Evolving Adam... a journey of metaphysical development

Decision making power

2012-01-06T06:31:00.000-08:00

If infinite possibilities are navigated by Decision making, which is governed by belief, then what I decide to believe in, will determine what is available for me to make a decision on.

Infinite possibility is living consciousness. Everything is alive...most of it functioning outside the spectrum the Human eye/brain is receptive to.

My imagination is the viewing platform into this superconsciousness that is infinite potential...at least that part of IP that I can comprehend.

Distant Relatives or Lovers

2011-07-28T03:49:00.000-07:00

How do you treat the energy that surrounds you in any given context clothed in any given form at any given moment. Do you have the same relationship with this living intelligent expressions of love, as an acquaintance or less, or of a distant relative or perhaps a customer? As you improve your awareness this relationship will change and grow stronger...becoming more similar to that of an a neighbour, or friend, then a family member and eventually a lover. Finally to that of something you have created yourself....and then yourself.

Eat food not to experience the taste yourself, but that the food being living intelligent expression of self may have a quality experience of you as you engage with it. What happens then if you eat and watch TV? What value does the life energy that is that food before you gain from you?

This is a basic yet necessary service well within our capability yet it idea of it sits beyond our consciousness, waiting to be discovered. It is like active listening....it IS active experiencing. Take a moment to think....how much life energy is surrounding you now as we speak. Is there not enough that we must therefore 'want' more. When put this way it makes wanting a ludicrous down right rude activity.

There is an abundance of life energy everywhere I look. Life energy in all of it's forms will respond to me. I can summon or invoke it, in all of its living forms, but doing so only stands to show I have not yet learnt who I am. For when I do, I will know, that love is found in the service of life energy and all of it's perspectives, not in the experiencing of it from self. I do still experience, but I do so in service to it, rather than from the perspective of personality that seeks only to have a one sided affair. An experience of love from my own singular perspective, and not from the perspective of life, where the circle is then completed.

This will take some getting used to, but basically it means every mouthful of food has a right to be experienced. Every lung full of air has a right to be experienced. Where then is the right of us...to want more.

Mind on others

2011-07-25T05:16:00.000-07:00

My mind is currently being drawn towards the service of others, but without any specific order. I feel I am simply being prepared that when the time comes my commitment will be second to none, and I will pure in my actions for I will have detached myself from every part of wanting towards the personality prior to entering into this as yet unknown service. When I know more I will let you know.

Accountability

2011-07-21T09:04:00.000-07:00

I have given lately to organizing my time for the purposes of being able to report better to the Chair of the Board at our weekly meetings and to be able to quickly draw up a monthly report for the board meetings. The method of planning and time records has been honed over the last 6 months and now I feel I have an effective working model. This got me thinking. What would happen if I applied this principle to my spiritual life. After all, I have a "chairman" equivalent to answer to there also. I believe if I were to log how often I appreciate, send forth love, do a random act of kindness, or a selfless act. If I noted when I engaged in harmlessness, read for the purpose of furthering wisdom; actively listened to my intuition; set about doing something for someone else; reduced my footprint on the planet deliberately; gifted a smile; made someone laugh or seriously contemplate the way they do things or any other of the many possible spiritually enhancing activities that are available to me in my day - then I would find it clear how spiritual my life actually is, and would become I think more motivated to engage in these activities more often in my day, because I have to report at the end of the week, rather than at the end of my life time at some pearly gate...a distance that is too far off to warrant serious motivation today.

Desires verses Gratitude

2011-07-18T10:46:00.000-07:00

I am exploring the idea that perhaps, desires are born from a lack of soul nourishing energy, that may bear gifts of gratitude if created. Therefore desires are the opposite of Gratitude. For if your heart is full of appreciation for what you have, your soul is nourished and overflowing with energy. And in such a state, desires cease to exist.

Desires are the bain of the earth. The act like parasites, taking from the the greater providing soul to feed that of the lower lacking souls. Yet all along we are capable of sustaining our own needs.

It is our will that needs to strengthen and connect to our provider, that gratitude be our source of daily bread, not our wants. Only then will there be peace. For what we are experiencing is the war that rages between the counter of wants from the keeper of the source that those wants are satisfied from.

Super intelligent

2011-07-14T07:30:00.000-07:00

I know we like to compare ourselves by looking at others and by looking back into our history. And based on what we see between these two comparative perspectives we somehow arrive at a perception of self rated intelligence. Today, I took a different perspective of the Universal system in operation here on this plane. The system we currently use is a currency based system. We exchange things, to get what we want. We consider it to be theft, if we take anything without either first asking or by exchanging something deemed to be worth more in value than what we ask.

Yet, we go through our whole life in a constant, steady state of wanting.

Realising that wanting is a creation of a space in which something can exist for me to experience, but only ever wanting does not offer anything of value. Have a look at me. I have no money. Reflection = I have no energy/no universal currency with which to magnetise the object into manifestation. I believe there is a super simple, super intelligent system in play, that operates on a currency basis. If you have the currency, you will be able to "buy"/"create"/magnetise what you desire as soon as you desire it....instantly if requested. But alas, we have little to non. Whenever we do actually generate some currency, we likely don't notice it much as our wants are abundant and habitual. So the currency would be absorbed by the next habitual want, and I would probably be non the wiser, but for the appearance of such as "I always wanted one of those" So I have started a new focus. It is the regular banking of energy. Appreciation walks, meditation, gratitude for being, gratitude for everything and anything before me as I become aware of it. I spend time affirming I am here to spread love and build my aura to help with the warmth. By doing so, I believe I am saving up. Simultaneously I am working on eliminating attachment to things and with it, "wants".

What I am expecting, is that experiences will either just begin to appear or money will begin to manifest itself, in increasing quantities because it is a physical manifestation of energy on this planet. So go ahead, give up wanting for 1 hr, then 1 day, then try it for 1 week. In the meantime start working on saving.

Change and potential

2011-06-28T08:34:00.000-07:00

In every given moment the chains of that which hold me back from my true potential are the current habits that I have. As soon as I break those habits, I will break through and realise a greater degree of my potential than what I am seeing now. Wanting is futile, and serves to do nothing more than entertain me. Be the change, for that which I have wanted and seen is there on the other side of life once those changes are implemented.

"will" I have or just want.

2011-06-10T16:35:00.000-07:00

Exploring experiences is supposed to be our task here. The problem is somewhere along the line we got the idea we had to create the experience, and we lost our way. Now we have stepped back even further. Now few people create, most people just want to create. I have been exploring this concept, and following are my notes to date. I will add to it as I learn more.

Step 1. Start with a crystal clear picture of an experience that you are interested and motivated to have. Imagine every element from every direction from INSIDE your experience. Submersing yourself in the idea moves the experience from being a "want" to a reality - like a dream is real to you while you are in it. Compare this to a a 'want' which is viewed from outside of the experience, looking in. One of the key habits of a 'wanter' is that they separate themselves from their desire experience creating a gap which they justify holding on to. This gap becomes their reality. They put more belief, more focus time, and more energy into this gap than their desire. They live inside the outside of their desire, instead of inside their desire.

Your imagination is the architects design room. It is the place of sculpting, and designing. When you exit your imagination most of us, go "back to reality". In doing this...we are behaving and confirming, and therefore creating, that the design work IS our experience. We enter into the plane where we should be receiving the experience, and we create this gap of space and go back to "wanting". From the pre experiencing realm of mind (the architects office) we need to leave with an expectation of action from the volunteers in the Universe whose job it is to bring that experience about. You have to realise that you are an integral part of a team. The rest of the team are all doing their role, everyone, but you. It is everyone's objective to have the same experience, each entity having their own perspective of the same experience. But without you, the experience doesn't happen and so everyone misses out. You are not alone. You are not the creator, or go getter. You are the address for delivery -physical experiencer. Now rewind back to the part of the last sentence " without you, the experience doesn't happen". This is where we go wrong. We consciously try to create the experience. We come out of the architects office all motivated and we then go about 'trying' to manifest the necessary components of the experience. This is of course not our job, because at best, the only thing we could possibly do is manifest the rudimentary elements of the physical experience. An example-we imagine a perfect holiday. We explore it in our imagination, and come out into the physical plane. From here we create the gap by saying 'when I can afford it' or 'when I have time' or 'when such and such an event occurs first'. Or we straight away action it, and race off to book our flights, and accommodation, insurance, and all other things. But no matter what, we cannot control the rest of the universe, and we cannot create the quality. We cannot control the fact that our plane is delayed, or returns or gets diverted during flight due to mechanical issues. We cannot control that the taxi driver at the other end is rude, or angry due to a run in with his boss or wife prior to meeting up with you. You cannot control the mix up with your hotel booking, or that the room is not anything like the pictures you viewed on line when making the booking. You cannot control the weather, the instances of being fleeced by experienced hawkers, by the spillage on your clothes and on an on it goes. Basically you control nothing that contributes to the quality of your experience. Once you fully grasp this you will realise you have to take a totally different approach, and once you do you will see a completely different outcome occurs.

At the moment you live your life as an individual with different hats on. You have your relationship hat, your work hat, your friend hat, and even your public hat. (more about these hats later). Within each of these roles you try to do your best to achieve the wants you possess in each of the areas they represent. The interesting thing that we don't often realise, even though it is completely logical and common sense, and you will laugh at it when you hear it....yet ask yourself this....do YOU do it? In order to get what you desire from an experience that involves others, you need to accommodate their desires first. If you want a quality experience...just adding "things" wont get you what you want. Now here is the next most amazing thing. The whole time you have read the above, you have likely been thinking about your physical counterparts. Those other physical bodies that you consider yourself to have relationships with. Now consider that there is another realm of beings, who also desire experiences that connect into your address. They work tirelessly to set up the quality part of the experiences you desire, so that they can have their experience. Think of it like this- you are the parent/friend or Aunt/Uncle of a child who is having a birthday or at Christmas. Careful observation has identified a desired idea that the child wishes to have. You happily go out and get that thing. At this point it is just a thing. You could prove that...just by throwing it on the floor in front of the kid and saying agressively "FINE - HERE HAVE IT!!!!! The reality is at that moment the value of that "thing" is a negative value. The child wishes they had never wanted it in the first place. Luckily we subconsciously recognise that experience it isn't that 'thing' the kid wants, but that experience of receiving it, and the connection with the person who gave it. You spice up how you give it to them...by wrapping it and perhaps even drawing a treasure map, or even doing a treasure hunt with clues that lead to more clues and finally the gift because you want to elongate YOUR experience. You see your experience is the enjoyment of the child. The longer the child has a smile on their face, that is related to things you are doing for them the greater your sense of self worth. The quality of your life is related to your sense of self worth. If you know the universe depends on it's survival from something you are doing right now....then you will feel the worthiness of a Universe. If you feel that child relates their smile and laughter and the hug that you get to your actions -directed at making them happy, then your self worth rises.

Now imagine that your universe is full of creatures who are family, who all seek to have their experiences with you. Their experience may well be your appreciation, your laugh, your growth, your sense of self worth, or even the activation of and alignment of your Will.

Now what would happen if when you were in the architects office, there wasn't just you...but a whole team of "managers" who each are in charge of managing different aspects of the experience. Also realise that there isn't actually creating going on....just management. The management of resources. So the team watch your idea. Then as long as you leave them to it and go out of the office with a sense of connection to them, and a sense of expectancy for the experience, they are then able to get on with the job of bringing the project to fruition. The managers then go back to their teams who then set about doing their roles. There will be one overall project manager who coordinates everyone.

Now, decide that when you enter the architects office, that you are not the King, with everyone there to serve you; but rather that you are a critical part of the whole team. You are the ideas man, and the experiencing point. If the experience is created and you are not aware of it when it comes, or you behave like a king who expects excellence as the normal, or you don't explore it fully then the rest of the team will miss their experience- your reaction, your appreciation, your smile etc. Ponder this for a moment. The quality of everything you experience is moulded by a team your a critical part of. That the quality of an experience has two aspects or halves to it that without each other, cannot be experienced. My awareness of it, and the components that I perceive make a quality experience. This part is interesting also. If I belch at the end of dinner, or pick up my plate and throw it into the fire place (because it is customary for me to do so to show my appreciation), when I am visiting a family in modern day westernised middle to upper class suburbia, I am unlikely to receive the quality experience I anticipate from showing my appreciation to them. For appreciation is a gift, which is not complete until it is received.

First there is the giver, who gives because he gets to receive the reaction to his gift. Then the receiver gives for the first time (excluding the 'reaction') appreciation expecting to have that received to 'balance the books.'

So now, imagine where ever you are, you are far from alone. You have 1000s watching your every move, listening to your every thought, which is not hidden like you think it is. You are in fact an observer of even that. Yours is that which we call 'will' The conscious mind you think of as being yours, is not at all. it belongs to the personality of the vehicle you observe through. It is mainly reactionary, having set itself up with many many cues in it's infancy of youth, so as to spend the rest of its days cruising on auto pilot, making ever so slight adjustments as required for survival, but not adhering well to opportunities to change, for that will require conscious effort. With every word heard, and with every action seen, how is the calibre of what is said and done? Change will only happen when you require it. Not your mind. You mind is a computer system. It will spit out what is requested of it. If it is obvious that what is being requested will be required again in the future, then it downloads it into the main drive (subconscious). It will NOT instigate change. You are the observer. Your language is WILL. When you 'will' something to happen, if it is contrary to what behaviour you have allowed in the past, then you have to reinforce your 'Will' being what we call 'will power'. You will have to exert will until the conscious mind accepts the new status and changes the behaviour. Now put all of these things together...what do you have?

Breaking through the shell

2011-06-09T13:56:00.000-07:00

I have been like a new born Chicken trying to break out of it's shell into it's new environment and new reality. I have had a few pecks at the shell, seen a bit of daylight, marvelled, and then sat back down to a leisurely afternoon nap followed by a feed, then another nap, a stroll around my shell, and the appearance of trying to grow up into a chicken by paying tribute to the hole I have started with a daily tap or two, deep down underneath secretly hoping someone is going to break the shell from the other side. I sit there happy inside my secret super hero fantasy, pretending to be someone great, someone respected and looked at with admiration, yet I only bring no credence through action that would meet any metaphysical standards of integrity. I am riddled with self destructive tenancies, and habits that I have allowed to rule over my current potential and result in what has been occurring...slow to no progress but for the efforts of others.

This has to stop.

I have to find something so powerful, that I can plug into it, and it will be my source of will.

I did it once before by feeling a master was here waiting for me to awaken. Now it needs to be stronger. I need to see and feel the countless generations that are relying on me to come through with this success story. To become a success, that new horizons can be carved out for future generations. I need to feel I am the trunk of the tree, not a solitary insignificant twig, who will hardly be noticed if I am there or not, which is how I manage my life currently. I make believe, in a significant way through a make believe illusion that my actions and inaction has little significance either way on the outcome of the universal journey of life that is unfolding.

But it will not unfold without me. This is the initiation of not just my future, but the very future of the universe and all that is in it. That part of the heirachy that controls this part of life energy, watch with baited breath, unable to move forward, the whole universe on hold until I get it together.

Energy Management

2011-06-06T05:26:00.000-07:00

All manner of energy passes by and through me. The objective it seems is for me to become a good manager of this energy. Initially, while I am in the novice stages of my job, I interact and react a lot with this energy. I allow the energy to control the different aspects of my being. This energy unmanaged, controls my body via impulses and addictions; it controls my emotions, causing me to react emotionally, it controls my mind, causing me to think in a particularly direction, and it can even make my soul feel empty. There are many stages of development we go through to get control of our management of this energy.

We live in a super highway of energy. Without good management, there is absolute chaos. Our journey is one of creating order out of chaos. It isn't that any of this energy is "bad" for out of this energy comes the development of our Will, and then the alignment of our will to that of the Greater Will. It takes the power of our will, to stop the auto pilot reactionary status we start off in. From here to move forward we must then align ourselves with a will that is greater than our own.

I feel this article is unorderly in the way I have formatted it, and there is much more to be said on the subject, so I will be back to revisit it.

The king and his servant

2011-06-03T17:22:00.001-07:00

This leads on from the last post. I felt it necessary to be a separate post.

There once was a King who ruled over the enormity of his entire kingdom, and everything in it.

The interesting thing having read this...is you imagine some medieval king with last amounts of land and millions of people under his rule.

But decide for a second that you are the king, it is your kingdom, being your life. Now re read the same sentence. This is perception at play.

Interesting is though that we go through our lives in various emotional states, and when in trouble we call out silently in prayer, seeking help from beyond our kingdom.

The interesting thing is that this puts us in the kings position. What if, we perceived that we were the servant. That we were here to serve a just, and fair king/universe. Our role, is to experience what the king wants experienced. Here is how it would work.

At the moment we approach an opportunity, and we either a/. wait to see if anything comes out of the opportunity and connects with us. b/. we 'wish' for something to come out of the opportunity so we wait with a sense of anticipation c/. we act with intention to make a result come out of the opportunity. In all of these we do not have any control over the quality.

The opposite is therefore, that we hunt out to be the perfect servant. We look at an opportunity not as a "what can I get from it" but with the universe in mind...."what would you like to get from it? Imagine if we could put ourselves on hold for a day, and live for the universe. This is not the same as waiting. You do not wait for the universe to deliver, it is actively engaging all opportunities that are already there. It may be that I should be saying "soul" instead of universe, but for now, I am sticking with this, and lets see where it takes me.

Hunting

2011-06-03T16:28:00.000-07:00

In Badminton, we have this expression called 'hunting'. In effect it is the deliberate act of seeking an opportunity to take direct the game into your favour.

Each morning I wake up, go through my "get up routine" and then start my day approaching my to do list with varying degrees of enthusiasm, based on how many of the items on it, where on yesterdays list and the previous days, and so on and have been transferred to today's list because they have not been done. The more transferees, the the less enthusiasm I have for my day, and the more likely during the day I am going to seek out "escapes". There is a great deal of value in applying this "hunting' principle to our day in relation to the opportunities that are there. I have the opportunity to end my day with a true sense of satisfaction and achievement. I have the opportunity to end my day with a true sense excitement for the coming day. This power is in my hands. I think most days, I spend waiting. Equate this to a game of badminton...I am waiting for the player/universe to give me an opportunity. Hang on....that sounds like 'hunting'. So what then is the difference? When I am waiting in a game of badminton, I am not mentally engaged with my environment. I am not engaging the game, until the opportunity comes. Effectively my attention is on my side of the line. This is like a caveman hunter, who waits for his prey to wander into his camp, before he engages his art of harvesting his food. He would eventually starve to death. Hunting, is about going out of your environment, and seeking out opportunities. In the case of badminton, I engage my opponents space using my perception to assess their capabilities in a given situation based on previous similar situations and results. I do this in conjunction with effort to force a favourable result. So all very interesting, but how does this pertain to my day? Well, I think I get up every day and I am a 'waiter'. I spend my day plodding...waiting for things to happen. I do not make them happen. I am not engaging my Universe, I am staying in my limited physical space. So what does this mean?

Well, I wake up in the morning, and I am entering into my physical realm, not locked into it, but observing from it. I am 'hunting' down opportunities that I can clearly see are there in my infinite possibilities and I am availing myself to connect with these opportunities. I am not predetermining the pathway, only hunting for the outcome. Each time I enter into a new environment, I connect with that part of the experience which is the other part of my greater self. The part that has created me to be this point of experience. I realise that part of me is the source of that part of the experience and I of mine. That only through my awareness will my part of the experience occur. It is like oxygen and breather, or water and drinker.

By staying on my side of the line, I do not make the connection with the source of opportunity. I do not send out the "address" or 'signal of readiness' to say I am a worthy candidate for an experience. So how does this work? Well, it is really about realizing, I am not this individual, who is selfishly out to get whatever experiences I can. I am an integral part of a very big picture/ entity, of which I have the capacity to play a big, small or no role in the growth and development of. This includes every single aspect of every experience that I have the capability of perceiving.

the purpose of language

2011-05-30T23:30:00.000-07:00

I am starting to consider the idea that language is a conduit for energy. Body language, verbal, written is all aimed at gifting, or taking energy. For the karmic value of our action we should be 'present' when we speak. This way we are deliberately acting when steal or gift energy to another through our communication. Perhaps this awareness will decrease the frequency of taking that goes on, and change our behaviour to a degree that each time we open our mouths, peace, love and understanding flow out as we connect with other beings in the universe.

The power of Wants

2011-05-28T21:51:00.000-07:00

I have concluded that wanting is the ultimate cause of all sin. Here after lies how I arrived at this idea.

When we enter into this plane we take on a limited form. We have a limited form for each of the planes we exist on. The physical plane is a place of consumption. A place where we are actually able to spend energy. We do so, at our own peril, for each expense comes from our own limited source. I would go so far as to suggest that this is the action of ageing, our bodies behave like a gauge enabling us to measure the amount of energy we have left under our management. We are entrusted with this energy, in the same way Jesus talks about the vineyard owner entrusting his workers each with a gold coin (a symbol of concrete energy) before he goes away. Every time we "want" and act upon this want, we expend/spend a small amount of that energy. Analyse yourself how many wants you have and act on in one given day. Now we live in the information age. There is the greatest exposure of what I call 'energy docking points' the world has ever seen. The more we plug into those receptacles the more potential there is to have the life sucked right out of us...literally.

It is therefore vital that we first get control of the minds we are perceiving from and stop this vast exportation of energy. What then is the opposite? Can we take on energy?. Indeed we can. The opposite to spending energy is of course receiving it. Here we need to be careful as to the type and quality of energy we receive. Also, there is the importance of not "wanting" to receive this energy, for the wanting will counter the opportunity. At them moment we have been duped into believing that we are receiving energy (money) when we work. So we go out and work out butts off, to receive a quantity of energy at the end of a time frame, which we have been told is a good or fair amount or not. Little do we realise that in fact we are not receiving this, but trading our own pure soul based energy for a far more crude, concrete form at what could only be described as an appalling exchange rate. We spend 40 plus years worth of prime experiencing time, to end up in a position of relative neutrality simply because the more we earn the more our expenses are. To gauge the relative truth in this, you simply have to ask yourself these 3 questions:

1. when I am 20 would I accept a contract to give up the next 40 years of my life, in exchange for

The best possible quality energy to receive is through service to others. Genuine appreciate of another soul, is the best form of energy to receive. Other types are genuine love such as an expression of kindness, creative expression, etc. I will have to think more on some other examples. Feel free to add some yourself to help me brainstorm.

The hardest part is to stop the automated machine, which is the result of indifference. Here an entity gives over control of their experiencing platform to the mind to drive it. They then go into just perceiving and taking what comes. The mind left to it's own devises, is then driven by the minds of others. Like a sheep being lead by a shepherd. The only problem is, the shepherd in our case is the motivated "sellers" of the financial economy stimulating the minds of the sheep with a never ending marketing machine conditioning them to automate and act without challenge on wants. So the first step is to take back the reins, and disconnect from the system. You have to break the incessant habit of wanting. The first steps towards doing this is the act of non ownership. (forgotten the word for this) Basically you stop feeling connected to the physical plane and to ownership of anything. If you drop that sense of ownership you are far less likely to "want" things. There is much much more to this, but I will have to come back to discuss it some more.

My book of life

2011-05-18T03:00:00.000-07:00

I went to theosophy on Tuesday night to my first introduction of the celebration of the wesak festival full moon. It was fantastic. One of the stories John mentioned was the idea of having a book to write in, something that we could write something in and commit to for that following month.

Well that idea really hit a chord with me. I have spent much of yesterday and today thinking about it, and have concluded it could be the next big leap for me.

I have grabbed an empty exercise book, and titled it simply...MY BOOK OF LIFE.

The reason I have called it this, is because when I succeed at this adventure, I will have truly lived my life.

Here is what I Propose to do. Opening up the empty book, I am going to divide the first page into two columns. On the first column I will write something about myself that is worthy of change. It will be something that I believe will contribute towards my next initiation; something that I know is holding me back. On the second column I will write something that I am going to add into my life. Together these two columns combine to act as a bridge to take me to the other side of my life.

Each night I will commit to living on the other side of life, where that change has already been made.

My plan is to write down on the first page something of meaning for my next day. Then throughout the day I refer to this idea.

We are constantly engaged in looking for keys. Yet the keys are everywhere. Keys are used to undo locks. The locks are harder to find than the keys. Locks are covered by the things we need to change. A student doesn't begin their journey of learning for themselves until the teacher stops teaching for while the master speaks, the student is engaged only in absorbing that knowledge. Only as the teacher steps away is the true environment of discovery for the student availed to them.

A teacher doesn't become a master until they learn silence in the presence of a student.

What then is the purpose of conversation?

Keys to Success in Life

2011-05-06T17:58:00.000-07:00

I have been pondering again, thinking about the difference between where I am at and where I would like to be. So I have come up with the following which I am going to implement over the coming week. My first goal is to read this a couple of times a day until until all of the ideas are ingrained and nature.

1. 1. Allocate your attention effectively.

- Because we live in a sea of possibilities, we have to become proficient at selecting options to think about and to experience. You must learn to focus yourself on the things that make you smile rather than upset; on things that will give you a sense of achievement once you have finished them rather than on what is entertaining now but will leave you with a sense of emptiness once you have finished, soaked in a sense of regret from procrastinating.

