Think big, bigger and Biggest, then make a start to changing the world!

I was doing a review of my life and concluded that the next step for me is a contribution to Humanity. 

On reading the words, connotations and perceptions arise, dragging personal attitudes to the surface. But if you put those to the side for a moment some interesting things begin to happen. When you stop trying to figure out the HOW and just stay focused on the WHAT, making the WHEN the NOW, then you make a connection to Love/energy that will provide the means and the Wisdom Aspect that will provide the knowledge to make it happen. You will "plug in" literally and all perspectives of the solution will magnetize together to unify the power behind the idea and make it happen. 

I am thinking of some ideas. I am going to use this as my brainstorming page. Feel free to add your ideas. 

1. Save a life. This involves helping someone who is trapped in a set of circumstances and finds it hard to see solutions. Method: Create a fund of money; a network of people who can offer job experience or assistance in a small business to help them get on their feet. Assign a guardian angel to them for 3 months then a mentor for an additional year. Have an agreement in place that they will contribute say 5% of their business profits or income and an hour of their time a week to volunteer to help in the organization as a mentor themselves or helper, or provide help or service in some other way, such as a room for someone to stay in while they get on their life back on track. 

This would become a self fulfilling prophecy over a small number of years if managed well and if good systems were in place. 

The objective with this fund of money would be to create a future fund. Something where the principal is not touched but is added to constantly and the interest paid is used, thus ensuring the success and longevity of the organizations efforts. 

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A twist on wanting

I am now exploring the idea that there is a necessary tension between wanting and detachment. That this tension is what creates evolution. It is the duality of Man which enables the spark to occur.
When the mind of the host wants, it is self destructive towards spiritual evolution. When the mind of the soul wants the mind of the host gains an experience. In order for the mind of the soul to want, the attention of the personality must be gained otherwise the experience will be lost given that the observer is based within the ring pass knot of the personality vehicle. A ring pass knot can only be opened from within. Therefore the personality itself, must release its own sense of self, in order for the observer to pass beyond its boundaries. This is the equivalent (to the personality's perception) of suicide, for once the observer moves on, the personality will cease to exist. But the fact is....we were never the personality in the first place. We were always the observer. Service is the vehicle of release. As long as we believe we are the personality and therefore that our goal is to service this personality life to the best of our ability, we will always be focused on  our personality wants, with a self protection mechanism to keep us from straying beyond our illusion. This big problem with this, is that personality wanting is destructive, in that it consumes energy rather than channels it which is what we are designed to do. This debt that is created from our consumption, is reflected in what many call Karma. This continues to reflect until such time we instigate a culture of detachment to slow the ceaseless creation of more debt from personality wanting and finally become a positive contributor, not just a neutral position.

I think the wanting aspect anchors us, and detachment sets us free. When the wanting is at our current level, then we are anchoring ourselves in that level. ie if our wanting is personality based then we are anchoring our observer in the personality. We then need detachment to release the grip. This requires Will Power. The only issue here is that if we only have detachment we have no sense of connection so we end up in no mans land, which is where depression can kick in. So I think the key to spiritual evolution is to "be wanting' in the territory beyond the current observers location. In this case it would be Soul Wanting, if the observer was inside the personality ring pass knot.  

Moulding Consciousness

When you drop a stone in the center of a clear still lake, it's effect shall be felt in the ripples formed to the very boundaries of that lake. But if you put a cylinder around that part of the lake in the center where the stone drops, then shall the ripples and so it's effect not pass beyond the boundaries of that cylinder.
If there Hypothesize for a moment that consciousness is the basic principle of mind substance at a GOD mind level.
Each partition of consciousness is separated by a thought which consciousness animates and gives it life. Each idea including the human perspective as a viewing platform is therefore a thought within the mind of GOD. Each thought I propose acts as a cylinder around the power that originates which I propose is us, as the observer. The concept of "an expansion of consciousness, is in fact the removal of a smaller cylinder or thought form boundary and a replacing of it with a larger one. Relating then to a previous post of the notion that we are GOD the observer, then the we are looking into the mind of GOD right now when we look around. This means when we have a thought as GOD that thought will manifest. But if as GOD we have a thought through a partition being the mind of man (the current host of the observer) then our influence on Consciousness will be apparent only within that boundary.
It is all based on where we view ourselves from. We are the same observer whether we view from the mind of man or the mind of God. Therefore, our perception of self is reflected in the mind of the host, rather than in the Greater Mind of God.

Consciousness

What you believe consciousness to be it will be. If you decided that consciousness is some mystical concept that is not tangible or mouldable, then that is exactly what you will experience. I think Consciousness is the mind substance of GOD. It therefore responds directly to us as the observer. The fact that we filter our view of consciousness through a mental partition does not in anyway reduce it's responsiveness to us. It only acts to change our perception of who we perceive we are and therefore what we will come to expect of consciousness. If a man is of a wealthy or poverty mentality, then he will be expecting to view experiences that match his perception of himself. When you see life consciousness as a game of luck and chance, a playing field where opportunities have to be made from sweat and risk, then so it is for you. If you believe that life is a journey of Karmic retribution to be worked out and paid for with penance, then so it will be just that for you. If you set rules that money is bad, or hard to come by, or that life is a game of chance then for you it will be so until such time as this line of experience is one you no longer wish to upkeep.

So in line with this then and also in the realisation that your imagination is the viewing platform of your potential, what sort of shaping are you able to do in order to change the experiences you currently have. There is no fooling yourself. If you say something but it is not true in your heart then you will only experience the truth.

In my next posting I propose to shape and mould my life consciousness with a steadily held line of thinking that relates who I am to consciousness and what I want to experience from Consciousness.

Money Consciousness

It is interesting to observe how we view different aspects of consciousness. Reflect for a moment on how you view money. Would you say that generally you view money as a limited concept. Something that is difficult to come by and easy to disappear. If this is so, then in line with my last post, then I am offering a new proposition. I think, that our potential is also based on the rules we apply to the mind/consciousness/life we currently occupy. You see, even if the mind that we currently observe through (human mind) doesn't recognize us as GOD, or even a god, doesn't detract anything from the reality that the consciousness we are submerged in....does. This is proved to us, every single day. Everyday as GOD the observer we create in the  reflective mind/consciousness that we are submerged in currently those ideas and thoughts that we entertain and allow to be entertained in the mind we are observing through. Remember we have talked before about how particles and indeed I propose to you....consciousness, changes it's very behaviour when it is being observed. Well not only are we the observer, but we are GOD the observer, so of course ALL Consciousness is going to respond to us but it will change it's behaviour based on who we perceive ourselves to be because we are the one's effectively driving what it reflects, because it is us as GOD. The issue is that we observe and make decisions and occupy thoughts through the limitations of (currently) human minds.  Consciousness isn't responding to our human thoughts...it is responding to us...as the observing aspect of GOD. The fact that we are observing through a human mind, means the experiences we will see reflected will be limited to what rules of engagement we have set. Irrespective of whether the mind we view through perceives us to be merely human...the FACT is we are GOD. So as GOD if we make a decision to experience life through the mind and eyes of a human being, then that is what life consciousness will reflect and so will be our experience to observe. So if we do not shift our observing position from the boundary of the human mind, we will then only manifest reflections of consciousness that are subdued by the comprehension of this mind we occupy. So take money which is consciousness. How do you view money consciousness from the perspective of your current viewing platform? How would you view it from the perspective of GOD the observer?

