just an update

Why is it that I still feel I am on the wrong track? Probably because I am still gauging success on a financial basis. I still keep deciding that if I was doing everything correctly I would no longer be in a deficit basis. And for sure I am still am, and there seems no end in sight to this currently. I am still absorbing both our incomes, and 4 people worth of time, with the two girls here as well. This is wholely unsatisfactory, yet I am blind to any solution at the moment. Every day I am still in coping mode. Cashflow wise things have improved, as has profitability, so I guess it is just time to get back on my feet, and make sure I don't buy anything I don't need to between now and that happening. Over the next couple of weeks, I have the opportunity in the cafe to use up a lot of the supplies I have already, which will help lower waste I guess, so lets see how that goes. The cafe is beginning to feel terminal. Lets see where life takes me. This though I also have an issue with because it is like I am just waiting for things to happen, and nothing happens unless I make it happen, except for appreciation created things.

Multi level marketing and abundance

It never ceases to amaze me, just how clear the messages are each and every day. It is like a blind man could see them, yet I do not for lack of looking see the obvious. One thing that you have been trying to bring to my attention for a long time is multi level marketing. You were trying to sell it's advantages, yet I only rejected it. It was the right thing for me to do on the surface, but I missed the point. Now I can see it clearly. When I have an effect on one person, it changes how they feel. In turn that changes how they interact with others, and what actions occur from one individual to another as a result. All of that energy comes back to me, as I am at the top of the chain. I am the causation of the following events. I only get a small percentage, but it is of many transactions of energy over the time it takes for my original act to dissipate. The more profound the more effect perhaps, but small acts made more often will mean more networks of energy in action. This is a significant concept. If I do an act for someone that directly relates back to me, there in lies my reward. It is direct. When it is toward a stranger who is unable to connect back to me, they are drawn to pass this feeling they have on to another, and another, and in doing so start many networks themselves. Of course at a Universal level all of these are connected back to me. This is a fantastic idea. This moves us away from the idea of being selfish completely. If we do something for someone in need...this need is met, that person is little above zero. If you do something for someone is is not in need and not expecting anything, then everything you do is abundant. When you do something for one person, the return is perhaps 3 fold. When you do it for someone you are not connected to, who has no way to repay you, the return is perhaps 100 times. This is true abundance.

Why am I here?

I had a fascinating day today. I have quite possibly arrived at the answer to my life long quest. To understand the creative process. If I do not recognise when I have arrived, I will overshoot, and end up back at the beginning. The creative process is based on a simple formula. End your energy cycle in a positive balance, and you will have an abundance of creative energy. This will manifest as "luck". Then when there is more appreciation then it may manifest as money. Positive energy is about decisions being made to have an effect on your appreciation.