Change and potential

In every given moment the chains of that which hold me back from my true potential are the current habits that I have. As soon as I break those habits, I will break through and realise a greater degree of my potential than what I am seeing now. Wanting is futile, and serves to do nothing more than entertain me. Be the change, for that which I have wanted and seen is there on the other side of life once those changes are implemented.

"will" I have or just want.

Exploring experiences is supposed to be our task here. The problem is somewhere along the line we got the idea we had to create the experience, and we lost our way. Now we have stepped back even further. Now few people create, most people just want to create. I have been exploring this concept, and following are my notes to date. I will add to it as I learn more.

Step 1. Start with a crystal clear picture of an experience that you are interested and motivated to have. Imagine every element from every direction from INSIDE your experience. Submersing yourself in the idea moves the experience from being a "want" to a reality - like a dream is real to you while you are in it. Compare this to a a 'want' which is viewed from outside of the experience, looking in. One of the key habits of a 'wanter' is that they separate themselves from their desire experience creating a gap which they justify holding on to. This gap becomes their reality. They put more belief, more focus time, and more energy into this gap than their desire. They live inside the outside of their desire, instead of inside their desire.

Your imagination is the architects design room. It is the place of sculpting, and designing. When you exit your imagination most of us, go "back to reality". In doing this...we are behaving and confirming, and therefore creating, that the design work IS our experience. We enter into the plane where we should be receiving the experience, and we create this gap of space and go back to "wanting". From the pre experiencing realm of mind (the architects office) we need to leave with an expectation of action from the volunteers in the Universe whose job it is to bring that experience about. You have to realise that you are an integral part of a team. The rest of the team are all doing their role, everyone, but you. It is everyone's objective to have the same experience, each entity having their own perspective of the same experience. But without you, the experience doesn't happen and so everyone misses out. You are not alone. You are not the creator, or go getter. You are the address for delivery -physical experiencer. Now rewind back to the part of the last sentence " without you, the experience doesn't happen". This is where we go wrong. We consciously try to create the experience. We come out of the architects office all motivated and we then go about 'trying' to manifest the necessary components of the experience. This is of course not our job, because at best, the only thing we could possibly do is manifest the rudimentary elements of the physical experience. An example-we imagine a perfect holiday. We explore it in our imagination, and come out into the physical plane. From here we create the gap by saying 'when I can afford it' or 'when I have time' or 'when such and such an event occurs first'. Or we straight away action it, and race off to book our flights, and accommodation, insurance, and all other things. But no matter what, we cannot control the rest of the universe, and we cannot create the quality. We cannot control the fact that our plane is delayed, or returns or gets diverted during flight due to mechanical issues. We cannot control that the taxi driver at the other end is rude, or angry due to a run in with his boss or wife prior to meeting up with you. You cannot control the mix up with your hotel booking, or that the room is not anything like the pictures you viewed on line when making the booking. You cannot control the weather, the instances of being fleeced by experienced hawkers, by the spillage on your clothes and on an on it goes. Basically you control nothing that contributes to the quality of your experience. Once you fully grasp this you will realise you have to take a totally different approach, and once you do you will see a completely different outcome occurs.

At the moment you live your life as an individual with different hats on. You have your relationship hat, your work hat, your friend hat, and even your public hat. (more about these hats later). Within each of these roles you try to do your best to achieve the wants you possess in each of the areas they represent. The interesting thing that we don't often realise, even though it is completely logical and common sense, and you will laugh at it when you hear it....yet ask yourself this....do YOU do it? In order to get what you desire from an experience that involves others, you need to accommodate their desires first. If you want a quality experience...just adding "things" wont get you what you want. Now here is the next most amazing thing. The whole time you have read the above, you have likely been thinking about your physical counterparts. Those other physical bodies that you consider yourself to have relationships with. Now consider that there is another realm of beings, who also desire experiences that connect into your address. They work tirelessly to set up the quality part of the experiences you desire, so that they can have their experience. Think of it like this- you are the parent/friend or Aunt/Uncle of a child who is having a birthday or at Christmas. Careful observation has identified a desired idea that the child wishes to have. You happily go out and get that thing. At this point it is just a thing. You could prove that...just by throwing it on the floor in front of the kid and saying agressively "FINE - HERE HAVE IT!!!!! The reality is at that moment the value of that "thing" is a negative value. The child wishes they had never wanted it in the first place. Luckily we subconsciously recognise that experience it isn't that 'thing' the kid wants, but that experience of receiving it, and the connection with the person who gave it. You spice up how you give it to them...by wrapping it and perhaps even drawing a treasure map, or even doing a treasure hunt with clues that lead to more clues and finally the gift because you want to elongate YOUR experience. You see your experience is the enjoyment of the child. The longer the child has a smile on their face, that is related to things you are doing for them the greater your sense of self worth. The quality of your life is related to your sense of self worth. If you know the universe depends on it's survival from something you are doing right now....then you will feel the worthiness of a Universe. If you feel that child relates their smile and laughter and the hug that you get to your actions -directed at making them happy, then your self worth rises.

