infinite possibilities...means what line of potential will I run...ie mortgage, or not.

Releasing energy

When I create something, if I focus in my now, I am in a position to harvest that energy back to myself. To draw it back to me. But I am at best going to bring it all back, but I will not have grown. It is only when I create for someone else, that they can then add their energy to that thought form, thus it then grows. So it is appreciation that grows the energy. Appreciation of others grows it more. The more people you affect, the more energy is added to it.

in hale scent exhale appreciation. I inhale the scent of the rose, and leave....then I gain only the physical experience and have gifted little to the plant. But when I inhale the scent and explore it, then exhale appreciation to the plant for providing that expression of it's self as love to me, then I am releasing the energy back to the plant. This is the role of man kind. The unconditional service to it's own and lower kingdoms to release the expressed/stored energy back to it's founder, to enable them to experience what they have expressed, and therefore a perception of who they are.

Intention determines which plane it will manifest on.

Energy miners

One of our tasks is to mine energy out of our experiences

Life is like a jigsaw puzzle. We learn one piece at a time, and usually it doesn't make sense, as it is just a group of seemingly random pieces, but then one day, we put two together, then we see, how a third fits in, and before you know it, there is a recognizable picture.

The Great artist's canvas

Last night I watched a movie called The Quantum Activist by Amit Goswami. I had seen him once before on 'What the bleep'. During the movie, I took many notes, and so wish to explore my thinking on where I am now currently at.

Life as we know it, is like a great canvas. We are the painters, but we are not yet the artist. This then is our journey...to become great artists. In our original form, we are 'The Great Artist', in fact we are also the canvas. We are the subject we wish to paint, to express ourselves as love, and paint today's definition of ourselves. In order to experience the art first hand we must view from a different perspective. Thus any of our art to be 'livingly' experienced, we must move from a stance of originating expression (position as the originator), to a perspective that is in the same place as the expression itself. Thus we 'take on' or view from another perspective being that of another piece of self expressed art. In doing so, I may experience what the expression is like as a 'whole' - a tangible image of myself as the originator. Thus I attempt to explore myself, via my own art. Compare this to exploring the same art from my perspective as originator, then I am only exploring a single individual idea in an infinite number, and in a detached way. By "becoming the art", the experience is all consuming, thus I am able to fully explore the wholeness of this experience, as I am submersed fully in it. The issues arise, because I take on the persona of the art form I use as a vehicle to explore other aspects of my work/art. This creates it's own challenge, that of detaching myself from the limitations that are found by perceiving I am only one art form. From within mind space of this singular expression, I am like a painter with heavy thick gloves on. I paint for I feel the affinity to my true nature, but I am no artist at all. It is only on the occasion that I withdraw myself from this point of limitation, often down through correct meditation, deliberately or inadvertently, that I once again hold position as creative consciousness, unbound by the constricting limitations that are found in the various states of expression, as they leave my point of origin. Each tier the expression passes through, the smaller the mind space it is contained in, by simple mathematics of involution. By the time I transpire to explore one piece of art I have expressed as a perspective of how I see myself as 'Love Being', on the physical plane, such as the taste of a perfectly ripe organic nectarine, the mind space is so minute, that it is barely able to comprehend it's own limited ability to experience, let alone paint itself. Yet it tries continuously. It tries so much, it absorbs virtually all of it's conscious time attempting to imitate the artist who created it. Because, I am there...it can feel that sense of potential to create. But hapless is it to do so, in its state as a piece of art itself. Hapless am I to create, from within the boundaries of a mind that I have adopted with fervour to be my own, and thus concurred to come under the perceptions of limitation it experiences. Thus the journey is there for one and all to 'awaken'. To go through a stage of withdrawal from within a singular piece of art, and make my way back to the realisation I am the original artist. But most important I feel, is to understand my original intention. It was to explore the very art I have expressed as perceived descriptions of my own true nature. Be it then not left undone, to complete the task beset the journey that I originally took, and delve deeply into the taste of that organic Nectarine with all manner of indulgence without thought of mind. For within this focused state of exploration I will know myself and the creative juices that are appreciation will flow, and thus evolution of all tiers will occur. For evolution of art as an expression of who I am, comes sourced from the fountain that we call appreciation. In conclusion, I need to balance myself, between my thirst to awaken the artist I am (with intention to create more expressions of myself) with the thirst to explore the art I have already created, and have before me, in the place I currently hold as observer.

life energy

I wanted to explore my latest thoughts on time. I have already concluded for now that there is no time. We perceive time only because we age. If we did not age, and lived in youthful state of bodily being then time would have no relevance at all. Not a sausage. What then is the role of age that we currently have a use for it, and therefore employ it so. Well first of all, we govern a lot of our decisions based on the "amount of time we have left" So it creates a limitation that defines the necessity for decisions to be made at all. The second thing is it gives us an exit strategy, to change our perspective if we are "not getting it" from this current view point. Third, it helps us to do what we need to do in order to not age and that is a appreciate what we have. This brings me to my hypothesis on life energy. If we were given only a measured amount of life energy to fuel this particular perspective of life on this plane, then as we used it up, it would give us a perceived time line, if something mirrored the process of it being used up (such as the physical body aging). What a brilliant self balancing learning platform. If I understand the true creative process, then I will produce more creative energy than I spend (or if you prefer for wording sake...I will "efficiently recycle" this reuseable energy, keeping it within the confines of my context rather than have it morph into "general coffers" My theory goes something like this...we have a certain amount of life energy, which most of us spend. Much literature is full of fundamentals - often quoted in the bible: "to he who has some, more will be given"; and the parables of the master and his servants who are each given 1 gold coin each. One buries his, one doubles his investment, and the other makes many times his investment. And the master ends up giving the third the values held by the other two. So, how does this apply to us? Well, if we look at what gives us a return on investment spiritually for any effort we put it then we will get some idea. Lets say I expend some life energy to shop, cook and prepare an evening meal. Total imput, considerable energy. If I have cooked for others, then I have shared with them my life energy, but am connected to their return on investment if it is forthcoming. Now assume that I/the family I have cooked for, all employ a non engaging stance of watching tv while eating. The amount of return on investment is very very small. A mere fraction of the hour or two I invested, is returned to me with a "thank you for dinner" or "that was nice"- spoken as one comes back into awareness of the now...due to the plate being terminated of it's last vestige. What was available? What was the opportunity missed? Well, there was the exploration of the tastes, and textures of my creation. If I had spent that "time" engaged with the meal, my return on investment would have been significant. Had my family done the same...the return on investment for me would have been enormous. Why don't we? Well, it is simply really. We have rushed through our lives so quickly always focused on the next thing rather than the thing in front of us, that we are have ended up in a habit of always being behind. This state of 'always late for everything' has meant we have began to take short cuts...in several ways. Two I'll mention here are 1. we eat fast food which actually doesn't taste yummy if you focus on it intently; and 2. we have gone into the habit of multi tasking, in spite of the fact that the mind we experience through is only capable of experiencing one focused perspective at a time. So what is the solution? Well, make a list....if you are into lists, of all the opportunities that you have today to invest and harvest life energy. Then make a goal for each as to the deliberate effort of focus you would like to have. Do a "balance sheet" at the end of the day, and assess your effectiveness through the day as an investor. Then adjust for the next day. Decide and know this energy is real, and that you are able to refill your quota of life energy. Your mind may not be able to grasp and accept that such as this can be true...but truth has a way of getting through, and when it comes wouldn't it be awesome being the messenger in this case.

Truth verses the "dark? side".....Game on!

Truth is a lot like water, it is so powerful, over time it will carve holes in rocks, it is so pliable that given the tiniest of doorways it will make it through; it is so versatile, that if conditions change, it will go into hibernation (ice-aka dead sea scrolls, secret societies and other hidden truths), or it will gain wings and fly to cooler climates (steam- aka it will morph into a new form of religion, new branch of theosophy, a new conspiracy theory, or a simply a new perspective on life which puts us in a position where we may be able to see the same fundamental truth but in a way we were not previously open to).

The greatest illusion of all time, is to have a conspiracy theory to cover up a lie, that was told because a quest to delude back fired. The interesting thing to ponder is whether all this secrecy, is simply a controlled release of truth required for our own benefit in the same way that vitamins are only good for you if you ingest the right quantities. Truth only works, through a linear progression of release. If one drops the concept of quantum physics; infinite possibilities or any other truth in the mind of someone who is not yet able to relate to that incoming information, then it will not be a "truth" for them. Therefore there is a need for the progressive release of information. This is a crazy concept, because it requires that the information is released progressively for each individual indefinitely. Imagine the logistics. This then sheds a new light on the perceived dark side. Could it be that they are simply a part of the light side whose role it is to be deemed the bad guys because they control this release of information through the different planes, (we tend to only hear about the stifled/slow release of information into the physical plane) and to the different minds (we tend to only see the slow release of information to the group mind/consciousness. It certainly lends itself to further consideration.

devas verses man

The illusion of reality. I look out from this body, thinking I am inside it. Thinking I am it.

