Mental plane v physical plane

Since the mental plane is a reflection of the physical plane, and visa versa, what I am doing incorrectly on the mental plane will get reflected in my mirrors. So here I am having a large number of consequetive problems with my computer, denoted to be a reflection of the mental plane. What then am I actually doing incorrectly? Limiting my potential by deciding I am not good enough yet to do the task. In the beginning I decided the cafe was not good enough to open to the public. Like wise I before decided on many occasions I was not a good man, good marriage material yet because I didn't have enough assets etc behind me; back further I was not good enough to attract a beautiful woman etc etc. It is a theme that has been running for quite a long time. In the beginning there is not specifics...just generalizations that result in inaction. Then the universe begins to push me to change, and in being pushed for a reason to justify my indea, I pick something random, and use it as an excuse. This then becomes a concrete thought. If I chase concrete thoughts there is not energy to create them. So they cost a great deal to manifest. A great deal of sacrifice, of time, money, potential. I may well go in to debt chasing them too early. What then is the answer? It must be to become aware of my destructive position. This act of self destruction. Something I have been doing for my whole life in different guises. What thoughts can I change immediately to cause a change in my action and a change in my potential and experiences. Abstract thought...is generic ideas of things. I often have these. They are hopes. Ideas to which I attach my imagination, but not intention. Once I act on them...then things change. I have not been connecting to the Universe to bring people into my cafe. I have been saying NO don't send people to me, I am not ready yet. So it doesn't. The people don't come. I say, oh, whoah is me, my business is going broke, as I am operating in a deficit situation. I have nothing to appreciate. I have been saying, I am not good enough to have the luxury life etc, or what ever it is. I have been doing so much of this negative self destruction. On one hand I say it is in my potential but I can't access it, but if you look, I have been trying to access it through the physical plane. I have been very very unmetaphysical about things for ages. I can clearly see what is in my potential, but I am not in it. This is because I am in a different stream. I am in the physical stream, but my potential is still in the metaphysical realm. I have to pull it into my physical stream to experience it. I keep my potential abstract, but staying in a different realm to it, or being in the same realm as it, but having either no intention for it in the physical realm, or having action that is contradictory to that intention. To be in my now visualizing my intention into reality. When I visualize a potential in my now, it is real, as I am emerced in it. I disconnect from it, and therefore I stop the transaction of transforming the idea from it's mental state where it is easy to store, awaiting to descend/manifest into the experience realm. Like pulling a video or dvd out of the case and sloting it into the player. I decide the dvd costs me. I may decide it costs to rent it or to buy it. But in fact I can just borrow it for free. The key there is to not get attached to my entity, so that the entity feels the need to own it. This is where the cost gets made. To keep the experience in the player, the entity must pay a fee to keep it. I don't need to own it. Just draw it down.