Now imagine that your universe is full of creatures who are family, who all seek to have their experiences with you. Their experience may well be your appreciation, your laugh, your growth, your sense of self worth, or even the activation of and alignment of your Will.

Now what would happen if when you were in the architects office, there wasn't just you...but a whole team of "managers" who each are in charge of managing different aspects of the experience. Also realise that there isn't actually creating going on....just management. The management of resources. So the team watch your idea. Then as long as you leave them to it and go out of the office with a sense of connection to them, and a sense of expectancy for the experience, they are then able to get on with the job of bringing the project to fruition. The managers then go back to their teams who then set about doing their roles. There will be one overall project manager who coordinates everyone.

Now, decide that when you enter the architects office, that you are not the King, with everyone there to serve you; but rather that you are a critical part of the whole team. You are the ideas man, and the experiencing point. If the experience is created and you are not aware of it when it comes, or you behave like a king who expects excellence as the normal, or you don't explore it fully then the rest of the team will miss their experience- your reaction, your appreciation, your smile etc. Ponder this for a moment. The quality of everything you experience is moulded by a team your a critical part of. That the quality of an experience has two aspects or halves to it that without each other, cannot be experienced. My awareness of it, and the components that I perceive make a quality experience. This part is interesting also. If I belch at the end of dinner, or pick up my plate and throw it into the fire place (because it is customary for me to do so to show my appreciation), when I am visiting a family in modern day westernised middle to upper class suburbia, I am unlikely to receive the quality experience I anticipate from showing my appreciation to them. For appreciation is a gift, which is not complete until it is received.

First there is the giver, who gives because he gets to receive the reaction to his gift. Then the receiver gives for the first time (excluding the 'reaction') appreciation expecting to have that received to 'balance the books.'

So now, imagine where ever you are, you are far from alone. You have 1000s watching your every move, listening to your every thought, which is not hidden like you think it is. You are in fact an observer of even that. Yours is that which we call 'will' The conscious mind you think of as being yours, is not at all. it belongs to the personality of the vehicle you observe through. It is mainly reactionary, having set itself up with many many cues in it's infancy of youth, so as to spend the rest of its days cruising on auto pilot, making ever so slight adjustments as required for survival, but not adhering well to opportunities to change, for that will require conscious effort. With every word heard, and with every action seen, how is the calibre of what is said and done? Change will only happen when you require it. Not your mind. You mind is a computer system. It will spit out what is requested of it. If it is obvious that what is being requested will be required again in the future, then it downloads it into the main drive (subconscious). It will NOT instigate change. You are the observer. Your language is WILL. When you 'will' something to happen, if it is contrary to what behaviour you have allowed in the past, then you have to reinforce your 'Will' being what we call 'will power'. You will have to exert will until the conscious mind accepts the new status and changes the behaviour. Now put all of these things together...what do you have?

Breaking through the shell

I have been like a new born Chicken trying to break out of it's shell into it's new environment and new reality. I have had a few pecks at the shell, seen a bit of daylight, marvelled, and then sat back down to a leisurely afternoon nap followed by a feed, then another nap, a stroll around my shell, and the appearance of trying to grow up into a chicken by paying tribute to the hole I have started with a daily tap or two, deep down underneath secretly hoping someone is going to break the shell from the other side. I sit there happy inside my secret super hero fantasy, pretending to be someone great, someone respected and looked at with admiration, yet I only bring no credence through action that would meet any metaphysical standards of integrity. I am riddled with self destructive tenancies, and habits that I have allowed to rule over my current potential and result in what has been occurring...slow to no progress but for the efforts of others.

This has to stop.

I have to find something so powerful, that I can plug into it, and it will be my source of will.

I did it once before by feeling a master was here waiting for me to awaken. Now it needs to be stronger. I need to see and feel the countless generations that are relying on me to come through with this success story. To become a success, that new horizons can be carved out for future generations. I need to feel I am the trunk of the tree, not a solitary insignificant twig, who will hardly be noticed if I am there or not, which is how I manage my life currently. I make believe, in a significant way through a make believe illusion that my actions and inaction has little significance either way on the outcome of the universal journey of life that is unfolding.

But it will not unfold without me. This is the initiation of not just my future, but the very future of the universe and all that is in it. That part of the heirachy that controls this part of life energy, watch with baited breath, unable to move forward, the whole universe on hold until I get it together.