Detachment in a life changing way

Since we are the observer, then all things are external to us, giving us the capacity to experience them. This is the concept of mind in mind. We dis empower ourselves, but adopting the persona of the mind we currently view through. Hence the importance of Detachment. We alienate things by setting rules based on the perceived relationship we have with possibilities relative to the aspect of mind we view from. This sounds complicated...but basically if we perceive we are merely the personality in the human perspective, then how we view our possibilities will be based on our perceived human capability. This is often based on our perceived creative potential utilizing the resources of time x knowledge x currently accessible resources...borrowed or otherwise. Now the interesting thing is our potential is circulating us based on our perception of possibility. Hence we have this thing called an imagination. The problem is we are taught as children that this faculty is "not real" when actually nothing could be further from the true. It could possibly be the only thing that IS actually real. Everything else is a fabrication of our perception which creates a veil of perceived reality for us to experience ideas. So remembering that we as the observer are able to shift our viewing platform with our WILL. The other thing we can change is our FAITH....which is actually another name for Perception of who we believe ourselves to be. We are in fact the observing aspect of GOD. We are many, many layers away from the original whole that is GOD, but none the less, there is only one observer. I propose there is only one GOD who is viewing life from only one perspective currently.....yours. Over a decent sort of time frame, each idea has been thought, each thought has been experienced. We are the sum of the parts. Each part is one of those perspectives. Our human mind perceives that there are other humans simultaneously around us at the same time, each having their own independent experiences, but actually they are all just thoughts in one mind. But the observer is only in one perspective at one time.
Before I try to explain it more...lets just try an experiment for a moment. What if your could actually see yourself as the observer, and detach yourself from your human personality mind, you are then a free agent. A new entity in need of a new definition. Look at how we go through our day...we are constantly defining ourselves as "husbands/wives, sisters/brothers, coaches/plumbers, badminton/tennis players etc each of these we use to create the persona that becomes the experience for us as the observer.
What then would happen if we detached sufficiently enough that we could then define ourselves from scratch. We often attempt to do this by "leaving our current situation behind and turning over a new left" divorcing ourselves from our partners, jobs, sporting lives, even our countries in order to redefine ourselves. Yet each time we do...we often still continue to undervalue our potential. What if that is all evolution is....the capacity to grasp as much of our true GOD nature/mind as possible. So herein I propose a great task, to redefine ourselves as a god at the very least. To explore the great possibilities that exist for us as observers beyond the boundaries of our limiting personality minds.

The Observer

When as an observer I put myself into a matrix of viewing platforms, levels within platforms and have multiply  potentials within each of those levels, it is no wonder that I lose sight of who I am. If I look through a mind, I will see what is going on from the perspective of that mind. If it is a human mind, it will be governed initially by the animal instinctive and self protection programmes written and ingrained to protect the host I am viewing from. So looking through this human mind, I will be surrounded by the raw mental feed of those base programmes, which initially will directly trigger emotional responses (reaction) and with that power the body into action. I will be subjected to the impulses of that mind until I choose to control it. Now imagine I am actually viewing from within another mind, which is viewing that human mind. Now we have a state of mind  within a mind. This would occur if I had evolved up a level of awareness, so that I found there was more to the mind of the human than just it's animal programming. What if there was also the capacity for freely made thought. Here in lies an independent perspective of mind where as the observer, I am able to view from a perspective of mind beyond the boundaries of the animal automated programming. Being inside the host of an animal being (human) I will still have the animal programming. But as the observer, I am independent of the mind.....the mind is what i view and (previously exclusively)  viewed through.  Now as humanity has evolved we have gained the capacity to view and view from. With this new found freedom, comes responsibility. We need to get control of the lower mind, in order to move on to the next layer of mind.

This second layer of mind is what we term the personality. This aspect of mind encompasses the original, but enables us as the observer to be outside the partition of animal mind, which sits within its boundary. 

The next stage of evolution for us as the observer is to go beyond the personality aspect of mind, to that of Soul mind. Personality is the mind aspect of individualization. Soul mind is the mind aspect of the group.
The personality mind is abundantly capable of creating and providing for the needs of the animal mind. Likewise the Soul mind is abundantly capable of creating and providing for the needs of the individual personality mind. The effort is simple....shift yourself as the observer from the personality mind space to the soul mind space. I believe it is likely that we had help shifting from the animal mind to the personality mind. But we are on our own when it comes to the next step. We have free will, it was given to us that we may make that journey. The effort requires a great deal of WILL power. We are submersed in a WILL training environment. The seven deadly sins and sidekick vices are our tools in school, which once we graduate will no longer be necessary. WILL is a transportational (my new word) power. It is that which will carry me from forward from where I am now to my the next step in my spiritual evolution. 

Back to the Creative Process

As mentioned many times before, it is my passion and perceived life purpose to understand the true creative process. Today I had some more insight to explore. The pathway of thought is what follows.
At a physical plane level the creative process is one of exchange for most people. The trade their valuable experiencing time for creative ability = money, or trade in Lieu.
Those who have plenty, take risks with their money, giving it to others so that they can use it to make more money, sharing the spoils of their successes and failures with those that give them a portion of their money.
The perceived conflict between spirituality and money in the past could be summed up as follows:
Spirituality is about service and giving, whereas money is about what you will receive. Money is about trade, getting something. Spirituality is supposed to be about unconditional gifting.
So lets look at both of these ideas. Matter is Divine. Therefore the energy that makes up money is also divine. Spiritually inclined people can still do good things and expect a return, it may be as simple as a thank you, or a smile, but it is rare that they gift anonymously which gives them no capacity to gain "emotionally" from their gift.
So hypothesis 1: It is possible the true creative process is reflected in the physical plane. We are required to be in Service and gift and that this process of gifting magnetizes us drawing to us those experiences which we deem to be beneficial. It is also possible in the same instance that the gifting needs to be anonymous for this to occur.
Hypothesis 2: That the physical plane trading system is a self destructive one. That there is not enough creative energy around for people to just keep on taking all the time and that trading always has a cost. So that the person trading always wants to get more than what they are prepared to trade for, so they make a profit.
Hypothesis 3: Evolution is heading towards more light/more love. That this is demonstrated as being abundant because we can give unconditionally, abundantly and indefinitely and yet still have the capacity to give more love. If the physical plane is a reflective plane, then how much giving we do on the higher planes, or how much negative things, will be reflected. So ask yourself this...how much unconditional love to you give each day to how many people, for what percentage of the day?

Will and the Observer

Up until now, I had believed that all aspects of the Universe have Will. However, here I would like to explore whether we as the observer actually have will, or whether the observe is the only aspect that does not. The personality most definitely has will. Every thought form also has a will to be experienced and connected with it's creator. The soul has Will. But what is interesting, is that all of these things are temporary.

So that gives me the impression that only temporary things have Will. The Observer is eternal, unchanging. 

