Back to square one?

I am back to square one. I feel a bit stink. Any of the options I have available to me at the moment feel empty, and it feels like I am just waiting to die. None of the ideas am I passionate about. I need to find the passion. I also don't want to compicate myself, so Dubai job feels like it will be complicated, difficult. I need some direction again. I feel like I should be focused on something that is not about me.

One thing I can do better is more appreciation. I can also look more carefully at the tiers. I do know I need to look outside the square.

So, where to begin? Well I will begin by going back over my own blog entries, and see what I have missed. Relook at the Cafe. Something has to be done. Get rid of it, or put some signage up and make it work.

Clean up and clear out all my old gunk, including my motor bike.

Oct 26th Up date

Well, everything has ground to a halt. The Dubai Job is off, or unknown. The cafe sale fell through. I have no money for anything. And I am seemingly addicted to playing online at pogo. I am wasting my potential enormously. I need to do something with my life. I had put everything on hold to wait and see what comes up. I have not been appreciating or doing anything. So nothing has been happening. Don't know what to do next. This is a load of crap. I know exactly what I need to do. I need to start my appreciation programme, and stop stuffing around.

What needs to change in my world?

my metaphysical cv

If I was to write myself a personal cv, how would it look? How would it stand up in the metaphysical perspective.

metaphysical balance sheet

At the end of a cycle it is very important to have a positive energy balance. If not you will enter into a state of depreciation. You must start with a value, perhaps left over from last life. You must have a timer set to exit, or a limit of depreciation that you reach that determines your exit point, otherwise you have too much negative karma to start the next life.

So a tier one person who only generates their own energy via appreciation or not, will find it difficult to end their lifetime in a positive energy balance, unless they become a monk in a monastry of silence.

A tier two person will have a much better chance of ending their lifetime in a positive energy balance but note that most people in a relationship are actually tier one people coming together for something they want. Hence it doesn't last. A true tier two person would sacrifice their own enjoyment to enable another entity, (animals included) to be happy. The appreciation gained from this entity, would add value to your balance sheet if it occurred often enough. There is also potential that the affect you have on that person goes deeper usually by one person. This occurs because you have an affect on them, this improves their demeanour and morale, and in turn their reaction to each person they come in contact with for that time frame that their energy is positive from you, they will react accordingly and give a positive experience to those around them. (They will deliver a tier one experience to others).

A tier three person will have an affect on many people. They motivate people to become better personalities, which makes them better entities to be around for all of those around them. They make them change behaviours in certain areas, which creates the result of that person becoming a tier two person. A tier 3 person will have a lasting affect on another entity. They will be affected for days, even weeks. The energy network of all that are affected by all that they affect, will feed back to them. This can be hundreds, even thousands of souls worth of energy. Like network marketing it will feed back to the source that started it.

Then there is a tier 4 entity. This is one who has a life changing affect on an individual and not only changes their behaviour permanently, but puts them on the path of becoming a tier 3 person, permanently. Their behavioural changes influence others to change also. The energy generation through the whole network is massive. The effect is so significant, that 100,000s of people are affected by one tier 4 person.

Perhaps Buddha, JC, Kristna, Alha, are tier 4 entities. What about famous people who inspire millions to take up a sport. This is perhaps not the same, as they are focused on themselves. The michael jordans, and other great sporting role models, inspire millions to chase their own goals of becoming a legend. So JC inspired me to become a JC, doesn't mean I am going to become a tier 4 entity. It means I am a tier 1. It is not until I give up this goal, that I have a chance of becoming a tier 4 entity. Interesting. So, what's next? Perhaps a training programme for each?

A tier one entity has appreciation. So there must be a non tier one. Perhaps I have gone ahead with my numbers too soon. There must also be a destructive side, and therefore a negative tier, esculating in tier 4 destruction such as Hitler, or the devil?

Anyway, lets say that we use level zero to denote an entity that focuses only on their own wellbeing, and goals, with no desire to move forward and develop themselves. Perhaps they have the capacity to go backwards, and fall into the trap of negative pathway. I think the negative tier 1 is where an entity uses a physical substance to generate a positive feeling about themselves. They begin to rely on this substance to achieve this feeling. It becomes the only time they feel good, and they strive to reach these peaks which get further apart.

Regardless of which tier you are at, negative or positive, the first thing you have to do is give up what you have. This is probably the most difficult exercise for everyone. We get comfortable where we are, and we feel safe because all parts are known. We are getting something, and there is a perception that if we give up what we have we will end up with nothing.

So a negative tier one person who has an addiction to cigarettes, or heroin, will have to give up their vice to be able to move forward. A negative tier two person is someone who makes someone else feel bad so that they can feel good. So someone who steals something from someone, or cons someone so they can get their physical desires met, is a negative tier 2 entity.

