"how great the limitation of the history of an idea"

Based on the belief that I am immersed in a sea of infinite possibilities, the worst thing I can do is attach my focus to the history of any idea. I may be in a sea of possibility, but the boat I am in, is made of solid walls of conditioning, and historic decisions that make the whole vessel antique, so if my focus is on the history, then I am looking inside the boat, instead of taking in the beautiful sea views.

The more I live by default, the more I live in the history of my previous decisions. Who I am and what I am capable of are two important concepts I should be revisiting fresh every morning.

Since we are the proposed creators of our world, deciding that our potential, or the potential of a person, event, idea or experience based on it's history, or mine, is a major limiting factor in our ability to experience magic- even if the history is as close as yesterday. Since magic is only magical to someone who doesn't know how it is done, there tends to be a subconscious attraction to staying out of the 'know'. If I stay in a position where my view is constantly inside the boat...that which lies within my infinite potential will continue to elude me, and continue to surprise me when it occasionally due to karmic attraction jumps into the boat for me to experience it.

Think of it like this...are you exactly the same person today that you were yesterday? Or have you evolved? How often have you experienced something twice that had an amazing affect on you the first time you saw it, and the second time it paled by comparison. Is the person you are married to, really the same person day in, day out. Can you really take them for granted? Yet every day, we do this pre conceived judgement that our day will be the same....just another day at work/school. Just another day at the office. It is this attachment to the history of these ideas that sucks the life and the magic out of them.

Now the interesting thing is, we need to have some defaults. Imagine if we had to wake up every morning, and make decisions such as ones perhaps made prior to entering this life perspective: which galaxy I will go into, which solar system, which planet I will explore, which country and culture I will inhabit and endure. Imagine if each morning I had to choose which body I would live in. It would scarcely give me enough time to figure out what experiences I was going to do with my day, where I would get them, how long I will focus on them and what I intend to get out of my adventure. So it would make sense that I would have a certain amount of continuity, with some decisions anchored for efficiency. The issue is that I have carried this on. I have have created default experiencing activities, default reactions and behaviours, default mechanisms for coping with things, and I wonder why magic is absent from my world.

The ultimate detachment, is to awaken in the morning and have to decide what sort of entity you will inhabit today. Because you will have nothing orbiting you, as nothing external will recognise you. Imagine if you are a Guy today, and a woman tomorrow, or even a different woman from the day before, then your previous friends wont recognise you, it wont be your driver's license, nor your house, or job, or car, or bank account details. Not liking that idea, we anchor this entity.

So you keep your body the same, and that kind of makes sense, but what if we went to the next level to detach. What if you dropped your conditioning. You changed your behaviour and your reactions, so that you reacted differently to challenges. You would probably come home, and instead of sitting down in front of the tv you would do something different. Instead of going to bed at the same time you might go to bed earlier and visualize or later and meditate first, or ring a friend and tell them how amazing they are, or do a job you have been putting off, or plan a pay it forward activity for the next day thus doing something different with that time. Instead of eating lunch, you fast, or you take your lunch somewhere different that you haven't been before. Perhaps instead of eating your regular dinner, you try something radically different, or you do something differently like eat left handed, or blind folded, or have a picnic in front of the fireplace, or with candles, or under the moon outside. What are you capable of experiencing tomorrow, if you got out of the boat and went for a swim in the sea of infinite possibilities?

who am I

The question we ask ourselves, every other day as keen theosophers, philosophers, quantum physicists, religiously inclined, and general all-round soul searching suffer's is the age old conundrum of "who am I"

I have pondered this before in other entries, but of course as we all well know...each step taken down the path gives a different perspective from which to view the same idea. So here are the by-products of my new ponderings for you to consider. "Some say I am the observer" I used to like this idea, but now I have a slightly different take on it. I kind of like this new approach (at least as the flavour for this month) - "I am that which I am before I take up the action of observing". From this statement I have two angles to explore. One, Observing is a verb...an action. But I am a 'being'. An action is what I do. But who I am, is that which is before anything occurs. Any action is a deviation from being. Energy being, is quite different from Energy in motion.