It seems like there are two directions for Will, the 'expression' and the 'experience'. The 'expression' is where one entity has a goal and expresses their intention to achieve it. Due to the fact that there are common experiencing fields, this means that there will be other entities exposed to that initiator's Will being expressed. In other words they are impressing their Will into the physical plane wherein other entities exist and have their experiencing field. These other entities have two choices resist that Will, or align with it. The resistance or alignment to that Will is the choice of the other entities who fall within the field of creative expression of that Will, wherein the Will of the entity will be manifested. Both the alignment or resistance of Wills causes evolution. The expressing entity is often a dominant one. The power of the initiator is often far stronger than individuals so those that may resist. So they will need to learn to band together until the sum of the parts is strong enough to push back against the initiator and therefore cause the whole group to move forward. If the smaller entities accept the will of the initiator, then the initiator moves forward and has it's experience. There is a constant ebb and flow as opposing Wills help each other evolve.

What I propose is that the Observer exists independently of the vehicles which house it. That it is the mind aspect of those vehicles which channel Will. So where does the Will actually come from. Why does a personality choose a particular goal that it therefore plugs into or activates Will to make it happen. If Will can be activated what is it when it is not active? Or is Will a stream of power which we plug into or not. When plugged in we have Will, when not plugged in we do not and therefore we are receptive to being swept up by other entity's Will.

There is more on this, but it will come in the installment. 

My process of integrating a soul dominated personality

I think I have figured the problem with my eyes. I have always felt it was related to what I was not seeing properly. The problem is I didn't know what I was looking at and therefore not seeing properly.

A couple more pieces of the puzzle may have just slipped into place.

My directive was to understand the true creative process. But I have been looking for the answers in the physical plane. I had perceived that once I figured it out I would be able to create abundantly on the physical plane. But I think this is exactly what I have been looking at incorrectly. All things look different, when viewed from different perspectives. The two current viewing platforms we have are our soul and our personality. We we explore the physical plane or consider the concept of creating on the physical plane from a personality perspective we end up with entirely different ideas than when we do so from the soul perspective.

When we test the motive for doing something we can find out whether our allegiance lies more with our personality or our soul.. If the motive is to increase and improve your personality's situation then you know it is the wrong decision to make. If it is a soul based decision, even if it is completely illogical to the personality mind, it is the direction we must go in if we are to progress down the path. The next question is to identify if you have the WILL to pursue your soul based motives.
When you finally break the last hold the personality mind has on you the observer, then you are free to focus on the soul. It is critical to be focused. We need to be focused. Without focus we are chaotic energy beings. This is why we busy ourselves as personalities in order that we will never have a lack of things to focus on. The problem with that theory is that everything is always superficial. Nothing ever feels like it has real value or true meaning.

If every decision I made was cleared with my soul, what would I eat? What would I drink? What would I do for service? What would I choose to say, or would I become more of a listener? Who would I engage in relationships with? What would I buy? How would I spend my leisure time?

These are some great questions. I think it is time for another 10 day challenge. This time it is a 10 day in a row integrating challenge. The objective is to seek and follow the lead of my soul on every aspect of my day.

So my last challenge was really about purifying my vehicle. Now I think my physical and emotional bodies are developing soul receptivity. I feel that the next logical step is to do the same mentally, so that every aspect of my personality mind, is soul receptive.

So I propose to follow myself on Soul integration blog continuously until I have achieve a 10 days in a row stint.

Right Motive

It is interesting to look at possibilities and potentials as they surface from the subconscious areana of greater mind. Key points:
1. We are greater and more capable than we can ever imagine.
2. Possibilities want to find us, but we hide from them behind weakness and perceptions in our conscious personality mind space.
3. Not all possibilities become potentials.
4. Not all potential is designed to be experienced...some of it is designed to test our resolve for greater potential.
5. The easiest way to answer whether or not we should partake in a potential is by answering the following questions:
a. Do we have the means to realise this potential in the physical plane currently without debt?
b. Is the physical plane the best place for this potential to be?  (some fantasies are best left on the mental plane).
c. What is our true motive for connecting with this potential.
d. What is the opportunity cost of uptaking this potential?
e. What does the SWAT Analysis looking like.
f. Whats on the action/inaction matrix for these potentialities?

 

The 10 day challenge

2 Weeks ago I set out on a quest to do 10 things in 10 days. This is the up date after 2 weeks.
My nails have stayed unbitten, today I had to file them. I have stayed off sugar, flour and all processed foods, not entirely a raw food diet as yet, but healthy all the same.
The rest of it has been not so great. My morning routine has melted back into what it was. My meditation etc has not been happening in the usual way. My reading has dropped off, as has my exercise.
I have been getting through my to do things, focusing on keeping up with what comes in each day and then using spare time to knock off things on my to do list.
Now it is time to review the rest.


Today is the 19th October. It has been just over 3 weeks.
My nails are still unbitten. I have stayed off Sugar, flour and processed foods still and feeling all the better for it. Mornings haven't yet come back on board. Meditation is intermittent. Reading is occurring regularly. Exercise has been scarce. Sleeping has been not so good with late nights.

Today is the 14th of November.
My nails are still unbitten, abeit the do spend a ridiculous amount of time in my teeth tempting fate to bite.
I have comfortably abstained from Ice Cream and other lollies etc.
I have stayed off Wheat and processed foods.
The desire to sleep is low. Exercise is still not happening. Mediation is more regular but the connection is weak from lack of connection with the regime. Reading is ok, but could be better. Still a few old habits to conquer that result in procrastination.

thinking outside the circle

Total mind as discussed in another post, is like a whole onion. The layers represent perspectives or sections of mind. Our current position/occupation in matter is human. In our adult years the observer is centered most of the time in the  personality perspective of mind- that of the individual. Where we anchor as observer, will determine the thoughts that we generate. Based on the idea that energy follows thought then this is a crucial piece of the puzzle. The energy that we have access to when we are focused in the personality mind, is 'slow', 'weak', and effective only in the material world. Once we begin to focus ourselves in our soul mind space, then we open ourselves up to soul plane energy, which can permeate the material world and thus looks 'magical' to the observer anchored in the personality mind. This energy is also more efficient and lighter in both senses of the word. As the observer changes it's viewing platform the level of service increases. When we are in personality mind we think about our own needs, happiness and development. Some have children by choice, most have them by default. Regardless, this is the first step towards thinking outside of the personality mind space. The next step is to encompass a group, then a perspective of a kingdom then a whole kingdom. There is an element of automatic service due to evolution, which is the working out of the plan- to evolve the Universe/Logos/Kingdoms etc. Free will is the capacity to move ahead of the automated mass of evolution, and progress manually to the next level of service.
In the child the wall between individual mind and the greater mind is more porous. You will see in a child they are often centered in what the personality terms the imagination. The observer is anchored in the creator mind. Subconscious is only that which is in the next layer of onion, that the observer in the current layer cannot perceive from it's current location.
Practice using your imagination....because this is you as the observer moving out of the current personality mind into the mind of the soul.
Practice connecting with those that watch over you on a daily basis......this is what your personality mind calls intuition.
Practice service to that which constitutes a greater mind space. This is moving energy in the right direction rather than taking it.

How special are you?

It is in our blood to believe that we are special, in one way or another. It is predominantly our reason for getting out of bed every day. But in fact, how often have we really put ourselves under the microscope to see just how special we could be if we applied ourselves.
How special would we be if we truly purified both our minds and our bodies? How special would we be if our deeds were entirely selfless, not just good will, that laps up the warmth of appreciation that comes from those we serve.

I am one such person. I thought I was special...for a long time. But the more I develop my true self awareness, the more I realise, I have a long way to go to get to that "special person place". I have been working on improving myself, ok, but this has not been a speedy process. It is like I am in no hurry at all. But lets face it, the shell is not as young as it used to be. So, it is time to start getting serious again with my progress.

