Lost in a maze

I have been reading the Unfinished Autobiography of Alice A Bailey. I am about half way through. I have had the book for a couple of years but it never felt like it was the right time to read it till now.

Life as a classroom means when one set of lessons is over, the next will begin without pause. The lessons are always in the middle of our experience. They take some time to form for they must often be viewed from different perspectives for us to understand what we need to in order to make the necessary decisions and steps forward. The journey across a lesson that requires multiply perspectives can be a lonely path often generating feelings of abandonment from the very core of heirachy that we believe in. And once we have reached the final perspective necessary to gain the traction that will help us arrive at a realization from which we will then be able to supersede our current position of comprehension, we actually feel like we are in our darkest hour, inspite of the fact that preparations are already underway for our progress forward into our new reality...possible because of our new position of comprehension.

I  feel I am on the verge of change again.

I am becoming more aware of my challengers, but still not quick enough to see them as challengers in the moment they are in front of me, so I am still tempering my reaction to them rather than looking for their purpose, often having to wait till further perspectives or repetition occurs to 'click'.

Life is interestingly relative but we never see this reality until we have been in enough perspectives.
Most of the time to gain the greatest level of appreciation for where we are, that we may then be propelled forward we must look at where we are from a a perspective below...sometimes far below, and this is difficult to stomach in the early stages until we figure it all out.

The system of appreciation propelled evolution is fully automated and can and will develop automatically in us, but if we figure it out early and are more pro active we don't need to go through all perspectives and our self created suffering can therefore be more easy to stomach.