The second part for me to explore is this: In this state of being prior to observing, there is nothing. I am ONE, and I am nothing (no thing that I can be aware of). For awareness would have to be an action. Therefore, even self awareness would be a point I would have to evolve to. Further evolution would result in me becoming aware of my surroundings; then my affect on those surroundings, and so on. If indeed, I was to become self aware, as the totality of all that is, for I would perceive that I was...due to the fact that I am not yet aware of anything else if indeed there is in fact anything else out there; then I would be very alone, even lonely, and there would be little for me to do, but to contemplate, and observe what I think of.

I am going to go out on a limb. Try not to get too caught up in the terminology, and replace words to suit your own level of acceptance.

I must be God. Why? Because God is omnipresent, and there is nothing outside of God. There cannot be God and Me. That would imply that there were two. If God, in whatever form or idea you conceptualise God to be, was everything, and had evolved to be self aware, then God would only know of itself. If God were a mind, there would need to be an observer of that mind. There would need to be the substance of mind. If God were able to observe one idea in mind, through another idea, each idea would feel real to the one being observed through.

How many observers are there? Actually...you answer that....only one. "ME" Everything else...is a perception...to you. There are many perspectives for the observer to view from, and from inside the mind of God...there is no time. So moving from observing through one idea to another would seemingly occur instantaneously, giving rise to the perception of a mind...made in the image of God's mind...housed within the perspective God observes from, that there were 'others' observing simultaneously=You & Me. Lets explore further. God replicates his own mind, in layer after layer after layer, going deeper and deeper like a dream within a dream within another dream. (seen Inception?) Effectively, this means, layers of minds, within minds, within minds, perhaps 12 deep? Once within these layers, we could easily get lost within our own perception of what is reality, but we would have this sense of something greater...pulling us back through the layers.

But where will be end up? The more layers we have gone down, the more unique the experiences become. What is there for us at the end of the journey of climbing back up the layers? Well my guess is Self awareness as God. What would we do...once we awaken that final layer to reach that realisation....hmmm, bury myself in my layers again, because self awareness of being only, is not that stimulation. And I can't express myself, nor do anything as God, because that would be to say there is someone else to express to, or something outside of myself that can be done.

This throws a new twist on the objective of evolvement and the thirst to evolve faster. What is the point if once I arrive I am going to realise that I had done it all on purpose, and then simply set off to do it, all over again.

This certainly could give new meaning to the idea that the true value is found not in the arriving, but in the process and journey itself.

the key to happiness

Maths is one of the fundamental keys to most answers in our well oiled well ordered Universe.

The hard part is working out the right formula to get an answer that fits. So it seems logical to me that there must be a fitting formula as a key to happiness. In pondering this I have concluded the following. Many if not most of us start out in a sub zero equation. We don't feel whole, so we seek to find that element of the equation that will give us a sense of feeling whole. We are generally conditioned to live in the material world, and due to equating our previous experiences of happiness to events that have occurred in our life, we tend to continue with this approach seeking externals. We perceive that once we buy that new car, or new home, or once we get that particular job or position, or that partner we have been looking for, that we will be happy and complete. We often hear that expression..."you complete me" The problem with this, is naturally, that as soon as we attach our perception of happiness to something external, we instantly create space between us and our happiness. This creates a lot of emptiness in the meantime. A lot of people then push to bring that other half towards them by force, not having the creative capability to do so they then gain it via debt. This results in them being surrounded with the reflection that they are doing this internally, and so they are faced with this goal of getting back to zero daily, paying off their debt.

If we could learn to detach our happiness from our physical environment, then we would have the capacity to start as zero. If we actually were aware of how much we already have above zero already, we would have both abundance experiences and endless available perspectives for appreciation. We have an infinite number of freely available experiences available to us if we look above zero. Imagine for a moment that the air was suddenly removed, or poisoned. Or that the earth's gravity was removed, or that the earth itself turned into molten lava. Imagine that the drinking water of the world became undrinkable, or vanished. Imagine for a moment that the sun lost it's power to shine, or the earth moved out of it's orbit.

