just an update

Why is it that I still feel I am on the wrong track? Probably because I am still gauging success on a financial basis. I still keep deciding that if I was doing everything correctly I would no longer be in a deficit basis. And for sure I am still am, and there seems no end in sight to this currently. I am still absorbing both our incomes, and 4 people worth of time, with the two girls here as well. This is wholely unsatisfactory, yet I am blind to any solution at the moment. Every day I am still in coping mode. Cashflow wise things have improved, as has profitability, so I guess it is just time to get back on my feet, and make sure I don't buy anything I don't need to between now and that happening. Over the next couple of weeks, I have the opportunity in the cafe to use up a lot of the supplies I have already, which will help lower waste I guess, so lets see how that goes. The cafe is beginning to feel terminal. Lets see where life takes me. This though I also have an issue with because it is like I am just waiting for things to happen, and nothing happens unless I make it happen, except for appreciation created things.