I propose to do 10 things in 10 days.
10 things I have not been able to do to date.

Day 1. Started my day with a new routine: 2 hour routine
Get up early enough to go for an appreciation walk, followed by stretching and abs, 30 mins of Meditation and then read 30 mins every morning before I start the rest of my day.

By Day 2. Withhold speaking about another person unless complimenting them.

By Day 3.Stop biting my nails
By Day 4. Give up Flour
By Day 5. Not buy anything for myself.
By Day 6. Give up Sugar
By Day 7. Give something
By Day 8. Save something
By Day 9. Make something every day.
By Day 10. Get onto a Live food diet

The challenge is not in making the list, it is in the action.
I will update every day. If I don't you, you know I have failed.

Day 1:
Well I did it. I went to sleep without an alarm. Woke up early and went for my walk. Did my stretching and abs, did my meditation and reading all before I started with my day as planned.

I will repeat this process tomorrow and add the second task.

Day 2: Another day of productivity. Got through my new start, (appreciation walk, stretching, abs, reading and meditation. Was tested once solidly for about 10 mins on my second goal but managed to hold my awareness and control the way I directed my speech so as to say only what needed to be said and added nothing about the people I was questioned about in terms of negative statements. Was tested again in the afternoon in a situation that would normally have had me talking about what happened, but once again I simply saw it as a test and withheld my speech.
I watch Eddie Murphy's movie the other night...1000 words. It has plenty of theosophical concepts in it well worth watching.

I have begun to change my view on my other goals already, with no desire at all to have a "last minute" experience before I give them up.

Biting nails is tomorrows goal...this will be a big one...not unlike someone having to give up smoking after doing so for 37 years. Good luck to me.

Day 3: I spent most of the day fully aware, ever watching. I slipped up once with one finger nail in my mouth completely subconsciously, catching only the end of the event.
Productivity of thought was great today. Well aware of my thought processes before hand.
Got through my start to the day with Appreciation walk, stretching and abs and reading.

Day 4: Started my day differently today, as I had early morning coaching and didn't get up early enough to my appreciation walk etc. Did all other things over the span of the day, but this was still not the point.
Biting nails didn't occur. Positive speech was good. Gave up Flour today without too much fanfare.
Day 5: Missed my appreciation walk again due to even earlier coaching starting. Did manage to catch up on the other aspects throughout the day. But the idea wasn't about doing the activities, it was about the way I start my day. So this needs to be reviewed.  Managed to keep my nails out of my mouth again for the whole day, although I am fidgeting with them all the time, seeking out rough bits to bite. Solution, cut any rough bits as soon as I find them. Positive speech today, tested a couple of times.
Flour no issue. Not buying anything for myself...first day...everything provided for me so no needs.
Day 6: Started my day early again. Didn't get everything done....ie meditation wasn't done nor abs. But got the reading, walking and stretching done.  Positive speech, tested again today. Flour no issue, although I had Muesli today which effectively has wheat in it. So I will remove this from my diet so as to bring it into line with the next goal which will be no wheat....not just no flour.
Didn't buy anything for myself. Gave up sugar. This is a bit tougher than it looks....as sugar is in almost everything so I need to refine my goal in the next round.Went out for dinner with friends. This was a bit of a challenge. Ended up with a very plain dinner. But it was still ok. Definitely prefer my own cooking. Went to McDonalds afterwards, where I was the only person who was not eating ice cream or junkie sweets...but everyone was very non judgmental so it was great. Rest of the goals were achieved.
Day 7:  Todays goal was to give something....this was a bit of a challenge, but had me thinking about what is important to other people and also how to do this in a meaningful way. This highlighted the need to explore my motives for this 10 day challenge. I did my appreciation walk, a bit of stretching but didn't get through my meditation. Did the reading, speech was not the best. Got well tested tonight. Don't feel it was productive. Quite and intensive push on the faults of others. Not really feeling I was an angel on the productive front.
Nails are still intact. Got gifted a iced caramel frappe by my wonderful wife who does know what I am trying to do, but it was still me who drank it...so failed on the sugar front. Also had the last of my muesli today, so failed on the wheat front too. Not an ideal sort of a day.
What I have learnt is that the effort if sustained will develop my will and in time I will be successful. I think after some thought two things have surfaced. 1 The original motive is Detachment. 2. That I must remember that detachment includes releasing dogmatic approaches to things. The way around this is to remember, that it is not about the giving up of flour, or sugar or the biting of my nails that matters...it is about the drive to commit to a cause that will develop my will.
Day 8: Did well on most things.
Day 9: Didn't achieve the task.
Day 10. Didn't achieve the task.

So now I will review my focus and start with a fresh approach.

Breaking Habits

One of the greatest moves towards a sense of self development and potentially spiritual evolution is a progressive and systematic challenging and changing of our regular, daily habits. In reality, it is our habits which we use to define our perception of who we are. To uphold the illusion of the personality that masks the light of our soul. One by one, like chips of a shattered mirror, each habit gone lets a little bit more light shine through.
It is my current working task, to challenge myself daily. The hardest part I am finding, is catching the habit in the act. The snatching up of ice cream, the spontaneous purchase, the reading of the newspaper, the turning on of the radio, the scoffing down sweets, the snide remarks, the bitting of finger nails all one by one need to be caught in the act.
One of the greatest powers latent in man is a power we delusively call "will power".  If our light is the source of our ability to shine, then the power to remove the covers that cloak it, is that Power. The more we exercise it, the more the veil of our potential is lifted. The more we radiate light, the better we can see Truth. The more Truth we are immersed in, the more Love we become capable of showing and in turn the more we will see reflected.
Take just one habit for one week, one day at a time and change the way you react to the impulse to fulfill that habit.

Son of God

It is interesting to watch the human intellect at play. How we perceive things in particular. If one subscribes that our vehicle (human form) is a son of man, but that our souls are a son of God, then watch the shift in how we respond. The human intellect subscribes to the concept that in being a son of God we would be powerful gods. The value of such a family resemblance is in the power. 

But since God is LOVE, then actually when you redefine it, that would make us sons of Love. (as a soul) The power concept is taken out of it. When the aspiration is power, it is emotive. But is there aspiration when the outcome is a realisation of being Love.

The human intellect also seeks to become that which we as the soul already are...when it is power. But how much seeking is there for the human intellect to become that which we as the soul already are...when it is Love. 

The Etheric Field

Hypothesis: The Etheric Field is that aspect of God which behaves as a conduit for units of Consciousness to sustain a material vehicle. Our role is to integrate our personalities with our souls so that our souls can plug into the etheric field and begin charging it. The personality resides in the mind of the vehicle, the soul on it's own plane. Once they integrate the soul has the channel to send Love into the Etheric field. This is done at a very low level through the action of goodwill to create an emotional reaction in another human being. But once the soul integrates with the personality a whole new level of recharge capacity is reached. As the frequency of the Etheric field changes so too does Humanity evolve to another level. Our role is to help raise the frequency. We can do this via being a positive balance unit. A human unit that is positive energy balance at the end of every cycle....a day, a week, a month, a year etc. Every negative thought is a negative point, every word of gossip is like ten negative points, every negative action is like 1000 negative points. Any thing that causes another human unit to have a negative thought multiples the value by 2. If what you do causes them to gossip or act negatively the magnification escalates.The interesting things is that if enough people were negative then Humanity would have to be eradicated as it would enter into a etheric debt and as a parasite it would be removed by the host. Once removed the Whole Etheric field which must get the opportunity to regenerate and match the level that it should be at for the planet's ability to evolve. This is what all the Kingdoms are for. (The kingdoms are there to evolve the consciousness of planet through increasing the etheric vibration.
Our current objective is to reach the 5th kingdom. To bring heaven (the fifth kingdom) to earth.
So what can just one person do? Well you only have to look at what effect pay it forward had on the world. One kid did that. What can I do? Start watching what I think, what I say, what I do and most importantly what I influence others to do.