Those are just a few ideas that instantly put us well above zero, if we could realise the preciousness of each or even one. And then there are all the senses. Oh to the taste of an organic tree ripened nectarine, peach or plum. Oh the delicious scent of the forest or sea air, of spring flowers, and just ripened rock melon. Ah the feel of the sun's warmth on your skin; the sensation of warm sand in your toes, and a warm bath/spa to soak in. Then there is the sound of rain on the roof when you are snug up in bed, the choir of nature, with all manner of birds, and insects, and the wind in the trees. The sound of someone's laughter, and sincere appreciation. Then there's the image of someone's smile especially when you were responsible for it. The sight of a beautiful view of nature, let alone the awesomeness of simply just being able to see.

Oh the capacity for a sense of appreciation that comes from a simply exercise of taking away the things that we take for granted.

Try waking up one day you have off from commitments, and try to spend your first hour without opening your eyes. Then imagine doing that for one whole day. Try putting ear plugs in your ears, so you have no capacity to hear at all for an hour, or a day. Try eating nothing but bread, and water for a day or a week. Try putting a terribly bad smelling shirt on that is just rancid to the nose, and wearing that for a day. Try holding your breath for 5 minutes and being told that tomorrow the air will be turned off for maintenance for just 20 mins. " sorry for the inconvenience - we only have to do this once every 10 million years to clean it up once the carbon filters get clogged".

Any of these concepts, - fundamental and sense related, start grounding you at a point already well above zero if you use them correctly. This way anything else that comes to you is then pure abundance. Happiness is more likely to persist due to the fact that you are starting in positive territory.

The other key to happiness is the release of expectations, which I have covered in another previous posting.

Peripheral Awareness

With Linear vision which is often the result of viewing consciousness through the entity mind, we focus on what is going on in our world relative to the entity. We spend our time in a perpetual state of management of the ideas at their various states of manifestation in our direct orbit, and potential. As we become peripherally aware, we start to see not only that we are a part of something much bigger, but that our potential stretches much further than we first realised. We start to see that we are no more than half the equation, and the old adage of for every action there is an equal reaction to reflect and enable you to see the consequences to the other parts of the equation. Here is an example: I have been involved in currency trading, and various other forms of investing over the years, as you will have seen if you read my other posts. I was trying to understand the purpose behind the incessant failures that have littered my past, knowing very well that syncronicity was in play. Why would it matter to fail, so significantly so totally...when one even small success wouldn't have made any life changing outcomes. The answers I got were this: Each time you failed you looked inward for answers. Your attempts to succeed use the physical plane sources as your hopes to succeed, yet you have a stronger lifetime desire to understand the true creative process. Each time you succeed it is logical that the entity mind will repeat what it did to replicate the outcome, so my focus will stay linear. And one more thing stood out. If I lift my focus peripherally to encompass all others involved in the thought I am considering manifesting, or the action I am considering doing, or the words I am considering saying, I will see the whole equation played out. Example: when I buy a lotto ticket...through the entity mind on linear focus I only see the vision of me winning the big prize. I will imagine that outcome from entity mind perspective only, and incorporate a limited connection with very closely orbiting people in my world. I imagine that they will simply appreciate the opportunity to be there with me, and be happy for me that I have won. But if I step back, and take a peripheral view, I will see this: thousands and thousands of people spent money they couldn't afford to buy lotto tickets in the hope that they will win and escape their world. Marriages break up, because of obsessions to win, and gambling problems. Mouths went unfed, and bills went unpaid, which made some businesses struggle with a great deal of financial stress, or worse some go bankrupt for lack of cashflow. The more peripheral you go, the wider the wave from the original action spreads. And it is spreading anyway, it is simply a case of whether you see it or not. And as it spreads so the Karmic value of your actions, your words, your thoughts accumulates. With Currency Trading, I remember the terrible feeling of waking up in the morning to see that I had lost everything overnight. Well that means that if I am successful at it, I am presenting that situation to someone else. And you are right, I am not responsible for how someone chooses to react to something, however, I will still reap the karma if they do react in that understandably predictable way. So I have learnt this today, and will put it into practice over the coming few days to train my awareness carefully from a peripheral perspective and project where I am able what effect my words may have not just in the immediate moment (reactionary) displayed before the entity mind, but upon the things in the orbit of that person receiving what I say, as they carry the effects of what I said with them beyond my experiencing realm. I will make a concerted effort to assess my intended actions and behaviour before I do it, for the same end. I will explore my beliefs, conditioning and perceptions with this concept in mind.

