I am heading for an intersection. On the left is all of my old habits surfacing and calling my name. On the right is the road to freedom from these historic vices. An awakening like the matrix has already occurred. There is no going back, but I can using denial slow the progress of going forward. In order to move forward I must flex my weakest muscle...that of Will. One may think one has strong will as did I, but truth be known at the first test of a previous addiction the little Will faulters so easily. It must be realised clearly that the way to mastery is through the Will becoming WILL. A statute of Strength by decision not wishing/wanting or hoping.
Today I am taking stock of my life. I am ridiculously busy...burning out, YET at the end of every day I feel I have achieved nothing. It is time to change.
I have hedged my bets with my personality for as long as I can remember. For this is all I have known. Now I am orientating toward soul consciousness and the personality is being seen as a vehicle rather than than my identity. This is helping, but I have not yet instigated the next step of "teacher/Master" which would then have me fully mastering the decisions I make and the experiences I have aligning all with soul intention, intuitively.
It is time to harden up. It is time to separate myself as observer from the personality perspective just long enough that control can be obtained by the soul.
watch this space.
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