The conflict of the 3 current states of self

 

There appear to be 3 states of self. Instinctual, incorporating body and basic functioning, self as a perspective of humanity aka the conscious mind and personality, then SELF which for all intended purposes we shall call a soul. So Soul sets up this lifetime with this Body and a fresh localized mind.. Everything is set. The body is the perfect instrument for SELF to be able to explore with, and localized mind is all sorted to take care of the day to day stuff. 

The issue starts when the mind through interaction with it's environment begins to perceive that it is not good enough for its role. 

SELF didn’t come here to improve self. Self is unique to this lifetime. SELF came here to enjoy the fruits of it’s labours. Self doesn’t need to do anything, change anything etc.

Religion, and potentially other avenues such as the education system and the competitive sporting system all contribute to the perception that self is not good enough and therefore should strive to become good enough. In my case, so I perceived, so that SELF can come through and then Self can experience the abilities of SELF as if it were their own.

Self exists relative to Instinctual programming. It can see a difference between itself and instinct. This is what separates the human experience from an animal perspective. There is “self” awareness. But this “self” awareness is of the perspective, (the experiencing perspective of the SELF including body, mind and environment) being aware of itself, but does not see itself as a perspective. This is a very, very important point. If instinctual consciousness is capable of interacting with Conscious awareness (individualized self), and each can recognize their individual states of consciousness, then, self must also be able to recognize SELF. It may not KNOW self, but can recognize there is a higher state there, in the same way that instinctual self, recognizes self is there, but cannot KNOW self. To instinctual Consciousness, self, could well feel like a god. To self, SELF will also feel like a god, but the reason there is no urgency nor any natural state of relinquishing, of control of the perspective is because everything is perception, and therefore implied. Effectively it is belief. On that basis at each point, the lower states of consciousness must relinquish their control of the perspective to the higher states in order for evolution to progress. This perhaps is what the true term of FAITH means.

Did the perspective lose the instinctual consciousness, nope. Will self lose it’s state of existence when it relinquishes control to SELF. Nope, because SELF, doesn’t want to do the day to day things. Just like self doesn’t want to manually breath.

Should instinct be comparing itself to self? If it did, ……if it felt it had to…..or if it felt it had to become self, it would be unaccepting of itself and be in conflict. In the same way, self is not meant to become SELF. Self, is meant to be self, and accept its role, and do it well.

Does self have to become the best version of itself? If it perceived it had to do this, then it would be trying to achieve something…it could also begin to feel like it was not good enough. Did self expect instinctual self to become the best version of itself? No…it was already perfect as it was. So too with self. As far as SELF is concerned, self is perfect exactly as it is. It just needs to acknowledge SELF and relinquish control.

I think that was what the conflict was stated in the original human condition. The conflict was, that instinctual self, needed to let go so self could take over. Instinctual self, did not cease to exist when it relinquished control…this is very important. Self will not cease to exist but it must relinquish control. To do this, it must accept that it is already perfect exactly as it is, and thus it’s journey is now complete.

Evolving towards "Whole"

 Today is a pile of scattered ideas, some link, some random.

When we are truly one…..then we are God.

For now, we are many…..we are every different perspective that has a different reaction.

We are a good perspective on one day, and a negative one on another. One day we are  hero, another we are a villain. We are happy on one day, we are sad on another, each a different character exploring their perspective of SELF. Over time, I will respond…I am not this…..I am not that….I AM.

Slowly these different characters will fade until at last there I stand….the reflection of all others.

For now, I am all these different characters looking for the field/others to reflect for me, what I (as these various different characters) want to experience. When at last I am ONE, then you will find me in service….content to be as a reflection for others.

When I stay aware of who I am behaving as, then I can see the many Characters. I can see my displacement from being Whole. If my purpose becomes being aware, I empower myself. Purely through observation…change occurs.

Being present when a desire arises, enables the desire to be experienced as a feeling, without the automatic conversion to action, to manifest it.