A negative tier 3 person is someone who makes other entities do bad things to many other people in order to get what they want. A negative tier 4 person is someone who changes a person down a tier in order that they will be advantaged, and that this person who changes will go on to change others. A negative tier 4 person is someone who affects millions of souls making them hate others, and actively strike out against them, for the gain of that entity through the perceived gain of all involved.

A tier 5 entity would be a perception of God or Devil? There is a natural magnetism towards ascending. Inside every entity at every level, even negative, there is this magnetism. In some it is very very weak, and may take many lifetimes to become strong enough to act upon.

To become a tier 1, a neutral entity must add appreciation for what they have. The must focus on what they have rather than on what they do not have. The must identify what they do like about what they have and appreciate this. They can have a sense of intention. The closer this is to the magnetism of going forward towards their tier 5, the faster they will achieve it. Appreciation must become a habit. It must occur more often than negative focuses to end up your cycles with a positive energy balance. It takes a lot of discipline to do this. This is a time when you feel the most trapped by the system, and wish to escape from the clutches of the rat race. You are programmed to believe that physical wealth is the answer to all of your problems, and that desire for this wealth, often via some form of gambling such as casinos, lotto, tab betting, is the short cut way to get there. And everyone knows someone or has seen someone in the news who has made it. So this situation becomes our goal. Our focus switches outward, and to the physical avenues that we percieve to be the source of our escape. The problem is that your focus is constantly on what you don't have. Imagining what it would be like, gives you a glimpse of it, and makes you feel good for a moment. But it creates an enormous gap between what you have and what you don't have, and you carry that around with you the rest of the time. You have no connection to how you will gain this and so you exist on hope, and nothing changes, so you become depressed over time as you are exerting energy but getting no return.

So by letting go of these, you are able to free yourself up to focus on what you have.

Identifying what you have gives you a constant source of energy food. Because you have it, you are surrounded by it. The cues are around you all of the time. This will change how you feel and position you to receive things, as you will end up with a positive energy balance at the end of your smaller cycles. If you end up with a positive energy balance at the end of this day, that provides the energy to gift you with that balance. Your manifesting tempo may be slow, so this may take a little while to come back to you, but it will come. When this does, you will receive this gift. Potentially there is the capactiy to appreciate more from it. You still have the same number of things you had before which you appreciated, and now you have an additional one. If this continued you would eventually have so much extra energy you could afford to give it away. At this point if you did this, you would then be entering into the realm of becoming a tier two person. As you give things away, others begin to appreciate you. This energy flows back to you and adds to your balance sheet. The more energy flowing back, the easier it is to have a positive balance sheet at the end of each cycle. The more positive the more energy is there to manifest, and the greater the capacity to give away to even more people. Eventually you have such a habit of gifting, that you begin to inspire others to gift. This puts you in line to be a tier 3 entity.

So a Tier

Slow study

If you had asked me, I would have told you I was definitely a fast study when it comes to Metaphysics. Well what a joke this is turning out to be. My wife keeps reminding me how many years it has taken me to have achieved nothing. This got me thinking a lot.

Why is it that it has taken me so long. The only reason I can think of, is that I have missed the point. I have missed it because I have continually looked for the answers in the same place or in the same way. Today I did some revision to test my theory, and low and behold, there it was. The answer in broad daylight, right under my nose.

I have talked about how important appreciation is. But as I discovered today, this is all about me. There seem to be a number of tiers. The first is about me. I do things that make me feel good. This may involve doing something for someone else, for the purposes of making me feel good. This I believe is the most common level of human existance. I believe this is what life is about. It is about the evolution of this concept. To move our comprehension of energy generation from inside a single circle, looking inwards, to not just bringing someone else into that same circle, but then onto looking outside our circle, to the final level of encompassing all that exist within the sphere, which contains all other circles. This is a profound concept, but it all makes incredible sense. This is why I have felt so strange whenever I have offered myself different choices and then felt uncomfortable. Simply because non of those choices were right for me.

So lets go over the other tiers. In tier two we evolve from being completely selfish, to involving another entity, which we seek to connect to and to appreciate. They become our capacity for energy generation. We want to do things for them, because yes this makes us feel good, but we have our first level of selflessness, which is, that it makes them independantly feel good. We would sacrifice for them. We would give up something of value to us, as often as we could, that they would be happy even, if this cost us our own happiness. The human experience is programmed to go through this evolution via instinct. We are naturally attracted to connect to another entity. And it doesn't matter what or who that entity is. It can be a person of the opposite or same sex, it will often for many be an animal. What or who is irrelevant. What matters the most, is more the connection and the appreciation that is created by the second entity. It is stronger, longer, and more profound than the energy that is generated by yourself in a state of appreciation to self or God, mainly due to our tiny attention spans.