Is it possible, that the body is a boundary, like a fence line. On one side of the fence line is the Deva. On the other side is the soul. The fence is the I, the point of awareness that gives consciousness existence. The Deva wants the attention of I. They evolve from being controlled. Man evolves from self control. Is it possible the voices I hear that surmount to the endless desires that arise...are infact the pull of attention of I toward the Deva.

The commitment test

It occurred to me today that I seriously lack commitment to my programme. I came away from today feeling a great sense of cowardly weakness, and a true lack of commitment to my own cause...that of achieving my own life goals. Yes, yes, it is bad grammar to use the same word twice, but I am sure this whole article is going to thrash this word out thoroughly.

The greatest sources of commitment seem to be failures, serious disappointments particularly directed at you from someone else, and loss. This can be loss of health, loss of wealth, loss of opportunities or anything of such a value that the loss of which cannot be simply ignored, for this is it's very job. The interesting thing is I have got to the stage where I have detached myself from the physical realm....but this has created a interesting predicament. It is like, I have awoken within the Matrix but, I have not aligned myself to a direction on the other side of the current illusion. This has had the effect of me being not yet connected well enough to my true nature. I have become acutely aware that I am in a body that is being used by a hang of a lot more entities other than myself. It is like I have woken up...realising I am on a wild horse that is rampantly galloping where ever it pleases, without any direction...purely living in the moment. Now normally I would have said this is ideal...however the idea of living in the moment, is to be aware of the many individual moments that are aligned to the greater purpose of life. The type of living in the moment I have been doing is more of stepping aside and allowing my body to be used by other entities, simply because I don't have control of it myself. I am not taking charge. To do this, I need to have a higher cause - something worthy of effort. Otherwise I can just go on being a bum and not care if I eat for the sake of eating (cause someone or something else wants the experience).

life force

On the basis that all things have consciousness or an apportion of total consciousness, they must also have an individual energy signature to determine their address in consciousness.

On the basis that all things have a cycle being a measurement of energy to sustain 'life' in a current particular expression, I would like to explore the idea that this energy can be depleted at varying speeds, and even topped up or renewed. I have been reviewing a few pieces of the energy jigsaw puzzle this morning, including the rice example used in the 'process of transformation' weekend, and the water crystal experiments by Dr Masaru Emoto, and mind powers by John Kehoe, and the like. Also the fact that when Buddhist Monks (as just one example of one form of those who practise and have perfected true meditation) meditate they have a significant and manifested effect on not only themselves, but also those around them, including healing capabilities, boosted plant vitality, connection to the animal kingdom. Harvard among others have done various tests on Monks relating to what happens when they meditate, and have drawn conclusions that indeed it is a controlled outcome. Having read a little relating to the Mahatma letters, HPB when questioned about Master M's age, she talks about a 'limited life force' that we tend to "squalor" and that they (the incarnated Masters) have the ability to renew it, and thus that they continue to stay ageless at a physical level. Add to this the concept I have that money is a manifested form of creative/life energy and looking at the state of the world's personal, business and global burgeoning debt and that this is reflective of a astral, or mental or spiritual debt, I have conspired to form a question relating to it all. Is it possible, that this is not a Karmic debt, but a behavioural debt. I see the difference being, that Karmic Debt is something we have done in the past, that we are now in the process of working off in order to gain a valuable lesson which in turn will raise our awareness, our apportion of consciousness, and our access to more creative energy. Behaviour debt, I see as something we are doing now....which in turn may well produce a karmic debt if not recognised, but is certainly a destructive state to be in. Another perspective of my view may be visually demonstrated. If you imagine that my current perspective in this individualized form is an expression that is a limited life force. Each time my behaviour squanders this life force beyond it's originally expected rate of depletion, I enter into a state of reflected debt in order to present me with the obvious, so as to empower me the capacity to change my behaviour. Each time my behaviour reflects a conservation of this life force this is also reflected.

In addition to this I propose there is a capacity to 'plug in' to the life force of 'others'. This can be demonstrated by the capacity for others to heal, and for us to have an affect on plants, and indeed animals. In addition there is that which is above us be it a master, such as Master M for HPB who was able to provide capabilities to her and heal her; then further up the healing properties of certain meridians of the planet and more. I accept as explained by A Bailey and HPB, that the 'time' spectrum is vastly minute as it rises up the hierarchy tiers, eg 1 second for Sanat Kumara was depicted to be equal to 1000 years for a human perspective. It is easy for me to hypothesize then that the energy values of each tier has an equivalent. This being supposed, it would mean that for someone above helping another below them would use virtually nil of their own life force in the process, but would provide significant benefit for them. This then is why we are encouraged to practice our attention of care and unconditional love on the animal and plant kingdom, to prepare us to become the same at our own level. This is also why through our inability to be able to understand this path we are destined to follow, our interaction with each other is very much one that is selfish, protective of our assets, and trade orientated because of the perceived sense of cost and loss of interacting with each other. Every time we give at this level with our life force, there is a perceived visible cost. Now I have an interesting twist on this.

What if, the cost to our life force was actually our wants, and that our capacity to top up our life force came from helping others at our own tier and below. The more energy force we invest, the more comes back to us in perhaps 10 fold. So if we invest below us, although this is a great investment for the receivers, it costs us so little that 10 times the return is still insignificant and would hardly be noticed when reflected. However, to help others, would be a significant use of our life force, and certainly 10 times would be clearly visible.

Now lets look at what constitutes the opposite of this. Here I am proposing that "wants" or desires cost us energy. If simply having a thought evokes an investment of energy in that context, then desires which are potentially long chain energies, with potential to be habitual energy taxes (desires that become habits) could have the capacity to so significantly eat into our life force, as to form debt. I like to imagine that there is a simple plan prepared before we enter, with an objective and goals that will result in us spiritually evolving at the end of this life time.

The energy is invested (life energy is expressed and attributed) to me to fulfil my goals and in I come. Once in here, the idea is that I will invest in those life tiers that are perceived as being below me to maintain my life force, learn from these actions to do unto others as I would like done to me, and by doing for others, use this energy investment to evolve. The problem is, we are currently living in a global 'ME' environment, where there is little practice of giving below, let alone giving of life energy to those other aspects of self that I deem on an equal evolutionary tier. This ME environment is resulting in life energy being used up in frivolous expressions of personality self, without any connection that renews it. Living in the technology age means desirous ideas are being promoted to the mind prior to the the previous idea being fully realised.

What this means is that when we express an idea as a reflection of who we think we are...our objective is then to experience it, thus transmuting that energy from potential to creative, to expressive, to appreciative, to more potential. But if I stop appreciating it, because I am so busy looking at the next thing I want, or while I am in the process of experiencing it, thus having the capacity to appreciate it, the mind instead draws off my attention to watch tv or be distracted in another way from fully exploring the food that is before me....that expression of how I felt. ( dinner time we often say....what do I feel like? I feel like.......fresh salad. - this is me saying, if I were to describe how I see myself right at this moment as the love energy that I am....I would say I was the taste of a perfectly ripe tomato, combined with a crisp juice cucumber, combined with a sweet young carrot etc. The idea is then for me to go through and experience this expression of self, and in doing so I convert all of that energy into more life force. However, of course I do not do this. Even if I manage to get through to the part where I actually get to ask myself what I feel like....as opposed to the mind getting in first...and saying what reflects it ie pizza/mac donalds etc; I then have to get past the mind to go and get the ingredients and make it, getting the exact ingredients may mean travelling and time let alone putting it all together. And even if I manage to do this, there is then getting past the habit of mutitasking.....being eating with others and talking, or watching tv or reading something etc. Translated, this capacity to gain more life energy has become virtually obsolete. Giving to those tiers that are below us, lacks thoughtful and deliberate intention, and that brings us to doing for others.

We see the cost when we do something for others. The cost of time, or money or the opportunity cost. We weigh up what we perceive WE will gain from doing it. If we perceive there is a net gain from our interaction with another soul, then we will engage. If not we will not.

So where to from here? Well, we have these motivational times throughout our lives such as new years eve resolutions, and to do lists we have, and even our integral theosophy and self transformation course 7 day programmes, just to name a few. What if, it lined up with this concept of life force. What if the integral part related to us looking at how we can contribute to the life force of those above, below and laterally existing in our present. What if our goals revolved around our capacity to be more efficient at converting energy from it's potential states into a state of appreciation both for ourselves and others. What if our actions revolved more around how we can contribute to the life force of others. What if we abstained for a time from our exhaustive deluge of taxation on our life force through desires, how much of that same life force could be better used for the benefit of the planetary logos. And don't for a second think, that our tiniest contribution to the greater energy good, and planetary consciousness would be wasted, unrecognized above for it's insignificance, or unwanted. On the contrary, if 1000 years is only one sec, imagine the number of minutes a planet of individual souls would contribute if each of them individually simply gave up a minute of their ME day to gift upward. 1 billion souls equates to nearly 2000 years worth of contribution. And while that may once again only be converted to 2 seconds worth of time/energy, there is a clear move towards inner growth worldwide, to counter this ME ness and once the 100th Monkey takes a whole and critical mass is reached, the number of secs will become minutes, and days and years and will have a significant effect. The conclusion I have is this: if we change our behaviour, and our direct our thoughts to the benefit of others in all evolutionary directions, our life energy will be so significantly effected, that we will not only move to a state of perpetual abundance and appreciation-thus eliminating all debt both karmic and behavioural, creative and potential, but we will release ourselves from the rat race of spiritual incarceration within the ME centred personality mind.

