub2neurons blog, there are I believe there are people who are takers and givers, or people who are parasites and people who wont say no. I believe there are positive thinkers/optimists and life sucking pessimists. The important difference between my current reality and my next is the type of person I am, and the type of people I will thereby attract. I have been more of a 'wont say no' type of person, and an optimist. I am becoming a help someone to help themselves type of person, rather than the do it for them type. I can see this will be the topic of another post. Next on my list is my Activities context: Here I see myself in full time experiencing mode. This world has so much to offer. There are so many fun things to do, and experiences to share. Metaphysics will still be a priority. Teaching what I know so that others can benefit will also be a priority. Networking with like minded people will also be a priority. Dinner parties, sailing, learning to do new things, scuba diving...this list is pretty much endless. Here my activities revolve around my income ability, and responsibilities to jobs. My time is not my own, as my priority is earning money first, then experiencing life with whatever time is left over when this is done. For the average person this is actually quite a bit- after work, weekends, annual holidays etc, but for me it is nearly nothing, as the jobs I currently have utilize every amount of available time, and any extra time I might be able to squeeze out of my day is spent attempting to expand my potential. So my new reality, my time is actually spent planning my next lot of experiences. I still have time lines such as what sort of experiences would I like to have this year, month, week and day, but money nor time is the reason why an experience is a year away. It is the time of year that I wish to go, or there is a particular event on such as a food and wine festival or a market or Christmas fair, or a gathering of like minded people at a seminar or workshop. I plan on monthly timelines for events that need less notice for participation such as dinner and show, or a picnic or bbq, or fancy dress party. I plan for dinner parties - what I will cook, who I would like to invite, what night of the week and what the theme of the evening will be. This is a major difference in reality planning. One is on expanding the potential of the current reality, and the other is on the detail of the experiences I am going to have. Wealth Context: this was something I was preoccupied with because I didn't have it. My focus was always on what I wanted to have. Fact is in my new reality, I don't focus on wealth, it is what those that don't have see. Just like you never hear a wealthy person talk about a luxury house. They never use such terms. By using Luxury as an adjective you are creating a sense of separateness from the concept. A them who has and me who has not. This is not the pathway to my new reality. My new reality has many beautiful things in it, and many great experiences. That is all. Health Context: This is something I have learnt early is not an issue if I am happy. I am more aware of being healthy now. I enjoy eating healthy food, and exercise is not a chore, it is a group of activities I do that I enjoy that turns out is good for my body. Well there it is.

New Reality Bubbles

I once said that my reality was like a bubble maxtrix. I stick my head in, and I see what is inside the bubble. The misconception I had was that each bubble was a life time. Well, blow me down today if I didn't wake up with a new concept firmly planted in there by the team. This fresh idea is that within my super matrix, there are bubbles of reality. These bubbles are based on habits of thought. Which ever bubble I have my head in, is the reality I am going to experience. If I have old karmic or old thinking habits, these two will keep magnetising me back to their respective bubbles. The old karma will keep manifesting a reflection of this negative energy where ever I am, and the old thinking habits will of course keep me in the old bubble. So I may well have created new bubbles (my potentials) out of the infinite possibilities, but if I don't pull my head out of the old bubbles (equivalent of head in sand) I will not see the new bubbles. So as an example. I may wish to experience the reality of wining Lotto. I can day dream about it, which means I am in a different bubble looking on at that lotto reality in a kind of detached way as if I were assessing it to decide if I would take it on, but I never actually make the decision through action to take it on, as my action keeps me firmly placed in my current bubble. My current bubble contains all the habits i have been doing all of this time that result in me being where I am. My spending habits, my thinking habits, my expectations, my aspirations. My actions are based around my perceived potential that this bubble has. But this is the issue. My actions are what keep me attached to a particular bubble, or enable me to move from one bubble to the next. If I am making decisions about one aspect of reality in one bubble and it is a contradictory line of reality to the bubble I want to go to, then I will not be going there. My action is confirmation that I want to stay in this current reality. Aspiration and day dreaming, is not enough to jump from one reality to another. The best solution is to look at the key contexts of realities in general first, and see what they have in common. Then to see what contexts are unique if any. What I am looking for are what content is different, and what decisions I have been making in line with that context, that keeps me stuck in the old reality. Lets use a transport, home and income context as examples. In my current reality I may be living in a home where my decisions are based around what needs to be done, the roof, the carpet, painting etc. In my new reality the decisions around my home are which area I want to live in, and where I whether I will build or buy. On this basis I would also start thinking about an exit strategy from where I am, not a devleopment strategy. For income I would be thinking about ideas that are in line with my new reality such as new income streams that would likely be associated to my new reality, investment opportunities, winning lotto, being lucky often etc, instead of how am I going to pay the bills of my current reality with the income sources of my current reality. I need to be careful also that I am not looking at the potential of my current reality when I think about new income streams. I need to make sure that any new ideas are exclusive and relevant to my new reality only. For transport, I may be thinking about a new car. If I am able to link how I will get it through my current reality, then it is an extension of my potential of this reality. If I cannot see how to manifest it through my current reality, then it is likely that the idea belongs exclusively to my desired reality. This then brings in the need for faith in the team to bring this reality into existance, or if you know the bubble already exists, then faith in yourself that you will be able to remove your attachment to your old reality enough to make the transition.