2. 2. Act Deliberately

- Time continues without pause. Because we measure our success by time (what did I get done today/this month/this year it is and because as we get older it seems to accelerate, we need to ensure we spend the available time we are measuring acting deliberately. What this means is that if you are going to eat that cookie, or watch TV, or play that computer game that you do so consciously and with intention to use a set period of time to do so. Most of the time we do thinks via auto pilot. We slip in through procrastination, past the door keep to success, and stay tucked away from sight of consciousness until some external demand that cannot be ignored crashes us out and back into the present. Much of what we do in these situations is related to escaping from reality. Once we start to act deliberately, then we realize that we have so much more time. We are better with our choices, and we get a lot more out of our life, because we pack a lot more into it.

3. 3. Make decisions in the view of opportunity cost.

- This is an extension of acting deliberately. In my sea of possibilities it is easy to see the activities I think I want to do including watching TV, or playing computer games etc. So because it is there, I can Act deliberately and say, ok, I am going to watch TV for one hour, and then go and do my housework, or play computer games for one hour and then go and do my homework. The key to a successful life is to understand that those possibilities include a vast range of other options you haven’t even tried yet. Opportunity cost is about what you could be doing instead. I acknowledge that there is a want to watch TV or a craving to eat those cookies, but I am going to pause for a moment first, and look at other options. What else can I do or eat instead.

4. 4. Measure the success of your choices before you even start doing them.

-How will I feel once I have finished this time. Will this choice give me a 10/10 sense of satisfaction in terms of achievement for my goals, and sense of success in my life if I choose it.

5. 5. Set time allocations on everything

-no matter what, set a time frame. At the end of that time frame stop what you are doing. See continuing with the same experience as a deliberate choice as if selecting a new experience. If you are not sure how long something will take, then set hourly time parameters, and review your decision. This gives you a sense of achievement within a big project and offers you the chance to inject freshening experiences into the mix to give you a sense you have done more with your day. These could be small experiences such as a 10 min appreciate walk, or a 5 min visualization exercise, or even a cup of tea.

6. Review every decision at the end of every time frame.

- This has the effect of helping you build momentum and success strength. Correct excerise can have the effect of making you fitter, stronger and faster or more efficient. Each time you practice these techniques you become more success fit, stronger of mind, and faster at achieving things. Reviewing is the most important part of garnering motivation to change, and improve. Time frames are necessary to give you a specific point to review.

7. Actively listen when ever some talks to you.

-Realise that they are an expert on how they feel about what they have experienced, and that truth is clouded by perception, so most of what they say is based on what they perceive reality to be. Therefore argument is futile. Listening helps them express where they are at in life. Often people need to hear themselves speak so they can gauge where they are currently at in the scheme of things. They are looking for reinforcement of their perceptions to give them a sense of confidence in what they have chosen to believe to be real. What you say either reinforces their sense of reality or challenges it.

8. Always pause before you speak. Identify what you want to achieve by what you are going to say.

9. Engage in something for your soul daily.

- This could be a random act of kindness; meditation; doing something that will engage laughter;

-This could be an intentional expression of appreciation to someone.

-This could be getting a massage (investing in yourself)

- This could be making time to read something inspirational.

10. Plan to discover something new regularly.

- this could be as simple as trying a new item on a menu, or a new restaurant, or taking a class in something you have never done such as yoga, or cooking.

Happiness

2011-05-05T16:26:00.000-07:00

Wow, I have been away a long time, lost in the grind. Today I am not sure if I am back because I am procrastinating unwilling to partake for a time in that grind, instead preferring to seek some measure of that illusive stuff the population were born to experience, but instead became conditioned to pursue it, sold on the idea that it eludes us...happiness; or, if I am back because I have awoken again. My disappearance from both Theosophy and here, coincided with the return of my wife from her job in Korea. Not coincidentally I am back, because she has gone back to Korea.

Her return is related to the fact that she is unhappy here. This has led me to ponder about happiness.

In our lifetime "God" created only one day in our lives where we were allowed to be happy......

Today!

Most people whether they like to admit it or not, live in the past focusing on their mistakes or precious moments. A small group focus on their future, some of them engage in enough action to make that future a reality, yet happiness eludes them both because neither of them live in today!

Initially when we look into "today" it appears there is nothing there. From here we rush into the past to find out why today is empty or to relive some past experience as a quick fix, or if so inclined we head off into the future through our imagination and fantasize exploring what might be in an effort to fill it (our today) at some point.

After a time, the noise of the now brings us crashing back into the present like a horizontal bungy. It is like an act of "God" answering the prayers we keep while in the past or future to experience a new state - one of happiness. But when we arrive hoping to see that our now has magically transformed while we were gone and see nothing there, then we tend to slide off into the opposite spectrum of where we were, those of us from the future searching out the past and visa versa to see if we were simply looking on the wrong side of the fence.

By days end we fall to the pillow once more exhausted from our toil of exploration, aged and poorer, and there we drift off to into the comfort of a different kind of dream.

Meanwhile, there in the stillness, in that place we saw nothing Happiness waits ever patient, never deterred by the fact that we do not recognize it, for it understands that when anyone looks into today their eyes are clouded by perception. This perception blocks their true vision and stops them from being able to see who they truly are and what they really want to experience.

Most people I presume go through their whole life never taking off their perception eye-wear. Conditioned by media and family, in a perpetual environment of blind leading the blind.

It is generally not discovered that you are even wearing this eye-wear until you give up your desires which releases you from both your past and your future and makes it tenable to live in the present long enough to discover what is actually there. You find there is actually a great deal to experience both internally and externally, much of which is extrapolated through helping others. You discover that the "surprises" that manifest in abundance gift you with a higher degree of joy than anything you can imagine you want in the future. You discover that when you help someone, or simply appreciate what you have around you, the quality of your feeling is greater than anything you can generate through living in your past.

Each person you help, affects everyone around them- each one becoming a seed for a new surprise. Only when you are still, present and awake to be directed appropriately to help others will you know the place where happiness resides.

After writing my thoughts I proceeded to google pages of content on Happiness to see what others thought. I liked this one:

http://www.authentichappiness.sas.upenn.edu/Default.aspx

Something I had been thinking about but didn't know where it fitted, so I fitted it in at the end:

In badminton a player will train for 10 years to win something prestigious. Within a few moments of the victorious final game being over there is intense jubilation. It is relived with slowly decreasing sense of enthralment with each social interaction over the next 24-48 hours. Then all but the odd flash of memory is engaged for moments as the social interaction spreads till each person, down to colleagues and more distant relatives and friends connect with you for the first time since your success. Then it is gone. 10 years invested, and the void that should have been permanently filled is once again empty. The truth of the matter being that it only filled entirely upon completion, but began emptying immediately.

2010-11-07T17:01:00.000-08:00

infinite possibilities...means what line of potential will I run...ie mortgage, or not.

Releasing energy

When I create something, if I focus in my now, I am in a position to harvest that energy back to myself. To draw it back to me. But I am at best going to bring it all back, but I will not have grown. It is only when I create for someone else, that they can then add their energy to that thought form, thus it then grows. So it is appreciation that grows the energy. Appreciation of others grows it more. The more people you affect, the more energy is added to it.

in hale scent exhale appreciation. I inhale the scent of the rose, and leave....then I gain only the physical experience and have gifted little to the plant. But when I inhale the scent and explore it, then exhale appreciation to the plant for providing that expression of it's self as love to me, then I am releasing the energy back to the plant. This is the role of man kind. The unconditional service to it's own and lower kingdoms to release the expressed/stored energy back to it's founder, to enable them to experience what they have expressed, and therefore a perception of who they are.

Intention determines which plane it will manifest on.

Energy miners

2010-11-06T01:53:00.000-07:00

One of our tasks is to mine energy out of our experiences

Life is like a jigsaw puzzle. We learn one piece at a time, and usually it doesn't make sense, as it is just a group of seemingly random pieces, but then one day, we put two together, then we see, how a third fits in, and before you know it, there is a recognizable picture.

The Great artist's canvas

2010-11-05T14:21:00.000-07:00

Last night I watched a movie called The Quantum Activist by Amit Goswami. I had seen him once before on 'What the bleep'. During the movie, I took many notes, and so wish to explore my thinking on where I am now currently at.

Life as we know it, is like a great canvas. We are the painters, but we are not yet the artist. This then is our journey...to become great artists. In our original form, we are 'The Great Artist', in fact we are also the canvas. We are the subject we wish to paint, to express ourselves as love, and paint today's definition of ourselves. In order to experience the art first hand we must view from a different perspective. Thus any of our art to be 'livingly' experienced, we must move from a stance of originating expression (position as the originator), to a perspective that is in the same place as the expression itself. Thus we 'take on' or view from another perspective being that of another piece of self expressed art. In doing so, I may experience what the expression is like as a 'whole' - a tangible image of myself as the originator. Thus I attempt to explore myself, via my own art. Compare this to exploring the same art from my perspective as originator, then I am only exploring a single individual idea in an infinite number, and in a detached way. By "becoming the art", the experience is all consuming, thus I am able to fully explore the wholeness of this experience, as I am submersed fully in it. The issues arise, because I take on the persona of the art form I use as a vehicle to explore other aspects of my work/art. This creates it's own challenge, that of detaching myself from the limitations that are found by perceiving I am only one art form. From within mind space of this singular expression, I am like a painter with heavy thick gloves on. I paint for I feel the affinity to my true nature, but I am no artist at all. It is only on the occasion that I withdraw myself from this point of limitation, often down through correct meditation, deliberately or inadvertently, that I once again hold position as creative consciousness, unbound by the constricting limitations that are found in the various states of expression, as they leave my point of origin. Each tier the expression passes through, the smaller the mind space it is contained in, by simple mathematics of involution. By the time I transpire to explore one piece of art I have expressed as a perspective of how I see myself as 'Love Being', on the physical plane, such as the taste of a perfectly ripe organic nectarine, the mind space is so minute, that it is barely able to comprehend it's own limited ability to experience, let alone paint itself. Yet it tries continuously. It tries so much, it absorbs virtually all of it's conscious time attempting to imitate the artist who created it. Because, I am there...it can feel that sense of potential to create. But hapless is it to do so, in its state as a piece of art itself. Hapless am I to create, from within the boundaries of a mind that I have adopted with fervour to be my own, and thus concurred to come under the perceptions of limitation it experiences. Thus the journey is there for one and all to 'awaken'. To go through a stage of withdrawal from within a singular piece of art, and make my way back to the realisation I am the original artist. But most important I feel, is to understand my original intention. It was to explore the very art I have expressed as perceived descriptions of my own true nature. Be it then not left undone, to complete the task beset the journey that I originally took, and delve deeply into the taste of that organic Nectarine with all manner of indulgence without thought of mind. For within this focused state of exploration I will know myself and the creative juices that are appreciation will flow, and thus evolution of all tiers will occur. For evolution of art as an expression of who I am, comes sourced from the fountain that we call appreciation. In conclusion, I need to balance myself, between my thirst to awaken the artist I am (with intention to create more expressions of myself) with the thirst to explore the art I have already created, and have before me, in the place I currently hold as observer.

life energy

2010-11-02T14:11:00.001-07:00

I wanted to explore my latest thoughts on time. I have already concluded for now that there is no time. We perceive time only because we age. If we did not age, and lived in youthful state of bodily being then time would have no relevance at all. Not a sausage. What then is the role of age that we currently have a use for it, and therefore employ it so. Well first of all, we govern a lot of our decisions based on the "amount of time we have left" So it creates a limitation that defines the necessity for decisions to be made at all. The second thing is it gives us an exit strategy, to change our perspective if we are "not getting it" from this current view point. Third, it helps us to do what we need to do in order to not age and that is a appreciate what we have. This brings me to my hypothesis on life energy. If we were given only a measured amount of life energy to fuel this particular perspective of life on this plane, then as we used it up, it would give us a perceived time line, if something mirrored the process of it being used up (such as the physical body aging). What a brilliant self balancing learning platform. If I understand the true creative process, then I will produce more creative energy than I spend (or if you prefer for wording sake...I will "efficiently recycle" this reuseable energy, keeping it within the confines of my context rather than have it morph into "general coffers" My theory goes something like this...we have a certain amount of life energy, which most of us spend. Much literature is full of fundamentals - often quoted in the bible: "to he who has some, more will be given"; and the parables of the master and his servants who are each given 1 gold coin each. One buries his, one doubles his investment, and the other makes many times his investment. And the master ends up giving the third the values held by the other two. So, how does this apply to us? Well, if we look at what gives us a return on investment spiritually for any effort we put it then we will get some idea. Lets say I expend some life energy to shop, cook and prepare an evening meal. Total imput, considerable energy. If I have cooked for others, then I have shared with them my life energy, but am connected to their return on investment if it is forthcoming. Now assume that I/the family I have cooked for, all employ a non engaging stance of watching tv while eating. The amount of return on investment is very very small. A mere fraction of the hour or two I invested, is returned to me with a "thank you for dinner" or "that was nice"- spoken as one comes back into awareness of the now...due to the plate being terminated of it's last vestige. What was available? What was the opportunity missed? Well, there was the exploration of the tastes, and textures of my creation. If I had spent that "time" engaged with the meal, my return on investment would have been significant. Had my family done the same...the return on investment for me would have been enormous. Why don't we? Well, it is simply really. We have rushed through our lives so quickly always focused on the next thing rather than the thing in front of us, that we are have ended up in a habit of always being behind. This state of 'always late for everything' has meant we have began to take short cuts...in several ways. Two I'll mention here are 1. we eat fast food which actually doesn't taste yummy if you focus on it intently; and 2. we have gone into the habit of multi tasking, in spite of the fact that the mind we experience through is only capable of experiencing one focused perspective at a time. So what is the solution? Well, make a list....if you are into lists, of all the opportunities that you have today to invest and harvest life energy. Then make a goal for each as to the deliberate effort of focus you would like to have. Do a "balance sheet" at the end of the day, and assess your effectiveness through the day as an investor. Then adjust for the next day. Decide and know this energy is real, and that you are able to refill your quota of life energy. Your mind may not be able to grasp and accept that such as this can be true...but truth has a way of getting through, and when it comes wouldn't it be awesome being the messenger in this case.

Truth verses the "dark? side".....Game on!

2010-11-02T13:44:00.000-07:00

Truth is a lot like water, it is so powerful, over time it will carve holes in rocks, it is so pliable that given the tiniest of doorways it will make it through; it is so versatile, that if conditions change, it will go into hibernation (ice-aka dead sea scrolls, secret societies and other hidden truths), or it will gain wings and fly to cooler climates (steam- aka it will morph into a new form of religion, new branch of theosophy, a new conspiracy theory, or a simply a new perspective on life which puts us in a position where we may be able to see the same fundamental truth but in a way we were not previously open to).

The greatest illusion of all time, is to have a conspiracy theory to cover up a lie, that was told because a quest to delude back fired. The interesting thing to ponder is whether all this secrecy, is simply a controlled release of truth required for our own benefit in the same way that vitamins are only good for you if you ingest the right quantities. Truth only works, through a linear progression of release. If one drops the concept of quantum physics; infinite possibilities or any other truth in the mind of someone who is not yet able to relate to that incoming information, then it will not be a "truth" for them. Therefore there is a need for the progressive release of information. This is a crazy concept, because it requires that the information is released progressively for each individual indefinitely. Imagine the logistics. This then sheds a new light on the perceived dark side. Could it be that they are simply a part of the light side whose role it is to be deemed the bad guys because they control this release of information through the different planes, (we tend to only hear about the stifled/slow release of information into the physical plane) and to the different minds (we tend to only see the slow release of information to the group mind/consciousness. It certainly lends itself to further consideration.

devas verses man

2010-10-27T03:49:00.000-07:00

The illusion of reality. I look out from this body, thinking I am inside it. Thinking I am it.

Is it possible, that the body is a boundary, like a fence line. On one side of the fence line is the Deva. On the other side is the soul. The fence is the I, the point of awareness that gives consciousness existence. The Deva wants the attention of I. They evolve from being controlled. Man evolves from self control. Is it possible the voices I hear that surmount to the endless desires that arise...are infact the pull of attention of I toward the Deva.

The commitment test

2010-10-26T10:02:00.000-07:00

It occurred to me today that I seriously lack commitment to my programme. I came away from today feeling a great sense of cowardly weakness, and a true lack of commitment to my own cause...that of achieving my own life goals. Yes, yes, it is bad grammar to use the same word twice, but I am sure this whole article is going to thrash this word out thoroughly.

The greatest sources of commitment seem to be failures, serious disappointments particularly directed at you from someone else, and loss. This can be loss of health, loss of wealth, loss of opportunities or anything of such a value that the loss of which cannot be simply ignored, for this is it's very job. The interesting thing is I have got to the stage where I have detached myself from the physical realm....but this has created a interesting predicament. It is like, I have awoken within the Matrix but, I have not aligned myself to a direction on the other side of the current illusion. This has had the effect of me being not yet connected well enough to my true nature. I have become acutely aware that I am in a body that is being used by a hang of a lot more entities other than myself. It is like I have woken up...realising I am on a wild horse that is rampantly galloping where ever it pleases, without any direction...purely living in the moment. Now normally I would have said this is ideal...however the idea of living in the moment, is to be aware of the many individual moments that are aligned to the greater purpose of life. The type of living in the moment I have been doing is more of stepping aside and allowing my body to be used by other entities, simply because I don't have control of it myself. I am not taking charge. To do this, I need to have a higher cause - something worthy of effort. Otherwise I can just go on being a bum and not care if I eat for the sake of eating (cause someone or something else wants the experience).

life force

2010-10-22T16:43:00.000-07:00

On the basis that all things have consciousness or an apportion of total consciousness, they must also have an individual energy signature to determine their address in consciousness.

On the basis that all things have a cycle being a measurement of energy to sustain 'life' in a current particular expression, I would like to explore the idea that this energy can be depleted at varying speeds, and even topped up or renewed. I have been reviewing a few pieces of the energy jigsaw puzzle this morning, including the rice example used in the 'process of transformation' weekend, and the water crystal experiments by Dr Masaru Emoto, and mind powers by John Kehoe, and the like. Also the fact that when Buddhist Monks (as just one example of one form of those who practise and have perfected true meditation) meditate they have a significant and manifested effect on not only themselves, but also those around them, including healing capabilities, boosted plant vitality, connection to the animal kingdom. Harvard among others have done various tests on Monks relating to what happens when they meditate, and have drawn conclusions that indeed it is a controlled outcome. Having read a little relating to the Mahatma letters, HPB when questioned about Master M's age, she talks about a 'limited life force' that we tend to "squalor" and that they (the incarnated Masters) have the ability to renew it, and thus that they continue to stay ageless at a physical level. Add to this the concept I have that money is a manifested form of creative/life energy and looking at the state of the world's personal, business and global burgeoning debt and that this is reflective of a astral, or mental or spiritual debt, I have conspired to form a question relating to it all. Is it possible, that this is not a Karmic debt, but a behavioural debt. I see the difference being, that Karmic Debt is something we have done in the past, that we are now in the process of working off in order to gain a valuable lesson which in turn will raise our awareness, our apportion of consciousness, and our access to more creative energy. Behaviour debt, I see as something we are doing now....which in turn may well produce a karmic debt if not recognised, but is certainly a destructive state to be in. Another perspective of my view may be visually demonstrated. If you imagine that my current perspective in this individualized form is an expression that is a limited life force. Each time my behaviour squanders this life force beyond it's originally expected rate of depletion, I enter into a state of reflected debt in order to present me with the obvious, so as to empower me the capacity to change my behaviour. Each time my behaviour reflects a conservation of this life force this is also reflected.

In addition to this I propose there is a capacity to 'plug in' to the life force of 'others'. This can be demonstrated by the capacity for others to heal, and for us to have an affect on plants, and indeed animals. In addition there is that which is above us be it a master, such as Master M for HPB who was able to provide capabilities to her and heal her; then further up the healing properties of certain meridians of the planet and more. I accept as explained by A Bailey and HPB, that the 'time' spectrum is vastly minute as it rises up the hierarchy tiers, eg 1 second for Sanat Kumara was depicted to be equal to 1000 years for a human perspective. It is easy for me to hypothesize then that the energy values of each tier has an equivalent. This being supposed, it would mean that for someone above helping another below them would use virtually nil of their own life force in the process, but would provide significant benefit for them. This then is why we are encouraged to practice our attention of care and unconditional love on the animal and plant kingdom, to prepare us to become the same at our own level. This is also why through our inability to be able to understand this path we are destined to follow, our interaction with each other is very much one that is selfish, protective of our assets, and trade orientated because of the perceived sense of cost and loss of interacting with each other. Every time we give at this level with our life force, there is a perceived visible cost. Now I have an interesting twist on this.

What if, the cost to our life force was actually our wants, and that our capacity to top up our life force came from helping others at our own tier and below. The more energy force we invest, the more comes back to us in perhaps 10 fold. So if we invest below us, although this is a great investment for the receivers, it costs us so little that 10 times the return is still insignificant and would hardly be noticed when reflected. However, to help others, would be a significant use of our life force, and certainly 10 times would be clearly visible.

Now lets look at what constitutes the opposite of this. Here I am proposing that "wants" or desires cost us energy. If simply having a thought evokes an investment of energy in that context, then desires which are potentially long chain energies, with potential to be habitual energy taxes (desires that become habits) could have the capacity to so significantly eat into our life force, as to form debt. I like to imagine that there is a simple plan prepared before we enter, with an objective and goals that will result in us spiritually evolving at the end of this life time.

The energy is invested (life energy is expressed and attributed) to me to fulfil my goals and in I come. Once in here, the idea is that I will invest in those life tiers that are perceived as being below me to maintain my life force, learn from these actions to do unto others as I would like done to me, and by doing for others, use this energy investment to evolve. The problem is, we are currently living in a global 'ME' environment, where there is little practice of giving below, let alone giving of life energy to those other aspects of self that I deem on an equal evolutionary tier. This ME environment is resulting in life energy being used up in frivolous expressions of personality self, without any connection that renews it. Living in the technology age means desirous ideas are being promoted to the mind prior to the the previous idea being fully realised.

What this means is that when we express an idea as a reflection of who we think we are...our objective is then to experience it, thus transmuting that energy from potential to creative, to expressive, to appreciative, to more potential. But if I stop appreciating it, because I am so busy looking at the next thing I want, or while I am in the process of experiencing it, thus having the capacity to appreciate it, the mind instead draws off my attention to watch tv or be distracted in another way from fully exploring the food that is before me....that expression of how I felt. ( dinner time we often say....what do I feel like? I feel like.......fresh salad. - this is me saying, if I were to describe how I see myself right at this moment as the love energy that I am....I would say I was the taste of a perfectly ripe tomato, combined with a crisp juice cucumber, combined with a sweet young carrot etc. The idea is then for me to go through and experience this expression of self, and in doing so I convert all of that energy into more life force. However, of course I do not do this. Even if I manage to get through to the part where I actually get to ask myself what I feel like....as opposed to the mind getting in first...and saying what reflects it ie pizza/mac donalds etc; I then have to get past the mind to go and get the ingredients and make it, getting the exact ingredients may mean travelling and time let alone putting it all together. And even if I manage to do this, there is then getting past the habit of mutitasking.....being eating with others and talking, or watching tv or reading something etc. Translated, this capacity to gain more life energy has become virtually obsolete. Giving to those tiers that are below us, lacks thoughtful and deliberate intention, and that brings us to doing for others.

We see the cost when we do something for others. The cost of time, or money or the opportunity cost. We weigh up what we perceive WE will gain from doing it. If we perceive there is a net gain from our interaction with another soul, then we will engage. If not we will not.

So where to from here? Well, we have these motivational times throughout our lives such as new years eve resolutions, and to do lists we have, and even our integral theosophy and self transformation course 7 day programmes, just to name a few. What if, it lined up with this concept of life force. What if the integral part related to us looking at how we can contribute to the life force of those above, below and laterally existing in our present. What if our goals revolved around our capacity to be more efficient at converting energy from it's potential states into a state of appreciation both for ourselves and others. What if our actions revolved more around how we can contribute to the life force of others. What if we abstained for a time from our exhaustive deluge of taxation on our life force through desires, how much of that same life force could be better used for the benefit of the planetary logos. And don't for a second think, that our tiniest contribution to the greater energy good, and planetary consciousness would be wasted, unrecognized above for it's insignificance, or unwanted. On the contrary, if 1000 years is only one sec, imagine the number of minutes a planet of individual souls would contribute if each of them individually simply gave up a minute of their ME day to gift upward. 1 billion souls equates to nearly 2000 years worth of contribution. And while that may once again only be converted to 2 seconds worth of time/energy, there is a clear move towards inner growth worldwide, to counter this ME ness and once the 100th Monkey takes a whole and critical mass is reached, the number of secs will become minutes, and days and years and will have a significant effect. The conclusion I have is this: if we change our behaviour, and our direct our thoughts to the benefit of others in all evolutionary directions, our life energy will be so significantly effected, that we will not only move to a state of perpetual abundance and appreciation-thus eliminating all debt both karmic and behavioural, creative and potential, but we will release ourselves from the rat race of spiritual incarceration within the ME centred personality mind.