Not seeing where I am going?

I have been missing a very obvious point for sometime now. Today I am putting the pieces together. My eyes have been so tired I look like I am on drugs. I talk to people and my eyes want to close all the time. For the conversation.

Here is my current hypothesis. Speaking is sending forth energy. In fact I am spending energy from my reserves. If what I say has an impact and makes a difference to the outcomes of future then it may result in it coming back to me and topping me up. But if it is like gossip, then it is harmful.
I am not seeing who I actually am. I keep seeing the illusion.
I am not performing my role in line with who I am.
I am not creating as a creator who is making something, but am instead I am being destructive by taking something of value away. 

blind leading the blind

I have discovered that the vehicle I am using is reflecting something classified as Benign Essential Blepharospasm. I never eat something I can't pronounce, but here I am faced with the joy of enduring this allegedly uncurable disease.  On the physical plane it is called "essential" because the doctors have no clue as to what causes it. In reality it is simple: Benign means Kind or gentle/of a favourable environment. Essential means something extremely important/absolutely necessary. So, lets break the code and see what we need to learn. Eyes are the window to the soul. So with eyes shut, it is like being blind. I am not able to see the world as it is presented in it's current form and must look at it from a different perspective. I can look at it from the soul's perspective. I can look at it through the same physical body but through other senses. I can look at it through my imagination. I can look at it through the eyes of someone else. (metaphorically speaking). The key is to understand, that all things including all seemingly debilitating diseases are there for a reason. And if it is "benign then it is a like a gentle reminder or a wake up call. If it is absolutely necessary then this is the only way that we will wake up. So wake the hell up. If I wasn't seeing something...ie like the debt issue, then I needed this to happen. Two reasons...it is Karma being paid off and secondly it is helping me to see even though on the outside it is essentially making me blind. 

Every time I speak, it triggers. I know that taking is "spending" energy. So less talking spends less energy. But there is more to it. One eye is blurring. This means I am not seeing the solution clearly. 

I understand it is time for a change....but I also understand I have to identify correctly what that needs to be. Doing the same thing gets doesn't get the same results....it gets the volume turned up.    

Debt

I was having a conversation with a friend who seems to mirror me in many ways. We were discussing debt and in that talk I discovered that I had been looking at debt from only one direction....money. But as we talked it became clear there is much more to it. Every time I borrow something, I incur a debt. Worse if I don't return the thing I borrowed but still a debt until it is returned. Every time I am late or make someone wait for me, I incur  a time debt. Every time I hold a desire without the immediate means to manifest it in front of me, I create a context which creates an energy debt, since each context  (the space in which a thought form exists) created seeks energy to manifest it's content. This ends up effectively that I am stealing from someone else to service this debt. The highest level of debt I have is currently to my wife.
I think in all our lives the people around us, help us service our energy debts. But at a cost.Eventually they will reject our parasitical behaviour and leave. Our objective in service, is to help others, but I do not believe it is to help them service their debts that our energy is best spent. I think it is more a tough love approach that we need. This is where Will comes in. Endowing someone with your Will sculpts their direction somewhat. They will either suck it up and positively change direction, or turn away from you and seek to continue their parasitic ways on someone else.
Our personal goal is to become debt free, then in service, help others to become the same. Karma is the educational tool that shows us how much and what type of debt we still employ/have left to pay. Karma is the reflection of debt creation. Stop creating debt, you stop creating Karma. Reincarnation is required because it takes so long to learn in a blind leading the blind environment. Learning occurs only when we look from the soul perspective as an observer, at what the personality is doing. Thus can we change the behaviour of the personality making it a better vehicle for us as the observer when using it.
Only through the personality can we reach other souls on this plane. But it is the blind leading the blind until we awaken from the debt encumbered personality perspective and acting within the best interests of the a higher perspective (aka the soul), do we move forward and become a useful tool towards the awakening of others and thus help humanity as a unit awaken to a higher level of consciousness.
That was a mouthful.

Life goal

My wife sat me down in a rare get together and asked me a simple question. What is your life goal?
My answer was not satisfying and has therefore prompted my consideration of more thought to the topic.
My answer was "to master myself" which up until 30secs after i said it, I had thought was a spiritually commendable answer. She shot that idea out of the sky with her next reply. "So...it's all about You!"
Now that woke me up like a cold shower. I really had nothing of value to say to that. I had deluded myself into believing that everyone around me was benefiting from that fact that my self development made me a better person, so I was the one people wanted to be around because of who I had become from that development. But this was clearly being communicated...that this was not enough. I was not fulfilling my other roles. Mainly...that of being a man. Nope, not a husband...that part was ok, at least so it appeared....but as a  Maslow's heirachy of needs  (food, shelter, protection and warm) provider. In this department...I was an absolute failure. Now interestingly enough, up until now down my pathway of spiritual unfoldment, I had seen myself as being virtuous via my non material focus and doing my best to stick to spiritual focuses, eliminating desires and mastering vices.
But now, a new turn of events was occurring. Now ordinarily my reaction would have been this: oh well, this is just the Universe shaping my life, if she leaves me then so be it. But, now I was seeing things differently. I live in the occident. It is my kama to be in the west and be submerged in Western Culture and focuses. It is my destiny to be where I am and to endure the values and offereings of the civilisation I am steeped in. It is indeed my duty to be a part of the group that makes up my current perspective of life and this includes my beautiful wife and includes helping her to achieve her goals where she is on the path. This life is about group service, not Ritchie. So here I am in a new direction, effectively starting again where I once was, but with a different motive...relating to the service of others. I am going to start with my wife and focus on that areas I am responsible for in terms of creating such as an income, a home, a new car etc.

Understanding the true Creative process continued

Still focusing on this I am trying to put together a few more of the pieces. Here goes:
Consciousness is all pervading. Thoughts temporarily clothe consciousness to give the observer a specific experience of consciousness. Does consciousness really evolve or expand or is it the minor perspective of mind that expands it's comprehension of what it sees itself capable of experiencing based on who it perceives itself to be and therefore how much control of consciousness it perceives it has.
If the lesser mind has the capacity to cloth consciousness based on it's perception of it's status relative to the greater mind.
Consciousness that is negatively affected by the lower mind our observing aspect views through, goes into orbit around our soul. This is kama.
So we are surrounded by consciousness as the substance of the Great Mind. We as a holographic version of that Great Mind, have the capacity to affect that consciousness. As we do, if the affect we have is positive...which means we give back a positive vibration then the resulting thought becomes an animated positive experience. If the affect we have is a negative one, which means we take, or impose a negative vibration and thus create a 'Debt" then the effect is orbiting consciousness that is reflective of our actions, otherwise called Kama.
If this mind is the essence of Love, then our duty is to express Love and channel Love.

how good are you at your role?