Programming new thinking habits

Well there had to be a logical next step which is the implementation of a new line of thinking habits. So here are the 10 new thinking habits I am going to use daily. Pray a lot Start my day talking to my life manager/team. Affirming that I will be aware, willing and acting in any way I can today to help towards the manifestation of my goals. Appreciating the unseen work my team has done todate. Change my intentions relating to which reality I wish to exist in. See all of events that happen within my current reality as purposeful. Seek the meaning in the unusual events that occur. See my day as an exciting opportunity to move into my new reality Take every new opportunity offered if it feels right, because it may lead to my new reality. Appreciate Be a change agent Ask my soul first

Auditing the mind

A bit more down the track it got me thinking about where else I can begin to change my thinking habits. So I decided I would do an audit of my mind and see what turned up. The first thing I did first was to tap into the unbridled perception of those closest to me. I can tell you right now...this is not for the faint hearted nor emotionally defensive people. It is critical that you ask and have not expectations of what they will say, nor react in any way to what is being said. Just listen, take notes and then when it is all finished thank them genuinely for their time and forwardness, buy them lunch and change subject during it. Ask them if they would be prepared to do it again in 6 months. Here's what you want to know. What would you say are the defining characteristics of my personality What 3 major things would I gain an advantage from by changing. What are are my 3 worst habits or behaviours. If you could add 3 qualities to me to make me a better man/woman what would they be. What can I do to improve my relationship with you. If you could change the outcome of any situation in my reality what would you change There are probably more, so any suggestions would be great. But at least this will get a open conversation going. always helping out too much never saying no what else is wrong with me? I am in debt I am over excited sometimes I procrastinate on things I know longer see as relevant, but they still need to be done I am over optimistic even in the face of apparent failure or realistic situation.

Changing thinking habits

It is one thing to change a habit. This is empowering, and soul satisfying. The more destructive the habit the more successful you feel. But it is quite another to change your thinking habits, because generally they are not given the same value as the physical habits. Yesterday I was presented with a proposal which made me squirm. I was not uncomfortable at the idea behind the proposal, far from it, it was more that I was uncomfortable in my own skin because I was being asked to accept this and my mind did not agree with it, even though it might want to. The proposal was that we should ask a friend who was offering us very cheap rent, to give us the opportunity to buy the house, for 66% of it's perceived (cheapest) market value, and then allow us to pay it off for less than the rent we would be paying. Now, that would be a great manifestation. But I couldn't bring myself to accept that this friend would do this even though they are very wealthy. I was annoyed at myself, that I couldn't stretch my comprehension to match my proposer. It made me feel very unmetaphysically. Well today, I feel I have seen the light. I can see clearly why the experience occured and how it fits in to the picture. The idea is to stretch my thinking, but release the content. It doesn't have to be that friend, which is the one I was resisting. If I was asked my the same proposer, to focus on the idea that someone, somewhere in my world is going to offer me that opportunity, and soon, then I would have accepted the proposal wholeheartedly. And this is in fact what I am charging my team to do. We are looking for a superb home. One that is free. We will own it, but it will be paid for by Homestay or the likes, and it will come at an incredibly low price with vendor finance. I am feeling metaphysical again.