Just in exploring the concept further regarding how wanting costs us our life force. If we are the expression of something greater, then we are the experience of that same entity. We are the total experience. We do not need to add anything ourselves. This entity expresses us as a life force...and breaths us into existence, and everything that is needed for the total experience to occur. We are that experience, its not our experience. For us to want....is to steal from that life force, something that was destined to be something else. This borrowing, comes up as debt, for it is not ours to borrow. It is not ours to steal. Our objective...is to align ourselves with the experience we were intended to be. Does the tomato need to request it's flavour when it comes into existence, or it's texture? In the same way that tomato is my expression, so too are we. To say we are not whole, is to say that this entity of which we are an expression has expressed it'self to be imperfect and less than whole. This is never going to happen. Would you ever say..I feel like a marked apple or an unripe orange, or a rotten peach to eat. Yet in wanting is this not the same. Detachment then...is the act of aligning ourselves into our role as the experience of an enlightened perfect being, of which we are the perfect expression. What then do you suppose is our role? If we were made in the image of this perfect being - it would be to do unto others etc.

The last airbender

2010-10-12T03:05:00.001-07:00

I always come away from such movies as the last airbender and the sorcerer's apprentice with a deep sense of connection with the concept of natural raw power. That sense that we are all supposed to be these characters in for real, and that this type of power is available to us all if only we could connect sufficiently in awareness to the basic core truths, from a position of incorruptible purity. Today I expanded my comprehension further by gaining a greater acceptance of the reality that all things have consciousness. That through the simple fact of being present within an entity/idea we corrupt it, by giving it a perception that it is the only consciously aware perspective of the universe, other than perhaps other equally aware beings. This illusion creates the chasm between the true I and all other perspectives of consciousness.

This results in a disconnected relationship.

Inside the mind of God

2010-10-12T02:53:00.000-07:00

I wanted to revisit the idea of being an idea in the mind of God. We often hear of God's Will. This is what I believe is the concept of Wants. God Wants....and as a result evolution occurs. Every idea in the mind of God is made in his image...that is...he is constantly trying to define himself which he does by illuminating ideas and bringing them to life. God's thirst to discover who or what it is...is unquenchable. Because each idea is unable to define God, it is given a mind of it's own also made in God's image. It is through this perspective of mind that we observe other ideas, in an attempt to discover who we are as God. The issues begin to get challenging when that single aspect of mind, separates itself from all other aspects and most importantly from God. This results in that aspect of mind perceiving that the want of God...is it's own want. Thus with a sense of separation, it then begins to plan how it will go about creating/attracting that want to it'self so it can experience it.

Not having the power to do so, results in debt, and sacrifice to bring about a temporary orbit of the objective at the centre of the want. This process interrupts our capacity to have a purely human experience, for we are held back by our slow progress due to the time that is created by this illusive separation and successive sacrifice that follows.

How do you do, introducing the person I didn't know I wasn't

2010-09-26T05:10:00.000-07:00

Stop for a moment and have a go at living for just 5 more minutes, without identifying a single thought that relates to yourself as an individual. In starting to explore this concept of meme's, it is funny even to look at the name and see me...me.

This draws a deep need for awareness to be able to explore the way in which I use me, my, I.

It begs the opportunity to challenge every use of these words, and every context they are clothed in. It delivers the perfect opportunity to question and explore every statement made, to get to the bottom of what constitutes ownership over the words that flow from the mouth, and the thoughts that congregate in the mind.

In essence 'I' am calling upon 'my' mind to challenge the illusions that have been held in place with the "I, my, me" words. In doing so, "I" hope to achieve an awareness of the globalised separation that has occurred in every individual on the planet, and change of behaviour that needed to prevent the ongoing global sin that is 'the education of every new mind that enters', and thus perpetuating a self destructive spiral -starting with 'myself'.

Have a go of looking at the following questions. Then try writing up 10 of your own questions. Each question you type up, put " " around each "I, me, my" word everytime.

Here are the questions:

Is it really "my wants" that 'I' instinctively and blindly submit to everyday. Is it really "my favourites" that 'I' choose when obliging these 'wants'

Is it really 'my pain" that 'I' indulge in when presented with an opportunity to share another's perspective.

Are these really "my goals" that 'I' have set and follow every day.

How much of what "I" am doing is culturally, or socially induced? How much of it is second or third generation conditioning, so well hidden, that it operates completely below the radar all of the time.

Memes and Temes

2010-09-26T02:07:00.000-07:00

One of the things brought up by Linda Watts at the integral theosophy weekend, was that of Memes, and Temes.

Upon doing some surfing, I came across this article by Ethan Zuckerman who is writing about

Susan Blackmore which I feel describes the idea beautifully. I have put the link to the page at the bottom. Ethan and Susan, I hope you don't mind that I didn't ask you first.

Susan Blackmore is one of the major promoters of memetics, a field that’s misunderstood and sometimes disliked. Her talk is designed to defend the idea of the meme. She begins, “Cultural evolution is a dangerous child to let loose on the world.” In doing so, we’ve become “Earth’s pandora species” we have loosed the second replicator, the ability to replicate behaviors, not just via genetic material. “That’s the view that comes from taking memetics seriously.”

Memetics is founded on “the principle of universal Darwinism”, which she believes is “possibly the best idea anyone ever had.” At root, what Darwin said was that if you have variation, selection and heredity, you must get evolution, or, as Daniel Dennett puts it, “Design out of chaos without the aid of the mind.” Important in this formulation is the word “Must” – if you’ve got those preconditions, you must have natural selection.

She points out that Darwin didn’t know about genes – he talked about natural selection in other ways, including the natural selection of language. Richard Dawkins make the argument that there are other forms of replication on the planet – information copied from person to person by imitation. That which is imitated is the “mimeme”, shortened to “meme”. Before criticising memes, it’s worth going back to that simple definition – “information copied from person to person.”

She goes through the room and identifies a few memes – sunglasses worn on a chain around the neck, women wearing earings. Those individuals didn’t invent those behavior – they’ve simply imitated it. She shows a wonderful meme – toilet paper folded in a hotel. She’s documented this in a jungle camp in Assam, as well as in almost any hotel you enter. “It’s supposed to tell you the place is clean, but it really tells you that other people have touched your toilet roll, spreading germs.”

“All these memes are trying to get copied, using you and me as copying machinery. We are the meme machines.”

She believes that humans are basically a war between genetics and memetics. Genes want us to be efficient and reproduce. Memes want to be reproduced, and make us do silly things, like copying wearing feathersor face paint. Eventually, the memetic drive demands a bigger brain that can copy and adopt these memes. “Language is a parasite we’ve adapted to.”

Somewhere in externalizing these memes through technology, we’ve created a new type of memes – technology-enhanced memes, which she calls “temes”. These temes are “forcing our brains to become tene machines.” We will start putting in implants and taking drugs that force us to stay awake – we’ll believe we’re choosing to do som, but the temes are making us do it.

She refers to the Drake equation – an equation intended to calculate the possibility of extraterrestrial life. She offers her own equation, less dependent on human intelligence, and more dependent on replicators.

N = P x fR1 x fR2 x fR3 x L

The number of planets with communicative life is a function of the number of planets, times the fraction with the first type of replicators, times the fraction with the second type of replicators, by the fraction with the third type of replicators, times the lifespan of planets with third-level replicators. This last term is key, because every step is dangerous. The big brain required for second-level replication – memetic replication – is dangerous. It makes childbirth more dangerous and takes up 20% of body’s energy for 2% of the body’s weight.

“Temes don’t care about us – they simply want to create more of themselves. Don’t think we created the internet for our own benefit – think about temes spreading for themselves because they must.”

Will we survive as a species? The question is whether we survive this third danger point, the world in which temes reproduce themselves with no regard for the consequences for us.

http://www.ethanzuckerman.com/blog/2008/02/28/ted2008-memes-and-temes/

http://www.susanblackmore.co.uk/

This fascinates me. I now look at myself, and hardly recognise what I see through my conditioning, filters, and subconscious acceptance of promoted ideas. I feel not unlike a puppet. What a fabulous self assessment, self development opportunity I have before me.

Integral Theosophy

2010-09-25T22:09:00.000-07:00

I have just completed a weekend workshop called integral theosophy facilitated by Victor MacGill, and Linda Watts. For me it was a most thought provoking event. In my line of work as a coach educator, I am also a facilitator. It was interesting to watch the group dynamics of our well learned, intensely thought provoking people, each with their own filters, and learning agendas, all keen to further their journey. Here were all were in a course we all knew little to nothing about. We spent a large amount of our time simply trying to find our feet, so as to figure out how to relate to the concept and draw this mysterious idea into a place where we could once again be comfortable that we viewed the world from a place of understanding.

For me, being the rookie on the block, I found it to be right up my ally. The concept to me has acted as a catalyst for many different directions. Firstly, I thoroughly enjoyed the concept of looking at the evolution of civilisation, and the parallels of consciousness, via a colour coding, that gave me foundation to see what aspects of me as a being existed. It starts off from the animal individualistic man that focused on basic needs, instinct and impulses, who has no ability to cognitize the sacrifice made by others when he takes what he instinctively needs. Here sense of self evolves as an individual, being I am this individual, with a heirachy established through physical size and strength. Conflict is generally between nature, and the individual. This entity evolves through eventually developing an attachment to those around him, thus creating a sense of family, a first cognitive sense of belonging to something greater than himself. His sense of self is defined more towards the immediate group being 'I am my family'. Heirachy revolves around the provider, and head of the family. Here the value of the family is greater than the individual, in the eyes of those who can see the bigger picture. Something that has enough value, that one would eventually be willing to sacrifice ones self, to save the whole family.

Conflict arises due to a limiting of immediate resources to cover previous basic needs...food, shelter, warmth, and reproduction. With a growing family, more food is needed, so eventually supply becomes an issue, and a family is forced to move to go to where food is more readily available. Similarly, if a family has a sickness, or loss of female life, to the degree that the future of the family is in jeopardy, then the female resource being limited, requires males to go forth and steal them from other families. Here in evolves the next step of war. It was interesting to note that we identified that here was value within these aspects of ourselves when exposed to certain environments, and situations today. So these different aspects of our make up are not replaced when we evolve, but that they are stored, and lesser used, they become less apparent, but are always there. Each aspect has the capacity within each of us, to dominate our entity. But when through conditioning, it is not utilised for great periods is stored in such insignificant space, it feels as if it is no longer there. The next step in evolution is the warrior stage. This evolves over time via the warring families realising their capacity to conquer, and with growing size and strength, eventually become nations, conquering others for natural resources they no longer have. Here the strongest individuals rise to the top. Here they create a sense of group value that goes beyond family, but for which the individual is willing to sacrifice themselves for the perceived greater good. Here the patriot is born. That individual who is seeded with a bond to his group that surpasses any individuals within it. The force for sacrifice is not survival, but for power, wealth and pride, . Those at the top with the power gain greatly the wealth by creating a sense of pride amongst those that come below them.

The conflict here is the loss of a sense of self. It is lost in the vastness of the group. With this loss ends up coming a sense of questioning, and disenchantment.

This need created the next evolution that of organised religion. This enabled the leaders to almost future proof their power. The base still had a sense of belonging in the group mentality, it gave them a new purpose that went even further beyond their group, but cleverly, through which only the leaders could give them access. The individual was willing to sacrifice self for that perceived greatest of causes, because they were sold on the idea of a significant gain awaiting them in the advent of their sacrifice occurring.

The conflict here, was that purpose of war moved from the whim of the leader, to the attachment of the individual's religion. So the wars became religiously based. In addition to this, having a sense of self, was deemed to be a sin, thus this aspect was attempted to be buried. Hence the conflict began to be an individual one. Individuals began to awaken, and move away from the organized religions.

The next state of evolution came with industry. The individual had the capacity to gain their own creative power. The pursuit of which was engaged at the cost of all others, including the planet.

To keep the masses in control here, as they became empowered, those at the top with decision making power used media to direct the individual. Thus giving the individual the perception they were empowered, yet still able to direct them by controlling what you got them to perceive. If you could control their emotions, you would cloud their judgement. If you could control the flow of information so as to give them singular unchallenged perspectives from a source they had grown to admire, and trust, then you could control their behaviour, and the beauty of it is that they would think it was their decisions.

The next state of evolution was the stage of rebellion against the establishment. This concept really trumpets the individual at the detriment of the organization. The pursuit of free thinking is published to be the righteous ideal, with no regard to the group that orbits that free thinking individual. The issue is that this aspect is all about the individual...all about 'ME'. The conflict here then, is that the support structure that exists both man made and natural, is unable to sustain the detachment the individual has imposed on it. Here the sense of order is lost, man disconnects from his roots.

The next stage is the integral state. Where the free thinking individual is able to see the importance of their role. To see that they do not have to sacrifice the good of the greater, nor themselves to be able to fulfil the needs of the group. The conflict here is that of balancing the higher and lower self of the individual. They battle to balance when to give and when to take, for they still see themselves separate from the group.

The next stage of evolution is therefore that of a sense of self actualisation occurring not through service to the group as was previous, but as a sense of service to self as the group. Not only this, but that there be no label of this group, that it be fence-less, faceless, and expansive to the point of encompassing all as one consciousness.

Here in lies the point at which I awoke in this course with the realisation that I have been trying to become a 'great' individual, that I may be of service to the group. But now I realise, that all of this can be surpassed if I am able to see the bigger picture, lift that veil slightly more and boldly take that bigger step.

Thank you to everyone, who contributed all you thoughts, passions, interludes, and perspectives of this consciousness flexing weekend.

mind mapping

2010-09-17T07:17:00.000-07:00

I learnt the technique of mind mapping a while ago under different circumstances and for different application. A few days ago I learnt how to use it to better my coaching, and ability to facilitate. Nowdays nothing gets to occur without me taking a metaphysical view of it. Therefore I took a keen interest to apply this to my self development. One area for me to apply this is in the area of time. So to take an old habit, write it down in the middle of a blank page. Then put a box or circle around it. Next draw lines off the box or circle like the suns rays might be pictured by a school student. Then write at the end of each line, an experience you could do instead of the old habit. These are the opportunities that are on offer, which would equate to the opportunity cost if I chose to continue with the engagement of the old habit. From each new opportunity circle it, and draw more lines off it like a porqipine. Here write the effects on the quality of my life from engaging in this new experience. Then from each of these, write the potentials that could open up to me as a result of these qualities. There is more to come on this. I will post some examples soon.

am I lost or is this spiral a circle

2010-09-17T06:50:00.000-07:00

There is nothing like walking through the bush for two hours only to end up coming out into a clearing that looks so awefully familiar that it sets off a sinking feeling of helplessness in the pit of the stomach. As I go through my life, I anticipate that it is a spiral, as I go round, I may see a similar view, but I always hope to be viewing that same point from a different...somewhat higher perspective. It was to my amazement tonight while chatting with my sister, that I learnt an interesting fact about myself. I had this perception about myself that I was half way round the world from where I had started out, but when I looked at myself more closely that indeed,I had not left my own front door with regard to one fundamental area of my life. I learnt that I was still not mastering myself. My objective was to understand the true creative process, yet I still indulged in material creative desires being the desire to create money to enhance my life. When I step back and view where I am at, I can clearly see that I have been completely taken care of. And that my self destruction has been just that. I have been trying to create materially, in direct conflict to my prime directive. I have been attracting all manner of creations. These attract to me when I am not chasing after them via material creation. There is more to be covered here.

The illusion of time

2010-09-12T18:44:00.000-07:00

What if "time" was simply the movement of Energy, like sands in an hour glass. The energy of Creation passes through from one plane into the next, as sand passes into one compartment to another. So imagine a time device, that had "sand/energy" passing down from one compartment that represents say 1 trillion years, and this drops into a compartment that is switch-able like an hour glass and can be turned over. Lets say this compartment can contain 1 billion years. The sand/energy in this flows into another compartment that covers the equivalent of 1 million years. Then there is the one for 1000 years, then 100, then 1 etc.

The concept being that eventually the whole hour glass will be turned upside down to allow the original energy of creation to go back to it's original compartment.

If this could be accepted as a concept, then time itself is not an empty concept, but rather it is incredibly valuable creative energy. At this point it brings us to the point to reflect how we use time.

We often hear time is money. Knowing that money is a form of creative energy, this could be a solid truth.

If we then begin to look at our habits with time and money, we will discover how utilize this energy. On another note to explore later...is that 'time' feels like it is speeding up....something that appears to happen to sand when the compartment is almost empty. This quite rightly can be identified as an illusion, but so could be the idea that time is going faster.

Looking at concepts revolving around time...we have a few areas where we 'waste' time. Procrastination, and putting things off to the last minute, or even worse is letting things go past their use by date, or due date. We will then find we manifest penalties, as a reflection of this lost use of creative energy.

If I have a certain amount of 'time' for something, then I need to start seeing this as real energy. If I get that thing done immediately, whatever time I have left before it's deadline, is abundance. This then is how I can experience abundance. Abundance after all, is excessive energy. If I have this excessive energy often, it will be there to move down to the next tier, and manifest. Hence I will experience abundance. So as I have discussed before in previous posts, in order to experience abundance I need to set a limit. Once I have set a limit, then by getting it done early, there will be a gap between it's completion and it's requirement.

So what I need to do now. Identify all areas of my life, where I have outstanding energy debts, posted as both manifested energy debts, and time debts. (things I have not done that I should have completed by now).

The next thing I am going to do, is look at the energy that is in front of me now, that has called upon my attention. I am going to set a deadline, and focus all of my attention and spare energy on achieving these things.

Lastly, I am going to learn the art of discrimination, and become far more selective in how I use my energy/time in the future. I am going to be aware of the opportunity cost before I agree to do anything. It is clear to me that for every action I agree to do, the gains would be equal for 100's of other opportunities that will not fruit as a result of taking up this decision. Therefore, knowing now how valuable this creative energy is that I am submerged in (time) I will be far more willing to say no, and far more will to face conflict from those that demand my time inappropriately, or excessively, in order to get ahead.

it's in our spiritual dna

2010-09-02T09:14:00.000-07:00

Something to explore as we ponder the idea of being an evolutionary entity, is that the characteristics and fundamentals of our ancestral beginnings and predecessors' must still be a part of us. There is no doubt that as we transcend towards Demi God status, that our training in compassion as human beings, is a fundamental aspect to the safety of possessing Demi God like power. Prior to where we are now, it has been a fundamental aspect of or safety as humans to have our animal like instincts, and counter-attack aggressive survivalist streaks, or run instincts if the battle looked unwinnable. And before that, there was the meditative nature of being a plant, that gave us a passiveness to our natural animal aggression, which enabled relationships to flourish, and a sense of belonging to exist. Interdependence grew out of this.

And before that, as a plant, there were the basic core foundations of minerals, that were the food for growth. The relationship level, built on a single dependent relationship.

The thing is, we are really an older brother or sister to all of our animal ancestors. We are like the great grand children of our mighty tree based ancestors.

We are like great great grandchildren to the mineral kingdom. Does this knowledge somehow change our relationship with the plants, animals etc in our world?

And is it possible that the predecessor to the mineral kingdom would be mind substance, or the original aspect of subatomic particles of energy.

If we look at the qualities of each section of evolution, we may unlock the keys to the next level. Imagine if in the future we could go back in time and tell ourselves now, what the keys were to becoming a demi god. Imagine the favour we would be doing for an animal if we could help it make the jump from animal evolutionary consciousness to human.

So lets see if it is actually that simple, made difficult at the time simply because we could see clearly from the perspective we were viewing from.

Perhaps in my exploration, I am simplifying it too much, but it seems worth an attempt to investigate. In the beginning there is mind substance. Pure energy. The essential element of thought. From this thought is evoked through aspiration to know myself. This would be the beginning of Evolution. Over time I would experience all thought from the perspective of observer in SELF. Once I have completed an evolutionary phase, I would then begin an involutionary stage. This would involve going inward, shifting my perspective from overall mind where I sit as an observer on the outskirts looking into mind, to a perspective within an idea. Basically moving my observing point to enable me to explore each idea from the perspective of another idea. Once I have done this, the next process would be to put all of these ideas into some sort of order, become the most basic idea, and evolve it into my most complex idea, masking my awareness of who I am, thus making the task truly challenging. So it is perceived from within the consciousness that I inhabit, that this is an evolutionary process, but in fact, in reality, it is involutionary. I am not becoming something....I am going back to who I always was.

So here I start in the mineral kingdom, and what is it that I need to do, to be able to move up. What are the qualities that I need to 'evolve' to be able to function effectively at the next level.

A mineral is a life of pure service, yet no feedback as to it's value and importance to those it serves would occur due to a complete lack of awareness of those others because as from the perspective of a mineral I would have no association to anything else. Pseudo Evolution would be automated based on intention, becoming a different perspective of mineral as I thought about it. So what is required to be a plant? Well a plant serves others. So I would as a mineral get my first intention to serve. There are many ways to serve as a mineral. Finding these ways, is what evolution is about at every step, and every stage. Only once I was serving, would I then have the capacity of becoming a plant.

A plant differs from the mineral kingdom in the way it serves others.

It is able to serve without having to sacrifice itself. So in mineral form, the perspective simply gets attuned to the idea of service, although but has no awareness that it is serving. So here it gains it's fundamental urges. There are different urges to establish. These will be there for the rest of my journey. If I took a stab, I would say there are 7 urges to assimilate before being able to evolve into the next stage of evolution which is a plant. 1. Become self aware. 2. Define self. 3. The urge to explore...(curiosity), 4. Urge to think. 5. Urge to meet self identified needs, the urge to reflect, urge to create or self express, urge to be successful, to appreciate, , is there an urge towards self preservation. To become aware of others. To change a behaviour. To Change a line of thought. To develop complex thinking processes, such as lateral thinking. To develop linear thought. There is a hang of a lot more to this topic that needs to be explored.

Distraction

2010-09-01T07:32:00.000-07:00

I have been pondering the concept of distraction lately. Mainly to do with looking at the link between concentration as a tool, and the substance of mind as the same creative energy that we are submersed in, to which through the window of our now, and the concentrated connection back through our imagination we are able to connect all the creative pieces together to empower an experiencable result. Wow, what a mouthful. Most importantly though, is the devastating effect that distraction has on this creative process.

If the true creative process involved the key components of concentration, imagination, presence in the present and connection or alignment of these to the source itself...being mind substance; then distraction is the component that is able to break each of the links that bind these creative components together. Distraction breaks concentration. Distraction dilutes Imagination, Distraction removes me from being present, and distraction breaks alignment.

So it seems to me, a great deal of what we are trying to achieve initially, is based on eliminating distraction.

Staying focused on one idea at a time. Cleaning up my imagination, and using it to elaborate deliberately on that same idea that I am focusing on. Staying aware and present, with that energy of this idea, feeling that the energy I am submersed in, is currently adopting the dna of that inner energy.

"how great the limitation of the history of an idea"

2010-08-29T03:11:00.000-07:00

Based on the belief that I am immersed in a sea of infinite possibilities, the worst thing I can do is attach my focus to the history of any idea. I may be in a sea of possibility, but the boat I am in, is made of solid walls of conditioning, and historic decisions that make the whole vessel antique, so if my focus is on the history, then I am looking inside the boat, instead of taking in the beautiful sea views.

The more I live by default, the more I live in the history of my previous decisions. Who I am and what I am capable of are two important concepts I should be revisiting fresh every morning.

Since we are the proposed creators of our world, deciding that our potential, or the potential of a person, event, idea or experience based on it's history, or mine, is a major limiting factor in our ability to experience magic- even if the history is as close as yesterday. Since magic is only magical to someone who doesn't know how it is done, there tends to be a subconscious attraction to staying out of the 'know'. If I stay in a position where my view is constantly inside the boat...that which lies within my infinite potential will continue to elude me, and continue to surprise me when it occasionally due to karmic attraction jumps into the boat for me to experience it.

Think of it like this...are you exactly the same person today that you were yesterday? Or have you evolved? How often have you experienced something twice that had an amazing affect on you the first time you saw it, and the second time it paled by comparison. Is the person you are married to, really the same person day in, day out. Can you really take them for granted? Yet every day, we do this pre conceived judgement that our day will be the same....just another day at work/school. Just another day at the office. It is this attachment to the history of these ideas that sucks the life and the magic out of them.

Now the interesting thing is, we need to have some defaults. Imagine if we had to wake up every morning, and make decisions such as ones perhaps made prior to entering this life perspective: which galaxy I will go into, which solar system, which planet I will explore, which country and culture I will inhabit and endure. Imagine if each morning I had to choose which body I would live in. It would scarcely give me enough time to figure out what experiences I was going to do with my day, where I would get them, how long I will focus on them and what I intend to get out of my adventure. So it would make sense that I would have a certain amount of continuity, with some decisions anchored for efficiency. The issue is that I have carried this on. I have have created default experiencing activities, default reactions and behaviours, default mechanisms for coping with things, and I wonder why magic is absent from my world.

The ultimate detachment, is to awaken in the morning and have to decide what sort of entity you will inhabit today. Because you will have nothing orbiting you, as nothing external will recognise you. Imagine if you are a Guy today, and a woman tomorrow, or even a different woman from the day before, then your previous friends wont recognise you, it wont be your driver's license, nor your house, or job, or car, or bank account details. Not liking that idea, we anchor this entity.