Just in exploring the concept further regarding how wanting costs us our life force. If we are the expression of something greater, then we are the experience of that same entity. We are the total experience. We do not need to add anything ourselves. This entity expresses us as a life force...and breaths us into existence, and everything that is needed for the total experience to occur. We are that experience, its not our experience. For us to want....is to steal from that life force, something that was destined to be something else. This borrowing, comes up as debt, for it is not ours to borrow. It is not ours to steal. Our objective...is to align ourselves with the experience we were intended to be. Does the tomato need to request it's flavour when it comes into existence, or it's texture? In the same way that tomato is my expression, so too are we. To say we are not whole, is to say that this entity of which we are an expression has expressed it'self to be imperfect and less than whole. This is never going to happen. Would you ever say..I feel like a marked apple or an unripe orange, or a rotten peach to eat. Yet in wanting is this not the same. Detachment then...is the act of aligning ourselves into our role as the experience of an enlightened perfect being, of which we are the perfect expression. What then do you suppose is our role? If we were made in the image of this perfect being - it would be to do unto others etc.

The last airbender

I always come away from such movies as the last airbender and the sorcerer's apprentice with a deep sense of connection with the concept of natural raw power. That sense that we are all supposed to be these characters in for real, and that this type of power is available to us all if only we could connect sufficiently in awareness to the basic core truths, from a position of incorruptible purity. Today I expanded my comprehension further by gaining a greater acceptance of the reality that all things have consciousness. That through the simple fact of being present within an entity/idea we corrupt it, by giving it a perception that it is the only consciously aware perspective of the universe, other than perhaps other equally aware beings. This illusion creates the chasm between the true I and all other perspectives of consciousness.

This results in a disconnected relationship.

Inside the mind of God

I wanted to revisit the idea of being an idea in the mind of God. We often hear of God's Will. This is what I believe is the concept of Wants. God Wants....and as a result evolution occurs. Every idea in the mind of God is made in his image...that is...he is constantly trying to define himself which he does by illuminating ideas and bringing them to life. God's thirst to discover who or what it is...is unquenchable. Because each idea is unable to define God, it is given a mind of it's own also made in God's image. It is through this perspective of mind that we observe other ideas, in an attempt to discover who we are as God. The issues begin to get challenging when that single aspect of mind, separates itself from all other aspects and most importantly from God. This results in that aspect of mind perceiving that the want of God...is it's own want. Thus with a sense of separation, it then begins to plan how it will go about creating/attracting that want to it'self so it can experience it.

Not having the power to do so, results in debt, and sacrifice to bring about a temporary orbit of the objective at the centre of the want. This process interrupts our capacity to have a purely human experience, for we are held back by our slow progress due to the time that is created by this illusive separation and successive sacrifice that follows.

How do you do, introducing the person I didn't know I wasn't

Stop for a moment and have a go at living for just 5 more minutes, without identifying a single thought that relates to yourself as an individual. In starting to explore this concept of meme's, it is funny even to look at the name and see me...me.

This draws a deep need for awareness to be able to explore the way in which I use me, my, I.

It begs the opportunity to challenge every use of these words, and every context they are clothed in. It delivers the perfect opportunity to question and explore every statement made, to get to the bottom of what constitutes ownership over the words that flow from the mouth, and the thoughts that congregate in the mind.

In essence 'I' am calling upon 'my' mind to challenge the illusions that have been held in place with the "I, my, me" words. In doing so, "I" hope to achieve an awareness of the globalised separation that has occurred in every individual on the planet, and change of behaviour that needed to prevent the ongoing global sin that is 'the education of every new mind that enters', and thus perpetuating a self destructive spiral -starting with 'myself'.

Have a go of looking at the following questions. Then try writing up 10 of your own questions. Each question you type up, put " " around each "I, me, my" word everytime.

Here are the questions:

Is it really "my wants" that 'I' instinctively and blindly submit to everyday. Is it really "my favourites" that 'I' choose when obliging these 'wants'

Is it really 'my pain" that 'I' indulge in when presented with an opportunity to share another's perspective.

Are these really "my goals" that 'I' have set and follow every day.

How much of what "I" am doing is culturally, or socially induced? How much of it is second or third generation conditioning, so well hidden, that it operates completely below the radar all of the time.

Memes and Temes

One of the things brought up by Linda Watts at the integral theosophy weekend, was that of Memes, and Temes.

Upon doing some surfing, I came across this article by Ethan Zuckerman who is writing about

Susan Blackmore which I feel describes the idea beautifully. I have put the link to the page at the bottom. Ethan and Susan, I hope you don't mind that I didn't ask you first.

Susan Blackmore is one of the major promoters of memetics, a field that’s misunderstood and sometimes disliked. Her talk is designed to defend the idea of the meme. She begins, “Cultural evolution is a dangerous child to let loose on the world.” In doing so, we’ve become “Earth’s pandora species” we have loosed the second replicator, the ability to replicate behaviors, not just via genetic material. “That’s the view that comes from taking memetics seriously.”

Memetics is founded on “the principle of universal Darwinism”, which she believes is “possibly the best idea anyone ever had.” At root, what Darwin said was that if you have variation, selection and heredity, you must get evolution, or, as Daniel Dennett puts it, “Design out of chaos without the aid of the mind.” Important in this formulation is the word “Must” – if you’ve got those preconditions, you must have natural selection.

She points out that Darwin didn’t know about genes – he talked about natural selection in other ways, including the natural selection of language. Richard Dawkins make the argument that there are other forms of replication on the planet – information copied from person to person by imitation. That which is imitated is the “mimeme”, shortened to “meme”. Before criticising memes, it’s worth going back to that simple definition – “information copied from person to person.”

She goes through the room and identifies a few memes – sunglasses worn on a chain around the neck, women wearing earings. Those individuals didn’t invent those behavior – they’ve simply imitated it. She shows a wonderful meme – toilet paper folded in a hotel. She’s documented this in a jungle camp in Assam, as well as in almost any hotel you enter. “It’s supposed to tell you the place is clean, but it really tells you that other people have touched your toilet roll, spreading germs.”

“All these memes are trying to get copied, using you and me as copying machinery. We are the meme machines.”

She believes that humans are basically a war between genetics and memetics. Genes want us to be efficient and reproduce. Memes want to be reproduced, and make us do silly things, like copying wearing feathersor face paint. Eventually, the memetic drive demands a bigger brain that can copy and adopt these memes. “Language is a parasite we’ve adapted to.”

Somewhere in externalizing these memes through technology, we’ve created a new type of memes – technology-enhanced memes, which she calls “temes”. These temes are “forcing our brains to become tene machines.” We will start putting in implants and taking drugs that force us to stay awake – we’ll believe we’re choosing to do som, but the temes are making us do it.

She refers to the Drake equation – an equation intended to calculate the possibility of extraterrestrial life. She offers her own equation, less dependent on human intelligence, and more dependent on replicators.

N = P x fR1 x fR2 x fR3 x L

The number of planets with communicative life is a function of the number of planets, times the fraction with the first type of replicators, times the fraction with the second type of replicators, by the fraction with the third type of replicators, times the lifespan of planets with third-level replicators. This last term is key, because every step is dangerous. The big brain required for second-level replication – memetic replication – is dangerous. It makes childbirth more dangerous and takes up 20% of body’s energy for 2% of the body’s weight.

“Temes don’t care about us – they simply want to create more of themselves. Don’t think we created the internet for our own benefit – think about temes spreading for themselves because they must.”

Will we survive as a species? The question is whether we survive this third danger point, the world in which temes reproduce themselves with no regard for the consequences for us.

http://www.ethanzuckerman.com/blog/2008/02/28/ted2008-memes-and-temes/

http://www.susanblackmore.co.uk/

This fascinates me. I now look at myself, and hardly recognise what I see through my conditioning, filters, and subconscious acceptance of promoted ideas. I feel not unlike a puppet. What a fabulous self assessment, self development opportunity I have before me.

Integral Theosophy

I have just completed a weekend workshop called integral theosophy facilitated by Victor MacGill, and Linda Watts. For me it was a most thought provoking event. In my line of work as a coach educator, I am also a facilitator. It was interesting to watch the group dynamics of our well learned, intensely thought provoking people, each with their own filters, and learning agendas, all keen to further their journey. Here were all were in a course we all knew little to nothing about. We spent a large amount of our time simply trying to find our feet, so as to figure out how to relate to the concept and draw this mysterious idea into a place where we could once again be comfortable that we viewed the world from a place of understanding.