The day after you die, nothing matters. Learn to bring that forward to today, now. This puts you in charge of what you decide to manifest. We manifest because we perceive the manifested object is the source of our happiness. Yet the desire is more pleasurable than the experience in many cases, and is certainly more valuable than when the manifested object has been experienced, as now you have a carcass to drag around or store.

Where does the desire arise from? Is it the mind or is the mind simply the channel to access me.

Is it the field calling for a connection to self? Is it a call to be experienced by the object itself?

Is it indeed a call to radiate, and this is “an example” ?

Suffering is wanting things to be other than what they are. By learning to BE with how things are, then we are able to be ourselves. Only when we are fully ourselves can we radiate to our brightest level. Seeing things as neither good nor bad, but all a perfect reflection of what is, helps.

If the field is indeed the reflective consciousness of SELF, then everything that I am experiencing is happening because I have chosen for it to happen. Local mind not having the view of everything, will not understand, but it doesn’t need to, it just needs to accept that everything is perfect. Sometimes tracks change because they need to in order for something new to happen.

The question is, does it require WILL of self/Decision of Self, before anything happens?

If everything was pre-ordained before entering this lifetime, then it is like a rollercoaster, that I simply need to sit back and enjoy., sometimes ups, sometimes downs. If it is a case of living in the now, then nothing will happen unless I WILL/Decide for it to happen. Then there is the other possibility, which is my contribution is on the feelings I produce and radiate. The field’s contribution is the choice of reflections that it puts in front of me as the observer to then experience.

Setting my focus on the types of energy I aspire to radiate, will ensure I am then getting the experiences that would make living this lifetime a fulfilling experience. I would like what I was experiencing, because I liken what I see/am experiencing to the state of self I am radiating. That likeness is what I define as happiness. Unhappiness is looking for the image to generate the feeling.

What if it is a fictional character of mind, that was created to enable continuity of similar experiences to previously enjoyed ones. So each character sets about automatically desiring, and manifesting and acting upon, or interacting with the object manifested or in some cases the idea imagined. This goes on automatically until the conclusion of the experience, then the character relinquishes control of the mind space and once again I am present.

If I see this coming, I can explore the character, and even the use for that character, perhaps dissolving that programme so it no longer needs to play. These characters are just Programmes in the mind. They are not real characters.

We are Consciousness. Consciousness is shaped and moulded by patterns within the mind.

To become aware of these patterns, and dissolve the need for them, liberates me and leaves me present in the moment for all my experiences.

Perhaps it leaves me in service to be the experiences of others.

These patterns had a purpose at an earlier point in my evolution. They served the purpose of igniting radiance. Doing so via objects or ideas is very, very fleeting and temporary, but potentially functional like the spark of a gas burner. But it is not efficient to use as the source. The ideal is to increase my regular waking state of radiance which occurs without external provocation.

One way to do this, is to recognize that each experience is unique. Like  opponents in a competition, No matter how often you have played a competitor, today they are a different combination of feelings, state of mind, state of health, state of conditioning etc.

The purpose of these programmes is to effectively automatically create something that I perceive gave me pleasure once or twice before.

Fact is nothing outside of me gives me anything. I instruct pleasure or not depending on my combinations for today.

2ndly given that every experience IS unique, then I can break the pattern by seeing this experience as a new one, designed to be explored as if having it for the first time.

Look at the differences between this time, and the first time? There are differences. In the first time, everything was unexplored, fresh, unique. Once experienced I perceive the same experience can be had again by simply engaging with the object again…ie eating a pie again, would give me that pleasure again. However, when something is new, you are fully present. When you engage in something on auto pilot, it is almost always over before you experience anything. (that WAS nice, you will often hear people say, as they are only becoming present at the end of what they are doing)

Lets talk about the 8 limbs of Yoga.

This is a very interesting exercise. The first one says…Abstain from lying. If you had asked me yesterday, I would have told you I was one of the most honest people I know….but that is a lie!