It is true in any occupation that if you do not do what you have been employed to do, that there will be consequences. Well that is what I think life is about.
I think our primary role is to define what Love is...to Love. I think that we are one perspective of Love and that our job is to describe ourselves and other perspectives of Love to the origin of Love.
I think when we do a poor job of describing Love we attract Kama...a reflection of our "poor description". I think when we do a great job of describing Love we attract other experiences of Love. Something like that.

observation awareness

I think this is a continuation of the idea that consciousness changes it's behaviour when it is observed.
Given that consciousness is the living substance of TOTAL MIND, then when the observer using a perspective of mind observes it, then it will sense self and respond.
If it responds seemingly chaotically as in some quantum experiments then the opposite or "order" is a state of NON OBSERVANCE. Non Observance is created by veiling, or hiding the observer.

When you arrive at the end you will find yourself back at the beginning because everything is cyclic.

We spend all of this time trying to "discover" who we are and why we are here etc, when the fact is that the answer will have us back where we started. We went into the veil for a reason. Because Veiled from the reality of who we are, the observer can experience the parts without being recognized as the whole.

If we spent a day in a perception that we were being a. watched  b. helped   or c. trained, would our behaviour change? You see, if we believed we were being watched, then we would be more attentive as to what we did. We would question our motives. If we believed we were being helped we would be more receptive to what was happening even if we didn't understand it all the time. If we believed we were on some great quest and were bing trained we would be more accepting of our pain, seeing it as training.

This is the concept of Perception. Reality is what we perceive BECAUSE that perception IS what we observe and as a result of observing it, consciousness changes it's behaviour to reflect it...and so it is.

Hence the concepts like visualization if practiced religiously and effectively, work.

consciousness

I have touched on the topic of energy management and energy bank balance previously however as is the case in all topics with a new turn of the spiral comes a new perception, an improved state of comprehension masquerading as a perception of truth...AKA what many term "an expansion of consciousness".

Today I am looking to put some of these pieces together.

Following are some bullet point ideas I have temporarily concluded to date.

• We are the observing aspect of the omnipresent entity known as God. 
• Besides the observer there are two other aspects to God being: Consciousness and Mind. 
• Contained within the Mind aspect of God is every conceivable idea.
• Man is one such idea.
• All ideas are of equal value. There is no "good or bad" This is perception of the lower mind. 
•  Ideas are lifeless without Consciousness. 
• Contained within the Consciousness aspect of God are two aspects: LOVE and WILL which combine to be LIFE. 
• Consciousness is the living substance that animates by giving life to thought within the Mind of God.
• Consciousness permeates every layer of Mind and holds the same value throughout. 
• Consciousness is only separated by the perception of a lower aspect of mind seeing the boundaries of each thought that clothes any given portion of Consciousness thus giving life to that particular thought.  
• God the Observer seeks to explore itself. 
• One cannot know oneself but through the reflection of something else. 
• If there is only one, then God could not know himself just as a man could not know himself also if he was the only entity in existence. 
• God contemplates within his own Mind pondering who he is.
• By observing the reaction of a reflection of one image of one self, God attempts to explore himself within his Mind of one idea from the perspective of another.
• This is done by creating layers within layers through Mind, then observing from one layer the reactions that occur in another. 
• Man is like a holographic thought, made in Gods image. 
• Made in the likeness of God, man possesses only one of God's characteristics...Mind  
• There is only one consciousness permeating all aspects of God's Mind, and only one observer but where things differ is that Man has his own unique perspective of Mind giving him the impression that his mind is a point unto itself. Thus with this partition of Mind being deemed separate from other partitions, the observer of God is able to explore other unique partitions, by simply manipulating the conscious aspect of the consciousness perspective that gives life to that particular thought.
• So every thought in the mind of God, is attributed a portion of Mind and Consciousness to give it life.
• In order for this whole process to succeed, 50% of God's Mind must be perspective, and 50% of it perception. Thus there is the viewed and the viewing platform. Indeed, the viewed must also have two divisions. That which is in service, and that which is receiving.  
• This then is Pralaya where there are cycles of in and out, where attention is given and viewed from, or not. 
• This individual perspective creates an illusion in the mind of man which says man is self aware. This is simply our observer self as God, encaptured within the mind of man. 
• The mind of man creates a personality through this illusion. 
• Through thought the man animates the aspects of his personality
• Being the micro of the macro, man is capable of creating thought and animating that thought as he is steeped in the Consciousness aspect of God. 
• There is only one creator...God. Me. But I have to behave as the creator to be the creator.
• If I so behave as a victim, then this is the perspective I have decided upon and so this is the experience I will have for now. I don't have to decide I am God, (because I AM) to create this or that. I simply have to have activate my Will and balance this with Love or any form of Love to animate consciousness within an idea I have. This Love aspect may be appreciation. It could be any manner of aspects of Love. (Devotion to money or wealth or power would all work as long as there were no conflicting directives).
• Motive is everything. This determines the clarity of my directive.
• If I have a group motive, then the power of the mind of the group comes into play and with it, ALL of the consciousness controlled by it. 
• Every aspect of consciousness has a Will component. That is, it seeks to bear the fruit of it's purpose for being. Consciousness animates a thought. Every single thought is derived from the WILL of God's mind to know itself. So every thought seeks to embellish itself as a description of LOVE. 
• So basically we have the Mind of God, attempting to describe itself as Consciousness to the Observer. I AM the combination of WILL and LOVE. I would describe this as: xyz (herein lies every single thought that exists in God's Mind.   
• Currently man creates using a negative commodity trading system. He swaps his experiencing time, for experiences. 
• There are two tiers of creators. Those that use others to create for them and those that work for others. 
• If this life is pre determined I wonder how much of this can be changed once you are in here. 
• Service is a physical plane flow of energy. Teaching and mentoring is a mental plane flow of energy. Good will is an emotional plane flow of energy. Appreciation is a soul plane flow of energy, Wisdom and Truth is a buddhic plane flow of energy, pure Love is Atma plane flow of energy and Will is direct from the mind of God. Something like this, even if I do not have the names of the planes correct. 
• Is consciousness aware in it's own right, or is it only aware when a perspective of the observer connects with it, or through it. 
• Consciousness behaves differently when it is observed. 
• If consciousness behaves differently when it is being observed to when it is not, then does this signify a conscious and subconscious state of consciousness. Consciousness becomes conscious when observed, and is subconscious when not observed. 
• In subconscious state, consciousness follows the path of least resistance being it's pre determined directive. 
• This pre determined directive will be issued by the controlling mind space of the next level of the spiral.  ie soul aspect of God Mind, (Soul Mind) controls the directives for the human perspective. 
• However, each tier has it's own free Will to steer itself within the life cycle. The greater Will, will call, but the right to ignore and focus on the lower self aspect is ever the right of that perspective. Remember, I am just the observer, there is no requirement upon any aspect to do anything other than what is natural. It is natural to both join the greater calling and resist it. 
• Is our role to feed consciousness with appreciation to help it grow?
• Does Will evolve Consciousness by being imparted in conjunction with appreciation. 
• If I am God, then my role is to observe different perspectives. 
• As I am not Conscious on the physical plane when I sleep and I spend most of my time on the mental plane when I am awake,  Consciousness is not conscious on the same plane simultaneously.
• That great universal entity has 4 aspects - Observer, Mind - (Container), Thought substance =content of mind) Consciousness = Energy Being (Living energy) 
• We observe through a single idea/thought form at one time.  
• The act of "expanding one's Consciousness" is actually removing the observer from within the limited thought form. 
• We define ourselves using this thought encapsulated consciousness (Love and Will) 
• Our awareness of who we are is limited by that perspective
• As we grow our range of experiences, being explorations of the ideas we have of who we are, we become aware of more perspectives of thought to explore.
• We come into this lifetime with the idea of a limited store of energy. 
• This means that the "life" of each idea...including this human life which in itself is an idea, has a perception to the mind of that idea, of a limited store of life. 
• So, the mind of the life/consciousness above can create ideas within its own Mind to which the mind of the Consciousness below will perceive as real because those ideas are of the same substance as itself...an idea. 
• The soul has a plan outline before we start off this life cycle.
• We expend energy from this store in the pursuit of achieving this plan.
• We also expend energy unnecessarily on pursuits relating to the personality.
• We have the capacity to add energy to this store during our life time. 
• Our experiences surmount to a series of continuous overlapping and intersecting energies.
• Our role is to navigate these energies by imparting our personal will upon these energies. 
• If this is in line with our soul's will, then the result is alignment and flow, we feel in flow.
• This means the energy comes to us and continues on it's way having evolved somewhat from our influence. This service of interaction makes us givers. 
• If our personal will has no alignment with our soul then we end up' takers'. The energy gets to us and is forced to stop. We keep it within our magnetic field using our life energy to sustain and keep it.
• If we do not feed the energy it begins to depreciate eventually moves away from our sphere of influence. 
• Detachment is the act of not holding on to things, thus encouraging flow.

