Thursday, May 5, 2011

Happiness

Wow, I have been away a long time, lost in the grind. Today I am not sure if I am back because I am procrastinating unwilling to partake for a time in that grind, instead preferring to seek some measure of that illusive stuff the population were born to experience, but instead became conditioned to pursue it, sold on the idea that it eludes us...happiness; or, if I am back because I have awoken again. My disappearance from both Theosophy and here, coincided with the return of my wife from her job in Korea. Not coincidentally I am back, because she has gone back to Korea.
Her return is related to the fact that she is unhappy here. This has led me to ponder about happiness.
In our lifetime "God" created only one day in our lives where we were allowed to be happy......
Today!
Most people whether they like to admit it or not, live in the past focusing on their mistakes or precious moments. A small group focus on their future, some of them engage in enough action to make that future a reality, yet happiness eludes them both because neither of them live in today!
Initially when we look into "today" it appears there is nothing there. From here we rush into the past to find out why today is empty or to relive some past experience as a quick fix, or if so inclined we head off into the future through our imagination and fantasize exploring what might be in an effort to fill it (our today) at some point.
After a time, the noise of the now brings us crashing back into the present like a horizontal bungy. It is like an act of "God" answering the prayers we keep while in the past or future to experience a new state - one of happiness. But when we arrive hoping to see that our now has magically transformed while we were gone and see nothing there, then we tend to slide off into the opposite spectrum of where we were, those of us from the future searching out the past and visa versa to see if we were simply looking on the wrong side of the fence.
By days end we fall to the pillow once more exhausted from our toil of exploration, aged and poorer, and there we drift off to into the comfort of a different kind of dream.
Meanwhile, there in the stillness, in that place we saw nothing Happiness waits ever patient, never deterred by the fact that we do not recognize it, for it understands that when anyone looks into today their eyes are clouded by perception. This perception blocks their true vision and stops them from being able to see who they truly are and what they really want to experience.
Most people I presume go through their whole life never taking off their perception eye-wear. Conditioned by media and family, in a perpetual environment of blind leading the blind.
It is generally not discovered that you are even wearing this eye-wear until you give up your desires which releases you from both your past and your future and makes it tenable to live in the present long enough to discover what is actually there. You find there is actually a great deal to experience both internally and externally, much of which is extrapolated through helping others. You discover that the "surprises" that manifest in abundance gift you with a higher degree of joy than anything you can imagine you want in the future. You discover that when you help someone, or simply appreciate what you have around you, the quality of your feeling is greater than anything you can generate through living in your past.
Each person you help, affects everyone around them- each one becoming a seed for a new surprise. Only when you are still, present and awake to be directed appropriately to help others will you know the place where happiness resides.
After writing my thoughts I proceeded to google pages of content on Happiness to see what others thought. I liked this one:
Something I had been thinking about but didn't know where it fitted, so I fitted it in at the end:
In badminton a player will train for 10 years to win something prestigious. Within a few moments of the victorious final game being over there is intense jubilation. It is relived with slowly decreasing sense of enthralment with each social interaction over the next 24-48 hours. Then all but the odd flash of memory is engaged for moments as the social interaction spreads till each person, down to colleagues and more distant relatives and friends connect with you for the first time since your success. Then it is gone. 10 years invested, and the void that should have been permanently filled is once again empty. The truth of the matter being that it only filled entirely upon completion, but began emptying immediately.

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