what is consciousness

I have been having this debate with myself for a little while now. Trying to determine what is consciousness. Is it the conscious awareness? Is it the boundaries of each aspect of mind that I the observer look through?

If consciousness was linked to my capacity to create, then it would make sense. For I can observe through many minds. The mind of a solitary idea, the mind of the entity, the mind of the group, the mind of the nation, the mind of humanity.

Can I expand my consciousness, or is consciousness actually the original mind substance that is all things, so that all I am doing is effectively peeling off layers of illusion, thus reveal more of what is already there, rather than 'expanding' it to make it more than it already is.

By believing I have to gain first...I am dis-empowering myself. I am creating a veil, and a gap that wasn't there, but has become a created truth. My journey then takes me on the process of re-empowering myself, and giving myself back what was always there.

I have been buying into a hierarchy that controls all the power. That I have to follow and appease all of these tasks before I will be allowed to even look at what is already mine. This is an interesting decision to believe this. What does it tell you about me? Moving forward. Where to from here. I am seeking to get out of the rat race I am in. Winning Lotto, is one way of doing this. Winning Big Wednesday is another, because these two supply me with a lot of energy to affect my current environment. It enables me to create the lifestyle without having to trade experiencing time for it. That is why the academy is flawed.

truth

to many people truth is something that they value very highly. To many it is the pinnacle foundation by which they govern their beliefs, condition themselves, and base their perceptions, all of which in themselves are interpretations, and therefore are not logically truths. So lets explore what truth is, and what the difference is between 'true', 'truth' and 'a truth'.

Please bear in mind, that everything I say, is only my opinion.

Here are my definitions of the 3. 'True' is often seen as the opposite to false. But of course this cannot be true in itself, because there is only one true, but an infinite number of falses. So, true is the idea, in the mind of the enquirer, that they expect the observer to furnish their question with.

It is often made easier for the observer by limiting the options offered to between 2 and 4 options, one of which is the 'correct' answer according to the enquirer. 'True' is deemed to be 'straight'.

Truth is what is seen to be correct purely in the eyes of the beholder. It is a fact within the boundaries of a limited reality, thus it is not a truth to anyone outside that those boundaries.

'a truth' is where there are more than one possible correct answer.

So based on my opinion there is no holy truth. Everything in the macrocosm is beyond the comprehension of the mind we are immersed in, and therefore experiencing through. And everything below us in the microcosm is only true according to the rules that govern it, which only apply to the boundary of the reality we are experiencing. If belief is used to define the ideas that are beyond our comprehension, then based on the nature of it being a belief...it is clearly not a truth...although it can be a truth to me. If there was one universal truth such as a substance we and all things are immersed in that enables us to 'be', and to experience then this substance would still be outside the boundaries of our comprehension, for which we would then require a belief to quantify it's existence.

If whether we believe it or not...if it were the only fundamental truth which would mean it must be unchanging...for as soon as it changes...it is no longer true to our original perception of it, and therefore it has changed. If something is infinite...how can it be true, for the very nature of infinite is that is ever growing, and therefore ever changing. This would mean that only it's core fundamentals could be the truth, or that what changes is in fact possibilities, but from within a finite realm, but one that is so vast that it would appear infinite.

