It always keeps returning to perception

Why is it sometimes you feel blind to the signs in front of you. Why is it that we choose to ignore the trumpeting signs that appear in their place once we walk past. Are we all secretly closet massacists? I think we are. I think I have a pretty good grasp of my emotions, but infact I do not. I am not able to maintain a positive energy level when I am being constantly bombarded. When I do not know the answer to the sign, I get frustrated at my own inability to be able to find a solution. I find myself reacting to the messenger, when it is not their fault. What if I don't see what I am doing wrong, but am being told consistently that I am doing it wrong. It gets frustrating because I cannot see what I am doing wrong. I am being used. Yes. So this is the dove and eagle theory yet again. It is easier for me to say yes, than for me to have conflict. But this comes back to perception. I perceive that if I say no, I will put them in a bad situation. I also don't want to face the transition of them having to go through the change of reality, that I will no longer be helping them. Yet, it may be exactly what they needed to be able to get to where they wanted to go, particularly in the long term, or in other areas as the mathematics of the matrix move to shift parts of or whole realities. My lack of capacity to say no may well mean I am retarding their progress. What is my reason for saying no? Policy? Staying on target to my goal and recognising that what is occuring is not apart of my goal? Deciding to become an eagle...this is a transition of reality, that requires the pain of removing the perception of being a dove?