So you keep your body the same, and that kind of makes sense, but what if we went to the next level to detach. What if you dropped your conditioning. You changed your behaviour and your reactions, so that you reacted differently to challenges. You would probably come home, and instead of sitting down in front of the tv you would do something different. Instead of going to bed at the same time you might go to bed earlier and visualize or later and meditate first, or ring a friend and tell them how amazing they are, or do a job you have been putting off, or plan a pay it forward activity for the next day thus doing something different with that time. Instead of eating lunch, you fast, or you take your lunch somewhere different that you haven't been before. Perhaps instead of eating your regular dinner, you try something radically different, or you do something differently like eat left handed, or blind folded, or have a picnic in front of the fireplace, or with candles, or under the moon outside. What are you capable of experiencing tomorrow, if you got out of the boat and went for a swim in the sea of infinite possibilities?

who am I

2010-08-28T05:02:00.001-07:00

The question we ask ourselves, every other day as keen theosophers, philosophers, quantum physicists, religiously inclined, and general all-round soul searching suffer's is the age old conundrum of "who am I"

I have pondered this before in other entries, but of course as we all well know...each step taken down the path gives a different perspective from which to view the same idea. So here are the by-products of my new ponderings for you to consider. "Some say I am the observer" I used to like this idea, but now I have a slightly different take on it. I kind of like this new approach (at least as the flavour for this month) - "I am that which I am before I take up the action of observing". From this statement I have two angles to explore. One, Observing is a verb...an action. But I am a 'being'. An action is what I do. But who I am, is that which is before anything occurs. Any action is a deviation from being. Energy being, is quite different from Energy in motion.

The second part for me to explore is this: In this state of being prior to observing, there is nothing. I am ONE, and I am nothing (no thing that I can be aware of). For awareness would have to be an action. Therefore, even self awareness would be a point I would have to evolve to. Further evolution would result in me becoming aware of my surroundings; then my affect on those surroundings, and so on. If indeed, I was to become self aware, as the totality of all that is, for I would perceive that I was...due to the fact that I am not yet aware of anything else if indeed there is in fact anything else out there; then I would be very alone, even lonely, and there would be little for me to do, but to contemplate, and observe what I think of.

I am going to go out on a limb. Try not to get too caught up in the terminology, and replace words to suit your own level of acceptance.

I must be God. Why? Because God is omnipresent, and there is nothing outside of God. There cannot be God and Me. That would imply that there were two. If God, in whatever form or idea you conceptualise God to be, was everything, and had evolved to be self aware, then God would only know of itself. If God were a mind, there would need to be an observer of that mind. There would need to be the substance of mind. If God were able to observe one idea in mind, through another idea, each idea would feel real to the one being observed through.

How many observers are there? Actually...you answer that....only one. "ME" Everything else...is a perception...to you. There are many perspectives for the observer to view from, and from inside the mind of God...there is no time. So moving from observing through one idea to another would seemingly occur instantaneously, giving rise to the perception of a mind...made in the image of God's mind...housed within the perspective God observes from, that there were 'others' observing simultaneously=You & Me. Lets explore further. God replicates his own mind, in layer after layer after layer, going deeper and deeper like a dream within a dream within another dream. (seen Inception?) Effectively, this means, layers of minds, within minds, within minds, perhaps 12 deep? Once within these layers, we could easily get lost within our own perception of what is reality, but we would have this sense of something greater...pulling us back through the layers.

But where will be end up? The more layers we have gone down, the more unique the experiences become. What is there for us at the end of the journey of climbing back up the layers? Well my guess is Self awareness as God. What would we do...once we awaken that final layer to reach that realisation....hmmm, bury myself in my layers again, because self awareness of being only, is not that stimulation. And I can't express myself, nor do anything as God, because that would be to say there is someone else to express to, or something outside of myself that can be done.

This throws a new twist on the objective of evolvement and the thirst to evolve faster. What is the point if once I arrive I am going to realise that I had done it all on purpose, and then simply set off to do it, all over again.

This certainly could give new meaning to the idea that the true value is found not in the arriving, but in the process and journey itself.

the key to happiness

2010-08-25T16:07:00.001-07:00

Maths is one of the fundamental keys to most answers in our well oiled well ordered Universe.

The hard part is working out the right formula to get an answer that fits. So it seems logical to me that there must be a fitting formula as a key to happiness. In pondering this I have concluded the following. Many if not most of us start out in a sub zero equation. We don't feel whole, so we seek to find that element of the equation that will give us a sense of feeling whole. We are generally conditioned to live in the material world, and due to equating our previous experiences of happiness to events that have occurred in our life, we tend to continue with this approach seeking externals. We perceive that once we buy that new car, or new home, or once we get that particular job or position, or that partner we have been looking for, that we will be happy and complete. We often hear that expression..."you complete me" The problem with this, is naturally, that as soon as we attach our perception of happiness to something external, we instantly create space between us and our happiness. This creates a lot of emptiness in the meantime. A lot of people then push to bring that other half towards them by force, not having the creative capability to do so they then gain it via debt. This results in them being surrounded with the reflection that they are doing this internally, and so they are faced with this goal of getting back to zero daily, paying off their debt.

If we could learn to detach our happiness from our physical environment, then we would have the capacity to start as zero. If we actually were aware of how much we already have above zero already, we would have both abundance experiences and endless available perspectives for appreciation. We have an infinite number of freely available experiences available to us if we look above zero. Imagine for a moment that the air was suddenly removed, or poisoned. Or that the earth's gravity was removed, or that the earth itself turned into molten lava. Imagine that the drinking water of the world became undrinkable, or vanished. Imagine for a moment that the sun lost it's power to shine, or the earth moved out of it's orbit.

Those are just a few ideas that instantly put us well above zero, if we could realise the preciousness of each or even one. And then there are all the senses. Oh to the taste of an organic tree ripened nectarine, peach or plum. Oh the delicious scent of the forest or sea air, of spring flowers, and just ripened rock melon. Ah the feel of the sun's warmth on your skin; the sensation of warm sand in your toes, and a warm bath/spa to soak in. Then there is the sound of rain on the roof when you are snug up in bed, the choir of nature, with all manner of birds, and insects, and the wind in the trees. The sound of someone's laughter, and sincere appreciation. Then there's the image of someone's smile especially when you were responsible for it. The sight of a beautiful view of nature, let alone the awesomeness of simply just being able to see.

Oh the capacity for a sense of appreciation that comes from a simply exercise of taking away the things that we take for granted.

Try waking up one day you have off from commitments, and try to spend your first hour without opening your eyes. Then imagine doing that for one whole day. Try putting ear plugs in your ears, so you have no capacity to hear at all for an hour, or a day. Try eating nothing but bread, and water for a day or a week. Try putting a terribly bad smelling shirt on that is just rancid to the nose, and wearing that for a day. Try holding your breath for 5 minutes and being told that tomorrow the air will be turned off for maintenance for just 20 mins. " sorry for the inconvenience - we only have to do this once every 10 million years to clean it up once the carbon filters get clogged".

Any of these concepts, - fundamental and sense related, start grounding you at a point already well above zero if you use them correctly. This way anything else that comes to you is then pure abundance. Happiness is more likely to persist due to the fact that you are starting in positive territory.

The other key to happiness is the release of expectations, which I have covered in another previous posting.

Peripheral Awareness

2010-08-24T15:43:00.000-07:00

With Linear vision which is often the result of viewing consciousness through the entity mind, we focus on what is going on in our world relative to the entity. We spend our time in a perpetual state of management of the ideas at their various states of manifestation in our direct orbit, and potential. As we become peripherally aware, we start to see not only that we are a part of something much bigger, but that our potential stretches much further than we first realised. We start to see that we are no more than half the equation, and the old adage of for every action there is an equal reaction to reflect and enable you to see the consequences to the other parts of the equation. Here is an example: I have been involved in currency trading, and various other forms of investing over the years, as you will have seen if you read my other posts. I was trying to understand the purpose behind the incessant failures that have littered my past, knowing very well that syncronicity was in play. Why would it matter to fail, so significantly so totally...when one even small success wouldn't have made any life changing outcomes. The answers I got were this: Each time you failed you looked inward for answers. Your attempts to succeed use the physical plane sources as your hopes to succeed, yet you have a stronger lifetime desire to understand the true creative process. Each time you succeed it is logical that the entity mind will repeat what it did to replicate the outcome, so my focus will stay linear. And one more thing stood out. If I lift my focus peripherally to encompass all others involved in the thought I am considering manifesting, or the action I am considering doing, or the words I am considering saying, I will see the whole equation played out. Example: when I buy a lotto ticket...through the entity mind on linear focus I only see the vision of me winning the big prize. I will imagine that outcome from entity mind perspective only, and incorporate a limited connection with very closely orbiting people in my world. I imagine that they will simply appreciate the opportunity to be there with me, and be happy for me that I have won. But if I step back, and take a peripheral view, I will see this: thousands and thousands of people spent money they couldn't afford to buy lotto tickets in the hope that they will win and escape their world. Marriages break up, because of obsessions to win, and gambling problems. Mouths went unfed, and bills went unpaid, which made some businesses struggle with a great deal of financial stress, or worse some go bankrupt for lack of cashflow. The more peripheral you go, the wider the wave from the original action spreads. And it is spreading anyway, it is simply a case of whether you see it or not. And as it spreads so the Karmic value of your actions, your words, your thoughts accumulates. With Currency Trading, I remember the terrible feeling of waking up in the morning to see that I had lost everything overnight. Well that means that if I am successful at it, I am presenting that situation to someone else. And you are right, I am not responsible for how someone chooses to react to something, however, I will still reap the karma if they do react in that understandably predictable way. So I have learnt this today, and will put it into practice over the coming few days to train my awareness carefully from a peripheral perspective and project where I am able what effect my words may have not just in the immediate moment (reactionary) displayed before the entity mind, but upon the things in the orbit of that person receiving what I say, as they carry the effects of what I said with them beyond my experiencing realm. I will make a concerted effort to assess my intended actions and behaviour before I do it, for the same end. I will explore my beliefs, conditioning and perceptions with this concept in mind.

what is consciousness

2010-08-20T22:05:00.001-07:00

I have been having this debate with myself for a little while now. Trying to determine what is consciousness. Is it the conscious awareness? Is it the boundaries of each aspect of mind that I the observer look through?

If consciousness was linked to my capacity to create, then it would make sense. For I can observe through many minds. The mind of a solitary idea, the mind of the entity, the mind of the group, the mind of the nation, the mind of humanity.

Can I expand my consciousness, or is consciousness actually the original mind substance that is all things, so that all I am doing is effectively peeling off layers of illusion, thus reveal more of what is already there, rather than 'expanding' it to make it more than it already is.

By believing I have to gain first...I am dis-empowering myself. I am creating a veil, and a gap that wasn't there, but has become a created truth. My journey then takes me on the process of re-empowering myself, and giving myself back what was always there.

I have been buying into a hierarchy that controls all the power. That I have to follow and appease all of these tasks before I will be allowed to even look at what is already mine. This is an interesting decision to believe this. What does it tell you about me? Moving forward. Where to from here. I am seeking to get out of the rat race I am in. Winning Lotto, is one way of doing this. Winning Big Wednesday is another, because these two supply me with a lot of energy to affect my current environment. It enables me to create the lifestyle without having to trade experiencing time for it. That is why the academy is flawed.

truth

2010-08-20T18:02:00.000-07:00

to many people truth is something that they value very highly. To many it is the pinnacle foundation by which they govern their beliefs, condition themselves, and base their perceptions, all of which in themselves are interpretations, and therefore are not logically truths. So lets explore what truth is, and what the difference is between 'true', 'truth' and 'a truth'.

Please bear in mind, that everything I say, is only my opinion.

Here are my definitions of the 3. 'True' is often seen as the opposite to false. But of course this cannot be true in itself, because there is only one true, but an infinite number of falses. So, true is the idea, in the mind of the enquirer, that they expect the observer to furnish their question with.

It is often made easier for the observer by limiting the options offered to between 2 and 4 options, one of which is the 'correct' answer according to the enquirer. 'True' is deemed to be 'straight'.

Truth is what is seen to be correct purely in the eyes of the beholder. It is a fact within the boundaries of a limited reality, thus it is not a truth to anyone outside that those boundaries.

'a truth' is where there are more than one possible correct answer.

So based on my opinion there is no holy truth. Everything in the macrocosm is beyond the comprehension of the mind we are immersed in, and therefore experiencing through. And everything below us in the microcosm is only true according to the rules that govern it, which only apply to the boundary of the reality we are experiencing. If belief is used to define the ideas that are beyond our comprehension, then based on the nature of it being a belief...it is clearly not a truth...although it can be a truth to me. If there was one universal truth such as a substance we and all things are immersed in that enables us to 'be', and to experience then this substance would still be outside the boundaries of our comprehension, for which we would then require a belief to quantify it's existence.

If whether we believe it or not...if it were the only fundamental truth which would mean it must be unchanging...for as soon as it changes...it is no longer true to our original perception of it, and therefore it has changed. If something is infinite...how can it be true, for the very nature of infinite is that is ever growing, and therefore ever changing. This would mean that only it's core fundamentals could be the truth, or that what changes is in fact possibilities, but from within a finite realm, but one that is so vast that it would appear infinite.

So based on this idea, lets not get too attached to the idea that truth exists at all. On the basis that there is no universal truth, then I am a God, because...truth is in the eye of the observer only. Therefore whatever I decide is true...is truth. If I decide that there is a universal substance that permeates all things, that responds directly to me, because I am the observer, then this is true for me. Even if it was the only fundamental truth that existed even without my deciding it so, then after that point, everything else is whatever I decide.

If I decided it didn't exist, then to me as an observer, this would be true, because this is what I have summoned from it. So based on this idea...my beliefs become very powerful tools for shaping this substance.

What makes a belief stick. If there are layers of belief, then what determines which one has rank over the other.

So lets look at those beliefs, and start reviewing which ones I have had that are no longer functional, and start implementing new ones.

I believe that I am able to do telekinesis, heal people, and animals, and can instantly manifest things on this plane. I have believed this for a very long time. What then shifts it from being a belief to being a creative influence of the creative substance.

Option 1. I am operating inside a reality that doesn't allow me to have those abilities here, or doesn't allow me to have those abilities until such time as I have passed some tests that prove I am responsible enough to handle the power.

The flaw in this argument is that I already have the power. And that others here and now have these abilities, and have had them in the past.

So what ever reason I do not have these abilities can be traced to me setting a rule to prevent myself from experiencing these.

ok, so lets look at my fundamentals. Things that I say over and over, or that I have obviously accepted as gospel.

My life goal to date was to understand the true creative process. Objective being to become a master on this plane. I have concluded it seems that this process could take me years. I have not made a decision that it must happen this year. This is a problem. This apparent lack of conviction means I am still hoping for it to occur. I am hoping that the idea is true. I have not decided and am expecting it this week, or today. I do not anticipate or work towards the experiencing of it, but rather allow it to orbit in my potential in the same way winning lotto does.

So the question is how to bring these ideas into my inner sphere to experience them from this perspective...now. When I can see how to connect to them. Up until now I have required that connection...which most often has been money, to give myself permission to pull something into my experiencing realm. So money is energy. So effectively when I have been able to see the energy that I have that can collect that idea I have in my outer orbit, it has brought it in to the inner realm. So what is the metaphysical equivalent? Is it simply seeing the mind substance and bringing it alive. I am experiencing all sorts of energies. Some of them are very destructive. But is there really destructive energy? Or is it that all energy is the same, but rather that some energy sent forth, does not have direction. I guess this is where I still don't really understand what I am. Am I energy being...that I direct, or send out. Or am I a constant energy being, that I simply reverberate a signal into the greater energy being, that is the mind that I am in. And every reaction I cause, causes an action back. So it is simply a case of in numerous series of vibrations, being a communication between I and the Mind substance. So no energy actually moves, but rather affects the particle next to it, which in turn does the same for an indefinite period of time, until it reaches it's intended destination. Ok, so here is another idea. We are a mind inside a mind inside a mind etc. To which boundary we hold our consciousness as we ask for something, will determine how far into orbit our vibrational intent will reach. So if I close my eyes and visualize something in my imagination, then I am not drawing it to me, I am window shopping, to consider things to bring into my orbit. If I expand my consciousness to up take the whole planet, then I have the capacity to experience it. This is also seeing that it is the experience that wants me to observe it. This is why we are trying not to get caught up in the small details of issues, because this then is where our consciousness shrinks to, and so our capacity to think outside the square is limited. Hence the idea of seeing the big picture empowers us to create big.

Beliefs

2010-08-20T06:37:00.001-07:00

A belief is something I create, that enables me to determine the worth of something. So it is a valuing system. I generally believe something to be good or bad, true of false, right or wrong, etc. So belief is the start of duality. Belief is a defining of potential...a harvesting of possibility.

It is a primary limiter of power.

Beliefs are the rules we engage regarding the things by which we cannot yet know for a fact. It is not a truth...except to us, or to group consciousness.

Exploring my beliefs enables me to challenge my own limitations. Because much of conditioning and beliefs work out of the subconscious area of the mind, they have the capacity to be enormous in number, far reaching in consequences, and vast in topics. So the best way forward is to be aware each day, and explore each and every area that comes into experience potential as it occurs.

Some areas...income potential, creative potential.

conditioning assessment

2010-08-19T17:47:00.000-07:00

Here I am reviewing my programmed conditioning, beliefs, and perceptions in an effort to purify my mind, and get me back to being God. In this post I will deal with Conditioning, in the next one Beliefs, and in the last one perceptions. I will in each be looking at what is there now, and the triggers I use to activate them, and new ones by which to counter the automated responses I have.

Conditioning comes from Culture, parents morales and values being imparted, expectations of those you spend the most time with, and are related to fear of rejection, or loss.

I am a European, Male, Middle sibling, middle working class. As soon as I started off with "I am" my condition kicks in. I AM is who I am. The rest is not an illusion, but an idea for me to explore. It is a perspective of a thought I once had. The perspective is through that thought. You see when you think of an idea....lets say a car. Your mind generally starts with the external image of that idea, then you move onto the internal images, then on to any external experiences of the car, then any internal experiences. But what if you could be the car. What if you could experience you the driver, from the perspective of the car. To experience the excitement that is aroused in the driver by them just coming into your aura. That is what we as God did, with the Human Body. We have had them as play things....in the same way humans have cars as play things, for ages. Then one day we decided we would go and have an experience of 'being' human. And we discovered there was much to explore. So we stayed there exploring...for a long time...so long in fact that we forgot who we really were.

So lets start off with a great sense of detachment to everything we do. From now on...this human vehicle I am in, is the entity. Ideally I am going to disenfranchise even that, so it just becomes a glorified shell...a carcass or disguise that I wield, aiming of course to get to a point of detachment similar to that of an outfit to put on and take off.

It is also important to realise that due to who I really AM, I am able to change clothes in a heartbeat, therefore nothing is fixed, and nothing is certain. There is no Truth (other than who I AM...) there is only decisions I make. Ok, so this vehicle is currently: European, male, middle class, middle sibling. To understand that I can change all of this...is critical, because it is that truth that empowers me. I am not European, nor am I male, nor am I middle class. These are the tools I have been using...the outfits I have been wearing. Like any clothes I can cast them off and put on new ones. (Unless I am so attached to them, that I will not take them off). That is the whole point of this exercise. So there are behavioural responses that I have adopted because I previously feared the reactions of the observer. Then there are personality traits I have adopted which are aimed at achieving something I want that the observer has the capability to give me. So conditioning is based on a fear and reward system.

I am conditioned to believe I am human, to behave in a rational, logical manner, and to follow the generally accepted direction. I perceive that if I go against the crowd I will be persecuted. It is interesting to see what is a conditioning, what is a belief and what is a perception, and where I have been confusing them.

What else equates to conditioning? When to sleep, when the body becomes hungry or tired, when it gets irritable etc. These are conditions.

I have conditioned myself to like certain things such as sugar, and ice cream. I have conditioned myself to buy 3 of something instead of 1, or to by more than is necessary as my imitation of abundance. So all of my Likes, and dislikes, are conditioned. All of my fears, in fact anything emotional is conditioned. Procrastination is conditioned. Inaction, laughter in the face of something sad is conditioned.

I have conditioned myself to many things. Most of which are not that productive, but this is an assessment so lets simply start to cover topics, and look at the conditioning that has occurred, and what I am going to change going forward.

First Topic: Food

I am now conditioned to eat just once a day. I am going to condition myself to have food rest days. Monday, wed, and Friday will become my water only day, punctuated by being bought food by anyone else. Tues and Thurs will be my live food only days. Sat and Sun at this point I will not set any rules. I have been conditioned to believe that food is a necessity for the body's survival. Wheat has an affect on the body at them moment as a training tool. I accept the challenge of fulfilling the use of this training tool for now, acknowledging that in the future, it will have no affect on the body at all. I have conditioned my body to become addicted to sugar. So now the cells have grown receptors for sugar, and so crave it when I have not got any in my system. I have proven I can trump this addiction once before, so lets do that again. I have conditioned myself to "like" chilli and Lime crackers, fruit cheese, cottage cheese. Bread and Jam, and cheese. None of these are good for my body. I am now going to condition myself to eat only what adds value to my body, and my mind.

I am going to condition myself, to pause and in a state of awareness when any "desire" for food comes into mind. Biting my nails is a conditioned response.

So I guess it is to recognise that conditioned responses occur in view of a lack of anything better to substitute it.

The key to decision making

2010-08-19T14:36:00.000-07:00

There are 4 tiers that make up the filters that I the observer experience through within this perspective of mind alone. These are: Conditioning-external and internal; Beliefs; Perceptions; and decision tools. In order to become the pure being I AM, I have to deliberately detach myself from my current perspective, and hold a state of awareness of being that is greater than these filters. So here, I am going to go through and clean house, and see what I come up with.

Conditioning is everything that I would consider to be the foundations of my current personality.

This has been fabricated in two different ways. The first is things that I have given permission to dictate conditions to me, and the second is the habits I have created for myself, when there is no terms being dictated. Even as a child, I choose to stay in the environment I am in and be conditioned. Even if this environment is cruel, or seemingly destructive, I choose to stay, because I deem it to be a better choice than the alternative.

These first core aspects which I would consider to be classified as values, are sourced from the time of my youth. Influences include my parents, teachers, mentors, and peers. The second way is from any environment I expose myself to for a prolonged period of time, on a regular basis, that requires me to adjust from something I had been doing. Areas could be work, hobbies, sport, or could be how I socialise, or the things I do when I am unoccupied by things that dictate terms to me.

I would describe myself as a morning person...(job created), that is honest, outgoing, hard working, loyal, generous, caring, helpful, friendly, and patient. (all but patience is based on conditioning from parental influences, and mentor influences when I was young.

Now here is the interesting thing. You could say I was like all of these things...yet, it is only true, because of a self fulfilling prophecy. You see, I continue to create/reflect an environment that is conducive to the sustenance of these traits. Inspite of the fact that I have had these traits for decades...these traits are not 'truths', they are chosen filters. If my environment were to change, with circumstances that deemed to require a new set of qualities to survive, I would again be faced with a decision, of change, or stay. If staying was to perish, I am likely to change, because instinct...which comes from "animal man" that which pre-dates the cognitively self aware spiritually connected man whence conditioning first became a consciously affectable. The goal is to of course reach up to a point beyond the consciousness of the self aware entity, to be more than the entity. This is will raise me beyond the point where my environment can affect me. To do this, I need to let go of the automated aspect of my conditioning, and make it deliberate choices.

Example: you could say that I was patient...in fact I am very patient, but that is only within the current environment I am in. I have a series of learned behaviours that trigger in all situations of my current environment. I even have a filter system that deals with newly arriving situations into my current environment, that tames my perception long enough for me to deal with them in a "patient' way. This can result in others perceiving that I am a patient person. But what would happen if I was put into a totally different environment. What about an asylum? What about a rest home? What about a class room full of kids with attention deficit disorder. What about a hospital for people who have memory loss.

Would I find my breaking point? Or would I adjust and adapt the skills I have gained for screening new situations into my old environment, and simply apply them there in the new environment? I believe I may only do that, if I am connected to achieving something greater. If I feel it will help me attain what I want to attain. So I have to have a powerful goal.

Lets test that theory. If I was taken away and put in the desert, where I was given a school to teach of kids who did not want to be taught. Kids who had been conditioned to hate europeans. I was told that my release depended upon my ability to teach these kids, who did not want to be taught by me...who in fact wanted to see me fail. I was only one class, and the class didn't matter to the kids, as it was ok in their schooling system for them to fail one class and still move on.

Would this result in me reaching a breaking point, that patience is supposed to prevent you from reaching. And honest...what if I woke up one day, and found myself in a hostile environment, with no resources, other than what I could steal. Would I do so, or is honesty only apply to people who are not hostile/and perceived enemy? If it were a case of dieing or being dishonest, would I choose to be dishonest because it is a lesser and temporary negative lost for them, than the loss for you (permanent). What if the thing you had to steal had significant sentimental value. Perhaps it is the last remain item of recently deceased child or parent.

What if you had the choice of kill yourself or chop off the limb of another human? After all, they are not their human bodies, they simply inhabit them.

You can see from these examples, that our conditioning is relative to our current environment.