For me, being the rookie on the block, I found it to be right up my ally. The concept to me has acted as a catalyst for many different directions. Firstly, I thoroughly enjoyed the concept of looking at the evolution of civilisation, and the parallels of consciousness, via a colour coding, that gave me foundation to see what aspects of me as a being existed. It starts off from the animal individualistic man that focused on basic needs, instinct and impulses, who has no ability to cognitize the sacrifice made by others when he takes what he instinctively needs. Here sense of self evolves as an individual, being I am this individual, with a heirachy established through physical size and strength. Conflict is generally between nature, and the individual. This entity evolves through eventually developing an attachment to those around him, thus creating a sense of family, a first cognitive sense of belonging to something greater than himself. His sense of self is defined more towards the immediate group being 'I am my family'. Heirachy revolves around the provider, and head of the family. Here the value of the family is greater than the individual, in the eyes of those who can see the bigger picture. Something that has enough value, that one would eventually be willing to sacrifice ones self, to save the whole family.

Conflict arises due to a limiting of immediate resources to cover previous basic needs...food, shelter, warmth, and reproduction. With a growing family, more food is needed, so eventually supply becomes an issue, and a family is forced to move to go to where food is more readily available. Similarly, if a family has a sickness, or loss of female life, to the degree that the future of the family is in jeopardy, then the female resource being limited, requires males to go forth and steal them from other families. Here in evolves the next step of war. It was interesting to note that we identified that here was value within these aspects of ourselves when exposed to certain environments, and situations today. So these different aspects of our make up are not replaced when we evolve, but that they are stored, and lesser used, they become less apparent, but are always there. Each aspect has the capacity within each of us, to dominate our entity. But when through conditioning, it is not utilised for great periods is stored in such insignificant space, it feels as if it is no longer there. The next step in evolution is the warrior stage. This evolves over time via the warring families realising their capacity to conquer, and with growing size and strength, eventually become nations, conquering others for natural resources they no longer have. Here the strongest individuals rise to the top. Here they create a sense of group value that goes beyond family, but for which the individual is willing to sacrifice themselves for the perceived greater good. Here the patriot is born. That individual who is seeded with a bond to his group that surpasses any individuals within it. The force for sacrifice is not survival, but for power, wealth and pride, . Those at the top with the power gain greatly the wealth by creating a sense of pride amongst those that come below them.

The conflict here is the loss of a sense of self. It is lost in the vastness of the group. With this loss ends up coming a sense of questioning, and disenchantment.

This need created the next evolution that of organised religion. This enabled the leaders to almost future proof their power. The base still had a sense of belonging in the group mentality, it gave them a new purpose that went even further beyond their group, but cleverly, through which only the leaders could give them access. The individual was willing to sacrifice self for that perceived greatest of causes, because they were sold on the idea of a significant gain awaiting them in the advent of their sacrifice occurring.

The conflict here, was that purpose of war moved from the whim of the leader, to the attachment of the individual's religion. So the wars became religiously based. In addition to this, having a sense of self, was deemed to be a sin, thus this aspect was attempted to be buried. Hence the conflict began to be an individual one. Individuals began to awaken, and move away from the organized religions.

The next state of evolution came with industry. The individual had the capacity to gain their own creative power. The pursuit of which was engaged at the cost of all others, including the planet.

To keep the masses in control here, as they became empowered, those at the top with decision making power used media to direct the individual. Thus giving the individual the perception they were empowered, yet still able to direct them by controlling what you got them to perceive. If you could control their emotions, you would cloud their judgement. If you could control the flow of information so as to give them singular unchallenged perspectives from a source they had grown to admire, and trust, then you could control their behaviour, and the beauty of it is that they would think it was their decisions.

The next state of evolution was the stage of rebellion against the establishment. This concept really trumpets the individual at the detriment of the organization. The pursuit of free thinking is published to be the righteous ideal, with no regard to the group that orbits that free thinking individual. The issue is that this aspect is all about the individual...all about 'ME'. The conflict here then, is that the support structure that exists both man made and natural, is unable to sustain the detachment the individual has imposed on it. Here the sense of order is lost, man disconnects from his roots.

The next stage is the integral state. Where the free thinking individual is able to see the importance of their role. To see that they do not have to sacrifice the good of the greater, nor themselves to be able to fulfil the needs of the group. The conflict here is that of balancing the higher and lower self of the individual. They battle to balance when to give and when to take, for they still see themselves separate from the group.

The next stage of evolution is therefore that of a sense of self actualisation occurring not through service to the group as was previous, but as a sense of service to self as the group. Not only this, but that there be no label of this group, that it be fence-less, faceless, and expansive to the point of encompassing all as one consciousness.

Here in lies the point at which I awoke in this course with the realisation that I have been trying to become a 'great' individual, that I may be of service to the group. But now I realise, that all of this can be surpassed if I am able to see the bigger picture, lift that veil slightly more and boldly take that bigger step.

Thank you to everyone, who contributed all you thoughts, passions, interludes, and perspectives of this consciousness flexing weekend.

mind mapping

I learnt the technique of mind mapping a while ago under different circumstances and for different application. A few days ago I learnt how to use it to better my coaching, and ability to facilitate. Nowdays nothing gets to occur without me taking a metaphysical view of it. Therefore I took a keen interest to apply this to my self development. One area for me to apply this is in the area of time. So to take an old habit, write it down in the middle of a blank page. Then put a box or circle around it. Next draw lines off the box or circle like the suns rays might be pictured by a school student. Then write at the end of each line, an experience you could do instead of the old habit. These are the opportunities that are on offer, which would equate to the opportunity cost if I chose to continue with the engagement of the old habit. From each new opportunity circle it, and draw more lines off it like a porqipine. Here write the effects on the quality of my life from engaging in this new experience. Then from each of these, write the potentials that could open up to me as a result of these qualities. There is more to come on this. I will post some examples soon.

am I lost or is this spiral a circle

There is nothing like walking through the bush for two hours only to end up coming out into a clearing that looks so awefully familiar that it sets off a sinking feeling of helplessness in the pit of the stomach. As I go through my life, I anticipate that it is a spiral, as I go round, I may see a similar view, but I always hope to be viewing that same point from a different...somewhat higher perspective. It was to my amazement tonight while chatting with my sister, that I learnt an interesting fact about myself. I had this perception about myself that I was half way round the world from where I had started out, but when I looked at myself more closely that indeed,I had not left my own front door with regard to one fundamental area of my life. I learnt that I was still not mastering myself. My objective was to understand the true creative process, yet I still indulged in material creative desires being the desire to create money to enhance my life. When I step back and view where I am at, I can clearly see that I have been completely taken care of. And that my self destruction has been just that. I have been trying to create materially, in direct conflict to my prime directive. I have been attracting all manner of creations. These attract to me when I am not chasing after them via material creation. There is more to be covered here.

The illusion of time

What if "time" was simply the movement of Energy, like sands in an hour glass. The energy of Creation passes through from one plane into the next, as sand passes into one compartment to another. So imagine a time device, that had "sand/energy" passing down from one compartment that represents say 1 trillion years, and this drops into a compartment that is switch-able like an hour glass and can be turned over. Lets say this compartment can contain 1 billion years. The sand/energy in this flows into another compartment that covers the equivalent of 1 million years. Then there is the one for 1000 years, then 100, then 1 etc.

The concept being that eventually the whole hour glass will be turned upside down to allow the original energy of creation to go back to it's original compartment.

If this could be accepted as a concept, then time itself is not an empty concept, but rather it is incredibly valuable creative energy. At this point it brings us to the point to reflect how we use time.

We often hear time is money. Knowing that money is a form of creative energy, this could be a solid truth.

If we then begin to look at our habits with time and money, we will discover how utilize this energy. On another note to explore later...is that 'time' feels like it is speeding up....something that appears to happen to sand when the compartment is almost empty. This quite rightly can be identified as an illusion, but so could be the idea that time is going faster.

Looking at concepts revolving around time...we have a few areas where we 'waste' time. Procrastination, and putting things off to the last minute, or even worse is letting things go past their use by date, or due date. We will then find we manifest penalties, as a reflection of this lost use of creative energy.

If I have a certain amount of 'time' for something, then I need to start seeing this as real energy. If I get that thing done immediately, whatever time I have left before it's deadline, is abundance. This then is how I can experience abundance. Abundance after all, is excessive energy. If I have this excessive energy often, it will be there to move down to the next tier, and manifest. Hence I will experience abundance. So as I have discussed before in previous posts, in order to experience abundance I need to set a limit. Once I have set a limit, then by getting it done early, there will be a gap between it's completion and it's requirement.

So what I need to do now. Identify all areas of my life, where I have outstanding energy debts, posted as both manifested energy debts, and time debts. (things I have not done that I should have completed by now).

The next thing I am going to do, is look at the energy that is in front of me now, that has called upon my attention. I am going to set a deadline, and focus all of my attention and spare energy on achieving these things.