So based on this idea, lets not get too attached to the idea that truth exists at all. On the basis that there is no universal truth, then I am a God, because...truth is in the eye of the observer only. Therefore whatever I decide is true...is truth. If I decide that there is a universal substance that permeates all things, that responds directly to me, because I am the observer, then this is true for me. Even if it was the only fundamental truth that existed even without my deciding it so, then after that point, everything else is whatever I decide.

If I decided it didn't exist, then to me as an observer, this would be true, because this is what I have summoned from it. So based on this idea...my beliefs become very powerful tools for shaping this substance.

What makes a belief stick. If there are layers of belief, then what determines which one has rank over the other.

So lets look at those beliefs, and start reviewing which ones I have had that are no longer functional, and start implementing new ones.

I believe that I am able to do telekinesis, heal people, and animals, and can instantly manifest things on this plane. I have believed this for a very long time. What then shifts it from being a belief to being a creative influence of the creative substance.

Option 1. I am operating inside a reality that doesn't allow me to have those abilities here, or doesn't allow me to have those abilities until such time as I have passed some tests that prove I am responsible enough to handle the power.

The flaw in this argument is that I already have the power. And that others here and now have these abilities, and have had them in the past.

So what ever reason I do not have these abilities can be traced to me setting a rule to prevent myself from experiencing these.

ok, so lets look at my fundamentals. Things that I say over and over, or that I have obviously accepted as gospel.

My life goal to date was to understand the true creative process. Objective being to become a master on this plane. I have concluded it seems that this process could take me years. I have not made a decision that it must happen this year. This is a problem. This apparent lack of conviction means I am still hoping for it to occur. I am hoping that the idea is true. I have not decided and am expecting it this week, or today. I do not anticipate or work towards the experiencing of it, but rather allow it to orbit in my potential in the same way winning lotto does.

So the question is how to bring these ideas into my inner sphere to experience them from this perspective...now. When I can see how to connect to them. Up until now I have required that connection...which most often has been money, to give myself permission to pull something into my experiencing realm. So money is energy. So effectively when I have been able to see the energy that I have that can collect that idea I have in my outer orbit, it has brought it in to the inner realm. So what is the metaphysical equivalent? Is it simply seeing the mind substance and bringing it alive. I am experiencing all sorts of energies. Some of them are very destructive. But is there really destructive energy? Or is it that all energy is the same, but rather that some energy sent forth, does not have direction. I guess this is where I still don't really understand what I am. Am I energy being...that I direct, or send out. Or am I a constant energy being, that I simply reverberate a signal into the greater energy being, that is the mind that I am in. And every reaction I cause, causes an action back. So it is simply a case of in numerous series of vibrations, being a communication between I and the Mind substance. So no energy actually moves, but rather affects the particle next to it, which in turn does the same for an indefinite period of time, until it reaches it's intended destination. Ok, so here is another idea. We are a mind inside a mind inside a mind etc. To which boundary we hold our consciousness as we ask for something, will determine how far into orbit our vibrational intent will reach. So if I close my eyes and visualize something in my imagination, then I am not drawing it to me, I am window shopping, to consider things to bring into my orbit. If I expand my consciousness to up take the whole planet, then I have the capacity to experience it. This is also seeing that it is the experience that wants me to observe it. This is why we are trying not to get caught up in the small details of issues, because this then is where our consciousness shrinks to, and so our capacity to think outside the square is limited. Hence the idea of seeing the big picture empowers us to create big.

Beliefs

A belief is something I create, that enables me to determine the worth of something. So it is a valuing system. I generally believe something to be good or bad, true of false, right or wrong, etc. So belief is the start of duality. Belief is a defining of potential...a harvesting of possibility.

It is a primary limiter of power.

Beliefs are the rules we engage regarding the things by which we cannot yet know for a fact. It is not a truth...except to us, or to group consciousness.