The next step is beliefs. Now these can become as solid as conditioning, and often do over a decent length of time, however, unlike conditioning, beliefs are more readily changeable. And the more interested you are in moving forward to get somewhere, the more capable you are of changing your beliefs. The objective here is to see that each condition, and each belief is merely designed to be a stepping stone or stair to get you somewhere, then you are supposed to let it go, as soon as you no longer use it. So it should only be relevant for the experience that is in front of you. Once you realise that you are only limited down from omnipotence by your attachment to experiencing through the lenses of conditioning, beliefs, and perceptions; That you use these to make your creation bending decisions and in doing so define your human experiencing lens. Then perhaps you will take a more closer look at them to decide which ones if any are so important to hold on to.

Perceptions are the closest limiter we have on a day to day basis. They are the easiest to control, because they are fabricated at the time of the experience before us. The reason we have so much trouble with them is because we do not tend to be aware of our perceptions as we have them, therefore, we tend to make decisions and act based on the perceptions we create.

Why are we not aware? Because we are focusing on something else...usually a consequence to previous decisions.

Every decision I make has a consequence. I sacrifice something else, every time I make a decision. The sacrifice is related to the opportunity cost. If you realise that every decision creates a lost opportunities, being all other potential leading from that moment forward into infinite potential. If I turn left instead of right, I don't just lose the opportunity that was the turning of right = one opportunity, but I lose every potential that could have occurred as a result of turning right. This is significant, and of course, it is totally destructive to think that way directly, as you would end up going insane. (If I do nothing I end up losing both potentials, if I choose one, I will lose all other potentials to the opposite...therefore every choice is to fail). So there has to be a better way of looking at it. I think the general idea is to have an awareness of the potential that exists, so that you don't just choose one without thinking about the potential of the other. Thus you end up with the best choice. The only way to know what the best choice is...is to be connected to someone or thing that has a perspective that can view the results of my choices before I make them. This is what many people call their intuition.

I will come back to exploring more thoroughly what this actually is.

The reason it is so important to review the conditioning, beliefs, and to be aware of the perceptions I have combined to be the reasoning behind the decisions I make, is because many of these decisions are being made in a self destructive way, due to the illusionary nature of the information I use to justify my decisions. There isn't one decision I make that I make without it being influenced by my conditioning, beliefs, or perceptions. If you look at how loud the voices are/will is of Conditioning/beliefs and perceptions. How is it possible if I the observer are seated on this side of reality, with these three inbetween my ears, and the voice of one who is using my "intuition" to communicate to me the best choices to make. No wonder I never follow my intuition, I can hardly even hear it. Only once I have stilled my mind of it's incessant chatter or these voices, or better still cleared them out so my mind is empty and receptive. Then I will hear intuition clearly, without interference. So lets begin to the clean up. Lets relook at all conditioning, beliefs and perceptions, and aim to maintain my awareness in the now.

My objective is to control my decision making to align it to the one truth, I am God.

From here, everything else is a lens, which enables me to have a perceived experience, such as...what is life like as a human, with x, y, z issues, and a,b,c challenges. What decision will I make in this scenario? I am then immersing myself in this situation fully by "forgetting" I am actually a God to enable me to gain a true perspective of the experience.

I am going to do my conditioning assessment in a new post.

The big picture

2010-07-28T15:51:00.000-07:00

Gosh it has been ages since I was last here. It is nearly Aug 2010. I am staying with Kim, my income is very very low, my outgoings are way higher than my income and for the first time since april, I bit all of my nails last night as low as they can go. I have decided this morning something has to change. I seem to be sliding into an abyss of historic sludge, reverting back cannot be an option. I propose pause and take a strategic appraisal of my current situation, and where I intend to be over the next few years, and draw that path back to where I am now.

I have had dual pathways it seems and this has to disappear because it is a big part of what has caused my problems, and is a statement of separation.

There is NOT a physical and a Metaphysical pathway. There is only a theosophical pathway which includes these two.

If I do not seek something...I feel I do not go forward. If I seek something that is less than my full potential then I will reflect that as self destructive. This is what I believe I have been doing. Alignment is to connect to the pathway that is the source of my full potential being realised.

It means saying no when another pathway presents itself from a previous goal, and staying on task instead.

Ok, so what is my goal in this life time...and can I exceed this goal by attaining that now, thus enabling me to push ahead into the next tier of initiation?

My goal has been to understand the true creative process. What do I think is beyond this as a goal? What do I think is the goal of the tiers above me that aspire to have me follow. Do I have any goals for those below me to follow? Or simply not to get sick?

If I achieved this goal, what affect will this have on all of the other planes? If I let go of this goal, and chose instead to align myself in the service of that entity which governs at the next tier up, what would happen?

UP DATE June 20th 2010

2010-06-20T00:09:00.000-07:00

I have been off Computer games for months, no desire at all for them. I have not bitten my nails for more than two months. Money is still a major problem due only to losing so much on currency trading. I have sold cafe but am still working in it for ABA. I have hardly any coaching on at all. Am in the apartment for the last 2 weeks. Just have to organize the big shift. Will hear about Dubai this week. Have the option of moving to Kim's place. Ji is coming back in 1 week. I have no money.

It seems allowing mind to source my creative energy is self destructive.

Need to work on a new plan.

Have woken up but am not yet visibly creating what I know I can. Expecting results very soon.

Am reading lots and lots of books including secret doctrine.

Focus at the moment is on asking the right questions.

Yet more pieces

2010-04-26T19:09:00.001-07:00

Partitions are required to not only create perspectives, but also to create potential. Potential by it's nature is capacity of power. But there is another definition to potential and that is what we are capable of but have not yet realised. Unpartitioned self, has no unrealised potential. It is like having nothing to aspire to because you already have everything. Monad has Full nature of self to look forward to, and full potential of self to realise. Yet, this too is a perception. So it is like the perception is the limiting or partitioning factor. I am true self, exploring my potential via different perspectives of myself. Each Perspective is a partition of mind, yet has full access to all of my potential. But due to the result of perception, limits it's potential to the boundaries of the perspective. Because I am God, I decide and it is done. So the power is in the decision making. If I decide through a perception, it is still the same power and will get the same result...it WILL MANIFEST, because of who I ACTUALLY AM, irrespective of who I perceive myself to be. Awakening, then is coming to the realisation that perception determines which perspective I view from, and what view of potential I have, and how I live and interact with everything and everyone. Perception therefore has to be either the greatest sin, or the greatest tool of evolution. I will decide which one it is later.

Other things learnt today....in order to be a monad who's focus includes sacrifice for the greater good, and living in a realm of my full God Potential, it means I have to be completely open and available, and aware of the system existing, the importance of my place in the system, and the consequences of interacting within the system as a willing or non willing participant. To be this open, I would need to have great confidence, and obviously not only no fear, but solid faith in the system. These things I need, including the awareness, and knowledge etc, would accumulate through experience on the path with such things as self image/confidence training. To do the training I would need the girl to slap my face, and go through the bullying etc and so on. Over time I have evolved, and so now I have the skill set to be able to make it stick once I get there.

Also another point of note is that when I first awaken, I will not likely have all components at the same level. ie, my perception of my potential may be at soul level, but my perspective may still be at Human level, or my perspective may be at monad level, my perception of my potential is soul, but my awareness of possibilities may still be human.

So all of these components need to align.

Ok, so I want to explore these components more.

More pieces of the puzzle

2010-04-26T03:36:00.001-07:00

Looking to put together some of the pieces of the puzzle of Quantum mechanics. One: When I look at something at a quantum level, it changes because I observed it. All possibilities exist until I make a decision, then the possibilities all collapse into one - the chosen one.

Where you are when you assess your potential is critical. Due to the fact that you are a multi layered single entity, you have the capability of viewing potential and perceiving self from 5 different perspectives. Expressing self, and experiencing self capabilities never change, however by the nature of the latter coming after the former, the former behave like inhibitors and therefore have a direct correlation to the result. An example: If I perceive I am human, or I perceive I am a Monad - with either, my experiencing capacity is the same in that I as the observer do not change, and my ability as that observer to experience what is before me also does not change. Therefore the variable is simply in the perception of the observer whilst at any given perspective. Effectively this is the god decides, and so it is theory even though it is limiting that god's powers or even potentially hiding them completely from view to give the perception to the observer that they do not exist at all. Ok, so the potential I perceive I am capable of as a human limits me not because it is true, but because I have the actual potential to limit myself, and do so by simply viewing my potential from that perspective. As I become more enlightened, what I am actually doing is simply changing my perspective. My true potential still hasn't changed, but the potential I actually perceive, although it has expanded, is still limited by comparison to my actual potential. The key is to draw my perspective out so far that I sit perched on the seat of my true potential. Now potential and perception have been two key pieces of the constant jigsaw puzzle since the beginning. I have always seen the huge potential in my currency trading, investments, and business opportunities, and my self as a god, yet I have always missed out on realising that potential. The other aspect is perception. What we perceive to be our potential, and who we perceive ourselves to be, and what we perceive reality to be.

This is definitely a big part...what we perceive reality to be. How things work, what the creative process actually is. It is ME. And due to my perception, which changes based on my perspective, I as God, make choices that limit my potential to suit the perspective and or match the perception. It is like I am not aligning the pieces. ie my perception of my potential doesn't match with my perception of reality. I am going to take a stab and say, that the one thing all of my perceptions of potential lacked...was a collapsing point. That means, I didn't have any realisation points or success points identified. I just had a perception of potential being "abundant" even endless. So the key is to set a specific point that my potential can collapse to thus giving my experience an address like an IP address. This identifies a specific aspect of my total potential, and calls it into form. It is already there, but so is all other potential.

The perspectives of the whole man

2010-04-23T16:50:00.000-07:00

Man is made up of 5 different perspectives. Instinctive Animal man; Reasoning, logical Hu Man; Soul; Monad and God. Each of these area's has different needs, and desires. Needs being something required to sustain that perspective, and desires being something of meaning to do and experience at the perspective. I believe that all of these needs and desires need to be meet in order to move forward, otherwise a link in the chain is broken. If you awaken quickly and go from Hu man to God perspective in a short space of time, you may jump a gap, and the whole system will collapse and you will end up regressing, with the potential for great self destruction through karmic consequences in the process.

So my current project is to systematically identify each for each stage.

Animal Man: Needs- I think maslows 5th law covers it nicely. 1. Food 2. shelter 3. Excretion 4. homoeostasis 5. sex 6. breath 7. water 8. Sleep

Population growth creates a need for more food, water and bigger shelters. So animal man's first stage of desires are related to quantity.

Hu Man's basic needs remain the same, but due to evolution of knowledge his ability to provide quantity in these for himself and his family has become easier. Those without a mate, are able to spend more time gathering more food and end up with surplus. This then enables the advent of trade to occur which means he has a choice as to who to trade with, and what to trade for. This brings in the second stage of desire being for higher quality experiences of basic needs. Better food, better quality shelter and nicer beds to sleep in. Exposure to new traders creates the opportunity for the third stage of desire which is for new 'things'. From trade comes specialization and the advent of money. If he uses that money to grow more, and pay people to harvest that greater amount, then he is able to accumulate money. This triggers the evolution of wealth and with it -debt. Money is responsible for two new areas of desire, one is the desire for a selection of different experiences, and the other is for the gain and accumulation of money itself, due it it's universal creative power. The fifth stage of desire is to explore new places to spend his wealth on. In addition to reaching a stage of dual desires, problems begin to occur.

One major obvious one is the exponential population growth in the same areas results in a much increased demand on limited resources which in turn begins to make them more scarce. This means people have to work harder and travel further to get enough resources. Eventually they are no longer able to stay in one area because they have used up all of the available resources there, and so they must move. Now they are having to move into other areas, which are occupied, and so wars break out as they seek to take by force that which belongs to their neighbours. With the advent of war an interesting event occurs. The war is not between individuals, which up until now the majority of the needs and desires have been that of the head of the household. Now group needs are born, being the need to belong. Up until now, the need to belong, has been of individual woman, needing to find a man to look after her needs. Now the needs of the individual woman have become that of the parts of the whole group. A need to belong to a large well equipped and well protected group becomes a necessity of survival. This becomes ingrained in ones psyche, so after the wars end, there is a sense of patriotism, and a sense of need to belong. Without the actual need there, it changes into desire to belong. A desire to be a part of something bigger than yourself. More population gives more choice of girls for guys.

All levels of need evolve out of the previous level's desires. With technology, desire in all levels never ceases. There are always new options of quality for each level.

Each increase brings new problems that create new demand in the the next generation of the same needs. It is perpetual, and never ends. This is the rat race we have got ourselves into.

This is our Hell. Nothing will change until we are able to ascend to the third stage - living as the soul.

Each of the previous levels are experiencing perspectives, with the Hu Man perspective enabling a substantially higher view point than Animal Man. The soul is higher again. We have to draw our awareness of who we are back from being in the partition of mind that is Hu Man, into the partition of mind that is soul.

To do this, we have to break the cycle of desires of the Hu Man.

Lets look at the needs of the soul.

To express Love.

To connect to and help other souls.

To connect to a greater source.

Desires:

To experience images of love and beauty.

To obtain wisdom

To create images of self, as love.

It is easy to see, that through the desires of the soul, it is easy to regress, and go back to the mental perception of a Hu Man, simply by perceiving that any of these needs or desires, are found through something in the Hu Man's world, rather than through the source that is greater than you as a soul. Examples are such as seeking money to create images of self. Or focusing on knowledge of the Hu Man world to gain wisdom, or believing that you have to go to Church to connect to the source greater than you.

As a soul you develop compassion, understanding, and a bond with all other souls of and through that -unconditional love.

Eventually through wisdom you will raise your awareness of self, and become aware of a perspective beyond the soul that holds a bigger picture in all areas. You will begin to see systems that exist everywhere, and the order that these create for all things.

Your role of service will evolve from individuals to groups. You will become a leader, and your perspective will see your needs and desires change.

Your needs:

Help evolve individuals to a higher state of awareness, wisdom, expression, and appreciation.

Abilities to be able to change things.

to connect to a higher source.

to protect and look after the sub human kingdoms

to sacrifice yourself for the greater good.

Your desires include:

To raise group consciousness/awareness.

To raise the energy Level of the the group.

To empower individual souls to become leaders.

To become more aware of self.

The book is nearing

2010-04-23T16:46:00.000-07:00

I have in two weeks learnt so much, and on such content that I feel the potential is occurring for a book to be written. So I am going to start to compile my thoughts in a bit more of a structured, easy to follow way, and see what comes out of it.

I want to have something that is simple, easy to follow, yet of significant impact to many on different levels.

I guess I have to ask why? Why do I feel the need to write a book? Is it just something to do? Which perspective has this desire? This is worth answering.

life's puzzlers

2010-04-14T22:12:00.000-07:00

Well today was an interesting day, which it has been suggested to look upon it metaphysically, so this is what I am doing. Since there are no co-incidences, one must look upon every single event that one interacts with as like a koan. It is a puzzle for my evolvement. So lets look at the koan experience I had and see what sense I can make of it.

I had a warning to go to the car...I know something was wrong, but I did not go. This would have saved me getting the parking ticket, and potentially the registration ticket.

So I got two tickets...one for parking too long by a few mins, and one for having my registration expired by a few days. He was pleasant and offered me a chance to get off my fines if I wrote in.

One perspective to take is that I am being punished.

One perspective to take is that I am working off old Karma.

One perspective to take is that this is a lesson for my benefit, if I can see it I will be enlightened.

I am choosing to believe that it is the last one of these 3. Now I just need to see it.

It could be an incentive to let go of the reality I am in...I am there for Min Ji, and the ABA, I didn't need to be. But this doesn't feel right as an answer.

I am indifferent to the tickets, for they are not mine even though they came through me....they are no ones. They belong to this world, but I do not. They are attracted by the forces of this world and brought to me seeking a reaction. For from this reaction might come forth an emanation of thought that they may feed upon...them that are of this realm but not this world. But I do not react. Everything in this world is becoming more and more distant to me. I am losing my passion for everything here. My food demon is here. I have eaten only a few spoons of yoghurt and a small number of mussels in the last 48 hours. My food demon is ravished. My physical body shows little sign of hunger but my food demon attempts to constantly gain control of my mind space. I have no quiet time, for he will not persist. This is like a baby who has been crying for hours, without break. The easiest thing would be to give in and simply eat.

But I am not prepared to do this. I am not starving myself, for I do not need food. I am not starving my body, for I have already eaten enough through the yoghurt, and mussels to sustain me for the level of activity I have done. So I am only starving him. I am prepared to eat, to partake in a salad, but this will have to wait.

where to next april 2010

2010-04-13T05:48:00.000-07:00

Current practical projects are conquering the ruling party of the mind, and total disconnection of everything to do with the physical plane, so I feel no ownership of anything at all, including when I give something away.

Also, the accreditation of oneness with God source....that everythingness that connects all things, including what is perceived as space between things.

And to start to bring to life, that which I do know is there, but I can't see it, such as connection to my life manager, and team, and 'others" who are on the path, but have already made it out of this plane.

And the knowledge of the mysteries.

And a sense of what my current task is here. Which up until now I would have said was to reach God status comprehension, and arm myself with the abilities that would enable me to "help" such as heal people and stay the hand of badies. Now I am not so sure. I am still keen on such as telekinesis, and telepathy because I know it is a natural thing for me to do, but so are so many of the other god like things I know await me in my potential, but, I have not connected the dots that explain why I should gain them here, and see risk of transgression of empowering the ego, so I am lost on this one for now.

SUPER HEROS

2010-04-13T04:04:00.000-07:00

I have just been to watch Kick Ass, which is a whimsical action packed adventure of a want to be super hero, who ends up meeting up with a couple of people who are as close to the real deal as you can get. It sparks in you the desire to fantasize about being a super hero and having a vast selection of super powers to go off into the sunset and fight the bad guys. But here's the thing...technically, there aren't any bad guys. Every single one of them is on God's pay roll, so technically, I would be committing major sin. It rages a sturdy debate in some circles, that the "bad" are needed for one of two reasons....a/. to inflict a punishment on an offender from a previous life, and 2. to give the 'victim' a perspective of what it was like for their victims of the previous life. This being then a 'just' way for the perp to be able to gain a sense of compassion for the victims of the crimes they have committed. 3. To give a 'perceived victim' the tools to jump start a journey of development and strength which in turn will result in a major positive change to them and their future, and everything in it. But the issue with this, is that it requires an endless stream of bad guys to be coming in after the last lot in order to punish the previous crew. Not a very good long term plan for ascension.

The other contentious issue...is whether a victim has been punished enough and is in need of forgiveness during the time of their experiences. But then, I would say, no you guys up stairs would have figured out exactly how long it would take for someone like that to 'get" the lesson, and would have the exit package in place. So there is no argument what so ever for a saving god style vigilante. And if there was....wow, you would need to be like totally connected to know who was the next person to take down and who not to, cause the whole planet is riddled with badness. And it would mean you lead a life of constantly facing violence and bad guys. Even though you would also be saving the victim. But you wouldn't feel so good about that if you had visions of what they had done to their victims in their last life. So in spite of my previous fantasies, I think it is safe to say that ascending to a point of becoming a super hero in this life time on this plane is not the big picture plan.

manifesting

2010-04-12T19:54:00.000-07:00

It is important to comprehend that to manifest in the material world one cannot perceive that it is an act of 'Ex nihilo" for the state of nothing....is only the perception of the eye of ego that sees the space between it and the next perspective. Indeed, in contrast, I must know, that the space is that which is in all things, including the idea I seek to form from it. And the act of doing so, is the act of changing the status of that which IS, like I would change steam to water, and water to ice, that I may interact with my request in this plane. I must be clear that my interact sought is in the plane of the world, for most of the time when I summon on the seat of desire, I am in the place of the mind, which is within, therefore it will manifest in this place. So I must summon it by staying in the the physical world, and seeing it there as a truth in front of me, and I am simply calling it into change.

Looking back

2010-04-12T17:02:00.000-07:00

Today I went back through my posts, and discovered about 40 of them were still in draft form. So I published them anyway, realizing that some of them are not complete, but that like a Koan, that truth can be found in many ways, so hopefully there is something in what is there, that may be of some benefit to some one at some time, whereas left in draft form it is of use to no one ever.

This is quite reflective of how I used to be. I used to want everything to be perfect before I would show it to the world. But this concept must change, for if I had only 50c to give, that may be all that another needs to add to what they have and buy bread to eat.

summarizing my current learning

2010-04-12T15:48:00.000-07:00

I have had tremendous growth in the last couple of days. Now it is time to solidify and move the pieces around into a picture of practical use.

1. When I interact with any part of God in the physical plane, there in I must not be in my mind, but in the moment. For this was the purpose of this interaction that I may know of myself by experiencing one perspective of myself through another. If one is not paying attention, then the experience from that perspective is wasted. This also helps me habitualize the thought in practice that I am experiencing myself, and the layers of God that are awakened and with me are able to experience themselves.

2. Set a decision into play, and think no more of it. A sin here, is to change the direction of that decision before the outcome has occurred. You will miss the original experience which will come to you but to no avail for you will not be ready when it arrives and it will pass you and wonder why you did not come out to meet it.

3. I have within me the access to the whole power that is God, limited only by my faith in this idea, which is directly related to my comprehension of who I am and what I am capable of. Grow my sense of Godness.

4. Transgressions occur because with each grow of awareness of self, comes a corresponding growth of power on all levels. For all levels are bound together. So as my God power grows, so does my counterfeit (worldly manifesting power) power grow. So with it the ease of switching my focus back to the perspective of the clothed self to partake in the matters of matter, and in doing so growing my attachment to those things, and losing my awareness again of my Godself in the process. I must know that great wealth is about to descend upon me, and all manner of worldly experiences will throw themselves at my feet and worship the clothed self, seeking to see if they can achieve the task they are born to do...that of drawing me into their world to live and get lost once again.

5. My reality is like a big ball (god) with a bubble on it's skin that is both introverted and extroverted, making it the appearance of a small ball stuck half way through the skin of the big ball. This small ball is my perspective of Godself. The outer bubble is the outward looking perspective which is currently anchored in the physical plane. There are many planes that this can be in, and many clothes that this perspective can wear, and this bubble moves in and out of the skin of the ball....it rises, as it is "born" like a volcano arising out of the earth's crust. And the more it participates an interacts in that world, the more it grows. The bubble on the inside is my comprehension and imagination and intuition contained in the space that is mind. This grows in accordance to the amount of time I use it also. But as the ball on the inside grows so will the outside grow in order to bring me back out. If I look out through the top I will see other perspectives, and I will see them as separate, for I will not see the ball, or believe it is real.

6. The tests will come that will seek to cause fear, and anger, and stir up the emotional body that is there in the mind, that I may have quick access to transgress. I must clean up my mind. For if I allow the government of my mind to be that of the outer world, and of the make up of emotion, and of the knowledge of the outer world, and of the mind of the self willed that is the ego, then they will forever continue to influence that quiet space which is mine before. And I must act in a manner of strong commitment and integrity to my cause...that of returning to a perspective that is God self, not self willed. To clean up my mind space I must be ever vigilant for they will come to me like a thief in the night, and steal away my power for I see them not coming, and know only of it when I awaken again, and see the damage they have caused. So I must be ever watchful. I must seek them out before they come, and rid my mind space of them. Know also they will take many guises, and will be relentless in their pursuit of the control of your attention and mind space, for it is all that they know.

Helpful ways to help you ascend (new age commandments)

2010-04-12T00:07:00.001-07:00

Have no expectation of others.

Value the feelings of others as if they were your own, yet pay no attention to either your or their mind.

Ally yourself with an omnipotent force.

Develop your knowledge of the true creative force.

Judge not where on the path they are, for it is not even the same path as you, so you know not how far they need to go to arrive at the next place of light.

Know that every being in existence is on the path.

Know that you are a perspective of God. There is not God, and you. This is true for all beings. It is true that some perspectives of God have more clothes to disguise themselves with than others, but dare not for a moment forget that all are equally the same God, and what you are wearing matters not to God, and that in the first instance as any father to son, God will go to they which carry a greater burden than you, before you, and so you should no less, and as you do, you will be blessed.

Seek only to better your light, that you may lead by example when called upon to do so.

And if you know not how, then puruse only to better your ability to enhance the quality of the feelings experienced by those you interact with.

Garner an abundant measure of gratitude during the time you are gifted to draw breath.

Take responsibility for everything, holding a perception that all is as it should be- all experiences manifested for your greater good.

Understand that nothing you say no matter how wise you perceive it to be and how pertinent it is to your ascension, is of any value to anyone else other than someone who is at exactly the same place on exactly the same path at exactly the same time as you.

Because of this the same sentence will have a totally different meaning for 100 different entities.

Act in such a way as to elude the need to cause yourself or another any sense of guilt, and if you cannot do both in the same action, then makes sure it is you first.

Create your own reflections without cost to self or another soul.

Never seek that which belongs to another man.

Sit in the throne of your mind, listen to your intuition, then command, don't follow orders.

Listen to 3 perspectives and learn...your body, your intuition, the universe through your environment.

You have been gifted with free will, that you may find your own path to align with that of the original, and everything in between.

Know that I could say anything, and it would appear wise to someone.

It is impossible for winds to blow in a place of calm...be that calm, that the winds of stress cannot affect you.

No conflict can exist in a space called peace, be that space, that conflict must avoid you.

Be gentle that you may be a craftsman of love.

Be not patient, nor forgiving, just be wise. For a wise man will know that there is nothing in this place that requires your patience if you do not perceive it to annoying, nor is there anything in this place that requires your forgiveness, if you take responsibility for everything and see that all manifestations are for your advantage...for there is no sin against you only sin against God.

