Detoxing the mind of the seven deadly sins

I have recently been going through a physical Detox, and was doing so because I felt there was a metaphysical reason behind it all. Now I think I have figured this out. The objective was for me to do a mental detox. The idea of the seven deadly sins came up again. These have been a feature in my past, which I knew at the time would be useful at a later date. I can see clearly that I can completely clean up my mind of the reminents of these sins, that still have aspects there, and I will go through the exercise of doing this in order to purify myself. However I also knew that the next step was within my reach now. That is, what makes the sins attractive or even existing in the first place. What is the cause of them or their purpose. Because if I identify this, then I will not fill up with toxic sin again. Example: I can clean up my mind of all lust. But if I have not removed the purpose or magnetism that causes lust to be there in the first place, then I will simply fall into lust again, and the cycle will repeat itself. So reincarnation is a cycle that is repeating itself because I am still in the system. The idea therefore is that I will break the connection to these sins, and their role, and possible exit in the process? Sounds like suicide, but actually I don't think the two are equated. An entity that reaches a point where they release themselves from the rat race, still exist to go on and teach others. So what do I think is the connection? Ego? A connection to the physical perspective of Ritchie? After all....who lusts? Who craves? Who seeks more, because they have not yet experienced anything that has thus far gone, who is jealous or envious of others and is it other souls or other perspectives? Who knows anger and for what purpose....for who lacks control in reality? Who is lazy and wishes to do nothing and not go forth with a zest for life and opportunity and take an experiencing role. This then is the entity I continue to portray the illusion of being. But this is an illusion indeed. I can only pretend to be this entity for it is not who I am. I can pretend for a short time only, to lay as if sleeping. So to know the motivation of my true self, and to pursue this wholeheartedly without condition, is to employed as my own. To stay awake enough to see the requests of this illusion, to prevent me from taking them on as my own is critical to my success to regain back myself. Who craves energy...be it sugar, or money? It is not I for I have infinite supply. Who craves that which I do not have? Not I for I am all. Who lacks control, and therefore gets angry? Not I for all is a direct reflection of me. So here is the deal. Detox the ideas individually, and stay aware of who I am and live as the I that I am. Who am I ....I am not Ritchie Marr, this is my illusion. I am. There is no glory in "I am" There is no competition, there is no lack, limitation nor waste.

Lost again

Now I am starting to feel like a dick.

I have just taken my $4000, turned it into $6000 in one week, and blown it all in 2 days down to zero. I broke every rule I set, particularly the one about only having one position of $200 in one currency pair at a time. As a result instead of being at $8000 now as I would be, I have nothing. I am gutted. I am going to have one more go. In a couple of weeks I will get another $4000. This will be my last chance. My wife will be away for a month. I will have every night free to be able to trade. I will do so until I have made back everything. I will make $1000 a day, every day 5 days a week for 50 days. From this I will pay off my credit card, which I will do at the end of every week. I will pay off my debt. I will pay all of my bills. $50,000 will enable me to clear everything, and start again fresh.

This is the dream I have.

Now lets have a reality check. I just had the opportunity of a life time and blew it, by not following my plan. I have the opportunity again. It is critical that I do not blow it again.

If I go long for $200, and it goes against me. Every 100 points against me I buy in a fresh 200. I let each one ride for a max of 100 forward. So if I buy at 55c, and it drops to 54c I buy again. If it drops again I buy at 53c. I Will sell at 54c, in case it drops again. I will buy on a redrop at 50 basis points, and so on. Likely to put a trailing stop loss on the rises. If I do this I can sustain a big drop. Objective isn't the dollar value of the currency, only the $ in profit of $1000 a day. If I take a $1000 position, I can make $1000 in 50 points. But I have proven conclusively that this doesn't work in the long run.

My $200 definitely works. This I have proven time and time again also. It seems to me that greed gets in the way. This is my last chance.

Is there anything else I have missed?

I feel I am a bit pre occupied with this. I feel, I am trying to hard to be a financial success. I feel my life could be a whole lot simpler if I wanted it to.

Lets pic forward for a sec to all potentials.

It is Dec 2009.

The cafe is fully staffed and managed. It is now turning over a several million a year, generating me a personal return of $1,000,000 cash without having to step foot in the place.

I have a buyer for the cafe, who is signing in a few days for $3 million.

I have won lotto powerball twice this year, once at $10 million, and once at $20 million.

I have won big wed twice. Once at $10 million with all the prizes, and once at $5 million plus all the prizes. My trading is generating $1 million p.a without risk. My shares generate me a current wealth increase of $1 million per annum. We have just built the perfect home with the lastest security and luxury features. We have a current combined wealth portfolio of $100 million.

I do not feel anything...this just feels empty.