Exploring my beliefs enables me to challenge my own limitations. Because much of conditioning and beliefs work out of the subconscious area of the mind, they have the capacity to be enormous in number, far reaching in consequences, and vast in topics. So the best way forward is to be aware each day, and explore each and every area that comes into experience potential as it occurs.

Some areas...income potential, creative potential.

conditioning assessment

Here I am reviewing my programmed conditioning, beliefs, and perceptions in an effort to purify my mind, and get me back to being God. In this post I will deal with Conditioning, in the next one Beliefs, and in the last one perceptions. I will in each be looking at what is there now, and the triggers I use to activate them, and new ones by which to counter the automated responses I have.

Conditioning comes from Culture, parents morales and values being imparted, expectations of those you spend the most time with, and are related to fear of rejection, or loss.

I am a European, Male, Middle sibling, middle working class. As soon as I started off with "I am" my condition kicks in. I AM is who I am. The rest is not an illusion, but an idea for me to explore. It is a perspective of a thought I once had. The perspective is through that thought. You see when you think of an idea....lets say a car. Your mind generally starts with the external image of that idea, then you move onto the internal images, then on to any external experiences of the car, then any internal experiences. But what if you could be the car. What if you could experience you the driver, from the perspective of the car. To experience the excitement that is aroused in the driver by them just coming into your aura. That is what we as God did, with the Human Body. We have had them as play things....in the same way humans have cars as play things, for ages. Then one day we decided we would go and have an experience of 'being' human. And we discovered there was much to explore. So we stayed there exploring...for a long time...so long in fact that we forgot who we really were.

So lets start off with a great sense of detachment to everything we do. From now on...this human vehicle I am in, is the entity. Ideally I am going to disenfranchise even that, so it just becomes a glorified shell...a carcass or disguise that I wield, aiming of course to get to a point of detachment similar to that of an outfit to put on and take off.

It is also important to realise that due to who I really AM, I am able to change clothes in a heartbeat, therefore nothing is fixed, and nothing is certain. There is no Truth (other than who I AM...) there is only decisions I make. Ok, so this vehicle is currently: European, male, middle class, middle sibling. To understand that I can change all of this...is critical, because it is that truth that empowers me. I am not European, nor am I male, nor am I middle class. These are the tools I have been using...the outfits I have been wearing. Like any clothes I can cast them off and put on new ones. (Unless I am so attached to them, that I will not take them off). That is the whole point of this exercise. So there are behavioural responses that I have adopted because I previously feared the reactions of the observer. Then there are personality traits I have adopted which are aimed at achieving something I want that the observer has the capability to give me. So conditioning is based on a fear and reward system.

I am conditioned to believe I am human, to behave in a rational, logical manner, and to follow the generally accepted direction. I perceive that if I go against the crowd I will be persecuted. It is interesting to see what is a conditioning, what is a belief and what is a perception, and where I have been confusing them.

What else equates to conditioning? When to sleep, when the body becomes hungry or tired, when it gets irritable etc. These are conditions.

I have conditioned myself to like certain things such as sugar, and ice cream. I have conditioned myself to buy 3 of something instead of 1, or to by more than is necessary as my imitation of abundance. So all of my Likes, and dislikes, are conditioned. All of my fears, in fact anything emotional is conditioned. Procrastination is conditioned. Inaction, laughter in the face of something sad is conditioned.

I have conditioned myself to many things. Most of which are not that productive, but this is an assessment so lets simply start to cover topics, and look at the conditioning that has occurred, and what I am going to change going forward.