Explore the possibilities of what it is to be loving to all beings

Give of yourself, in every way you hold dear to prove the value you see in those who are perspectives of God.

Give of what is around you without feeling a sense of ownership of it as you give it away.

Minister unto the poor, the sick and the distress and be loving unconditionally to all, as if each were your own son.

Hold back nothing in a time of need, for it is not your time of need.

Seek openly to be a vessel of light.

Be righteous in the eyes of the architect.

UPDATE

2010-04-12T00:02:00.000-07:00

It is April the 12th, 2010. My life has taken an entirely new direction....up!. I had been going sideways for so long, but now I have reached up to the waiting hand that has so patiently been extended down to help pull me up to the next level.

I have written an entire book of notes in the last two weeks alone, since I have been overseas in Korea. I have spent the last few days studying the Pistis Sophia...which has helped me tremendously in taking me forward. I am now going to write up a new set of 'commandments" which I may rename later.....to " helpful ideas to help you ascend"

I feel, I am on a speed train heading up. I would say for the first time in about 20 years, I am back to full time focus of metaphysical development.

self destruct

2010-03-21T04:39:00.001-07:00

I am sitting on a time bomb. That time bomb is me. I am self destructing and the time is near. I need to do a thorough review of all the things I am currently doing that can be construed as self destructive. Then I need to systematically commit to stamping it out.

1. attempting to create my own creative energy externally. This includes shares, currency, lotto, etc.

2. attempting to establish a sense of worth in the eyes of others in the physical realm.

3. (your turn to add.)

i am staring at myself in a mirror, looking at a mirror

2010-03-21T04:35:00.000-07:00

Every conversation you have you should listen to yourself. You are telling yourself a truth.

By looking closely, all advice you give out is what you should be following. There are no co incidences, and the universe makes no mistakes, so every single thing including every phone call to every specific person, is an exact science, and everything you say is words for you to hear.

interpretations

2010-03-18T00:22:00.000-07:00

How I interpret what I am experiencing changes based on the view I look at it from. If I look at something from the human perspective, I have such a limited view I can often be overly stimulated by what I see, so I will react strongly both positively and negatively. If I looked at the same thing from a universe perspective, actually I would probably have no reaction. I equate it to knowing or not knowing how a magic trick is done.

This also works for feelings and how I interpret them. From a human perspective I may get a sexy feeling and interpret that as body wants sex, and so go about instigating that one way or another. However if I were to view that same feeling from my higher self, or from the universe...what might I see? What of happiness, excitement and inspiration? There is definitely a chapter in this idea, that I need to explore. The reason is, that when I am at a human perspective when I interpret a feeling, I engage in a different behaviour, and therefore I set in motion a different set of events, from what I would do if I viewed exactly the same thing from a higher perspective. I equate this to 2 dimensional view verses 3 dimensional view, or even 3 verses 4th dimensional.

The decisions I make about things a dependent on the perspective I hold when I am at decision making time. This is a big deal, because of the karmic value of many of the decisions I make. If I make a decision about something because of I am viewing from a human perspective, and that causes a change in my future because it alters my potential, then I may have lost out a great deal. If I am a two dimensional view looking at a left or right turn....can't see around the corner of the next turn, so I have a 50/50 chance of getting it right, but if I get it wrong, and travel down the wrong path, that wrong path will have more intersections, with a 100% probability of going in the wrong direction. If I had a 3 dimensional view, I could see from above and I could see clearly on the service which way to go. If I had a 4th dimensional view, I would know which pathway of the right direction to take when both will end up getting me to the end, but it is unclear what could happen on the way that may change the outcome of the journey. The 3rd dimension equates to higher self or soul view. The 4th dimension equates to universe view.

The is a lot more work to do on this interpretation of the feelings, and other areas. I can see this is a new topic and should be explored thoroughly. There is a totally new potential awaiting me when I figure this one out.

What is it when my human mind is 'tempting me' with ideas of sex or food, or a video etc. What is the underlying truth? It isn't as we might have thought a simple random thought or impulse of the mind. Neither is it habit. It is telling me I need energy, and it is giving me ways to get it. Some of those are self gratification, some are physical but the underlying desire is that I generate a reaction of energy. This is incredibly interesting. Because why is it that I lack energy when I am an energy being? So does this mean that if I take a human perspective that the separation takes me off "the mains" and puts me effectively on "battery" - a finite source that needs to be constantly topped up or recharged. Hence the constant call on energy...aka 'desires' but for which I mis-interpret and therefore seek to manifest these desires which in turn results in a need for more energy, when in fact I was already showing low. Hence I end up having to go into debt to create things.

So I can change my interpretation and focus on 'correct' energy production or reaction, or I can stay plugged in and not delve too long if at all in the separateness of the human perspective.

OK, I accept all this very readily. Where I am at now....I totally get what it is to be at the human perspective. I even get what it is to be at the soul perspective. But I am not sure I am sorted on what it means to be plugged in.

Ok, here is a stab in the dark at it. When I view from the human perspective I see matter = concrete energy - the final by product or evolution of conscious thought's interaction with the universe. Everything appears separate. Everything seems easy to understand, because all things are separate there is a simple process of ownership and bartering to trade in order to gain different experiences. When I view from the soul's perspective I see the impact of actions of one person's behaviour to another, and I see the the energy of that action as real because it has a reaction in another soul. So my focus goes from external hard energy items which I seek and desire from a human perspective to have so that experiences may be had, to seeing the dynamic energy of the experience behind the object, and my desire goes more to the experience bases of things rather than the things. I release how the experience will arrive, and just focus my desire on the experience, whereas at a human perspective I have convinced myself that the object I desire will give me the experience, yet most times I am wrong because of mitigating circumstances which from a human perspective I could never have seen. At a soul perspective I seek to connect with other souls more than I do objects, but I still have expectations from those souls, in just the same way a human perspective has an expectation of an object to deliver a particular quality of experience. When it does not, he is disappointed, and discards the object. In the same way if a soul does not meet your expectations to deliver them the experiences you seek, then you too will discard them. So this brings me to the third point. Being connected back to the source. He there are no expectations. This way there is no way to be disappointed. There are no desires, so there is only abundance. There is nothing to want, because I have all. How to connect? I am pitching the idea, that I need to see the universe IN everything rather than see the individual object, or the individual soul as I do now. If I see these things as separate then how can I interact with them, without giving them something first to make them want to interact with me and do what I am seeking. But, if everything is the universe, and I see from the perspective of the universe, then it is like moving my own arm. There is no cost nor magic in it. There is more to it than this, as this doesn't entirely answer the question of how to connect to the source, but it certainly helps me with my comprehension that there is more to the perspectives I have been holding to date.

the human perspective

2010-03-17T19:49:00.000-07:00

If my focus is on being the Universe, then I am not being my lower self, but may occasionally glimpse at my higher self. But if I am focused on being my Higher self, I feel it is easy to slip back to seeing my lower self perspective. When I focus on being my higher self, I tend to still have separation, and creation seems to be based on good deeds. When we look through the eyes of the human perspective we see other souls gaining things our lower self values. We wonder what they have done to deserve just a valuable creation, and desire to have that creation ourselves. The lower self always seems to desire objects, or manifested energy, where as the higher self seems to focus more on experiences. The lower self seems to create using karma. The lower self is controlled by the karmic rules, which have a inescapable system that rewards in line with the energy you sow. The most common method of creation on the lower physical plane is trade. Time is traded for Money. Money is then traded for goods. The higher self uses Karma to create. So if they soul ends up in a positive karmic balance, then the energy will manifest as gifts, and experiences, and potentially as money. But once again this is singular, and limited, and seems to be a case of limited creation based on using something up, and when it is gone, you are required to generate it again. If I did everything perfectly at this level it is possible I could have so much karma coming back to me, that my creation level is incredibly abundant.

However it seems to me that they only true way to do things, is to connect into the source. To become the universe perspective and cease to be an individual. This of course scares the living daylights out of all conscious minds, because they believe it is the end of their perspective, and it means nothingness follows. This of course is silly. Being the universe is simply viewing all things from the Universe perspective instead of from the individual soul perspective or worse still from the Human perspective.

I am more aware now every day. I have much to learn but I feel enlightened more every day, as I let go of the concrete energy that is the human perspective.

More on Potential

2010-03-17T04:24:00.000-07:00

The topic of potential has arisen again, so I here to explore it. My potential. I am grasping at what actually is potential. There is total potential which means everything exists. Then there is my potential which is everything that I can imagine exists within reach of me. Then there is my personal energy value, and my karmic balance, which gives me the capacity to manifest different experiences. My focus has always been on my potential. I have seen and understood how corrosive desires are, for the debt that is created. I am infatuated with exploring what I am capable of. Telekinesis, telepathy, instant creating, etc. My sharemarket still sits dormant...yet it could have erupted into wealth. My currency trading could also have erupted into wealth. My day to day existance is one of barely getting by. I could win lotto, I could manifest buyers for everything on trademe....etc. I am still connected to this potential that lies there. I feel drawn to it, but not in a bad way but like I am supposed to be finding it. So I feel I am missing the point somewhere, and need to get this right. The question I have at the moment is...am I supposed to be accessing my potential, and am therefore doing something incorrectly which is preventing me, or is the very act of focusing on and pursuing my potential wrong because I am viewing my potential from the perspective of the ego? Is this one of the strands of connection to the ego I still have which is along with my reaction to Dorothy is detrimental to because it is keeping me anchored in the human perspective. I am awake, but I am still drowsy....it is like that. So I need to polish up and get rid of the last remnants of human connection to be able to move forward to the next point. So now I get it. My potential as what? is the issues. I think I have been focusing on my potential at the human perspective, and so I have had this potential cut off every time because my goal is metaphysical perspective and metaphysical development and metaphysical potential. If my human perspective potential developed then it would captivate my attention at the human perspective sufficiently to slow me down in my metaphysical development. By having had this perspective frozen my attention has remained firmly on my metaphysical development, since I have had no connection to how to access my metaphysical potential. (perhaps I have been shown, but it is far easier to focus on accessing my human perspective potential). So the lesson is therefore to relinquish every single aspect of connection to my human perspective. To start with this will mean....all negatives first, eventually it will mean ALL including positives.

This is something I can do immediately.

Focusing on my metaphysical Potential is a case of decision making. Each decision point is an intersection that enables me to turn left or right effectively. I need to be more aware of the what my alternative (metaphysical) potential is when my human mind offers me a 'left turn' human potential perspective. Sometimes it may well be abstinance. Other times there may be an alternative reality or simply an alternative experience with a superior energy value.

This idea came up again today. It is like...being able to see alternative realities. I am trading currency. I can see my potential for the currency to move in a direction that fits with where I want it to go. This will increase my wealth at a human perspective and enable me to clear out the last of my debt. I am not yet sure what I need to do to trigger this particular reality, as a means of understanding the creative process. I feel there is the capacity to control my environment and control my potential, I just haven't yet stumbled on how. This is what I am working on now. I can visualize. I can be decisive. I can have intention. I need to be connected to the source though. This also is still not clear. So much unclear stuff.

thought forms

2010-03-15T13:24:00.000-07:00

What if we changed our perception of what a thought form is. What if thought forms where in fact energy gatherer's, like a harvest worker. (what you sow you shall reap). What if the thought form goes out and gathers up all of the energy related to it'self, and of course brings it back, because it belongs to you, it works for you. You are the "owner" and so you reap the benefits of your workers. The thought form it's isn't negative or positive when you send it out? But it will have a negative or positive effect on people as it interacts with them, and it will harvest the result of that. An action usually has greater consequences because it affects the receiver so significantly that they in turn have an effect on others around them. The thought form will follow the trail right to the end of it's life, harvesting everything related to itself, before it returns to you. This is the principle of Karma. Some thought forms have such a significant effect it may be out collecting for a life time, so it will not be calculated until the end of your current life span. This then will be added to your life's Karmic balance.

Anyway, the suggestion I have is to purposely send out thought forms as worker bees, with the express purpose of helping others. Will try this today.

Mathematics and the karmic power of a thought

2010-03-13T01:53:00.001-08:00

What if every thought had a karmic value. How would you stack up at the end of a day. Would you be positively balanced or negative...and therefore facing a debt manifestation upon the "clearing" process. What if every action you did had 5 times the value of your thoughts. How would your Karmic value look then? Would it look little improved because of the sheer number of thoughts you have in a day by comparison to the number of countering actions? Or do your actions make your karmic equation look frighteningly worse?

Every hour, every day, every week, every month, every year, our karmic cycle completes, and a clearing process occurs, much like a clearing house in the investment world. As in a clearing house your profits and losses are realised, and recorded, and calls are made for more funds on hedged positions that have bridged their accepted margin limits. So too it works for Karma, which after all is simply another energy source to be invested. The energy equation needs to be calculated and settled for the cycle, and the profit and loss recorded and manifested.

This then is how we end up gaining and losing things materially...a guide to how things are in the energy or ethereal plane.

So it is incredibly important that we live 'aware' of the power that is in both what we do...(thoughts/actions/reactions) and what we don't do...(lack of taking up potential opportunities to affect others positively).

Start a routine of assessing yourself on an hourly, and daily basis, to see how you feel you have stacked up for those time frames. How is your karmic balance looking. Whatever it is...the result will manifest. If it is zero...then your life will have no change. If it is negative....you will have a debt of karma to pay.

Could you die for a stranger...who will never know your sacrifice...but which would provide them the opportunity to be able to spend another year with their family before they moved on? And all of the happiness that is generated by that person in that year would be credited to your karmic account. Would you take a karmic debt for a stranger, who would never know what you had done for them but would mean that this stranger could be released of their karmic debt, and would therefore no longer stay of a path that would have lead to them committing suicide, but instead goes forth and changes the lives of 100s of others who were in the same boat and saves them...and all of that karmic value feeds back to your account.

It is an interesting concept. It goes beyond being selfless. It becomes something so much more....it is like...you become for that moment....the universe itself.

aligning the pieces of the jigsaw

2010-03-13T01:42:00.000-08:00

Just identifying the pieces of the jigsaw that are in front of me to help me figure out where I am at, and where to from here.

Debt has dramatically decreased. Time potential has increased.

Weight has increased. Finger nails still being bitten. Body healthy. Life currently no dramas. Potential:Dubai, and academy, Korea, and an unknown 4th option.

Comprehension expansion current focus. Tidying up and putting static things back in flow.

Food discipline still difficult. Current dilemma is balancing lower and higher self: First Initiation?

Battery issue with car: seems like it is on it's last legs...barely recharging...difficult to start like it is flat...feel this is potentially mirroring me. Two birds have struck my car. Current topic: working off other people's Karma. Potentially working off my own? Need to leave ABA.

the greatest gift

2010-03-13T01:25:00.000-08:00

I often magnetise towards the idea of being unselfish, compassionate, and am an avid believer in harmlessness. But today, I discovered something that would leave all these behind.

The idea of working off someone elses Karma.

This is a major. Imagine, here I am....little ol' me earning massive points because I have taken a karmic debt off someone else, and relieved them of their burden. This is massive. Now I am not sure what this involves. It may well involve pain, or not. It may be, that I am able to work off their karma more easily than they can, and therefore I do not incur a vast debt in the process.

Imagine winning lotto, and using it to pay off the karma of others. Imagine willing entering into the loss of something valuable or the infliction of pain and suffering perspectives....(meaning I don't have to bond with and therefore choose to react as a sufferer) all for the benefit of someone else. What if they were to never know that you had done such a thing...actually, only the ego wishes for them to know that you did it for them. This is not necessary...for if it is known, perhaps the effect is lost, as the reward is gained in appreciation from them immediately.

So this then is another way to generate energy. One is to gift and network, the other is to work off karma.

I feel I still have some Karma to work off of my own. For I am still in debt and my energy production at the moment, is less than my outgoings. So I am still manifesting a negative karmic balance.

I need to look very carefully at myself, and make some strong decisions about where to from here.

Once I can heal someone instantly...is this helping them out with their Karma? It doesn't feel like it is, because the Karmic manifestation is removed...yes, but the Karma has it actually been worked out? What then does this involve?

Expanding my comprehension

2010-03-09T02:44:00.000-08:00

I have been running around and around in circles not knowing what to do. I have been slowly running out of things to do within the potential I have before me. Due to giving up desires, and worldly focus, and then not having any metaphysical direction, I have become lost...until today.

Now I know that the way forward is for me to expand my comprehension with thoughts that stretch my mind, but aren't laced with desires. This is an important distinction to what I have been doing the past.

To visualize my potential without desire is to explore beyond the boundaries of what I have and thus expand my comprehension in the now. Such things as, expanding my comprehension on what could occur tomorrow.

I have been doing this for the last few days. It has given me a great deal of positive feeling. I have also been exposed to new ideas, so because my focus is on my comprehension expansion...that is exactly what I have been up to.

Here are a list of things that exist, that I am inviting without desire.

Clairvoyance, telekinesis, telepathy, instant healing, teleportation, being mentored by a master.

Having material wealth, mirroring metaphysical wealth.

These are fairly standard....I think we can do better than this. But it can't be dream land...it has to be comprehendable to occur in my coming day.

Interesting also to note, that desire of physical gain seems to create the negative situation.

On another tangent, happiness we experience, is the energy of someone else that we are receiving, rather than it being us. This is an interesting perspective, because it means that only via relationships of whatever type can we experience happiness. ie a connection to trees, or birds, or another person, or whatever. But it is due to having this connection that we are in line when the energy flows, and therefore we get to experience it. This makes happiness a gift, to be given, rather than something you have for yourself. That means that all happiness is from those around you. It is a bit of a twist on the original idea that is for sure.

So back to comprehension, there is also a need to be able to comprehend the workings of the universe. From this comprehension grows wisdom. For example, to be able to comprehend that this person should not be helped in this way or that, because without your help they will have to seek out and find an alternative which will enable them to grow, or intercept with another entity which will enable them a different experience so their wisdom will grow and they will benefit long term, but only because you decided to say no to them this time, otherwise you will have helped them and they will have gained in the short term, but you have not done them a favour in the long run. Being able to comprehend the workings of the universe in this way, and how vital intuition is to oversee this complex dynamic system of interaction with other souls, is very important. To be able to comprehend that a change of direction given to you, or a stalling of an outcome is a vital ingredient to you developing because it will result in a different future occurring. By comprehending this you will stop fighting the universal architects. This goes for everything from the red lights, to the stalling of Dubai. Everything is worked out to the smallest of details to get me the best possible future potential. So potential is not always about what I see in front of me.

2010-03-07T02:20:00.000-08:00

I sit here unknowing...lost in translation of what has gone before me, in pieces of the jigsaw of life. My puzzle is evolving I guess, but it feels still like there are more pieces separated than there are together, and what is together is incomprehendable in any case. I hear a voice say...what do you want? But I hear what I perceive to be myself ask "who is it that would answer such as this question. Is it really me or is it the mind of the human entity I inhabit, seeking solitude in a perceived reflection of the evolved personality that binds us all together for the experiences we participate in? Does soul actually have desire? Do I as the observer care for what I experience? Desire certainly evolves in line with the personality. I seem impartial to all, once I have separated myself.

Finding myself

2010-03-06T03:51:00.001-08:00

I have been looking for myself for many years. I have looked for myself through images....buying new clothes, new toys, new cars, and new experiences. I have looked for myself in new friends, new girl friends, new jobs, and new activities. I have looked for myself in numerous courses, endless books, an abundance of journals, and thousands of web searches. I have looked for myself, in self reflection, sought peer assessment, and even divine directives, yet nothing.

Today I went digging to start again. What is it to truly find myself. I have been on a journey to let go of all the illusions. I have let go of my desires, and ambitions, of my worldly possessions, my physical directions and I have reflected in meditation.

While in meditation, I had to let go of more. I still had more to let go.....the clothes on my back....the physical body I inhabit.....the thoughts I entertain in my mind.

Only then am I left?

Once I am there, what shall I add back? Will I add back the thoughts I have held in the past...do they serve to reflect my soul?

Will I add back the body I have....for all that is connected to it will return.

Will I add back the clothes....do I need them all?

Will I add back all the things? How many do I need? What role do they fulfill?

MARCH 2010

2010-03-06T03:43:00.000-08:00

I have finally got everything listed on Trade me finally. Ling finally got her gst number through yesterday, so now I can move forward and finalize the sale of the cafe officially. She still has yet to get her manager's certificate, and the ABA has a problem with their liquor license which I will find out about on Monday at a meeting with the city council.

I am still on track to go to see Ji on the 23rd, although I have not heard back from the Korean Badminton Federation yet who are supposed to be paying for my ticket to go, due to the fact that they owe Ji for her last ticket and decided they would pay for mine instead.

Still have no idea what I am supposed to be doing next. It is getting a little bit peculiar because I really have no idea and I just have to wait. It is like being a super active person who has always been filling his time with things to do, but then waking up one day and discovering that the things that you have been filling your time with, including the things on offer to do next are inconsequential and irrelevant to the scheme of things. So since all choices on the table leave me feeling impartial, I am left sitting on my hands, not being constructive, and fully testing the capacity to convert back to the things I know for lack of having anything better to spend my time on. It is like money that burns a hole in your pocket....time is doing the same for me.

I wandered around for 40 mins yesterday outside the pizza place trying to decide what I wanted to do for dinner....let alone my life. And my life feels like that at the moment. I recognise that I am fulfilling everyone else's dreams and goals, instead of my own, simply because I can't see clearly. That would be ok, as long as it gave me a good feeling....but my heart is just empty....and it just feels like an unglorified "waiting to die" approach...with the exception that I am not "filling my time" with mindless games or videos....which when I was...at least took my focus off the emptiness that is there.

I acknowledge I still have some tidying up to do...and it is my goal to complete that this week. With this all done, I will have one more week to go before I leave for Korea for a holiday. I am trusting that by the time I come back my direction will be clear one way or another. One thing I am going to do....is make my life more simply. Not only to unclutter, but let go of ambition for most ambitions I had simply complicate my life and actually in the end, do not add any value to me metaphysically. What I definitely want to make sure doesn't happen....is that I end up creating a negative scenario....which then gives me a direction.....(getting back to zero).

Perhaps when all clutter is gone and all things are simplified, my way forward will be clearer.

I can see why I used to jump from one idea to another. It is the spark of a new idea that gave me purpose. Not too far down the journey I would uncover that the depicted direction taken had no true metaphysical value for me. On this basis, I would then be looking for a new potential. For this reason, I would always have a new idea, and never finish anything....and that was ok, but actually I feel disconnected to everything right now. So any new ideas, I simply see them for what they are before I start them. This makes me feel more lost.

Anyway, will soldier on, and stay as focused on my metaphysics as I can.

2010-03-01T23:55:00.001-08:00

The human mind was created to gift experiences to the observer, without the observer needing to enlist desire.

The personality was created to evolve the human mind which would adjust the experiences the observer got to experience.

The soul is the vehicle that houses the observer.

The mind believes that the personality and itself are the one and only entity housed in the human form. The reason for this is simple...all else is beyond the comprehension of this mind.

The first awakening is simply a feeling. A sense that there is more that what other minds are telling me. That there is more to life, that what I see, even though I do not comprehend it because I am observing from the perspective of the human mind.

The second awakening occurs when I realise that I am not the personality either, for I hear another voice. This voice turns out to be termed a conscience. But this turns out to be a partition of the human mind, created to balance the ego of the mind on behalf of the personality, and keeps the ego in check.

At every evolution of awareness...I adopt the new perspective to be the truth of who I am, and there I stay until I further evolve to the next perspective which enables me to view the last...and a new truth is born for how can I be what I observe.

The next state of evolution of awareness occurs because I hear another voice. It is ever so quiet and infrequent initially, but then I discover that the level of truth in this voice is total. It has taken me a long time to listen more, and focus my hearing so that this voice dominates my view.

This second voice is termed to be intuition. This is I pre suppose a communication link to my management team. The mind doesn't stop doing what it does. My quest is to simply tune myself out of hearing it, or following it completely. This requires that I challenge it without emotion on every turn. And that it be my intention to follow this direction.

Is the next state of evolution the detachment of the human mind and personality.

My soul is an energy entity. This energy entity has three aspects to it.

One is the constant unchanging. This is the original essence. One evolves from the original essence. This is the universal perspective. The third one evolves at an individual level. This layer is affected by everything that occurs at my experience point that I interact or engage with. This is my individual perspective. This is the point that I limit myself from my infinite potential.

At the original essence, I am omniscient, omnipotent, omnipresent, I am everything, and therefore can experience nothing.

At the second perspective I am God self, a perspective, like a hologram made in the image of the original, or introverted in order to look inwards...looking back at the original essence. At the third perspective, I have individualism, as I limit my perspective of the universe, by creating an illusion, by adopting a more concrete perspective.

I can end up so far down the rabbit hole of the illusion, that I forget who I am and what my heritage is. I land in a place where all those around me have also forgotten.

My task is to awaken. It is not about the human perspective gaining god like power. It is about returning to a pure energy being.

At the moment I am using food to gain energy. It is like I am lacking energy. This is symbolic. My life battery is running out. I am proping it up. I need to move faster. I need to raise my energy levels to be able to survive.

Conversation with Kerry

2010-02-24T13:10:00.000-08:00

Maintain a view that includes a major life goal when focusing on something in front of you.

Work only for the universe, it pays you abundantly if you do your job.

