MOVING FORWARD

I have had a very good boost over the last few days with alot of info coming in from many different sources, giving me a lot of homework to do.

The premise is it seems that I am heading towards the evolvement of my conscious awareness to develop control over my lower mind, my emotions, and to shift my perspective to infact protect myself as my power grows. In short if the karmic value of power matches the increase in power, then as my influence on others increases so does the potential whip lash from karmic fallout if I make errors of judgement, or decisions or actions that result in catacylsmic or negative chain reactions.

Also in a belief that I am moving into a position of management such as a life manager's role, I have to first remove all emotional attachment, and lower self domination, to enable me the capacity be patient enough and persistent enough to do my job effectively.

Potentially I am moving forward towards the development of my energy potential. It seems this has the capacity to be in many forms....psyhic, electrical, fire, gravitational, mental/thought, love, music, elemental, intuitive and potentially more aspects.

The key it seems is in control, which of course makes perfect sense. Control when you are in darkness, must be a progressive process. First stage is gravitational...creating a sense that there is something else out there, and therefore a sense of being drawn to discover is born. From there one must let go of the connection one has to each stage of development, like a butterfly needing to let go of the catapillar stage to move on, inspite of the comfortability of staying with the status quo, and the inability to be able to conceive what lies ahead, the catapillar must let go of what he has first, and this requires faith.

Right now I am at a phase of understanding where I can see the importance of having no attachment at all to anything, including the things I will obtain such as powers. After all, such a power only has it's usefullness in this realm.

And if I get too attached to something, I will be slow to move forward to the next butterfly stage.

One thing that is resounding to me at the moment, is this statement..."I must let go of the need to battle." I feel this encompasses any form of competition. For all competition is a battle to some degree. Is the addiction to battle what causes a man to gamble?

Ok, lets see where I am at. I am happy to move forward in Ji's life and get a home. However, she will be away for several years. Potentially 3. If we get a home now, as the property market moves, we will be in it. This is very much human thinking. We have done the mortgage calculators. We are capable of paying off 100,000 in the first year based on our incomes. All we need to be able to do is come up with a $100,000 or so deposit. We have until July. So 6 months. Based on all things being equal, I would need to gain the money elsewhere from where I have gained it todate. Potential human sources...sharemarket, currency trading, cafe, coaching, and academy, or Dubai Job. Of interesting note...is that all of these opportunities have failed in the past....so what would be different this time?

Also if you see it as the correct way forward to buy a home, then technically you would provide the means to do so, and not subject us to years of debt.

You could also have done this, through any number of lotto wins. Yet you have not. If we had won lotto todate, or in the near future it would change the direction I am heading. So perhaps there is somewhere I need to be, someone I need to intersect with etc. I can see that the direction of my life is being sculpted and for this I am open. I just am not sure how to plan and i think this gives me a sense of waiting.