First Topic: Food

I am now conditioned to eat just once a day. I am going to condition myself to have food rest days. Monday, wed, and Friday will become my water only day, punctuated by being bought food by anyone else. Tues and Thurs will be my live food only days. Sat and Sun at this point I will not set any rules. I have been conditioned to believe that food is a necessity for the body's survival. Wheat has an affect on the body at them moment as a training tool. I accept the challenge of fulfilling the use of this training tool for now, acknowledging that in the future, it will have no affect on the body at all. I have conditioned my body to become addicted to sugar. So now the cells have grown receptors for sugar, and so crave it when I have not got any in my system. I have proven I can trump this addiction once before, so lets do that again. I have conditioned myself to "like" chilli and Lime crackers, fruit cheese, cottage cheese. Bread and Jam, and cheese. None of these are good for my body. I am now going to condition myself to eat only what adds value to my body, and my mind.

I am going to condition myself, to pause and in a state of awareness when any "desire" for food comes into mind. Biting my nails is a conditioned response.

So I guess it is to recognise that conditioned responses occur in view of a lack of anything better to substitute it.

The key to decision making

There are 4 tiers that make up the filters that I the observer experience through within this perspective of mind alone. These are: Conditioning-external and internal; Beliefs; Perceptions; and decision tools. In order to become the pure being I AM, I have to deliberately detach myself from my current perspective, and hold a state of awareness of being that is greater than these filters. So here, I am going to go through and clean house, and see what I come up with.

Conditioning is everything that I would consider to be the foundations of my current personality.

This has been fabricated in two different ways. The first is things that I have given permission to dictate conditions to me, and the second is the habits I have created for myself, when there is no terms being dictated. Even as a child, I choose to stay in the environment I am in and be conditioned. Even if this environment is cruel, or seemingly destructive, I choose to stay, because I deem it to be a better choice than the alternative.

These first core aspects which I would consider to be classified as values, are sourced from the time of my youth. Influences include my parents, teachers, mentors, and peers. The second way is from any environment I expose myself to for a prolonged period of time, on a regular basis, that requires me to adjust from something I had been doing. Areas could be work, hobbies, sport, or could be how I socialise, or the things I do when I am unoccupied by things that dictate terms to me.

I would describe myself as a morning person...(job created), that is honest, outgoing, hard working, loyal, generous, caring, helpful, friendly, and patient. (all but patience is based on conditioning from parental influences, and mentor influences when I was young.

Now here is the interesting thing. You could say I was like all of these things...yet, it is only true, because of a self fulfilling prophecy. You see, I continue to create/reflect an environment that is conducive to the sustenance of these traits. Inspite of the fact that I have had these traits for decades...these traits are not 'truths', they are chosen filters. If my environment were to change, with circumstances that deemed to require a new set of qualities to survive, I would again be faced with a decision, of change, or stay. If staying was to perish, I am likely to change, because instinct...which comes from "animal man" that which pre-dates the cognitively self aware spiritually connected man whence conditioning first became a consciously affectable. The goal is to of course reach up to a point beyond the consciousness of the self aware entity, to be more than the entity. This is will raise me beyond the point where my environment can affect me. To do this, I need to let go of the automated aspect of my conditioning, and make it deliberate choices.

Example: you could say that I was patient...in fact I am very patient, but that is only within the current environment I am in. I have a series of learned behaviours that trigger in all situations of my current environment. I even have a filter system that deals with newly arriving situations into my current environment, that tames my perception long enough for me to deal with them in a "patient' way. This can result in others perceiving that I am a patient person. But what would happen if I was put into a totally different environment. What about an asylum? What about a rest home? What about a class room full of kids with attention deficit disorder. What about a hospital for people who have memory loss.

Would I find my breaking point? Or would I adjust and adapt the skills I have gained for screening new situations into my old environment, and simply apply them there in the new environment? I believe I may only do that, if I am connected to achieving something greater. If I feel it will help me attain what I want to attain. So I have to have a powerful goal.

Lets test that theory. If I was taken away and put in the desert, where I was given a school to teach of kids who did not want to be taught. Kids who had been conditioned to hate europeans. I was told that my release depended upon my ability to teach these kids, who did not want to be taught by me...who in fact wanted to see me fail. I was only one class, and the class didn't matter to the kids, as it was ok in their schooling system for them to fail one class and still move on.