Lastly, I am going to learn the art of discrimination, and become far more selective in how I use my energy/time in the future. I am going to be aware of the opportunity cost before I agree to do anything. It is clear to me that for every action I agree to do, the gains would be equal for 100's of other opportunities that will not fruit as a result of taking up this decision. Therefore, knowing now how valuable this creative energy is that I am submerged in (time) I will be far more willing to say no, and far more will to face conflict from those that demand my time inappropriately, or excessively, in order to get ahead.

it's in our spiritual dna

Something to explore as we ponder the idea of being an evolutionary entity, is that the characteristics and fundamentals of our ancestral beginnings and predecessors' must still be a part of us. There is no doubt that as we transcend towards Demi God status, that our training in compassion as human beings, is a fundamental aspect to the safety of possessing Demi God like power. Prior to where we are now, it has been a fundamental aspect of or safety as humans to have our animal like instincts, and counter-attack aggressive survivalist streaks, or run instincts if the battle looked unwinnable. And before that, there was the meditative nature of being a plant, that gave us a passiveness to our natural animal aggression, which enabled relationships to flourish, and a sense of belonging to exist. Interdependence grew out of this.

And before that, as a plant, there were the basic core foundations of minerals, that were the food for growth. The relationship level, built on a single dependent relationship.

The thing is, we are really an older brother or sister to all of our animal ancestors. We are like the great grand children of our mighty tree based ancestors.

We are like great great grandchildren to the mineral kingdom. Does this knowledge somehow change our relationship with the plants, animals etc in our world?

And is it possible that the predecessor to the mineral kingdom would be mind substance, or the original aspect of subatomic particles of energy.

If we look at the qualities of each section of evolution, we may unlock the keys to the next level. Imagine if in the future we could go back in time and tell ourselves now, what the keys were to becoming a demi god. Imagine the favour we would be doing for an animal if we could help it make the jump from animal evolutionary consciousness to human.

So lets see if it is actually that simple, made difficult at the time simply because we could see clearly from the perspective we were viewing from.

Perhaps in my exploration, I am simplifying it too much, but it seems worth an attempt to investigate. In the beginning there is mind substance. Pure energy. The essential element of thought. From this thought is evoked through aspiration to know myself. This would be the beginning of Evolution. Over time I would experience all thought from the perspective of observer in SELF. Once I have completed an evolutionary phase, I would then begin an involutionary stage. This would involve going inward, shifting my perspective from overall mind where I sit as an observer on the outskirts looking into mind, to a perspective within an idea. Basically moving my observing point to enable me to explore each idea from the perspective of another idea. Once I have done this, the next process would be to put all of these ideas into some sort of order, become the most basic idea, and evolve it into my most complex idea, masking my awareness of who I am, thus making the task truly challenging. So it is perceived from within the consciousness that I inhabit, that this is an evolutionary process, but in fact, in reality, it is involutionary. I am not becoming something....I am going back to who I always was.

So here I start in the mineral kingdom, and what is it that I need to do, to be able to move up. What are the qualities that I need to 'evolve' to be able to function effectively at the next level.

A mineral is a life of pure service, yet no feedback as to it's value and importance to those it serves would occur due to a complete lack of awareness of those others because as from the perspective of a mineral I would have no association to anything else. Pseudo Evolution would be automated based on intention, becoming a different perspective of mineral as I thought about it. So what is required to be a plant? Well a plant serves others. So I would as a mineral get my first intention to serve. There are many ways to serve as a mineral. Finding these ways, is what evolution is about at every step, and every stage. Only once I was serving, would I then have the capacity of becoming a plant.

A plant differs from the mineral kingdom in the way it serves others.

It is able to serve without having to sacrifice itself. So in mineral form, the perspective simply gets attuned to the idea of service, although but has no awareness that it is serving. So here it gains it's fundamental urges. There are different urges to establish. These will be there for the rest of my journey. If I took a stab, I would say there are 7 urges to assimilate before being able to evolve into the next stage of evolution which is a plant. 1. Become self aware. 2. Define self. 3. The urge to explore...(curiosity), 4. Urge to think. 5. Urge to meet self identified needs, the urge to reflect, urge to create or self express, urge to be successful, to appreciate, , is there an urge towards self preservation. To become aware of others. To change a behaviour. To Change a line of thought. To develop complex thinking processes, such as lateral thinking. To develop linear thought. There is a hang of a lot more to this topic that needs to be explored.

Distraction

I have been pondering the concept of distraction lately. Mainly to do with looking at the link between concentration as a tool, and the substance of mind as the same creative energy that we are submersed in, to which through the window of our now, and the concentrated connection back through our imagination we are able to connect all the creative pieces together to empower an experiencable result. Wow, what a mouthful. Most importantly though, is the devastating effect that distraction has on this creative process.

If the true creative process involved the key components of concentration, imagination, presence in the present and connection or alignment of these to the source itself...being mind substance; then distraction is the component that is able to break each of the links that bind these creative components together. Distraction breaks concentration. Distraction dilutes Imagination, Distraction removes me from being present, and distraction breaks alignment.

So it seems to me, a great deal of what we are trying to achieve initially, is based on eliminating distraction.

Staying focused on one idea at a time. Cleaning up my imagination, and using it to elaborate deliberately on that same idea that I am focusing on. Staying aware and present, with that energy of this idea, feeling that the energy I am submersed in, is currently adopting the dna of that inner energy.

"how great the limitation of the history of an idea"

Based on the belief that I am immersed in a sea of infinite possibilities, the worst thing I can do is attach my focus to the history of any idea. I may be in a sea of possibility, but the boat I am in, is made of solid walls of conditioning, and historic decisions that make the whole vessel antique, so if my focus is on the history, then I am looking inside the boat, instead of taking in the beautiful sea views.

The more I live by default, the more I live in the history of my previous decisions. Who I am and what I am capable of are two important concepts I should be revisiting fresh every morning.

Since we are the proposed creators of our world, deciding that our potential, or the potential of a person, event, idea or experience based on it's history, or mine, is a major limiting factor in our ability to experience magic- even if the history is as close as yesterday. Since magic is only magical to someone who doesn't know how it is done, there tends to be a subconscious attraction to staying out of the 'know'. If I stay in a position where my view is constantly inside the boat...that which lies within my infinite potential will continue to elude me, and continue to surprise me when it occasionally due to karmic attraction jumps into the boat for me to experience it.

Think of it like this...are you exactly the same person today that you were yesterday? Or have you evolved? How often have you experienced something twice that had an amazing affect on you the first time you saw it, and the second time it paled by comparison. Is the person you are married to, really the same person day in, day out. Can you really take them for granted? Yet every day, we do this pre conceived judgement that our day will be the same....just another day at work/school. Just another day at the office. It is this attachment to the history of these ideas that sucks the life and the magic out of them.

Now the interesting thing is, we need to have some defaults. Imagine if we had to wake up every morning, and make decisions such as ones perhaps made prior to entering this life perspective: which galaxy I will go into, which solar system, which planet I will explore, which country and culture I will inhabit and endure. Imagine if each morning I had to choose which body I would live in. It would scarcely give me enough time to figure out what experiences I was going to do with my day, where I would get them, how long I will focus on them and what I intend to get out of my adventure. So it would make sense that I would have a certain amount of continuity, with some decisions anchored for efficiency. The issue is that I have carried this on. I have have created default experiencing activities, default reactions and behaviours, default mechanisms for coping with things, and I wonder why magic is absent from my world.

The ultimate detachment, is to awaken in the morning and have to decide what sort of entity you will inhabit today. Because you will have nothing orbiting you, as nothing external will recognise you. Imagine if you are a Guy today, and a woman tomorrow, or even a different woman from the day before, then your previous friends wont recognise you, it wont be your driver's license, nor your house, or job, or car, or bank account details. Not liking that idea, we anchor this entity.

So you keep your body the same, and that kind of makes sense, but what if we went to the next level to detach. What if you dropped your conditioning. You changed your behaviour and your reactions, so that you reacted differently to challenges. You would probably come home, and instead of sitting down in front of the tv you would do something different. Instead of going to bed at the same time you might go to bed earlier and visualize or later and meditate first, or ring a friend and tell them how amazing they are, or do a job you have been putting off, or plan a pay it forward activity for the next day thus doing something different with that time. Instead of eating lunch, you fast, or you take your lunch somewhere different that you haven't been before. Perhaps instead of eating your regular dinner, you try something radically different, or you do something differently like eat left handed, or blind folded, or have a picnic in front of the fireplace, or with candles, or under the moon outside. What are you capable of experiencing tomorrow, if you got out of the boat and went for a swim in the sea of infinite possibilities?

who am I

The question we ask ourselves, every other day as keen theosophers, philosophers, quantum physicists, religiously inclined, and general all-round soul searching suffer's is the age old conundrum of "who am I"

I have pondered this before in other entries, but of course as we all well know...each step taken down the path gives a different perspective from which to view the same idea. So here are the by-products of my new ponderings for you to consider. "Some say I am the observer" I used to like this idea, but now I have a slightly different take on it. I kind of like this new approach (at least as the flavour for this month) - "I am that which I am before I take up the action of observing". From this statement I have two angles to explore. One, Observing is a verb...an action. But I am a 'being'. An action is what I do. But who I am, is that which is before anything occurs. Any action is a deviation from being. Energy being, is quite different from Energy in motion.