Prayer and intention

The concentration of thought without forcing the thought. Let go of the idea once you have formed it. Not asking for something with hope, but deciding that thing with confidence. J.C once talked about if you had faith the size of a mustard seed you could tell that mountain to pick it'self up and throw it'self into the sea. I believe I believe is not the same as...I am confident I can, or I am confident it will do what I tell it. The more you understand about the way the system works, the way I influence the Universal God energy, the more confidence I will gain. We talk often about confidence in sport. I often ask my players, what comes first the confidence or the win? They will often say I need to win to be confident, but then they will conclude after thought that they cannot win if they are not confident when they play. How is this any different? If confidence is the connecting factor to intention...otherwise called faith, then you will get exactly what you expect, and it will be good. It is likely that intention is the creative trigger, but without confidence.....what is it exactly that you expect at a truely deep level? If it is to fail, then that is what you will experience. If in sport you lost to a player and you are due to play them again, how do you have confidence to play them to win? Well you have to have changed something since the last time you played them. You have to have got fitter, or faster, or more accurate, or more tactical, or more deceptive or mentally stronger etc. These, are weapons you are adding to your fight. So it is with Creating. If you have not succeeded in the past gaining money for example, you have intention to gain it this time, but nothing has changed in terms of any added wisdom, or understanding then how can you be confident that the outcome will change? So how much faith do you have? i believe there needs to be a receptor to your intention, but how you house that is irrelevant. For example, if your perception of God is x, or y, or z as the different religions would have you believe, then you would in line with that social or cultural conditioning be praying to that particular entity. But it would be irrelevant as far as the Universe or God energy is concerned, because as long as the intention leaves you, and you have faith in that arrival point then it will work it's magic. Appreciation must also work in a similar fashion, but will look more at that soon. So I am an energy being, I send out an parcel or particle of energy in the form of intention, but it has no return envelope (confidence) so the universe doesn't know where to send it to. Or I have visualized it but not in my now...I was "day dreaming" when I visualized it, rather than in a car, in my now, visualizing that to be my audi TT. So the concept is that I must be clear about what I want, so it is finite, and measurable. I must have release the intention to a provider I have confidence in, and have left with a return envelope and enough fuel for it to return to me. (appreciation of what I have)