Would this result in me reaching a breaking point, that patience is supposed to prevent you from reaching. And honest...what if I woke up one day, and found myself in a hostile environment, with no resources, other than what I could steal. Would I do so, or is honesty only apply to people who are not hostile/and perceived enemy? If it were a case of dieing or being dishonest, would I choose to be dishonest because it is a lesser and temporary negative lost for them, than the loss for you (permanent). What if the thing you had to steal had significant sentimental value. Perhaps it is the last remain item of recently deceased child or parent.

What if you had the choice of kill yourself or chop off the limb of another human? After all, they are not their human bodies, they simply inhabit them.

You can see from these examples, that our conditioning is relative to our current environment.

The next step is beliefs. Now these can become as solid as conditioning, and often do over a decent length of time, however, unlike conditioning, beliefs are more readily changeable. And the more interested you are in moving forward to get somewhere, the more capable you are of changing your beliefs. The objective here is to see that each condition, and each belief is merely designed to be a stepping stone or stair to get you somewhere, then you are supposed to let it go, as soon as you no longer use it. So it should only be relevant for the experience that is in front of you. Once you realise that you are only limited down from omnipotence by your attachment to experiencing through the lenses of conditioning, beliefs, and perceptions; That you use these to make your creation bending decisions and in doing so define your human experiencing lens. Then perhaps you will take a more closer look at them to decide which ones if any are so important to hold on to.

Perceptions are the closest limiter we have on a day to day basis. They are the easiest to control, because they are fabricated at the time of the experience before us. The reason we have so much trouble with them is because we do not tend to be aware of our perceptions as we have them, therefore, we tend to make decisions and act based on the perceptions we create.

Why are we not aware? Because we are focusing on something else...usually a consequence to previous decisions.

Every decision I make has a consequence. I sacrifice something else, every time I make a decision. The sacrifice is related to the opportunity cost. If you realise that every decision creates a lost opportunities, being all other potential leading from that moment forward into infinite potential. If I turn left instead of right, I don't just lose the opportunity that was the turning of right = one opportunity, but I lose every potential that could have occurred as a result of turning right. This is significant, and of course, it is totally destructive to think that way directly, as you would end up going insane. (If I do nothing I end up losing both potentials, if I choose one, I will lose all other potentials to the opposite...therefore every choice is to fail). So there has to be a better way of looking at it. I think the general idea is to have an awareness of the potential that exists, so that you don't just choose one without thinking about the potential of the other. Thus you end up with the best choice. The only way to know what the best choice is...is to be connected to someone or thing that has a perspective that can view the results of my choices before I make them. This is what many people call their intuition.

I will come back to exploring more thoroughly what this actually is.

The reason it is so important to review the conditioning, beliefs, and to be aware of the perceptions I have combined to be the reasoning behind the decisions I make, is because many of these decisions are being made in a self destructive way, due to the illusionary nature of the information I use to justify my decisions. There isn't one decision I make that I make without it being influenced by my conditioning, beliefs, or perceptions. If you look at how loud the voices are/will is of Conditioning/beliefs and perceptions. How is it possible if I the observer are seated on this side of reality, with these three inbetween my ears, and the voice of one who is using my "intuition" to communicate to me the best choices to make. No wonder I never follow my intuition, I can hardly even hear it. Only once I have stilled my mind of it's incessant chatter or these voices, or better still cleared them out so my mind is empty and receptive. Then I will hear intuition clearly, without interference. So lets begin to the clean up. Lets relook at all conditioning, beliefs and perceptions, and aim to maintain my awareness in the now.

My objective is to control my decision making to align it to the one truth, I am God.

From here, everything else is a lens, which enables me to have a perceived experience, such as...what is life like as a human, with x, y, z issues, and a,b,c challenges. What decision will I make in this scenario? I am then immersing myself in this situation fully by "forgetting" I am actually a God to enable me to gain a true perspective of the experience.

I am going to do my conditioning assessment in a new post.