blind leading the blind

I have discovered that the vehicle I am using is reflecting something classified as Benign Essential Blepharospasm. I never eat something I can't pronounce, but here I am faced with the joy of enduring this allegedly uncurable disease.  On the physical plane it is called "essential" because the doctors have no clue as to what causes it. In reality it is simple: Benign means Kind or gentle/of a favourable environment. Essential means something extremely important/absolutely necessary. So, lets break the code and see what we need to learn. Eyes are the window to the soul. So with eyes shut, it is like being blind. I am not able to see the world as it is presented in it's current form and must look at it from a different perspective. I can look at it from the soul's perspective. I can look at it through the same physical body but through other senses. I can look at it through my imagination. I can look at it through the eyes of someone else. (metaphorically speaking). The key is to understand, that all things including all seemingly debilitating diseases are there for a reason. And if it is "benign then it is a like a gentle reminder or a wake up call. If it is absolutely necessary then this is the only way that we will wake up. So wake the hell up. If I wasn't seeing something...ie like the debt issue, then I needed this to happen. Two reasons...it is Karma being paid off and secondly it is helping me to see even though on the outside it is essentially making me blind. 

Every time I speak, it triggers. I know that taking is "spending" energy. So less talking spends less energy. But there is more to it. One eye is blurring. This means I am not seeing the solution clearly. 

I understand it is time for a change....but I also understand I have to identify correctly what that needs to be. Doing the same thing gets doesn't get the same results....it gets the volume turned up.