Mind over or in Matter

Have been watching more of the interviews on what the bleep. Kudos again to the film makers and experts. The one I have been watching to day talks about mind and matter. This is expanding my comprehension. It is my perspective that is creating the illusion. When I look only from my perspective I see only one view. If I looked at the same idea from a different perspective I would see a different view. If I really wanted to understand something I would need to see it from many different perspectives. I would call this idea of having had many different perspectives "experience". If I go through my life without changing much I am restricting my view. So change is critical to experience. I have been holding on to certain fundamental theories about what I am experiencing and as a result, my experience is very limited. The perspective in particular that has not changed for me is what is mind, and what is matter. I have been trying to influence matter, with my mind, but have seen the two as completely separate. What if they are not. What if they are exactly the same. When you look at those pictures with the 3d image hidden in them. You are looking at the same thing. But if you look at it a slightly different way, you get a totally different picture. I believe now that this view I have of the world is the same as the pictures. I have looked at my world the same way for years. I have seen the same page as a result. Now I am going to look at it differently. Now I am going to look at it as Mind, not matter. Not only that, but see it as MY MIND. Everything that happens in my world is a reflection of what I see. How I see myself, and how I see the world. The fact that I see it as 'the world' for a start. What if it is actually my mind. What if I am actually inside my mind having an experience similarly to a dream. Intention is a command of thought directed in mind to cause an experience. If I am directing this into matter but seeing it as separate, then nothing would happen as I have not made a connection to matter. This is why some people use another entity as a medium such as GOD. They give their idea of God permission to have the power to control matter. They are also able to justify their reasoning as to why their idea of God would find enough favour in them to grant them their wish. This is much more acceptable in the eyes of those around them than them being God. It is just not socially acceptable to be God, because that would mean you need to be the one who is responsible for everything. It is much easier to be the humble servant. But funnly enough, it is your power that makes your concept of God capable of what you decide. So what if I am inside my own mind. Then by theory if I can conceive it, I can experience it. What do I want to experience? Perceptions of myself. I want to know who I am. I don't know. I can never know for sure. But I can experience an infinite number of perceptions of how I see myself, which of course changes over time as I have more options to choose from, which change based on expansion of comprehension. Lets change subject a second and go to how appreciation comes into the picture if I am in my mind. My perception of appreciation was an appeasing action to create. This may well be true at one of the levels I talked about yesterday. Perhaps in one of these levels where Karma is at play, then so is appreciation. I don't want to dispose of the idea just yet, deciding it is in a level and that I am seeking now or am now outside that level and therefore do not need to adhere to the law of appreciation. I really want to be sure I fully comprehend it's place. It could be that appreciation is a necessary step before intention. Perhaps it focuses me inward to God self, that contains all things. Perhaps it acts as a signal like a gps that creates a signature for the ideas from infinite possibilities to come to. If I am able to see that all matter is the arms and legs and I am the head. Or that all matter including the current perspective I hold which is the body, is a part of my mind, and just like I can 'will' the body to move this way or that, so too can I 'will' any other part of my mind to come before my current perspective for viewing. The interesting thing here is that I have separated these out because I have chosen one as a perspective. But this is just a viewing platform, not who I am. Problems began as soon as I actually did decide it was who I am. Then I became limited to the capability of that one perspective. As a separate entity I see that my mind is limited to the confines of the perspective I currently hold. I try to exert control over my environment which I deem to be separate through social conditioning, and thus if I am able to I call it mind over matter. But what if it really is mind in matter. Or mind is matter. I see it as matter because I am looking at it through the eyes of another thought. When one thought looks at another, at a certain level, they would appear "physical". I am looking at a thought through another thought, so of course, it appears physical. But in fact from my true position, it is just a thought, and all thoughts are equal. Intention moves thoughts around my mind. Lets look at it from a different perspective. Lets say that this mind I am in....God's mind, is like the internet. I am one intention, and I seek to hook up with another thought that also has an intention that is similar to my. Then there is the possibility that each thought is individualized by it's energy value, like a calorific value. My personal value increases through appreciation so my capacity to attract a thought of similar value increase. But I have trouble accepting this because I do feel that thoughts have an equal value. That I don't need to do anything to attract them on a value basis. I can accept that I am like a magnet, and that appreciation charges my magnet with a positive energy, that enables me to attract things, so if I couple intention with appreciation then I will attract the idea at the center of my intention. This gels well. Ok, going for another perspective, is to bring the Universe into being a living organism. A living mind. Thinking about the mind, what actually is it? Is it empty space to which I push in a thought. If it is then where does the thought go once I have pushed it there? Where did the thought come from if it was not there already. Is it like a giant internet, where we have addresses so that things know how to get to us, and so we can get to things. And we have teams that are like our search engines that find the things we are looking to experience. And that once we put a thought out into the web, it is there forever, even that there are some web addresses that may never be found by others, or visited by a soul. I still haven't answered my queston. Where does it come from...the thought in the first place. Is it already there, and I simply dipped my head into the bubble and caught it? Am I actually creating the thought? Is the thought actually God's thought, and he implants me with a notion so that I will take as my own so he can experience himself? See, so many possibilities, like the internet...getting the question right, is the most important thing to ensuring a quality answer. Do I actually have a thought? Or is this the act of my perspective having a thought of which I am privy to because I am observing. I may have intention...this is a a surety. But I am not so sure about whether I actually have an original thought? What if all thoughts were already had, and therefore I am simply now in the process of experiencing them. Perhaps it is in how we relate to certain thoughts more than others, or certain beliefs more than others. Take for example the fact that we relate far more strongly to the idea that we are in fact a human than a god. We relate far more strongly to the idea that we are separate to all things, than we are connected. Change is about challenging how I relate to things. If I don't allow challenges to my philosophy and beliefs, then change of fundamentals will be very very slow. If I am attached to things too strongly then change is extremely unlikely. This is the teachings of Buddha in relation to attachment and suffering as depicted in "what the bleep2" interviews. It didn't gel for me the attachment to things, probably because I have already lost this attachment already. I also had already learnt that I would need to give up my metaphysics to be able to make it to the finishing line, because it is this concept of attachment that leads me to resisting the change in comprehension that can deliver me to a new level of understanding. So is it about choosing how I will relate to things differently in a way that is conducive to receiving them rather than being separate from them. Example: If I relate to all things around me as if they are living active parts of God Energy, or extensions of my mind, or all things know who I am, and recognize me especially my goals. If I relate to all things around me as if I am a god, and these are my brothers, equal parts of God I will see all of these things differently. If I see all the things around me as a part of my world, including all the other people. If I relate to my world that what I see is a tiny percentage of what is underlying and governing this viewing platform. If I relate to this viewing platform as one of many levels, it changes things considerable.