The second part for me to explore is this: In this state of being prior to observing, there is nothing. I am ONE, and I am nothing (no thing that I can be aware of). For awareness would have to be an action. Therefore, even self awareness would be a point I would have to evolve to. Further evolution would result in me becoming aware of my surroundings; then my affect on those surroundings, and so on. If indeed, I was to become self aware, as the totality of all that is, for I would perceive that I was...due to the fact that I am not yet aware of anything else if indeed there is in fact anything else out there; then I would be very alone, even lonely, and there would be little for me to do, but to contemplate, and observe what I think of.

I am going to go out on a limb. Try not to get too caught up in the terminology, and replace words to suit your own level of acceptance.

I must be God. Why? Because God is omnipresent, and there is nothing outside of God. There cannot be God and Me. That would imply that there were two. If God, in whatever form or idea you conceptualise God to be, was everything, and had evolved to be self aware, then God would only know of itself. If God were a mind, there would need to be an observer of that mind. There would need to be the substance of mind. If God were able to observe one idea in mind, through another idea, each idea would feel real to the one being observed through.

How many observers are there? Actually...you answer that....only one. "ME" Everything else...is a perception...to you. There are many perspectives for the observer to view from, and from inside the mind of God...there is no time. So moving from observing through one idea to another would seemingly occur instantaneously, giving rise to the perception of a mind...made in the image of God's mind...housed within the perspective God observes from, that there were 'others' observing simultaneously=You & Me. Lets explore further. God replicates his own mind, in layer after layer after layer, going deeper and deeper like a dream within a dream within another dream. (seen Inception?) Effectively, this means, layers of minds, within minds, within minds, perhaps 12 deep? Once within these layers, we could easily get lost within our own perception of what is reality, but we would have this sense of something greater...pulling us back through the layers.

But where will be end up? The more layers we have gone down, the more unique the experiences become. What is there for us at the end of the journey of climbing back up the layers? Well my guess is Self awareness as God. What would we do...once we awaken that final layer to reach that realisation....hmmm, bury myself in my layers again, because self awareness of being only, is not that stimulation. And I can't express myself, nor do anything as God, because that would be to say there is someone else to express to, or something outside of myself that can be done.

This throws a new twist on the objective of evolvement and the thirst to evolve faster. What is the point if once I arrive I am going to realise that I had done it all on purpose, and then simply set off to do it, all over again.

This certainly could give new meaning to the idea that the true value is found not in the arriving, but in the process and journey itself.

the key to happiness

Maths is one of the fundamental keys to most answers in our well oiled well ordered Universe.

The hard part is working out the right formula to get an answer that fits. So it seems logical to me that there must be a fitting formula as a key to happiness. In pondering this I have concluded the following. Many if not most of us start out in a sub zero equation. We don't feel whole, so we seek to find that element of the equation that will give us a sense of feeling whole. We are generally conditioned to live in the material world, and due to equating our previous experiences of happiness to events that have occurred in our life, we tend to continue with this approach seeking externals. We perceive that once we buy that new car, or new home, or once we get that particular job or position, or that partner we have been looking for, that we will be happy and complete. We often hear that expression..."you complete me" The problem with this, is naturally, that as soon as we attach our perception of happiness to something external, we instantly create space between us and our happiness. This creates a lot of emptiness in the meantime. A lot of people then push to bring that other half towards them by force, not having the creative capability to do so they then gain it via debt. This results in them being surrounded with the reflection that they are doing this internally, and so they are faced with this goal of getting back to zero daily, paying off their debt.

If we could learn to detach our happiness from our physical environment, then we would have the capacity to start as zero. If we actually were aware of how much we already have above zero already, we would have both abundance experiences and endless available perspectives for appreciation. We have an infinite number of freely available experiences available to us if we look above zero. Imagine for a moment that the air was suddenly removed, or poisoned. Or that the earth's gravity was removed, or that the earth itself turned into molten lava. Imagine that the drinking water of the world became undrinkable, or vanished. Imagine for a moment that the sun lost it's power to shine, or the earth moved out of it's orbit.

Those are just a few ideas that instantly put us well above zero, if we could realise the preciousness of each or even one. And then there are all the senses. Oh to the taste of an organic tree ripened nectarine, peach or plum. Oh the delicious scent of the forest or sea air, of spring flowers, and just ripened rock melon. Ah the feel of the sun's warmth on your skin; the sensation of warm sand in your toes, and a warm bath/spa to soak in. Then there is the sound of rain on the roof when you are snug up in bed, the choir of nature, with all manner of birds, and insects, and the wind in the trees. The sound of someone's laughter, and sincere appreciation. Then there's the image of someone's smile especially when you were responsible for it. The sight of a beautiful view of nature, let alone the awesomeness of simply just being able to see.

Oh the capacity for a sense of appreciation that comes from a simply exercise of taking away the things that we take for granted.

Try waking up one day you have off from commitments, and try to spend your first hour without opening your eyes. Then imagine doing that for one whole day. Try putting ear plugs in your ears, so you have no capacity to hear at all for an hour, or a day. Try eating nothing but bread, and water for a day or a week. Try putting a terribly bad smelling shirt on that is just rancid to the nose, and wearing that for a day. Try holding your breath for 5 minutes and being told that tomorrow the air will be turned off for maintenance for just 20 mins. " sorry for the inconvenience - we only have to do this once every 10 million years to clean it up once the carbon filters get clogged".

Any of these concepts, - fundamental and sense related, start grounding you at a point already well above zero if you use them correctly. This way anything else that comes to you is then pure abundance. Happiness is more likely to persist due to the fact that you are starting in positive territory.

The other key to happiness is the release of expectations, which I have covered in another previous posting.

Peripheral Awareness

With Linear vision which is often the result of viewing consciousness through the entity mind, we focus on what is going on in our world relative to the entity. We spend our time in a perpetual state of management of the ideas at their various states of manifestation in our direct orbit, and potential. As we become peripherally aware, we start to see not only that we are a part of something much bigger, but that our potential stretches much further than we first realised. We start to see that we are no more than half the equation, and the old adage of for every action there is an equal reaction to reflect and enable you to see the consequences to the other parts of the equation. Here is an example: I have been involved in currency trading, and various other forms of investing over the years, as you will have seen if you read my other posts. I was trying to understand the purpose behind the incessant failures that have littered my past, knowing very well that syncronicity was in play. Why would it matter to fail, so significantly so totally...when one even small success wouldn't have made any life changing outcomes. The answers I got were this: Each time you failed you looked inward for answers. Your attempts to succeed use the physical plane sources as your hopes to succeed, yet you have a stronger lifetime desire to understand the true creative process. Each time you succeed it is logical that the entity mind will repeat what it did to replicate the outcome, so my focus will stay linear. And one more thing stood out. If I lift my focus peripherally to encompass all others involved in the thought I am considering manifesting, or the action I am considering doing, or the words I am considering saying, I will see the whole equation played out. Example: when I buy a lotto ticket...through the entity mind on linear focus I only see the vision of me winning the big prize. I will imagine that outcome from entity mind perspective only, and incorporate a limited connection with very closely orbiting people in my world. I imagine that they will simply appreciate the opportunity to be there with me, and be happy for me that I have won. But if I step back, and take a peripheral view, I will see this: thousands and thousands of people spent money they couldn't afford to buy lotto tickets in the hope that they will win and escape their world. Marriages break up, because of obsessions to win, and gambling problems. Mouths went unfed, and bills went unpaid, which made some businesses struggle with a great deal of financial stress, or worse some go bankrupt for lack of cashflow. The more peripheral you go, the wider the wave from the original action spreads. And it is spreading anyway, it is simply a case of whether you see it or not. And as it spreads so the Karmic value of your actions, your words, your thoughts accumulates. With Currency Trading, I remember the terrible feeling of waking up in the morning to see that I had lost everything overnight. Well that means that if I am successful at it, I am presenting that situation to someone else. And you are right, I am not responsible for how someone chooses to react to something, however, I will still reap the karma if they do react in that understandably predictable way. So I have learnt this today, and will put it into practice over the coming few days to train my awareness carefully from a peripheral perspective and project where I am able what effect my words may have not just in the immediate moment (reactionary) displayed before the entity mind, but upon the things in the orbit of that person receiving what I say, as they carry the effects of what I said with them beyond my experiencing realm. I will make a concerted effort to assess my intended actions and behaviour before I do it, for the same end. I will explore my beliefs, conditioning and perceptions with this concept in mind.

what is consciousness

I have been having this debate with myself for a little while now. Trying to determine what is consciousness. Is it the conscious awareness? Is it the boundaries of each aspect of mind that I the observer look through?

If consciousness was linked to my capacity to create, then it would make sense. For I can observe through many minds. The mind of a solitary idea, the mind of the entity, the mind of the group, the mind of the nation, the mind of humanity.