The universe is the only boss that gives you autonomy, but will expect to be paid if you don't do your job. (negative karmic value).

Live in the now because only there can you invest in all of your cycles at the same time. In the now you are able to appreciate, enjoy, laugh, love, and gift consciously, and therefore purposely and actively work on a positive karmic balance.

Abundance is our natural state. What we are experiencing at the moment is unnatural. To create an abundance environment, we first need to see the abundance of time, money and energy that is hidden inside our current day, by removing the (bottemless pit of) Potential that exists. We can do this by identifying what our priorities are in tiers. Then pausing and looking at the view before continuing your journey up the mountain of life.

Tier one: what has to be done tomorrow that cannot wait another day. There may be be nothing in this category. Then you have an immediate abundance of time....because all other things after this are decisions you control.

Tier two: what will give me the greatest sense of achievement?

This may be doing something for yourself, or creating a "network", or it may be a specific task.

Have up to a maximum of 3 things on this list. Preferable only 1.

Tier 3: What 3 things will give me a positive energy balance once I achieve them? Do this tier for no more than 3 hrs.

Tier 4: what would I like to do for me time? This also should be 30 mins initially, and evolve into no more than an hr.

Tier5: Jobs for the Universe. This may require a 5 min time of contemplation, asking the universe what it would like you to do for it today? This may involve networking, or it may involve something else.

Set a Life goal for Financial, metaphysical, and time? This is not a final goal, nor an only goal for your life...it is simply a big goal. Getting out of debt is a sub goal. "Experiencing my natural state of abundance" is a real goal. Any real goal can be achieved today. Sub goals take time to manifest. Real goals are experiences that evolve. Sub goals end as soon as they are achieved.

Set a weekly goal that lines up with your sub and real goals.

A daily goal is a chance to connect to your goal "line" and will therefore link to your weekly, sub goal and life goal. example: Collect up all the loose change. Take it to the bank without counting it. Deposit it into your visa card. This lines up with a weekly goal to put $100 extra onto my credit card than I had planned; walk to the bank, as this may give you a chance to do other goals while you walk (networking - such as smiling at people as they walk past; visualizing; appreciating; chatting with your life manager etc). This may be a daily ritual. Some days you may only have a $1 to take in. Other days you may in fact have nothing, so you walk to visualize, or you may choose to do something different on that day.

Your dollar may be in the form of a piece of clothing you take into sell, or even gift today, so that the energy value in that piece of clothing is unlocked and put back into flow.

You can walk back and appreciate this action you have done, and know that the appreciation is also real energy that you are producing towards your positive karma balance.

At the end of each hr for the first week, pause a moment and ask yourself, how your karmic energy balance sheet is looking at the end of that hr/day/week.

What could you change and do differently for the following hr/day/week.

One of the metaphysical goals may be to tune into our intuition more. A part of this is also looking at signs. This is not make believe. Nothing in our life is, and nothing in our life is "not metaphysical". We cannot part time the universe, we can only part time our focus, and awareness.

If you and I are having political problems, this is not a physical issue, this is a metaphysical one. So what is the universe telling us? Perhaps this direction is not the one to be going in....after all how will the universe gain from you being duly employed there? Perhaps the universe has ideas else where for you.

I was talking to mum and Dad a bit about what we talked about. They said, ah, but what about Murray, hows does Kerry get around the fact that Murray will go off and spend money here and there? But, Murray is a reflection of you. If you tell him what you have done.....over time he will see you lead by example and follow you. Murray is constantly nagging you to get on with this or that....perhaps because a/. he is the universe......and b/. because he needs you to lead by example so he can be a part of it. Maybe he wants to be a part of it, but needs help.

No one is saying he will on the surface support you going down the road to deposit $1. He might feel your time is better spent....but remember, it is $1 towards that goal, and $50 an hour from the universe for taking that walk, multiplied by any networking you did etc, which may well end up with that one trip to the bank to deposit that $1 nettiing you $10,000 over a wee bit of time, when you add up the network value and appreciation value, and the energy in flow etc.

Every minute you invest in Josh/steph and Brendon is a network link. You are developing them to become souls that will go forth eventually and have a great affect on many people. The small things you do today, will help to mould who they become. The Universe is your employer, regardless of what activity you do. The more energy you generate for the universe the more you make yourself.

You can do one thing for yourself and gain a good feeling.

you can do one thing for someone else and gain appreciation, and potentially networking.

You can improve someone to the point that they have a permanent change that results in their future being different, and as a result they affect more people and generate more love, and happiness for others and in doing so change the universes energy value....

you will get rewarded accordingly.

We use games to escape our reality because we like the sense of control the game affords us. We like the rewards we get, and our ability to experience success quickly.

If we follow the above, we can do all that in our current reality, and evolve it into even more.

Be happy when something unusually happens. It is the end of the karmic value playing out. (the manifestation of a karmic cycle) Be grateful the energy has been released and it is now over.

The taming on the human mind

2010-02-13T18:10:00.001-08:00

I observe my human mind at work. My lack of intervention sees that it dominates the decision making and therefore the experiences and pathways that I go down.

One of the most important lessons to conquer here within a given lifetime, is to take back control of the direction I travel in, by quietening the human mind, and listening more to my tutors who can see the big picture. This helps me get on and stay on the right path.

This is where I am at. At them moment the human mind has near on complete control. It is my intention to pull this back. This means challenging every initiation presented by it. The initiation may be to watch a movie, or eat something or do something. Generally it is to do with the basic needs of the human body or mind. The body needs energy, the mind needs entertainment, and likes to feel a sense of control. It likes to do things that give it that sense of control.

By challenging each initiative of the mind, I am taking back control and restoring order. The human mind used to have a job of suggesting experiences, but somewhere along the line it just did the same ones over and over.

This then is my great task over the next few days.

Moving forward

2010-02-13T17:59:00.000-08:00

It is Feb 14th, 2010, valentines day.

It is time for reflection. It seems I am going to be free of the cafe within a few days, just requiring myself to be able to sell the 'other' bits and pieces. I am still not clear on where to go next, nor what I will be doing. But I am comfortable and feel I am on the right path, and that I simply need to wait with intention, and it will be revealed. Options that seem to fit well at the moment.....going to Korea, and teaching english, Going to Dubai, and doing any job that pays more than $100,000 US.

Setting up the NZBA. Writing a metaphysical book.

What doesn't appeal, is staying in Auckland. This now has no appeal at all.

I understand I still have some cleaning up of old energy, and starting up generating an energy network here and now. Perhaps if I put my mind more to this the true direction will come forth. It does feel like it is a metaphysical direction I am supposed to take next, not another human direction. I think this is why none of the other ideas appeal.

Unlocking the power centres

2010-02-12T04:19:00.000-08:00

The charkras, or power centres hold a great deal of fascination for me. I have been doing a little bit of study and feel my focus is on the third eye which entails balancing my lower and higher self.

Today I had and extraordinary experience, of seeing how much control I have been giving to my lower self. This is the mind which I had seen to be my own thoughts. Now that I spend more time listening to my tutors (intuition) I can clearly see that this is not my mind, for I observe it. It is the mind of my lower self, which has dominated my experiencing realm my whole human life. I can see that it is this mind that is connected to my emotion, and desires, the things of death for this human existance. I can see clearly now how important it is for me to get control of my attention so that I stop heeding this mind, and let go of the need for it. This will require great diligence in the beginning for the mind is incredibly crafty, and devious, an expert at disguising it's thoughts to look like my own. It is the great tempter, that would have me indulge in energies that are lower than my true nature so as to keep me in concrete energy realm.

this includes food in a big way, but also other things, such as computer games, music, movies, and day dreaming, that give me an escape from my physical world, but take me deeper into the abyss.

Harmlessness

2010-02-11T00:26:00.000-08:00

the following are exerts from Alice A Bailey's "A Treatise on White Magic" that fit for me where I am now.

Harmlessness is the expression of the life of the man who realises himself to be everywhere, who lives consciously as a soul, whose nature is love, whose method is inclusiveness, and to whom all forms are alike in that they veil and hide light, and are but externalizations of the one Infinite Being.

It will lead to that silence of the tongue that grows out of non-reference to the separate self.

For a man who comes forth with great anger and emotion a cooling approach is to say

"I can see your energy is very strong, how may I help you to change this? "

Energy

2010-02-10T23:16:00.000-08:00

All things contain and emanate energy. All are susceptible to input. What sort of input do I do for the things around me? As I set my own energy level, I have an automated influence of everything around me. In addition to this I can appreciate specific energy entities, thus boosting their energy levels and as a result their emanating level. This will affect all of those around them. This is the network effect. In addition to this....I can lead a horse to water, and one horse will have their thirst quenched. And as many horses as I can lead to the water is as many that will be satisfied. Or I can teach others to lead horses, and then many many horses will benefit.

This could be the idea behind the book.

Also there is a "just do it" mentality needed. This that comes from Dev.

Keep it simple. Do it often.

The greatest gift I could give the Universe is positive Energy. To be able to lift the energy levels of those around me, and to have no thought financial gain is an important step forward.

In the minds of many energy is neither created nor destroyed. Therefore it is only altered in value. More positively charged or negatively charged. Everything that has a charge attracts likeness to it. Like a chain reaction. My objective is to join in the group that is apart of affecting this chain reaction in a positive way.

When you understand how connected you are too people, you realise your importance as an individual to the group.....to the universe.

The Karmic soldiers

2010-02-10T22:42:00.000-08:00

When you first enter into this world you are subject to the information readily available in your environment. This environment will change as you evolve.

How you start off viewing the world will shape your beliefs and philosophy.

When you first start out on the journey of self discovery, a thought is described as something you have in your mind....it is private, and has no substance to it. It has no affect on anyone unless you act on it, and it has no purpose other than to construct a way forward for the unbridled emotion you have running around inside you. Once you awaken, this illusion is lifted. The events you considered coincidences are shown up for what they really are, events created from your very own thoughts.

Every thought I entertain, is a real energy. My intention sends it forth where it will affect all those it is intended for. But all thought forms are gathers. The go forth and interact with others, reaping what comes from that interaction, then brings it back to the originator.

The reason that the karmic value is likely to be 10 times that sent forth, is because of the network effect a reaction has on those around them. For example: Lets say it is my intention to make someone feel good. I send forth a thought form perhaps via an action, that sends that person a special note, and perhaps a small gift even as simple as a solitary chocolate. Lets say this is directed to a shop keeper who gave me excellent service the day before. The imput from me is very very small, and the in a physical sense is negligible....the cost of an envelope, some paper and a chocolate...and a bit of time to drop it off to them. The impact on that note to that person will be extraordinary. It may be the first time they have ever had such feedback. The change to their demeanour for that day will impact on every person that they come into contact with. This may change the demeanour of their customers who in turn will change how they interact with the people around them. So the accumulated energy gathered from the original thought form becomes massive in this case, and this comes back to you when it is done.

This makes thought forms like Karmic Soldiers. They are either allies, because you have sent out constructive thought forms, or enemies, because you have sent out destructive thought forms.

awakening

2010-02-10T22:10:00.001-08:00

Today I discovered the true meaning of awakening.

I would best describe it as coming out of a dream where the life I live is based predominantly on the physical plane (A human having a metaphysical experience), and waking to a life with a view that looks from beyond the physical plane. (A God having a human experience)

I have also concluded there is a great deal of humbleness needed to succeed, for any sense of desire for control, or any emotional attachment to anything proves I am not yet ready for the next step.

It appears to me that awakening is a term best suited to a having a realisation that all of my ideas about metaphysics are mere fantasy held from a perspective of interaction with the physical plane, and that only once I make them a true reality where I interact with the parts of my philosophy beyond the physical with more intent than the components of the physical plane can I truly say I have awakened.

In the early stages I think the risk is there that I can go back, but only if my resolve is weak.

From where I am viewing things today, there is a great deal of knowledge flowing around me. Things that were fantasy are actually real. This creates a resulting need to as vigilant with my thoughts as I would with my words. To know that my intention is a command that will call into play great energies that should not be toyed with. This place beyond awakening, has a deep and lasting need for great respect and humility.

creation

2009-12-18T01:03:00.000-08:00

Expanding my comprehension, I have decided I am definitely an Alantean citizen. I have been accustomed to great personal and group power before.

Making money

2009-12-15T22:48:00.000-08:00

Isn't it interesting that we call it "making money".

In reality what is it that we are doing? We aren't making it, we are trading in something of greater value for lessor value energy. This is not creating...therefore it is an illusion. We do want to create the experiences that we wish for without the cost. Hence the attraction to lotto.

So what is the correct way to do it? Everything I have tried todate has been successful initially then it has failed spectacularly.

Is that because I changed my perspective or intention? Is it simply because I did basic fundamentals incorrectly via a behavioural iniative, therefore I repeat the same behaviour given the same situation, and in doing so, because that behaviour is destructive, ends up costing me everything. This could be worth exploring, but it still feels not correct. It feels like the creation of energy should take no effort on my part at all, at a human level. If this is true, then where should the creation of this energy take place? I have been appreciating, and been good, yet I have not manifested money. So lets put all the pieces together and see what comes up. Appreciation is creative energy. Centering myself at my soul point, means I am not anchored in the material world, so my intentions are not to manifest something for myself which then requires me to go and find the energy. ie if I decide I want something like an mr2. Once I have decided this then the context is created. If I then try to pursue it at a material level, then I will have to trade more valuable items for it such as my time, or I will go into debt to create it. Both are undesireable. The other alternative is to create the context...I desire to buy an Audi TT and a luxury home for Ji. This also creates the context. Then I begin to pour real energy into this context. This I have not had a go at doing. I have always converted back to working out how I will create it materially, or dreamed about creating it metaphysically by creating a lotto win, but I have not put the energy into the context. So here then is my new project. To create first a luxury home, metaphysically, then to put an Audi TT in the Garage.

2009-12-15T14:11:00.000-08:00

I am unsure what to do. The cafe still lingers. Coaching is thin, as is enthusiasm for it. Academy is stifled by the potential to go to Dubai, and by a lack of belief that this is my correct direction. The dubai thing doesn't seem to feel like it is correct either. Nor does going to Korea. So here I am in a position where I don't know what on earth I am supposed to do, and so feel I am falling into a void and risk creating nothing, as I have nothing to be enthusiastic about. I do know I need to create a sense of urgency for myself regarding my development and be more aware of my environment as a school, and more accepting of the events that occur as metaphysical lessons, and points of development. I can also be proactive more in the areas of prempting testing, by acknowledging where I am weak, and focus my attention on these areas.

I can also invest my time expanding my comprehension of reality.

One thing I do feel I need to do is to clean out my old or at least let it go.

A Note from "ponder on this" by Alice A. Bailey

2009-12-13T22:46:00.000-08:00

"Your major need is for an intensification of your inner spiritual aspiration. You need to work more definitely from what might be called a point of tension. Study what is said about tension and intensity. It is intensity of purpose which will change me from the plodding, fairly satisfactory aspirant, into the disciple whose heart and mind are aflame.

notes from surfing the net

2009-12-13T22:25:00.000-08:00

Although Tantra often refers to the Ajna Chakra as being located in the brow region, the implication is that this is its external manifestation, whereas the actual position is in the middle of the brain behind the brows. I differ from this conventional explanation in positing a front (descending) and an internal "Ajna" centre, as well as the back-of-the-head (ascending) centre. In Taoism, this primary chakra in the centre of the brain is variously referred to as the Square Inch [ Secret of the Golden Flower, p.25], the Heavenly Heart [Ibid], the Crystal Palace [Mantak Chia, Awaken Healing Light, pp.222-223], the Upper Tan Tien, the Original Cavity of the Spirit (Yuan Shen Shih) or the Ancestral Cavity (Tsu Ch'iao) [ Taoist Yoga - Alchemy and Immortality, pp.5, 9, etc]. As with the other mid-line chakras, the Ajna is not a Chi-energy chakra, part of the ch'i circuit or microcosmic orbit, but a subtle consciousness centre, located along the laser line or Sushumni nadi that extends from the Perineal (the lower or yin polarity) to the Crown (the upper or yang polarity). It constitutes the central focus point or governing centre of the other head chakras.

Antahkarana - The Science of the Antahkarana

2009-12-13T20:00:00.000-08:00

From Education in the New Age By Alice A. Bailey "Antahkarana The path, or bridge, between higher and lower mind, serving as a medium of communication between the two. It is built by the aspirant himself in mental matter." As a preparation for what students need to master, I would like to emphasize certain points by tabulating the information already given. The Science of the Antahkarana is not an easy one to learn because of the following points. These emphasized points must be accepted by students as a working hypothesis prior to all attempted work: 1. The Science of the Antahkarana is connected with the entire problem of energy, but peculiarly with the energy handled by the individual and with the forces by which the individual relates himself to other individuals or to groups. For the sake of clarity, we will give the name of a.ENERGY: to all forces pouring into the individual form from whatever direction and source. To these major energies, the names of "sutratma" or "life thread" or "silver cord" have frequently been given. b.FORCE: to all the energies which - after due manipulation and concentration - are projected by the individual or group in any direction and with many possible motives, some good and many selfish. 2. The Science of the Antahkarana, technically speaking and for group purpose, is especially the science of light manifestation with its results of revelation and consequent changes. It should be remembered that: a.Light is substantial, and from the angle of the spirit is a sublimation or higher form of material matter. b.Light is also the quality or major characteristic of the soul in its own realm, and of the etheric body (a reflection of the soul eventually) in the three worlds of human evolution. c.The object of the science with which we are dealing is to fuse the lower and the upper lights, so that one light shines forth in physical manifestation and a synthesis of light is consequently brought about. d.Technically speaking, two light bodies exist - the vital or etheric body and the soul vehicle. One is the result of aeons of incarnating life and becomes in time a powerful repository of energies gathered out of a wide range of contacts, though conditioned by the ray type in its three aspects. The etheric body exists and is today functioning powerfully. The soul body is in process of being slowly constructed, and is that "house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens" to which the New Testament refers (II Cor. V, 1). It is interesting to note that the Old Testament refers to the etheric body (Ecc. XII, 6-7.) and its construction, and the New Testament deals with the building of the spiritual body. 3. The Science of the Antahkarana must be studied in three ways: a.Concretely and in relation to the etheric body, which is a substantial, tangible form, and is being so considered (though not as yet universally admitted) by modern science. b.Egoically and in relation to the soul and to the "light body" through which the spiritual man must function in the world of souls, and which - when blended and fused with the etheric body - produces the manifestation of divinity upon earth to a greater or lesser degree, according to the extent of fusion and the conscious recognition by the individual of the attained fusion. c.Abstractly and in relation to knowledge-wisdom, which are two words used in relation to force and energy, and their use by the individual in his environment and contacts. Ponder on these words. You will realize how necessary it is that there should be some capacity for abstract thinking before the true implications of this new science can be understood. 4. The Science of the Antahkarana is concerned with the problem of the continuity of consciousness and with the problem of life and death. Keep these two themes clearly in your mind for they are basic and important. 5. The Science of the Antahkarana deals with the three fold thread which connects: a.The monad, the soul and the personality, linking all three periodical vehicles and unifying all seven principles. b.The triple personality and its environment in the three worlds of human enterprise, and later in the other two worlds (making five) of superhuman expression. c.The consciously creative man and the world of ideas. These he must contact and express through creative work, thus bridging with the light: i.Between the world of souls and the world of phenomena. ii.Between the realm of subjective beauty and reality and the outer tangible world of nature. iii.Between himself and others. iv.Between group and group. v.Later, when the divine Plan has become a reality to him, between the fourth kingdom (the human) and the fifth kingdom (the Kingdom of God). vi.Finally, between humanity and the Hierarchy. 6. The Science of the Antahkarana is the science of the triple thread which exists from the very beginning of time and links individual man with his monadic source. The recognition of this thread and its use, consciously, as the Path and the means of ever expanding contacts, comes relatively late in the evolutionary process. The goal of all aspirants and disciples is to become aware of this stream of energy in its various diversifications and consciously to employ these energies in two ways: interiorly in self-unfoldment, and in the service of the plan for humanity. 7. The Science of the Antahkarana teaches certain fundamental truths about the thread, some of which might be enumerated as follows: a.The life thread comes directly from the monad or the ONE. This thread is anchored in the heart during incarnation. There is the seat of life. b.The consciousness thread comes directly from the soul. It is anchored in the head. There is the seat of consciousness. c.The thread of creative activity is initiated and constructed by the human being. It is anchored, when sufficiently constructed, in the throat. This thread is an extension or synthesis of the two basic threads. The creative thread itself is triple in nature. It is slowly constructed down the ages by the man. As he becomes truly alive, from the standpoint of intelligent awareness and the desire fully to express himself, the process is materially hastened. These three self-created lesser threads which constitute the third thread of the antahkarana extend eventually: a.From the physical body to the etheric body, passing from the heart to the spleen, and thence to the body of prana, the vital or etheric body, unites with force from the egoic will petals. b.From the etheric body to the astral body. This thread passes from the solar plexus to the heart and from thence to the astral body, picking up the energy of the thread mentioned above, unites with force from the love petals. c.From the astral body to the mental vehicle. This thread passes from the ajna center to the head center and from thence to the mind body, picking up the energy of the other two threads mentioned above, unites with the force from the knowledge petals. Though these three energies are woven into one thread finally, yet they remain distinct. It should be borne in mind that the soul body is constructed of pure white light, whilst the light out of which the etheric body is made is golden. 8. The Science of the Antahkarana deals, therefore, with the entire incoming system of energy, with the processes of usage and transformation and fusion. It deals also with the outgoing energies and their relationship to the environment and is the basis of the science of the force centers. The incoming and the outgoing energies constitute finally two great stations of energy, one characterized by power and the other by love, and all directed to the illumination of the individual and of humanity as a whole, through the medium of the Hierarchy composed of individuals. This is basically the Science of the Path. The antahkarana, therefore, is the thread of consciousness, of intelligence, and the responsive agent in all sentient reactions. The interesting point to bear in mind, and where we must now lay the emphasis, is that this thread of consciousness is evolved by the soul and not by the monad. The World Soul pours its gossamer thread of sentient consciousness into all forms, into all body cells and into all atoms. The human soul, the solar angel, repeats the process in relation to its shadow and reflection, the personality. This is part of the creative work of the soul. But, in its turn, the human being has also to become creative in the mental sense of the term and must repeat the process, for in all points the microcosm resembles the macrocosm. Therefore, through the life thread, the soul creates and reproduces a personality through which to function. Then through the building of the antahkarana, the soul first of all develops sentiency down upon the physical plane, and later bridges the gap - through meditation and service - between the three mental aspects. It thus completes the creation of the path of return to the Center, which must parallel the path of outgoing. I have now completed my introductory presentation of the fundamentals which will in the future age dominate the educational systems. It was necessary for all of you - and for those who will later study these instructions anent the new education - to have some grasp of past foundational implications and basic tendencies and also some ideas, however vague, of the line along which major changes can be expected to come. You can begin, therefore, to work intelligently and with as little loss of time as possible. It remains now to make the teaching which I have given practical in its implications. The New Education now must take the place of that which is old and which has proved so wrong that it could not prevent the universal holocaust which distinguished the years 1914-1945. It must be superseded. The next stage of human evolution will emerge as a result of the purificatory action of the World War. There are steps which humanity must take, and only a new type of education and a different attitude to the educational processes (imposed upon the very young of every nation) will enable mankind to take them. A new cycle of experience, of psychological development and of new educational processes is imminent. What I have given here and elsewhere on the Science of Meditation, of Service and anent the Antahkarana gives method, mode, promise and point to it all. Science of the Antahkarana. Keyword Tags: Antahkarana, The Antahkarana, Antahkarana Symbol, Antahkarana Symbols

MOVING FORWARD

2009-12-13T14:24:00.000-08:00

I have had a very good boost over the last few days with alot of info coming in from many different sources, giving me a lot of homework to do.

The premise is it seems that I am heading towards the evolvement of my conscious awareness to develop control over my lower mind, my emotions, and to shift my perspective to infact protect myself as my power grows. In short if the karmic value of power matches the increase in power, then as my influence on others increases so does the potential whip lash from karmic fallout if I make errors of judgement, or decisions or actions that result in catacylsmic or negative chain reactions.

Also in a belief that I am moving into a position of management such as a life manager's role, I have to first remove all emotional attachment, and lower self domination, to enable me the capacity be patient enough and persistent enough to do my job effectively.

Potentially I am moving forward towards the development of my energy potential. It seems this has the capacity to be in many forms....psyhic, electrical, fire, gravitational, mental/thought, love, music, elemental, intuitive and potentially more aspects.

The key it seems is in control, which of course makes perfect sense. Control when you are in darkness, must be a progressive process. First stage is gravitational...creating a sense that there is something else out there, and therefore a sense of being drawn to discover is born. From there one must let go of the connection one has to each stage of development, like a butterfly needing to let go of the catapillar stage to move on, inspite of the comfortability of staying with the status quo, and the inability to be able to conceive what lies ahead, the catapillar must let go of what he has first, and this requires faith.

Right now I am at a phase of understanding where I can see the importance of having no attachment at all to anything, including the things I will obtain such as powers. After all, such a power only has it's usefullness in this realm.

And if I get too attached to something, I will be slow to move forward to the next butterfly stage.