Energy Management

All manner of energy passes by and through me. The objective it seems is for me to become a good manager of this energy. Initially, while I am in the novice stages of my job, I interact and react a lot with this energy. I allow the energy to control the different aspects of my being. This energy unmanaged, controls my body via impulses and addictions; it controls my emotions, causing me to react emotionally, it controls my mind, causing me to think in a particularly direction, and it can even make my soul feel empty. There are many stages of development we go through to get control of our management of this energy.

We live in a super highway of energy. Without good management, there is absolute chaos. Our journey is one of creating order out of chaos. It isn't that any of this energy is "bad" for out of this energy comes the development of our Will, and then the alignment of our will to that of the Greater Will. It takes the power of our will, to stop the auto pilot reactionary status we start off in. From here to move forward we must then align ourselves with a will that is greater than our own.

I feel this article is unorderly in the way I have formatted it, and there is much more to be said on the subject, so I will be back to revisit it.

The king and his servant

This leads on from the last post. I felt it necessary to be a separate post.

There once was a King who ruled over the enormity of his entire kingdom, and everything in it.

The interesting thing having read this...is you imagine some medieval king with last amounts of land and millions of people under his rule.

But decide for a second that you are the king, it is your kingdom, being your life. Now re read the same sentence. This is perception at play.

Interesting is though that we go through our lives in various emotional states, and when in trouble we call out silently in prayer, seeking help from beyond our kingdom.

The interesting thing is that this puts us in the kings position. What if, we perceived that we were the servant. That we were here to serve a just, and fair king/universe. Our role, is to experience what the king wants experienced. Here is how it would work.

At the moment we approach an opportunity, and we either a/. wait to see if anything comes out of the opportunity and connects with us. b/. we 'wish' for something to come out of the opportunity so we wait with a sense of anticipation c/. we act with intention to make a result come out of the opportunity. In all of these we do not have any control over the quality.

The opposite is therefore, that we hunt out to be the perfect servant. We look at an opportunity not as a "what can I get from it" but with the universe in mind...."what would you like to get from it? Imagine if we could put ourselves on hold for a day, and live for the universe. This is not the same as waiting. You do not wait for the universe to deliver, it is actively engaging all opportunities that are already there. It may be that I should be saying "soul" instead of universe, but for now, I am sticking with this, and lets see where it takes me.

Hunting

In Badminton, we have this expression called 'hunting'. In effect it is the deliberate act of seeking an opportunity to take direct the game into your favour.

Each morning I wake up, go through my "get up routine" and then start my day approaching my to do list with varying degrees of enthusiasm, based on how many of the items on it, where on yesterdays list and the previous days, and so on and have been transferred to today's list because they have not been done. The more transferees, the the less enthusiasm I have for my day, and the more likely during the day I am going to seek out "escapes". There is a great deal of value in applying this "hunting' principle to our day in relation to the opportunities that are there. I have the opportunity to end my day with a true sense of satisfaction and achievement. I have the opportunity to end my day with a true sense excitement for the coming day. This power is in my hands. I think most days, I spend waiting. Equate this to a game of badminton...I am waiting for the player/universe to give me an opportunity. Hang on....that sounds like 'hunting'. So what then is the difference? When I am waiting in a game of badminton, I am not mentally engaged with my environment. I am not engaging the game, until the opportunity comes. Effectively my attention is on my side of the line. This is like a caveman hunter, who waits for his prey to wander into his camp, before he engages his art of harvesting his food. He would eventually starve to death. Hunting, is about going out of your environment, and seeking out opportunities. In the case of badminton, I engage my opponents space using my perception to assess their capabilities in a given situation based on previous similar situations and results. I do this in conjunction with effort to force a favourable result. So all very interesting, but how does this pertain to my day? Well, I think I get up every day and I am a 'waiter'. I spend my day plodding...waiting for things to happen. I do not make them happen. I am not engaging my Universe, I am staying in my limited physical space. So what does this mean?

Well, I wake up in the morning, and I am entering into my physical realm, not locked into it, but observing from it. I am 'hunting' down opportunities that I can clearly see are there in my infinite possibilities and I am availing myself to connect with these opportunities. I am not predetermining the pathway, only hunting for the outcome. Each time I enter into a new environment, I connect with that part of the experience which is the other part of my greater self. The part that has created me to be this point of experience. I realise that part of me is the source of that part of the experience and I of mine. That only through my awareness will my part of the experience occur. It is like oxygen and breather, or water and drinker.

By staying on my side of the line, I do not make the connection with the source of opportunity. I do not send out the "address" or 'signal of readiness' to say I am a worthy candidate for an experience. So how does this work? Well, it is really about realizing, I am not this individual, who is selfishly out to get whatever experiences I can. I am an integral part of a very big picture/ entity, of which I have the capacity to play a big, small or no role in the growth and development of. This includes every single aspect of every experience that I have the capability of perceiving.