Can I expand my consciousness, or is consciousness actually the original mind substance that is all things, so that all I am doing is effectively peeling off layers of illusion, thus reveal more of what is already there, rather than 'expanding' it to make it more than it already is.

By believing I have to gain first...I am dis-empowering myself. I am creating a veil, and a gap that wasn't there, but has become a created truth. My journey then takes me on the process of re-empowering myself, and giving myself back what was always there.

I have been buying into a hierarchy that controls all the power. That I have to follow and appease all of these tasks before I will be allowed to even look at what is already mine. This is an interesting decision to believe this. What does it tell you about me? Moving forward. Where to from here. I am seeking to get out of the rat race I am in. Winning Lotto, is one way of doing this. Winning Big Wednesday is another, because these two supply me with a lot of energy to affect my current environment. It enables me to create the lifestyle without having to trade experiencing time for it. That is why the academy is flawed.

truth

to many people truth is something that they value very highly. To many it is the pinnacle foundation by which they govern their beliefs, condition themselves, and base their perceptions, all of which in themselves are interpretations, and therefore are not logically truths. So lets explore what truth is, and what the difference is between 'true', 'truth' and 'a truth'.

Please bear in mind, that everything I say, is only my opinion.

Here are my definitions of the 3. 'True' is often seen as the opposite to false. But of course this cannot be true in itself, because there is only one true, but an infinite number of falses. So, true is the idea, in the mind of the enquirer, that they expect the observer to furnish their question with.

It is often made easier for the observer by limiting the options offered to between 2 and 4 options, one of which is the 'correct' answer according to the enquirer. 'True' is deemed to be 'straight'.

Truth is what is seen to be correct purely in the eyes of the beholder. It is a fact within the boundaries of a limited reality, thus it is not a truth to anyone outside that those boundaries.

'a truth' is where there are more than one possible correct answer.

So based on my opinion there is no holy truth. Everything in the macrocosm is beyond the comprehension of the mind we are immersed in, and therefore experiencing through. And everything below us in the microcosm is only true according to the rules that govern it, which only apply to the boundary of the reality we are experiencing. If belief is used to define the ideas that are beyond our comprehension, then based on the nature of it being a belief...it is clearly not a truth...although it can be a truth to me. If there was one universal truth such as a substance we and all things are immersed in that enables us to 'be', and to experience then this substance would still be outside the boundaries of our comprehension, for which we would then require a belief to quantify it's existence.

If whether we believe it or not...if it were the only fundamental truth which would mean it must be unchanging...for as soon as it changes...it is no longer true to our original perception of it, and therefore it has changed. If something is infinite...how can it be true, for the very nature of infinite is that is ever growing, and therefore ever changing. This would mean that only it's core fundamentals could be the truth, or that what changes is in fact possibilities, but from within a finite realm, but one that is so vast that it would appear infinite.

So based on this idea, lets not get too attached to the idea that truth exists at all. On the basis that there is no universal truth, then I am a God, because...truth is in the eye of the observer only. Therefore whatever I decide is true...is truth. If I decide that there is a universal substance that permeates all things, that responds directly to me, because I am the observer, then this is true for me. Even if it was the only fundamental truth that existed even without my deciding it so, then after that point, everything else is whatever I decide.

If I decided it didn't exist, then to me as an observer, this would be true, because this is what I have summoned from it. So based on this idea...my beliefs become very powerful tools for shaping this substance.

What makes a belief stick. If there are layers of belief, then what determines which one has rank over the other.

So lets look at those beliefs, and start reviewing which ones I have had that are no longer functional, and start implementing new ones.

I believe that I am able to do telekinesis, heal people, and animals, and can instantly manifest things on this plane. I have believed this for a very long time. What then shifts it from being a belief to being a creative influence of the creative substance.

Option 1. I am operating inside a reality that doesn't allow me to have those abilities here, or doesn't allow me to have those abilities until such time as I have passed some tests that prove I am responsible enough to handle the power.

The flaw in this argument is that I already have the power. And that others here and now have these abilities, and have had them in the past.

So what ever reason I do not have these abilities can be traced to me setting a rule to prevent myself from experiencing these.

ok, so lets look at my fundamentals. Things that I say over and over, or that I have obviously accepted as gospel.

My life goal to date was to understand the true creative process. Objective being to become a master on this plane. I have concluded it seems that this process could take me years. I have not made a decision that it must happen this year. This is a problem. This apparent lack of conviction means I am still hoping for it to occur. I am hoping that the idea is true. I have not decided and am expecting it this week, or today. I do not anticipate or work towards the experiencing of it, but rather allow it to orbit in my potential in the same way winning lotto does.

So the question is how to bring these ideas into my inner sphere to experience them from this perspective...now. When I can see how to connect to them. Up until now I have required that connection...which most often has been money, to give myself permission to pull something into my experiencing realm. So money is energy. So effectively when I have been able to see the energy that I have that can collect that idea I have in my outer orbit, it has brought it in to the inner realm. So what is the metaphysical equivalent? Is it simply seeing the mind substance and bringing it alive. I am experiencing all sorts of energies. Some of them are very destructive. But is there really destructive energy? Or is it that all energy is the same, but rather that some energy sent forth, does not have direction. I guess this is where I still don't really understand what I am. Am I energy being...that I direct, or send out. Or am I a constant energy being, that I simply reverberate a signal into the greater energy being, that is the mind that I am in. And every reaction I cause, causes an action back. So it is simply a case of in numerous series of vibrations, being a communication between I and the Mind substance. So no energy actually moves, but rather affects the particle next to it, which in turn does the same for an indefinite period of time, until it reaches it's intended destination. Ok, so here is another idea. We are a mind inside a mind inside a mind etc. To which boundary we hold our consciousness as we ask for something, will determine how far into orbit our vibrational intent will reach. So if I close my eyes and visualize something in my imagination, then I am not drawing it to me, I am window shopping, to consider things to bring into my orbit. If I expand my consciousness to up take the whole planet, then I have the capacity to experience it. This is also seeing that it is the experience that wants me to observe it. This is why we are trying not to get caught up in the small details of issues, because this then is where our consciousness shrinks to, and so our capacity to think outside the square is limited. Hence the idea of seeing the big picture empowers us to create big.

Beliefs

A belief is something I create, that enables me to determine the worth of something. So it is a valuing system. I generally believe something to be good or bad, true of false, right or wrong, etc. So belief is the start of duality. Belief is a defining of potential...a harvesting of possibility.

It is a primary limiter of power.

Beliefs are the rules we engage regarding the things by which we cannot yet know for a fact. It is not a truth...except to us, or to group consciousness.

Exploring my beliefs enables me to challenge my own limitations. Because much of conditioning and beliefs work out of the subconscious area of the mind, they have the capacity to be enormous in number, far reaching in consequences, and vast in topics. So the best way forward is to be aware each day, and explore each and every area that comes into experience potential as it occurs.

Some areas...income potential, creative potential.

conditioning assessment

Here I am reviewing my programmed conditioning, beliefs, and perceptions in an effort to purify my mind, and get me back to being God. In this post I will deal with Conditioning, in the next one Beliefs, and in the last one perceptions. I will in each be looking at what is there now, and the triggers I use to activate them, and new ones by which to counter the automated responses I have.

Conditioning comes from Culture, parents morales and values being imparted, expectations of those you spend the most time with, and are related to fear of rejection, or loss.

I am a European, Male, Middle sibling, middle working class. As soon as I started off with "I am" my condition kicks in. I AM is who I am. The rest is not an illusion, but an idea for me to explore. It is a perspective of a thought I once had. The perspective is through that thought. You see when you think of an idea....lets say a car. Your mind generally starts with the external image of that idea, then you move onto the internal images, then on to any external experiences of the car, then any internal experiences. But what if you could be the car. What if you could experience you the driver, from the perspective of the car. To experience the excitement that is aroused in the driver by them just coming into your aura. That is what we as God did, with the Human Body. We have had them as play things....in the same way humans have cars as play things, for ages. Then one day we decided we would go and have an experience of 'being' human. And we discovered there was much to explore. So we stayed there exploring...for a long time...so long in fact that we forgot who we really were.

So lets start off with a great sense of detachment to everything we do. From now on...this human vehicle I am in, is the entity. Ideally I am going to disenfranchise even that, so it just becomes a glorified shell...a carcass or disguise that I wield, aiming of course to get to a point of detachment similar to that of an outfit to put on and take off.

It is also important to realise that due to who I really AM, I am able to change clothes in a heartbeat, therefore nothing is fixed, and nothing is certain. There is no Truth (other than who I AM...) there is only decisions I make. Ok, so this vehicle is currently: European, male, middle class, middle sibling. To understand that I can change all of this...is critical, because it is that truth that empowers me. I am not European, nor am I male, nor am I middle class. These are the tools I have been using...the outfits I have been wearing. Like any clothes I can cast them off and put on new ones. (Unless I am so attached to them, that I will not take them off). That is the whole point of this exercise. So there are behavioural responses that I have adopted because I previously feared the reactions of the observer. Then there are personality traits I have adopted which are aimed at achieving something I want that the observer has the capability to give me. So conditioning is based on a fear and reward system.