• All points of consciousness have a will. Some of those wills are individualized, some are group Wills.  

Got a Moment?

Got a moment..become a light. Realize that we are like wireless lights that plug in to the Universe. And any spare moment we have we can upload quality love energy that can be used by those in the Know.

Will verses desire and Faith

When I dip my focus into the sea of infinite possibilities and pluck out an idea, there are distinctly two approaches to how I connect with this thought form. One I can connect to it from a desire point of view, or from an intention perspective. One involves will the other hope. This distinction is a very important one. Hope signals separation from the idea. 'Will' firmly commits a bond/connection with the idea. Buddha often talks about human suffering and links that with desire. I am becoming convinced when I look at all the other literature on the concept of separation that it is this aspect that causes the suffering, because we cannot experience it if we do not Will it into our environment. In the Bible Jesus uses the word faith a lot. I have often heard that this word was changed because it did not suit the objective of the Church. Is it possible that the original context of the word "Faith" was in fact "Will"?
If you have the 'Will of a mustard seed, this mountain will pick itself up and throw itself into the sea" They seem interchangeable...faith and will; but there is another distinction that is very important to note. Faith denotes something external or separate that you need to have a believe in. With Will, the buck stops with you.

what is possible

I went through another stage of consciousness expansion today. The concept of what is possible is growing. My perception of what I am capable of is expanding...rapidly. But now I am in a state of conflict. I feel I am on the verge of a cliff. On one side there is magical things. But this is through the veil of desire. On the other is the same potential but it is gifted when I am ready and when my level of appreciation and giving back is in surplus. This I feel a sense of urgency to achieve. Like the coming of the end of my life is nearing, but yet I have so much to learn and so much to achieve. But the key is in releasing the desire for personal gain, yet retaining the sense of urgency without fear.
I think also, dipping my toe in the sea of potential is incredibly important as it stretches my consciousness. But to be able to do this without assimilating personality desire of what one finds is the only way to make it into that place as a reality. This then is where reality and potential is separated. When the personality observes and then desires items it sees within it's potential it is ever likely to stay an observer of that potential rather than an experiencer of the reality. But if the mind can release it's need to desire, but instead appreciates all that it has here and now...then more will follow including all that and more that it sees in it's potential.

Reality is what we observe God Consciousness it to be

If consciousness reacts and changes based on whether it is observed or not, then surely if we recognize that we are submerged in God Consciousness now...that creative substance which is the provider of all experiences and that as we so recognize ourselves as "sons of God" that we will discover that we have the capability of molding that substance. This then is the true creative process. If we separate ourselves from God Consciousness then the way we interact with it is completely different. We instruct it to react through channels. ie I want to create this...but first I have to work and earn money and then I allow you to create it for me to experience. I think the purpose of meditation is to secure and improve our ability to connect to God Consciousness. Meditation basically blocks out the current physical plane connection and enables you to connect to something greater. In what capacity you connect however also makes a difference. If you connect to God Consciousness  as a servant of God; as a victim; as a Atheist; as a simple hard working human, as a Son of God, or anything in between, then you will get that response. God Consciousness will be what you see yourself to be. What then are the possibilities if we rewire our own thinking, reuniting our consciousness from a new perspective and re engage God Consciousness as a true Son of God. Awesome food for thought.

The most valuable thing in our life.

Value is usually equated to things of rarity or scarcity. When something is limited but of perceived value then demand pushes up the value. There seem to be two major value rating systems in place on this plane- Money and Time. Given enough time, each of us could produce enough money to last us forever. We don't much think of dieing, but that fact is...we all do it. Some sooner than others but the reality is we are all on the clock so to speak. Yet with such a limited resource, we still don't appreciate just how precious it actually is. As we get closer and closer to the perceived end we may get a sense of value, but this is countered by the ever decreasing mobility we experience which detracts the value accessible within the remaining time available.
What if time was limited because of the way we use it. Because we waste it, less of it is given to us. What if we realised why we were here and utilized our time better, mining the value out of it. What if the objective of time was to produce creative energy.
We have translated this into "the objective of time is to produce money". Society initiates us from the earliest age into this concept, regardless of our country of origin, altered only by other cultural influences perhaps such as some religions but in most cases even religion comes second to this objective. We are all plugged in whether we want to be or not.Our thirst to create more money/creative energy to enable us to create what we want  drives us to consume the most valuable of resources we have, right to extinction....time.

So is there a solution? I propose a reorientation. If creative energy is our priority, then lets invest in that which filters down into this plane rather than that which is already here. When something already exists, it must be traded for. We trade our precious time for creative energy within the physical plane. But actually there is an abundance of creative energy. The whole universe is made of it. We are submerged in it. We can access this true creative energy without having to trade anything for it. It is simply a case of where we focus. We choose to trade. We choose to focus on the physical plane creative energy. It starts with recognizing that this creative energy is what we are submerged in. Then we need to connect with it. It is living conscious intelligent energy that responds when we observe it/recogninze it to be there. This I will discuss in my next blog.

The Spending Detox Money Diet

I propose to put myself on a 1 month spending detox with the purpose of improving my financial health. The terms of the exercise are simple.

1. I will not form any new thought forms masquerading as desires for this week. 
2. I will not make any spontaneous decisions with creative energy.
3. I will spend my time predominantly appreciating what I have and what manifests.
4. At the end of each week I will spend no more than half of what is available to spend. 
5. I will prioritise my expenditure decisions based on a. group need b. family need c. my light.
6. I will not plan anything new this week/month that could potentially result in more money being needed for next week/month.
7. I will look to generate as much etheric/emotional (appreciation) creative energy this week as possible

I will report back on my results daily. I will adjust the above as I learn more about myself.