So here in I will explain how deep the deception goes so as to learn.

The first lie is that I am this or that. Every time I engage that lie, (I am a coach, I am the owner, I am a man, I am Ritchie) I create a start point for a lie to grow from, effectively I plant a seed, which grows into a tree, with many, many branches. To be truthful I would have a need to look back to the seed.

Every time I behave in a manner that is in line with a perception of self, I am propagating a lie. Because I am disconnected from my awareness of True Self in that moment, everything that follows that initial perception is hollow and empty, yet I will not admit it. Instead I will go looking to fulfil that hollowness. This will lead me to other limbs/vices. Ie greed or attachment.

To become truly Truthful, I must BE only that which I am. That means, experiencing only that which is in front of me, without judgement of it (certainly not through comparison to a previous experience….because as learnt earlier, these experiences are NOT the same ones, even if they look the same on the outside. )

This means not engaging any speech that reflects that illusionary perception of self. This means abstaining from speaking, and if I do, then it should be a question to help someone learn something for themselves.

All of my wants were previously motivated from this perceived self. This is then a major stage of detachment. The theory of wants, is a linear approach to life. If I want something, I set a goal, I draw a line between where I am based now in any given situation, and seek to solve the dilemma of emptiness or lack that separates me from that want. Ie go get a job, earn money, buy item.

In this new state of BEING, I am not in a linear environment anymore. Everything can occur simultaneously. I don’t go out and get anything, which doesn’t mean I don’t experience anything, quite the opposite…I radiate, and many, many reflections, like the sparkles of the surface of a well cut diamond shine through needing only one light source.

I am that light source. The field is that diamond. As I radiate the field reflects back to me in an abundance of avenues, as long as I don’t instruct it to be linear, and therefore reflect back something that involves time, sacrifice, cost, etc.

Why do we lie? On the surface we will say because we don’t want to hurt the person we are lying to. But in fact if is more complicated than that. Actually in the beginning, we are undefined/locationless, because we don’t have a definition of who we are. So in order to be able to guide others to a definition of who we are, we create a perception firstly in our minds, of who we want to be, and then in the minds of others, of how we want them to see us.

Every single day we work on this perception, like a spider works on it’s web. Is it our goal, to release the need for others to see us in a particular way, and most importantly for us to see ourselves in a particular way, because both are illusions……and are the basis upon which the rest of the branches of the tree/rest of the lies are fabricated from.

So what is the Truth? Is it whatever we want it to be? Or is Truth unmoving? Is Truth nothing or everything? Is Truth evolutionary, or is illusion evolutionary and Truth is returning to Nothing/One.

Does it even matter?

Enlightenment seems to be the en lightening or unburdening our SELF of illusion.

If I imagine someone with a beautiful laugh, or I hear someone with a beautiful laugh it changes how I feel. So what is the difference between imagination and physical realm. Is it not then the same? Somewhere there is something relating to how this loops, ie I see something beautiful, I respond with a connection to SELF, thus I feel good; but up until now I have then associated that feeling to the image, imagined or physical and thus “wanted” it, or more of it. 

Another option, is to be aware of the whole field when a perspective of it shines/reflects. So I see the whole diamond, not just the one perspective. 

A third option is that I see the whole SELF. 

 What if I am the totality of all aspects, divided into 3 parts, observer, perspective and reflection. When all 3 come together in one point, then this is what I experience as Joy/Love/Happiness.

This would explain the attraction to “things” all the time, using them to give myself a sense of wholeness. Learning each time that this doesn’t work, because it is missing a part. If there are 3 parts, and I only ever connect two together, then I am always going to feel like I am missing something. 

Connecting all 3 requires me to be present as the Observer in the Now, Aware of the Feeling radiating, watching the reflection without attachment to the reflection through the perspective (local mind). 

Its a mouthful, but it's worth contemplating.