Evolving perception to where there is no bad.

For quite some time I have had some fundamental things occurring regularly in my life. But like picking up the same jigsaw piece for the umpteen time, when it's is still not clear where it fits into the picture, I still end up none the wiser in my search of meaning, and once again find myself resigning to having to put it back down into the pile. Today I had the most enlightening of days. One of these pieces of my puzzle is perception, and another is bullying. I would like to elaborate on perception first. For this I have a short story. In the beginning there is a fisherman, he is a simple man, he enjoys his experience of possible success. The fact that it is only possible that he will succeed and not definite is what motivates him to do it in the first place. He seeks the kind of success where failure is a possibility. This is his habit. He may even seek success where failure is a probability, so as to improve the potency of his feeling of success when it does occur. When he goes out into his sea of possibility, is he a pessimist, because he seeks success with the possibility of failure? Or is he an optimist who goes out to fish on the expectation of success in spite of the possibility of failure? Is he hoping for success, or expecting success? If he hopes his success is stronger, for there is less expectation. If he expects, his success is enjoyed but not as intense. This is man whose pleasure is simple. Then he evolves his thinking, and decides one day, that all life are equal, and that he should no longer fish, for he is killing another being. Here our man who has gained from his varying experiences of success is no longer successful. Does he gain a sense of success because he goes through his day, thinking of all the fish who are still alive because he didn't go fishing today? Or does he not think of such things, and therefore there are no gains, and no sensations of success? Is this man richer in his soul than than the first man? Today I went one step further and became the fisherman who went fishing again. This time with a sense of connection to the universe. On my mind was the idea that there is a fish out there who has been developing his metaphysical wisdom and has evolved to a point where he is ready to become a bird. But first he must strip away the his earthly body so that he may be born a new one. Would I the ex(monk)fisherman feel that it is justifiable that this fish that has worked diligently in his efforts of self development, be confined to the imprisionment of his body's current restrictions until the natural term of the fish's bodily life? Or would I like to have the priveledge of being a part of the celebration of graduation that crowns this fish's self development achievements in a new fresh start. This is the art of perception. Taking a fresh look at how you see the same thing. I have a situation in my life where I am seeing the same results occurring such as bullying. This comes back to the dove and eagle story from yesterday. Only today have I realised that I have been a dove my whole life. I have been the monk fisherman in every aspect of life. The turn the other cheek type of guy. Well, now I am being presented with the idea that actually that doesn't do anyone any good. I am not improving the life of good people because I do nice things. They are good people, their life is already good. I do not improve the life of agressive people by being a dove, because they deem that their behaviour is acceptable as it gains them success, and since we are all here to feel successful, this behaviour is repeated because it works for them. However, if I were in a place where I could move a bully's success to a different avenue, they could still go fishing, but they weren't stealling everyone elses fish in the process. Is it a case of a bully being successful without being a bully? Well, that would take an evolution of perception on a grand scale. If one dove fights back against the eagle in view of the potential of losing it's family's food to the eagle, the family loses a father/mother dove, the eagle gets it's food anyway, but the next time the eagle comes across a dove prepared to fight for it's food, it may well move on. It is not that it can't win....it can and it will, it is just that it is a bully by nature, so it seeks out birds that are passive by nature to take food from. Bullies are bullies, they are lazy by nature. They don't want to work for their bounty. So all the entire dove population needs is a couple of martyers, and the rest of the population will never be bothered again. This is a sacrifice of great proportions. To be the dove that fights back. Now this is not the end for me unfortunately, for as a bullied dove, ever since I was 5 years old having my head flushed down a toilet on my first day of school, I have fought back as soon as I was bold enough. (13 yrs old onwards) I have despised bullies as a result and been quick to attack back whenever I am confronted by them, or see that someone else is. The question I have to answer is what is the next evolution, because I feel I have missed the point. I am still surrounded by eagles. I am still behaving like a dove. Someone asks for my help with anything, I don't have to be asked twice, it is done. I have evolved to where I first seek to aid them to do it themselves. This is always my first port of call. Teach a horse how to get to the water themselves, rather than always fetching the water for them. I considered this a great step when I became assertive in this way. However, it seems there is still yet one more stage of evolvement for me to go through, because I am still attracting these people. They are leaving, there is no doubt. Most of the eagles are rapidly departing from my world. But I feel that I am missing something, which unsolved will bring more eagles back. Herein awaits an evolution of perception. My wife gave me many compliments today as we tried to work through this concept together. Why am I a beautiful flower that is surrounded by other flowers that are not the same. Why is it that if I am such a good person, that I am attracting, or reflecting so much debt, and lack in my life. I am super optimistic. I am well focused on my true reality, how I know I am, and what truely reflects me, yet the picture I see is contradictory. This doesn't make any sense in line with my understanding of metaphysics. Like attracts like, and opposites attract? So which one is it? Doves will attract eagles in order to learn to become assertive, because assertion in the future will save their lives. Doves attract doves and peace reigns. So is it both. From loss comes motivation, from gain comes experience. Is it simply a case of perception? I am seeing my debt as a bad thing when it actually isn't? It doesn't feel like that. It feels like my debt and current entire reality is foreign. It feels like I should be in an entirely different reality. I am trying to figure out how to make the jump to the next reality, when it feels like I should have been there yesterday already. Perhaps I feel I am doing something wrong or haven't completed something which is why I am being held back. Perhaps this perception is incorrect. Today we waited down town on a friday night, in a very busy part of town for two ladies who we thought might be leaving. So we pulled over and indicated infront of them while they fussed around as if to get something out of the car. This took about 5 mins. Which when you are precariously double parked is a long time. Then it turns out they were not leaving at all. Now that may be an opportunity to be mad, because you look at it from the perception that they have just wasted your time. However, as we then pulled away to go further down the street in search of another opportunity, one came up 20 metres further down the street. In perfect time for us to arrive. These two girls took precisely the right amount of time to get us that park. People get mad, because they see life happening in front of them, and see it at the surface as being things that are happening to them, rather than from the perspective of things happening for them. Is the debt like increasing my apprecitation of my new reality? Like a greater sense of thirst before I receive? Is it therefore not such a bad thing after all? Like the fishermans day where he catches nothing. Does he come home unhappy? Never. He had a great day as long as he had bites. Also it was a day where besides fishing, he had time to contemplate his life, and so gained in this way. Is it as simple as changing my perception about what is good and what is bad in life, to arrive at a point where I fully comprehend that there is NO BAD.