Finding myself

I have been looking for myself for many years. I have looked for myself through images....buying new clothes, new toys, new cars, and new experiences. I have looked for myself in new friends, new girl friends, new jobs, and new activities. I have looked for myself in numerous courses, endless books, an abundance of journals, and thousands of web searches. I have looked for myself, in self reflection, sought peer assessment, and even divine directives, yet nothing.

Today I went digging to start again. What is it to truly find myself. I have been on a journey to let go of all the illusions. I have let go of my desires, and ambitions, of my worldly possessions, my physical directions and I have reflected in meditation.

While in meditation, I had to let go of more. I still had more to let go.....the clothes on my back....the physical body I inhabit.....the thoughts I entertain in my mind.

Only then am I left?

Once I am there, what shall I add back? Will I add back the thoughts I have held in the past...do they serve to reflect my soul?

Will I add back the body I have....for all that is connected to it will return.

Will I add back the clothes....do I need them all?

Will I add back all the things? How many do I need? What role do they fulfill?