Pondering the end

What would you do if one day the night before your time is up, you were given a heads up to the event. It was coming, unchangeable, definitive. What if this blog was to be the last one you knew you would write. It is an interesting sensation. What thoughts surround your consciousness hoping to get in? Fear? Excitment? Have I done what I was supposed to? Have I done good or am I being punished? Am I prepared...do I have a will? Or will all those who are left behind be left with a mess? Did I miss some cues along the way? Shall I be extra careful tomorrow or will I attract it by expecting it? Do I want to say something here in my blog to loved ones, or leave them with a suddeness of departure? Do I have any regrets or wish I had another day to sort things out? It is a strange feeling. I have no regrets. I have done nothing wrong. Whatever is, it is perfectly planned and well executed. Life inside the bubble will go on. The mess left is theirs not mine, I have gone. Be sorry not, for life is a circle, I have not gone anywhere, you just cant see me. Make the most of the days you have left in the circle, and be a wave maker. Cause as much happiness in the life of those around you as often as you can, for this will directly affect everyone around them, and everyone around them for the rest of their day. Always take responsibility and make sure you are asking the right questions if the answers you are getting don't seem to make sense. Never say never, except in this sentence. Always expect excellence from your day when you awaken, and always see stumbling blocks as exercises in agility training. Seek to have an effect on on at least one new person a day. When you buy gifts buy something that will make someone laugh for a long time. Watch 'pay it forward' with someone new every year then doing something for someone with them. Actively listen to everyone in your world, they are the messenger of the voice of your self showing you the way home. Appreciate the value in everything you have, for you have such an abundance of things around you right now to be appreciative about, you have no time to want more. Those wants just steal precious appreciation time away. Your team knows what you want, they just need a positive energy balance to be able to give it to you. Live in the now it is the only place where you can appreciate, everywhere else is an illusion. Be a change agent, whatever that means to you. This has been an interesting experience...my life.

Layers upon layers

It seems to me that the best way to describe life is to compare it to a very large onion. The journey is all about the peeling of layers. If you do it incorrectly or leave it till the onion gets old, you'll end up in tears. Growth occurs at it's centre. It adds flavour to all things. It's readily accessible and easy to use. Lets talk about these layers now. The outside layers are basic protectors of the juicy useable bits of life. So the first thing we have to do is peel away these layers before we can really start living. Peeling away our emotional attachment, our value of the material world, and finally our self perception of who we relate ourselves to be ...our ego. You see if you looked at an onion in the first instance, you would not see it to be eatable at all, and would discard it as if it were a pumpkin seed. Until you peel away at the bits that have no value, you will not know what you actually have. I am sure there are a pile of other layers, and maybe when it is not so late I will come back and edit these to add more depth. The fact is that we need to understand that this peeling process must first occur before we can really get down to business. Most of us when the peeling first starts, resists the loss of anything, even though it is such an unneccessary part of the onion. Our resistance means time and time again we will revisit the same scenario from a slightly different perspective until such time as our comprehension expands enough that we "get it". Then we let go of that layer, and start holding on to the next one. I began to think about this because it seems to me that my oneness theory of God and I being one, has to have levels in it. The inverted spikey ball theory is good, and I do believe that the ball is growing continuously, and I am a spike in that ball, but it seems to me that there has to be some state of levels that exist such that the taller the spike, the more levels it penetrates. And that in the beginning, we start off at a certain level ever drawn to head back towards the ball, but that what we invariable do first is become more individualistic first, and therefore grow away from our true self. The taller we grow the more separate we feel, and the more the seems to be a world full of separate things. I think there are different laws that exist for the different planes that we grow through. I feel that Karma and cause and effect, and systems of creation and laws apply to us at different levels to have the equalizing effect of getting us to turn more inward, and head back towards our true nature and self, and away from individualism. I have been thinking alot about karma lately. I feel I can have a huge impact on others by doing good things for them, however, i can also see that this only works at this (x) level, and that there will come a point where by I will leave that level, and karma will no longer affect me, or be affected by me.