I am conditioned to believe I am human, to behave in a rational, logical manner, and to follow the generally accepted direction. I perceive that if I go against the crowd I will be persecuted. It is interesting to see what is a conditioning, what is a belief and what is a perception, and where I have been confusing them.

What else equates to conditioning? When to sleep, when the body becomes hungry or tired, when it gets irritable etc. These are conditions.

I have conditioned myself to like certain things such as sugar, and ice cream. I have conditioned myself to buy 3 of something instead of 1, or to by more than is necessary as my imitation of abundance. So all of my Likes, and dislikes, are conditioned. All of my fears, in fact anything emotional is conditioned. Procrastination is conditioned. Inaction, laughter in the face of something sad is conditioned.

I have conditioned myself to many things. Most of which are not that productive, but this is an assessment so lets simply start to cover topics, and look at the conditioning that has occurred, and what I am going to change going forward.

First Topic: Food

I am now conditioned to eat just once a day. I am going to condition myself to have food rest days. Monday, wed, and Friday will become my water only day, punctuated by being bought food by anyone else. Tues and Thurs will be my live food only days. Sat and Sun at this point I will not set any rules. I have been conditioned to believe that food is a necessity for the body's survival. Wheat has an affect on the body at them moment as a training tool. I accept the challenge of fulfilling the use of this training tool for now, acknowledging that in the future, it will have no affect on the body at all. I have conditioned my body to become addicted to sugar. So now the cells have grown receptors for sugar, and so crave it when I have not got any in my system. I have proven I can trump this addiction once before, so lets do that again. I have conditioned myself to "like" chilli and Lime crackers, fruit cheese, cottage cheese. Bread and Jam, and cheese. None of these are good for my body. I am now going to condition myself to eat only what adds value to my body, and my mind.

I am going to condition myself, to pause and in a state of awareness when any "desire" for food comes into mind. Biting my nails is a conditioned response.

So I guess it is to recognise that conditioned responses occur in view of a lack of anything better to substitute it.

The key to decision making

There are 4 tiers that make up the filters that I the observer experience through within this perspective of mind alone. These are: Conditioning-external and internal; Beliefs; Perceptions; and decision tools. In order to become the pure being I AM, I have to deliberately detach myself from my current perspective, and hold a state of awareness of being that is greater than these filters. So here, I am going to go through and clean house, and see what I come up with.

Conditioning is everything that I would consider to be the foundations of my current personality.

This has been fabricated in two different ways. The first is things that I have given permission to dictate conditions to me, and the second is the habits I have created for myself, when there is no terms being dictated. Even as a child, I choose to stay in the environment I am in and be conditioned. Even if this environment is cruel, or seemingly destructive, I choose to stay, because I deem it to be a better choice than the alternative.

These first core aspects which I would consider to be classified as values, are sourced from the time of my youth. Influences include my parents, teachers, mentors, and peers. The second way is from any environment I expose myself to for a prolonged period of time, on a regular basis, that requires me to adjust from something I had been doing. Areas could be work, hobbies, sport, or could be how I socialise, or the things I do when I am unoccupied by things that dictate terms to me.

I would describe myself as a morning person...(job created), that is honest, outgoing, hard working, loyal, generous, caring, helpful, friendly, and patient. (all but patience is based on conditioning from parental influences, and mentor influences when I was young.

Now here is the interesting thing. You could say I was like all of these things...yet, it is only true, because of a self fulfilling prophecy. You see, I continue to create/reflect an environment that is conducive to the sustenance of these traits. Inspite of the fact that I have had these traits for decades...these traits are not 'truths', they are chosen filters. If my environment were to change, with circumstances that deemed to require a new set of qualities to survive, I would again be faced with a decision, of change, or stay. If staying was to perish, I am likely to change, because instinct...which comes from "animal man" that which pre-dates the cognitively self aware spiritually connected man whence conditioning first became a consciously affectable. The goal is to of course reach up to a point beyond the consciousness of the self aware entity, to be more than the entity. This is will raise me beyond the point where my environment can affect me. To do this, I need to let go of the automated aspect of my conditioning, and make it deliberate choices.

Example: you could say that I was patient...in fact I am very patient, but that is only within the current environment I am in. I have a series of learned behaviours that trigger in all situations of my current environment. I even have a filter system that deals with newly arriving situations into my current environment, that tames my perception long enough for me to deal with them in a "patient' way. This can result in others perceiving that I am a patient person. But what would happen if I was put into a totally different environment. What about an asylum? What about a rest home? What about a class room full of kids with attention deficit disorder. What about a hospital for people who have memory loss.

Would I find my breaking point? Or would I adjust and adapt the skills I have gained for screening new situations into my old environment, and simply apply them there in the new environment? I believe I may only do that, if I am connected to achieving something greater. If I feel it will help me attain what I want to attain. So I have to have a powerful goal.

Lets test that theory. If I was taken away and put in the desert, where I was given a school to teach of kids who did not want to be taught. Kids who had been conditioned to hate europeans. I was told that my release depended upon my ability to teach these kids, who did not want to be taught by me...who in fact wanted to see me fail. I was only one class, and the class didn't matter to the kids, as it was ok in their schooling system for them to fail one class and still move on.

Would this result in me reaching a breaking point, that patience is supposed to prevent you from reaching. And honest...what if I woke up one day, and found myself in a hostile environment, with no resources, other than what I could steal. Would I do so, or is honesty only apply to people who are not hostile/and perceived enemy? If it were a case of dieing or being dishonest, would I choose to be dishonest because it is a lesser and temporary negative lost for them, than the loss for you (permanent). What if the thing you had to steal had significant sentimental value. Perhaps it is the last remain item of recently deceased child or parent.

What if you had the choice of kill yourself or chop off the limb of another human? After all, they are not their human bodies, they simply inhabit them.

You can see from these examples, that our conditioning is relative to our current environment.

The next step is beliefs. Now these can become as solid as conditioning, and often do over a decent length of time, however, unlike conditioning, beliefs are more readily changeable. And the more interested you are in moving forward to get somewhere, the more capable you are of changing your beliefs. The objective here is to see that each condition, and each belief is merely designed to be a stepping stone or stair to get you somewhere, then you are supposed to let it go, as soon as you no longer use it. So it should only be relevant for the experience that is in front of you. Once you realise that you are only limited down from omnipotence by your attachment to experiencing through the lenses of conditioning, beliefs, and perceptions; That you use these to make your creation bending decisions and in doing so define your human experiencing lens. Then perhaps you will take a more closer look at them to decide which ones if any are so important to hold on to.

Perceptions are the closest limiter we have on a day to day basis. They are the easiest to control, because they are fabricated at the time of the experience before us. The reason we have so much trouble with them is because we do not tend to be aware of our perceptions as we have them, therefore, we tend to make decisions and act based on the perceptions we create.

Why are we not aware? Because we are focusing on something else...usually a consequence to previous decisions.

Every decision I make has a consequence. I sacrifice something else, every time I make a decision. The sacrifice is related to the opportunity cost. If you realise that every decision creates a lost opportunities, being all other potential leading from that moment forward into infinite potential. If I turn left instead of right, I don't just lose the opportunity that was the turning of right = one opportunity, but I lose every potential that could have occurred as a result of turning right. This is significant, and of course, it is totally destructive to think that way directly, as you would end up going insane. (If I do nothing I end up losing both potentials, if I choose one, I will lose all other potentials to the opposite...therefore every choice is to fail). So there has to be a better way of looking at it. I think the general idea is to have an awareness of the potential that exists, so that you don't just choose one without thinking about the potential of the other. Thus you end up with the best choice. The only way to know what the best choice is...is to be connected to someone or thing that has a perspective that can view the results of my choices before I make them. This is what many people call their intuition.

I will come back to exploring more thoroughly what this actually is.

The reason it is so important to review the conditioning, beliefs, and to be aware of the perceptions I have combined to be the reasoning behind the decisions I make, is because many of these decisions are being made in a self destructive way, due to the illusionary nature of the information I use to justify my decisions. There isn't one decision I make that I make without it being influenced by my conditioning, beliefs, or perceptions. If you look at how loud the voices are/will is of Conditioning/beliefs and perceptions. How is it possible if I the observer are seated on this side of reality, with these three inbetween my ears, and the voice of one who is using my "intuition" to communicate to me the best choices to make. No wonder I never follow my intuition, I can hardly even hear it. Only once I have stilled my mind of it's incessant chatter or these voices, or better still cleared them out so my mind is empty and receptive. Then I will hear intuition clearly, without interference. So lets begin to the clean up. Lets relook at all conditioning, beliefs and perceptions, and aim to maintain my awareness in the now.

My objective is to control my decision making to align it to the one truth, I am God.

From here, everything else is a lens, which enables me to have a perceived experience, such as...what is life like as a human, with x, y, z issues, and a,b,c challenges. What decision will I make in this scenario? I am then immersing myself in this situation fully by "forgetting" I am actually a God to enable me to gain a true perspective of the experience.

I am going to do my conditioning assessment in a new post.