Day 1:
Well this is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I was astounded to see how often my mind "wants". It is like an incessant wanting machine. And when you try to focus on stopping it from wanting, it does it by stealth. The list of common wants from today that surfaced and got some degree of attention before I woke up to what was going on:

• more money to cover the expenses of the academy
• an income for myself
• more time

Day 2: 

Money is flowing in. Budget created for the month: $30,000

Body wants are subconscious and go unchallenged. 

Personality is apparent in other affairs and is calling out to be tamed

Appreciation level is way below par. 

Personality wants are environmental rather than directly personal. 

I have alot of work to do to get things right. 

Concerted effort is the only way.

Day 3:
Money is still flowing in.
Debts are being called in to be cleared.
There was an initial resistance to this as I felt I should prioritize my debt repayment, but now I can see this is just mild fear of lack surfacing.
Appreciation is still way below par.
Mind exercise is required to delve into infinite potential but level out desire. 

money management

If one purpose in this life time is to learn to manage creative energy, then surely it must start with the concrete variety....money. It seems sensible if I am to be successful at this task that I review the habits I have which are generic for most of us and in doing so find some solutions that will see me making progress.
First a basic hypothesis: Creative energy by its nature must be something that already exists and is either transferred into something else or causes a change in something producing a resulting experience.
I believe the common human problem is to want first which creates the empty space, rather than generate the creative energy first then work out what to create with it. This negative system is a major issue to our unhappiness. I believe it was Buddha who said that cause of all human suffering is desire. (correct me if I am wrong). So, what exactly does this all mean? Well it basically means, generating creative energy without attributing it to something. If we were talking about money then that would mean taking all money earnt, doing nothing with it all week except actively appreciating it. Then at the end of the week, seeing it as creative energy decide what is the best way for a return on investment as energy to generate more creative energy...but not necessarily more concrete energy, but rather etheric or emotional creative energy.
It is interesting how I hear my lower mind scream out "but wait there are all those bills and expenses that I have and therefore I never have any money to spend" But here is where I would like to step up to the plate and counter that idea. How many decisions do I make in a week that involve the expenditure of money that was not planned for. Could be as simple as purchasing a bottle of water, or a snack. How about those movie tickets, or that thing on trademe that is soooooo cheap. The list goes on. I believe this is the culprit. My next post will be a proposed expenditure diet. A planned spending detox.

CEO OF ENERGY

I propose that I am here to learn to manage energy. After all the whole greater Universe is energy. There seems to be 3 aspects to the discovery and learning project. Mind stuff, Particle Stuff, and Observer.
Look at our make up. We are an energy being, interacting on multiple energy fields. We are learning in a protected environment where with our trainer wheels on it is harder for us to disrupt the bigger picture.

Our school books are 1. Money (concrete creative energy) where we learn to manage this energy. If we are wasteful we will soon find ourselves without it. If we scrimp on using it at all we find our lives meaningless and without connection to the greater purpose.  2. Etheric/Astral creative energy. We first need to learn to wield the receptor...the emotional body.We have 7 chakras. The 1st one is our major internal source of creative energy. This is not released until graduation is near. The second chakra is what we term sexual energy. This is the first stage of creative energy we need to get control of at this Etheric/Astral level. Our inability to control these two creative energies will result in a flair up at an emotional level.
3. Imagination is another tool. This is mental creative energy.

We need to get serious about why we are here. If we understood the purpose of our lives we would graduate quickly as our effort would be aligned to the powers beyond our current comprehension who watch over us.

It seems to me that each of these layers have common lessons. I am going to attempt to draw up some hypothesis's as to what these lessons may be.
1. Energy must flow/ through us.
2. We are designed to be conductors not only consumers.
3. We must focus our use of the energy we are bequeathed.
4. We are supposed to create with this energy our interpretation of Love.
5. We are supposed to direct energy up, down and sideways.
6. Our experiences are the reflections of how well we manage the above. .

Will to Mastery

I am heading for an intersection. On the left is all of my old habits surfacing and calling my name. On the right is the road to freedom from these historic vices. An awakening like the matrix has already occurred. There is no going back, but I can using denial slow the progress of going forward. In order to move forward I must flex my weakest muscle...that of Will. One may think one has strong will as did I, but truth be known at the first test of a previous addiction the little Will faulters so easily. It must be realised clearly that the way to mastery is through the Will becoming WILL. A statute of Strength by decision not wishing/wanting or hoping.

Today I am taking stock of  my life. I am ridiculously busy...burning out, YET at the end of every day I feel I have achieved nothing. It is time to change.

I have hedged my bets with my personality for as long as I can remember. For this is all I have known. Now I am orientating toward soul consciousness and the personality is being seen as a vehicle rather than than my identity. This is helping, but I have not yet instigated the next step of "teacher/Master" which would then have me fully mastering the decisions I make and the experiences I have aligning all with soul intention, intuitively.

It is time to harden up. It is time to separate myself as observer from the personality perspective just long enough that control can be obtained by the soul.

watch this space.

Givers and takers

There seems to be two types of entities in the Universe. Type 1 are Givers. Those who gift more than they take. And takers, those who take more than they give. Everything is relative. The fleas on a dog are takers.
Humans on this planet are takers. As infants we are takers, as teenagers, we are takers, as parents we are givers to the physical children, Some souls shift their focus over time from the physical plane perspective to other entities both of higher kingdoms and a lower kingdoms.
I feel that the lower kingdoms are our training ground. I believe the heirachy's plan is that each structure of the system gifts upward to the next rather than takes.
In the beginning there was an expression of love through the mind of GOD. As GOD breathed out this LOVE it became different perspectives of GOD........it became gods-perspectives of LOVE.

Now we are on the ascent. But the ascent has the furthermost aspects or perspectives who were created from the perspectives above it, taking their nourishment from their source. The way to ascend is to become the giver, not to that which is below you, but to that which is above you. In doing so you become that perspective. I think this is the plan for the total structure.

All consciousness has WILL, LOVE, and MIND to develop intellect into WISDOM.
Our job it seems is to align our will with that of the HIGHEST WILL. Due to our our perception of who we are, we often are lost in the will of the perspective we inhabit. This can even be a whirlpool of wills with so many entities intersecting within the sphere of mind that we view through.

It is the WILL to receive. I think this is why we express LOVE, indeed I can fathom that this would easily have been the original objective. We express Love so we can experience the reflection.
Karma is GOD's way of telling us what sort of experience we are for him. I like this saying. It has something about it that rings true. If GOD's plan was for his expression of LOVE (himself) to be expressed back through his reflection (us and all other perspectives of GOD), then he would have been rather surprised when his expression wasn't reflected. Initially Perhaps the plan was actually to have layers and his expression was to one layer, which reflected back to him and became a level of expression as his reflection.
Perhaps the issue came when it got down to the Human kingdom where the 'Pass it on" theory of gifting Love stopped....and Humans....just took, and took and took. Hence perhaps why they need to be wiped out every now and then. Like fleas on a dog...eventually one of them has to go....either the dog dies, or the fleas must be killed or at least substantially reduced.

What if we were able to learn how to gift back.

Love Wisdom

The purpose of Wisdom is to safe guard the purity of the essence of Love that is in expression. Without wisdom that expression will soon degrade until it is empty of light. So wisdom is basically a body guard, employed to protect in it's wholeness that original state of light that is in the process of expressing itself.