I am missing the point.

How is the rest of my life?

i have all that I need

I am trying to figure this out. If I set a desire now for the money I am making ( but have not yet made) then I am creating deficit. If I simply appreciate the energy is in motion. If I focus on the needs I have but not how I am going to achieve them, my life managers can then get on with the business of helping me out. I just have to keep my intention in line with my soul's desire to express and experience that expression in form as an image of my expression.

I am a god. My role is to express myself and experience images of my expressions. This is my role every day. Nothing more. Desire gets mixed up in the mix and shouldn't. There shouldn't be any desire, because I have all I need to be able to express myself well. I just need to get rid of the rules that limit my ability to experience or limit what I am capable of expressing.

If everything I express must be through money, then I am in negative already from the beginning. Because I believe I need money to be able to express myself which is not true, yet I will behave and my intention will be stiffled or negatively charged....ie i have to earn money to be able to express, because of my belief. Therefore I am my own worst enemy.

My intention is key.

Hold all the parts of the team in my mind at the same time. Who does what, so that I am not trying to do someone elses job.

money is energy

I feel like I am back to it again. I am trying to make money. I am trying to make energy, externally. Appreciation is the key, but there is more. It is like desire and appreciation go hand in hand, as if appreciation fuels the capability as if appreciation is the energy of desires. So when my desire is based around money, that doesn't make any metaphysical sense. I am a god...wishing I was a god basically. I have the creative energy, but I seek it in a way that comes from a belief I don't have it, because I am seeking it in a less efficient form, and perceiving it to be better, than the energy I have. Therefore I am not seeing the value in the energy I do have. ie appreciation. I am seemingly stuck in a situation of negative energy. Like an energy deficit. I am trying to get myself out, by pursuing money, because money is how the energy deficit has manifested. But it is not how the energy deficit was created. If I address what created the energy deficit in the first place, such as a lack of appreciation and enjoyment of what I was doing, or a lack of internal reasoning such as soul motivated intention within what I do on a day to day basis, to something like, a money intention, then due to the fact that I desired to know and understand the creative process I would then have to go through the hand smacking that I have had, to get me to look in the right direction. I keep looking for money. It is about my intention. You see desire is an intention to see an image of myself. That in itself is perfectly acceptable to have. But when I then set about trying to create that image myself, at a physically level, instead of letting my team do it, then I am I going down the wrong path. I am like board getting involved in the operations. There is more on the intention front. I need to look at it carefully.'