The third evolution is to influence many entities. This is often done by great authors, or COI. (Centres of influence). It is often done by great leaders, and excellent managers. It is done by inspirational people such as great athletes, heros, legends and role models. To become one of these and in doing so affect the energy of so many people people, is the next stage. Karmically you are responsible for this mass energy generation, and because of this it will feed back to you.

The forth evolution is to instigate a behavioural change in others, that they will become ambassadors of appreciation and dynamically change the energy value of an entire population. It may be the population of a class or group, or an entire school or business, it may be an entire town or city or even country. It could even be the entire world. That behavioural change will go forth and generate change in all others around the change agents. You are responsible for change agents, who in turn change the behaviour of others, who affect all the people around them, who influence all the people around them. The network is massive. It can easily be world wide. The change can be small in percentages, but yet it has an indefinite and accumulative affect. Now sit back and think carefully about where all my decisions and actions have been directed lately. Everything has been about me, and Ji. I had almost given up on my metaphysically journey, which would have meant I had stopped my progress to the fourth tier. Now it is time for me to reassess things dramatically. If I do keep my focus totally on my task then everything in my current reality may have to go. All I have to do is ask myself what is it about? Why do I want to go to Dubai? It is all about tier one and two it seems. What about the academy? This is potentially about tier 3. So what is a tier four direction for me then at this point? Is it writing a book? Is it metaphysical power to demonstrate?

This is interesting and worth a lot of thought. The cafe has been a source of Tier three. If the sale falls over, then perhaps this is supposed to be my new direction? This doesn't feel true. I think the cafe has failed on an energy level because of my perfectionism, and lack of appreciation as a result of this disease within myself. The cafe has a huge potential to be energy abundant at tier 3. But my destiny is tier 4. Gaming is frowned upon because it is keeping me at tier 1.

So J.C and Buddha, Krishna, Ahlah, are all Tier 4 entities. They have influenced behavioural changes in millions of people. So there is a need for me to connect into the system and say I am ready for the next tier. I have been on tier 3 by default for some time. Now it is time for me to go forward to tier four, but I am not sure yet if I decide what that is or if it is decided for me. It seems in the past all things have come to me, as most things sit well outside my comprehension, so the only thing I need to do is to open myself up to the opportunities that are out there. I can also start training myself to think in terms of level 4 concepts. This is a radical shift. Actually I think every level or tier is a radical shift from it's predecessor. When you are a self centred single guy or girl, who gets into a relationship, your relationships fail, because you do not meet the tier two standards. On this basis you are unable to keep another person around you. You don' t have enough magnetic pulling power to keep this person so they leave you. Having desire for another entity does not constitute being unselfish. Actually it is still selfish, as it is your desire. It is only when you finally put their desires before yours, and would give up your desires to help them fulfill theirs that you truely become selfless. To say that you love someone or something is false, unless you can say that you would give up your love for them if it benefitted them in some way.

Once you stop being selfish, and begin to have another entity at heart then you can say you are tier two. To go one step further to tier three is another radical step. This is where you help strangers, in a way that you cannot gain anything back materially. Your affect on that stranger is temporary. It is usually not life changing, but it does have an impact on those around them. This tier is designed for mass marketing. It focuses on one person (you) having a small effect on many people often. Each of these affected people deliver a combined large quantity of positive karmic energy that like multi level marketing, leads back to you the cause. This tier can often feel thankless, and you can often feel like your life is not really going forward much, as you have gone from a direct link at tier 2 where you get instant feedback for your gifting, to seemingly invisible in tier 3. What you don't see in tier 3, is how many things don't happen to you (negative things) because you have a positive energy balance from all the good karmic work you do. You also may not see the link between what you do and the excellent things that do happen as the accumulation of energy is small, and therefore takes a while. Without understanding the tiers it is easy to fall back down the tiers. Self focus is an expensive exercise, as it costs you a lot of energy to make yourself feel good all the time, and therefore generate enough energy to have a positive affect occur in your world. I am not sure if that is even possible. For if you have a desire you don't have that item. You will feel empty for the time between when the desire is made, till when you get it. If the desire is for another person you will feel empty without them, and this is a negative state. So perhaps you are able to produce a positive energy balance if single provided you don't have any desires. If you have desire for one person, once you have that person in your world, then you have the potential for a positive energy balance. Unless their expectations on you, or yours of them cause a negative energy balance. If all is good, you will be fine until you have new desires. You will run into huge problems if you begin to see this person you have attached yourself to, as the source of your desire being granted. When there are two or more in my name I will be there. So the energy of two is greater than that of one. It is possible to have a positive energy balance for two people from each other. Whereas two individuals may not be able to. There are more ramifications for this as we go up the numbers.