Made in my image

When we go to the supermarket the escalator has a mirror wall. It is interesting to watch myself and most others with their fascination of our image. This is the basis of all that we do. Woman do make up, men do weights; we buy fancy shoes and outfits, we spend exorbitant money on facials, and haircuts. We even go further afield than our bodies and engage in the affairs of images of externals such as cars, homes, businesses or positions of power. Everything it seems revolves around images of ourselves. Our happiness is directly related to whether our experiences are of the images we perceive to be correct interpretations of how we see ourself or not. This is an interesting concept because there is much to be said about images. God made man in his image. Hmmm. I think this sentence should read 'we as a god make our own image of ourselves as a man, based on how we define ourselves. The problem is that I look into the mirror and forget I am the looker, and become engrossed in the image eventually taking it on. This is the other thing. This definition of who we are as god, which we seem to be in an eternal journey of discovery about is full of traps that end up with us focusing on our image...instead of on ourselves to the point where we become the image. This would have to be the greatest sin. We indulge in our images, by becoming them. We see ourselves as xyz, and we end up becoming that entity, instead of being ourselves. Our confidence becomes based on our ability to compete in the image world. If we are unable to compete effectively in the preconditioned races of societyin the for a mate, the job, the home, the car, the status etc, then we feel unsuccessful. These conditioned races are the basis for our desires, which we chase, but this is us as a god, seeking to gain images not of ourselves, but of the man we have become conditioned to be. As a god, our journey is to experience ourselves. To explore emotion, to taste, touch, see, hear and smell heavenly creations. These will not be provided by the man. Each god is assigned a legion of angels to manage their journey. It is their job to protect me from myself, to lead me when I get lost, to guide me to go forward, and to provide me with all the tools and all the things I could ever need to explore myself and enjoy my journey. Everything is about me here. It is my world. But it is not Ritchie Marr's world. It is my world. He who I am. The more involved I become in Ritchie Marr's world the more I reject it when I become aware of where I am at. Appreciation is something we have when we are ourselves and we receive a gift of an image of ourselves. Appreciation is like a fuel source it feels like. I am not sure about this in terms of whether this is a fuel source for my potential and therefore for the angels to be able to provide for me...this feels a little limiting and unnecessary. It could be a fuel source for life itself, this feels more likely and more real. I actually think it is most likely a guiding direction for the angels/life to know where I am (I am the instigator of the energy). It is like a gps so that life knows where I am. A desire is an outward movement of energy...but how does it know where to return...it doesn't. If I show appreciation then it knows where I am...and will deliver more...desire is therefore not needed. Desire then is onlyof the man....and with desire comes cost sacrifice, and death. Also how I currently see myself so it is a guage of what i currently determine are images of myself. The trouble I get into is that once I have been delivered an experience I would describe as an image of myself as love, that the entity I am housed in decides it wants to have the experience all the time. Of course it doesn't have the means to create as it is only an image, therefore it must go forth and swap something of more value in order to obtain it from another entity. But when we become the image or seek an image instead of being given it, then our focus goes to desire or wanting the image...not seeing it as an image...but as something separate that we have to gain. This is an illusion. The next step is that we feel empty without it, lost and incomplete we then set about making ourselves whole again by obtaining this thing we deem ourselves to need It is all a catch 22 situation. Everything relates to our image of ourselves. This includes the food we eat, what we expect of ourselves, the rules we set, how we interact with others and much much more. So this needs some serious review to clarify my behaviour going forward. I am a god. Is all else made because I have an image of myself I wish to explore. Expression of self There is a two way expression of self going on. That of self, and that of the original. I express appreciation to the origninal, the original expresses to me. "do unto others" I create images of myself in an effort to experience these perceptions I have of who I am. Why am I so fascinated with self perception. I love who I am. I love who I am when I am laughing, or feeling romantic or creative. This is who I am. What I do when I feel this way and other ways, is I seek to express that feeling to someone else. This is my method of interacting with others as ME...as I AM. Once I interact because I am doing so within the confines of an entity, then the entity gets the credit for who I am. So I become this entity. The more I interact with this entity the more lost I become in it. I end up so engulfed in being the entity, I stop being myself...I lose myself. Then I begin the journey of self discovery, in order to 'find myself' again. So if I cut out all false images of myself, which is effectively what Jesus was saying, then what would I infact be doing. To see this we need to identify the difference between a self image, and a false image. A false image is an image of an an image. A self image, is a direct translation of how we see ourselves. It is our image. It is not the image of others, nor fears etc. An act of love, or selfless appreciation is an image of ourselves for we are love, and as love energy beings, we naturally reflect images of ourselves as love, so as to gift others with one set. But if the man that houses me, decides that I will make images of him, then he is looking for the cool car, nice body, perfect wife etc. He is the one who seeks all. And it is his seeking that gets me into trouble. This needs a lot of work. I fabricate images of myself in an attempt to define myself. Is the issue in how I define myself, or is it in fact that I define myself at all. In the beginning I would have said that my role was to define myself. So is there something else? You have got to learn to laugh it is the way to true love. We are love. What is love? It is laughter? It is a touch? But laughter is how we feel or what we do, it is not what we are. We are what we are. Everything else is interpretation. We only believe we are our images. Am I Ritchie Marr. I think not. This is an idea; a perspective through which to have opportunities to explore who I am. How does appreciation fit into it. I know it is so important. Older lost ones prime us unknowingly in a sequel to blind leads the blind. It starts with "what do you want to be when you grow up? This is stage two of death. The first stage is being your fathers son, or sister's brother. Hence we rebel. The second stage is this entity and give it depth. Perhaps in itself this would be ok, as long as we dont forget who we are, but we do forget. We become emerged in this character. Intuition: like appreciation - a connection to an internal image instead of a external. It is my connection to self, my bungy when I go into an experience to help me if I get lost in an image.

Change is in the air

Dispite all of my good intentions, I have been living way beyond my means. I had intended that I would not touch any of my wife's money. Instead we have used up everything that she has, and all of mine is gone also, without my debts being reduced at all. This is of course ridiculous. It is frustrating, because again I am faced with enormous potential. She is about to go away again for 5 or 6 weeks. Here again is a great opportunity for me to make a great come back, and clear out all my debt by the time she returns, and even have found a new home to move into. All of this is possible. So is winning lotto. So is making my cafe successful, and getting the academy off the ground and profitable. I still feel a little like I have it a little wrong in that I am still trying to do stuff myself instead of leaving it to my team to do. This would free me up to do more important things. So here in lies my current goals not for me...but for my team. Clear my visa, and bank loan debt to zero. Time frame: NOW Clear all of my personal debts, and tax liabilities. Time frame: NOW. Find the means to buy our own luxury home with at least 5 bedrooms, and fully furnish it with luxury fittings. Time frame: NOW. Find the means to buy two new cars one of which is an Audi TT for Ji. Time frame: June09