One thing that is resounding to me at the moment, is this statement..."I must let go of the need to battle." I feel this encompasses any form of competition. For all competition is a battle to some degree. Is the addiction to battle what causes a man to gamble?

Ok, lets see where I am at. I am happy to move forward in Ji's life and get a home. However, she will be away for several years. Potentially 3. If we get a home now, as the property market moves, we will be in it. This is very much human thinking. We have done the mortgage calculators. We are capable of paying off 100,000 in the first year based on our incomes. All we need to be able to do is come up with a $100,000 or so deposit. We have until July. So 6 months. Based on all things being equal, I would need to gain the money elsewhere from where I have gained it todate. Potential human sources...sharemarket, currency trading, cafe, coaching, and academy, or Dubai Job. Of interesting note...is that all of these opportunities have failed in the past....so what would be different this time?

Also if you see it as the correct way forward to buy a home, then technically you would provide the means to do so, and not subject us to years of debt.

You could also have done this, through any number of lotto wins. Yet you have not. If we had won lotto todate, or in the near future it would change the direction I am heading. So perhaps there is somewhere I need to be, someone I need to intersect with etc. I can see that the direction of my life is being sculpted and for this I am open. I just am not sure how to plan and i think this gives me a sense of waiting.

personality

2009-11-29T21:58:00.000-08:00

thinking about this...what actually is this? Is it actually an expression vehicle for the conscious vehicle.

Aprentiship

2009-11-20T19:15:00.000-08:00

Today I was given a new perspective of things that expanded my comprehension considerably. I have been given the opportunity to realise an apprentiship. To realise the reality of being guided by a master.

All I have to do is follow the instructions. I have to decide and commit fully to his leadership. No more mucking around...This is it! This is what I have always wanted. Now it is up to me to prove it is my passion. I have been given a number of tasks to do relating to the chakras. This is my first priority to achieve this starting requirement.

This Master lives with me. He is here, all of the time watching everything I do. He intercepts my thoughts, and knows my intention. There are no secrets I can keep from him. He is not clothed in a human shell, but he is real. I hear him very strongly. I have been blatently ignoring him on so many fronts, yet he has been there all of the time, and never judged me.

He has just waited for me to be ready.

Bottom dweller

2009-11-16T15:23:00.000-08:00

I have just been informed that I am a bottom dweller. The definition will fit with most of us...people who mindlessly go through their day, most attempting to hide from the mundaneness throught temporary escapes such as drugs, alcohol, computer games, and fiction. Some try to escape through gambling, others don't try to escape at all and just wait to die.

I must rise up now and become an officer. Someone who can lead others out of their prisons of hopelessness, and emptiness into a life that ends up fulfilling for their soul.

So what is it to become an officer? Well, it means I have to start training for it. This means I have to give up my bottom dweller activities which I have become addicted to. I get addicted because they fulfill a daily need to sustain life. Without my addictions and nothing else I would become so depressed ....my inner light would go out and I would die.

So where are we then with this. The addiction is strong. My will has to be strong. My will to improve is strong, but perhaps at this point I am so lost it is not strong enough. Only my will to Live is strong enough to pull me out of this rut. Now this is very very interesting, because it will be a justifiable reason behind all cancers and other life threatening diseases. Like a final opportunity to save yourself. Unfortunately in the material world, most people resign themselves to their predicament so instead of using the opportunity to spark their way forward and change their ways, they simply continue. This is an interesting concept. The same thing that can save you, will kill you if you don't use it properly. If you don't use the cancer to spark your will to live and change your bottom dweller life, the cancer will kill you.

Ok, now lucky me, I am getting this information without having to go through the cancer first. I guess I am getting the information now, but will get the cancer or whatever if I don't do something with this opportunity.

Interestingly enough, there is a mass perspective coming in 2012 of death. The end of an era through the mayan calander. This is a grand opportunity on a massive scale to kick start the entire population into a will to live situation. It could also mean on a grand scale that if they don't their will be a massive culling of the human population.

Heres another thought. 1000's of years ago we were visited by very very advanced cultures from other solar systems. They are still here, protecting us, and helping build our technology. I would propose that when they first visited mankind was so technologically inept, that there was no way for a relationship to be established. Therefore they put a calculation of how long it would take for mankind to develop to a level whereby they could return and begin a relationship. Now they have been coming here for years. But they use cloaking technology which is a very simply process of emitting a frequency field from their ships that would be outside the field of reception the human eye can perceive. This gives them the freedom to come and go as they please. The governments know they are here, because a few of their smaller scout craft have had problems here over the years by being in the wrong place at the wrong time when governments were testing weapons perhaps, and these interferred with the electronics of the craft causing them to crash here.

If on this date they make themselves visible to us again, and begin to build a relationship with us, then this would be a parigdym shift which is what Metaphysians believe the end of the mayan calender signifies. Revelations in the bible, will then occur a few years later as there may well be a significant intergalatic fight being brought to us, in which once a gain, our will to live is triggered, but this time not by perception but indeed by the reality of a true global threat. There will be a great beast.....could well be a monstor spaceship, that brings a billion aliens. There could well be one of these giant craft in every country or even several of them in every country. They come, they stay, use up all of the earths natural resources completely, effectively enslaving the human race because we cannot get around their technology that protects them and tortures us. They will be far superior to us in every way. They will completely strip away this planets resources and then leave again insearch of the next earth.

They will be here for as long as it takes. Generally I would say they will be here for a 1000 years. 10 generations of human years. 2 generations for them. This is why there are so many of them. When they have gone, there will be very few humans left. They will have taken most of them with them, and there will be nothing left here. It will take another 1000 years for the earth to recover. Some of the population will be relocated to other planets. Others will simply take up residence in the super city spaceships. It is possible that if the technology was sufficient to indefinitely store something live and fresh, that these super city ships may well rape the planet of it's resources faster. However I doubt this greatly because will their development would have come experience and they would know this was counter productive. It would be far more productive to have the planets and inhabitants survive and flourish when they are here, and have the capability of recovering when they leave so their future generations will be able to come back here and take again. This way they could have a circuit of planets they visit.

This then would tell me that atlantis is true. We were once an advanced civilization. Or rather we once had an advanced civilization living here. One of two things occurred, they raped our resources so badly they had to leave early, or they simply repositioned themselves to not be so obvious. It says they went to the bottom of the ocean. This would be the best place to hide, because it is the last developement in technology here, to enable us to go to any great depths in our own oceans, therefore a perfect hiding place for our visitors who could come and go without ever being seen. So potentially there are enormous cities under our oceans which are going to be discovered or revealed at some point. These cities are necessary for the future prosperity of the human race. They are so far down that nothing that occurs on the surface of the earth will affect them. We could have a solar flare, world tsunami, meteor strike, nuclear war, biological war etc.

The most interesting thing, is that there is nothing to fear. These people are so advanced, that if they wanted us dead, we would be dead already.

Ok, so what does this mean for me? This means I need to begin preparing myself? I am not sure what it means. I do know I need to change what I am doing. But I am not sure why. Perhaps why is irrelevant, and that is ok for me.

So what changes? Officer material. 1. Diet. I need to start eating live food. Stop eating processed food. I need to go to the movie food inc. I will need to give up sex? I will need to spend time focusing myself on inner energy.

There is a fine line between no desire and depression. There is a key balance point between where I am all powerful = full of power. Desire sucks my power, either by leakage, or by simply creating a negative situation. The other issue with desire is it changes the direction your life is going in. This usually not to your benefit, and therefore creates a negative situation which you then have to correct. It is interesting actually the mathematics involved. The less desire I have the less complicated the math. Imagine the formula at the moment, of energy splitting that is going on between the desires of the average human. The number of desires x the duration of each desire, divided into an ever decreasing energy value. The more the energy value decreases the more the desires increase. This then is result

power points

2009-11-11T18:58:00.000-08:00

Power points are the areas in our world that illuminate energy. At the moment my world is surrounded by appliances that are inefficient energy suckers. The escape from the rat race is where I replace these with power points that add energy or exude energy.

Charging the magnet

2009-11-11T18:14:00.000-08:00

I was called to change today. By having a friend come in who mirrors me exactly it gave me an opportunity to see where I am at exactly and do something about it. I have been doing the same stuff for so many years and have not moved ahead because I cannot without changing my behaviour. The behaviour I need to change is spending money before I get it. The new behaviour I need to do is to replace my debt with abundance, by taking the money that is allocated for something and use it to pay that thing into an abundant perspective. Then with any surplus money, take that and pay another area of my life into an abundant perspective. Continue to do this in every active perspective in my world now, before I try to create new perspectives. This hall will create an enormous perspective of debt. Am I prepared to live with this? If so why?

Right now my life is very simple. It would be even more simple if I get rid of the cafe. The cafe is still here, there is a reason. What is critical is that I take stock of my situation now. That I prepare myself for success now with what I have. That I use the knowledge of what I know to do this without first wanting more as a prerequisite to moving forward.

2012

2009-11-04T01:23:00.001-08:00

The mayan Calendar has once again presented itself. I think this is going to become a feature in my life. I had felt that I would not grow old. I felt that nothing I do now matters. What if that date was a date of significant change for me. A change that strips away everything I have now. This is an interesting thought. Even if not in death, it would be like preparing for death. What does one do to prepare for such a significant change. A change whereby you will take nothing with you. How does one live their life leading up to that point? One of selfish decadence to do and experience everything you can by then? Or one of selflessness of dedication to the comfort and wellbeing of others? Or do we just continue on in ignorant bliss focused on our day to day grind ignoring the impending date and it's consequences.

This is a very important issue for me to address.

If I wanted to do some universal investment I would focus on appreciation.

Why am I here in this time frame. Why have I had the awareness of the Mayan Calendar date this far out, where I have the capacity to enact change?

Back to square one?

2009-10-27T16:32:00.000-07:00

I am back to square one. I feel a bit stink. Any of the options I have available to me at the moment feel empty, and it feels like I am just waiting to die. None of the ideas am I passionate about. I need to find the passion. I also don't want to compicate myself, so Dubai job feels like it will be complicated, difficult. I need some direction again. I feel like I should be focused on something that is not about me.

One thing I can do better is more appreciation. I can also look more carefully at the tiers. I do know I need to look outside the square.

So, where to begin? Well I will begin by going back over my own blog entries, and see what I have missed. Relook at the Cafe. Something has to be done. Get rid of it, or put some signage up and make it work.

Clean up and clear out all my old gunk, including my motor bike.

Oct 26th Up date

2009-10-25T23:55:00.000-07:00

Well, everything has ground to a halt. The Dubai Job is off, or unknown. The cafe sale fell through. I have no money for anything. And I am seemingly addicted to playing online at pogo. I am wasting my potential enormously. I need to do something with my life. I had put everything on hold to wait and see what comes up. I have not been appreciating or doing anything. So nothing has been happening. Don't know what to do next. This is a load of crap. I know exactly what I need to do. I need to start my appreciation programme, and stop stuffing around.

What needs to change in my world?

my metaphysical cv

2009-10-15T23:44:00.000-07:00

If I was to write myself a personal cv, how would it look? How would it stand up in the metaphysical perspective.

metaphysical balance sheet

2009-10-11T14:51:00.000-07:00

At the end of a cycle it is very important to have a positive energy balance. If not you will enter into a state of depreciation. You must start with a value, perhaps left over from last life. You must have a timer set to exit, or a limit of depreciation that you reach that determines your exit point, otherwise you have too much negative karma to start the next life.

So a tier one person who only generates their own energy via appreciation or not, will find it difficult to end their lifetime in a positive energy balance, unless they become a monk in a monastry of silence.

A tier two person will have a much better chance of ending their lifetime in a positive energy balance but note that most people in a relationship are actually tier one people coming together for something they want. Hence it doesn't last. A true tier two person would sacrifice their own enjoyment to enable another entity, (animals included) to be happy. The appreciation gained from this entity, would add value to your balance sheet if it occurred often enough. There is also potential that the affect you have on that person goes deeper usually by one person. This occurs because you have an affect on them, this improves their demeanour and morale, and in turn their reaction to each person they come in contact with for that time frame that their energy is positive from you, they will react accordingly and give a positive experience to those around them. (They will deliver a tier one experience to others).

A tier three person will have an affect on many people. They motivate people to become better personalities, which makes them better entities to be around for all of those around them. They make them change behaviours in certain areas, which creates the result of that person becoming a tier two person. A tier 3 person will have a lasting affect on another entity. They will be affected for days, even weeks. The energy network of all that are affected by all that they affect, will feed back to them. This can be hundreds, even thousands of souls worth of energy. Like network marketing it will feed back to the source that started it.

Then there is a tier 4 entity. This is one who has a life changing affect on an individual and not only changes their behaviour permanently, but puts them on the path of becoming a tier 3 person, permanently. Their behavioural changes influence others to change also. The energy generation through the whole network is massive. The effect is so significant, that 100,000s of people are affected by one tier 4 person.

Perhaps Buddha, JC, Kristna, Alha, are tier 4 entities. What about famous people who inspire millions to take up a sport. This is perhaps not the same, as they are focused on themselves. The michael jordans, and other great sporting role models, inspire millions to chase their own goals of becoming a legend. So JC inspired me to become a JC, doesn't mean I am going to become a tier 4 entity. It means I am a tier 1. It is not until I give up this goal, that I have a chance of becoming a tier 4 entity. Interesting. So, what's next? Perhaps a training programme for each?

A tier one entity has appreciation. So there must be a non tier one. Perhaps I have gone ahead with my numbers too soon. There must also be a destructive side, and therefore a negative tier, esculating in tier 4 destruction such as Hitler, or the devil?

Anyway, lets say that we use level zero to denote an entity that focuses only on their own wellbeing, and goals, with no desire to move forward and develop themselves. Perhaps they have the capacity to go backwards, and fall into the trap of negative pathway. I think the negative tier 1 is where an entity uses a physical substance to generate a positive feeling about themselves. They begin to rely on this substance to achieve this feeling. It becomes the only time they feel good, and they strive to reach these peaks which get further apart.

Regardless of which tier you are at, negative or positive, the first thing you have to do is give up what you have. This is probably the most difficult exercise for everyone. We get comfortable where we are, and we feel safe because all parts are known. We are getting something, and there is a perception that if we give up what we have we will end up with nothing.

So a negative tier one person who has an addiction to cigarettes, or heroin, will have to give up their vice to be able to move forward. A negative tier two person is someone who makes someone else feel bad so that they can feel good. So someone who steals something from someone, or cons someone so they can get their physical desires met, is a negative tier 2 entity.

A negative tier 3 person is someone who makes other entities do bad things to many other people in order to get what they want. A negative tier 4 person is someone who changes a person down a tier in order that they will be advantaged, and that this person who changes will go on to change others. A negative tier 4 person is someone who affects millions of souls making them hate others, and actively strike out against them, for the gain of that entity through the perceived gain of all involved.

A tier 5 entity would be a perception of God or Devil? There is a natural magnetism towards ascending. Inside every entity at every level, even negative, there is this magnetism. In some it is very very weak, and may take many lifetimes to become strong enough to act upon.

To become a tier 1, a neutral entity must add appreciation for what they have. The must focus on what they have rather than on what they do not have. The must identify what they do like about what they have and appreciate this. They can have a sense of intention. The closer this is to the magnetism of going forward towards their tier 5, the faster they will achieve it. Appreciation must become a habit. It must occur more often than negative focuses to end up your cycles with a positive energy balance. It takes a lot of discipline to do this. This is a time when you feel the most trapped by the system, and wish to escape from the clutches of the rat race. You are programmed to believe that physical wealth is the answer to all of your problems, and that desire for this wealth, often via some form of gambling such as casinos, lotto, tab betting, is the short cut way to get there. And everyone knows someone or has seen someone in the news who has made it. So this situation becomes our goal. Our focus switches outward, and to the physical avenues that we percieve to be the source of our escape. The problem is that your focus is constantly on what you don't have. Imagining what it would be like, gives you a glimpse of it, and makes you feel good for a moment. But it creates an enormous gap between what you have and what you don't have, and you carry that around with you the rest of the time. You have no connection to how you will gain this and so you exist on hope, and nothing changes, so you become depressed over time as you are exerting energy but getting no return.

So by letting go of these, you are able to free yourself up to focus on what you have.

Identifying what you have gives you a constant source of energy food. Because you have it, you are surrounded by it. The cues are around you all of the time. This will change how you feel and position you to receive things, as you will end up with a positive energy balance at the end of your smaller cycles. If you end up with a positive energy balance at the end of this day, that provides the energy to gift you with that balance. Your manifesting tempo may be slow, so this may take a little while to come back to you, but it will come. When this does, you will receive this gift. Potentially there is the capactiy to appreciate more from it. You still have the same number of things you had before which you appreciated, and now you have an additional one. If this continued you would eventually have so much extra energy you could afford to give it away. At this point if you did this, you would then be entering into the realm of becoming a tier two person. As you give things away, others begin to appreciate you. This energy flows back to you and adds to your balance sheet. The more energy flowing back, the easier it is to have a positive balance sheet at the end of each cycle. The more positive the more energy is there to manifest, and the greater the capacity to give away to even more people. Eventually you have such a habit of gifting, that you begin to inspire others to gift. This puts you in line to be a tier 3 entity.

So a Tier

Slow study

2009-10-09T02:55:00.000-07:00

If you had asked me, I would have told you I was definitely a fast study when it comes to Metaphysics. Well what a joke this is turning out to be. My wife keeps reminding me how many years it has taken me to have achieved nothing. This got me thinking a lot.

Why is it that it has taken me so long. The only reason I can think of, is that I have missed the point. I have missed it because I have continually looked for the answers in the same place or in the same way. Today I did some revision to test my theory, and low and behold, there it was. The answer in broad daylight, right under my nose.

I have talked about how important appreciation is. But as I discovered today, this is all about me. There seem to be a number of tiers. The first is about me. I do things that make me feel good. This may involve doing something for someone else, for the purposes of making me feel good. This I believe is the most common level of human existance. I believe this is what life is about. It is about the evolution of this concept. To move our comprehension of energy generation from inside a single circle, looking inwards, to not just bringing someone else into that same circle, but then onto looking outside our circle, to the final level of encompassing all that exist within the sphere, which contains all other circles. This is a profound concept, but it all makes incredible sense. This is why I have felt so strange whenever I have offered myself different choices and then felt uncomfortable. Simply because non of those choices were right for me.

So lets go over the other tiers. In tier two we evolve from being completely selfish, to involving another entity, which we seek to connect to and to appreciate. They become our capacity for energy generation. We want to do things for them, because yes this makes us feel good, but we have our first level of selflessness, which is, that it makes them independantly feel good. We would sacrifice for them. We would give up something of value to us, as often as we could, that they would be happy even, if this cost us our own happiness. The human experience is programmed to go through this evolution via instinct. We are naturally attracted to connect to another entity. And it doesn't matter what or who that entity is. It can be a person of the opposite or same sex, it will often for many be an animal. What or who is irrelevant. What matters the most, is more the connection and the appreciation that is created by the second entity. It is stronger, longer, and more profound than the energy that is generated by yourself in a state of appreciation to self or God, mainly due to our tiny attention spans.

The third evolution is to influence many entities. This is often done by great authors, or COI. (Centres of influence). It is often done by great leaders, and excellent managers. It is done by inspirational people such as great athletes, heros, legends and role models. To become one of these and in doing so affect the energy of so many people people, is the next stage. Karmically you are responsible for this mass energy generation, and because of this it will feed back to you.

The forth evolution is to instigate a behavioural change in others, that they will become ambassadors of appreciation and dynamically change the energy value of an entire population. It may be the population of a class or group, or an entire school or business, it may be an entire town or city or even country. It could even be the entire world. That behavioural change will go forth and generate change in all others around the change agents. You are responsible for change agents, who in turn change the behaviour of others, who affect all the people around them, who influence all the people around them. The network is massive. It can easily be world wide. The change can be small in percentages, but yet it has an indefinite and accumulative affect. Now sit back and think carefully about where all my decisions and actions have been directed lately. Everything has been about me, and Ji. I had almost given up on my metaphysically journey, which would have meant I had stopped my progress to the fourth tier. Now it is time for me to reassess things dramatically. If I do keep my focus totally on my task then everything in my current reality may have to go. All I have to do is ask myself what is it about? Why do I want to go to Dubai? It is all about tier one and two it seems. What about the academy? This is potentially about tier 3. So what is a tier four direction for me then at this point? Is it writing a book? Is it metaphysical power to demonstrate?

This is interesting and worth a lot of thought. The cafe has been a source of Tier three. If the sale falls over, then perhaps this is supposed to be my new direction? This doesn't feel true. I think the cafe has failed on an energy level because of my perfectionism, and lack of appreciation as a result of this disease within myself. The cafe has a huge potential to be energy abundant at tier 3. But my destiny is tier 4. Gaming is frowned upon because it is keeping me at tier 1.

So J.C and Buddha, Krishna, Ahlah, are all Tier 4 entities. They have influenced behavioural changes in millions of people. So there is a need for me to connect into the system and say I am ready for the next tier. I have been on tier 3 by default for some time. Now it is time for me to go forward to tier four, but I am not sure yet if I decide what that is or if it is decided for me. It seems in the past all things have come to me, as most things sit well outside my comprehension, so the only thing I need to do is to open myself up to the opportunities that are out there. I can also start training myself to think in terms of level 4 concepts. This is a radical shift. Actually I think every level or tier is a radical shift from it's predecessor. When you are a self centred single guy or girl, who gets into a relationship, your relationships fail, because you do not meet the tier two standards. On this basis you are unable to keep another person around you. You don' t have enough magnetic pulling power to keep this person so they leave you. Having desire for another entity does not constitute being unselfish. Actually it is still selfish, as it is your desire. It is only when you finally put their desires before yours, and would give up your desires to help them fulfill theirs that you truely become selfless. To say that you love someone or something is false, unless you can say that you would give up your love for them if it benefitted them in some way.

Once you stop being selfish, and begin to have another entity at heart then you can say you are tier two. To go one step further to tier three is another radical step. This is where you help strangers, in a way that you cannot gain anything back materially. Your affect on that stranger is temporary. It is usually not life changing, but it does have an impact on those around them. This tier is designed for mass marketing. It focuses on one person (you) having a small effect on many people often. Each of these affected people deliver a combined large quantity of positive karmic energy that like multi level marketing, leads back to you the cause. This tier can often feel thankless, and you can often feel like your life is not really going forward much, as you have gone from a direct link at tier 2 where you get instant feedback for your gifting, to seemingly invisible in tier 3. What you don't see in tier 3, is how many things don't happen to you (negative things) because you have a positive energy balance from all the good karmic work you do. You also may not see the link between what you do and the excellent things that do happen as the accumulation of energy is small, and therefore takes a while. Without understanding the tiers it is easy to fall back down the tiers. Self focus is an expensive exercise, as it costs you a lot of energy to make yourself feel good all the time, and therefore generate enough energy to have a positive affect occur in your world. I am not sure if that is even possible. For if you have a desire you don't have that item. You will feel empty for the time between when the desire is made, till when you get it. If the desire is for another person you will feel empty without them, and this is a negative state. So perhaps you are able to produce a positive energy balance if single provided you don't have any desires. If you have desire for one person, once you have that person in your world, then you have the potential for a positive energy balance. Unless their expectations on you, or yours of them cause a negative energy balance. If all is good, you will be fine until you have new desires. You will run into huge problems if you begin to see this person you have attached yourself to, as the source of your desire being granted. When there are two or more in my name I will be there. So the energy of two is greater than that of one. It is possible to have a positive energy balance for two people from each other. Whereas two individuals may not be able to. There are more ramifications for this as we go up the numbers.

The instinct to battle

2009-09-24T16:17:00.000-07:00

I recently registered my interest to enter into a competition along with thousands of others, in which the contestants will compete to see who can last the longest with both hands flat on a car. Winner will get the car. Competition rules leave lots of back doors for the organizers to remove participants for various reasons, and if more than one is left after 3 full days, after numerous bribes to get you to take your hands off the car, then they will go into a lucky draw to win it. Today the pick the entrants. I was asked why I want to do it, so...here I am to answer. It seems to me that it is the instinct to battle, because I seem to see this as the same as poker, and any of the other games. I only like to do it if I am going to win. I have no desire to do the car competition and put my body through 3 days of hell, only to be put into a lucky draw and end up with nothing. Equally I don't like to play badminton, or poker or anything else and end up with a lose situation. So, what then is the answer. Why do I battle? What if everything was already decided, that any battle is already won or lost before it was started, so only the perception of chance is kept. This is an illusion. So what is the goal? Is it to lift myself above the idea of battling, to feel a sense of success? If I didn't seek success through battle, how would I measure my success? Is working for a living, and trying to survive also a battle against the system. Trying to make it against great odds, taking a lifetime to save enough to accumulate the basic needs. Success is doing it sooner than later. Success is doing it better than anyone else that you know. I would have to say it seems this realm is the realm of battle.

I asked my self the other day, if I was to exit tomorrow, what would I have achieved this journey? Have I done anything truly significant at a metaphysically level? If the answer is no, which it is, then what am I waiting for? Now is a good time!!!! Nothing like the present. So if not for battle what is it about? Lets see if I can figure out what is gained by battle. It is a sense of worth. I determine my worth by my statue after battle. This has been going on for millions of years. Religion, woman, land, status are just some of the reasons used to instigate battle. It seems there are two tiers of battlers. Those that instigate, and the followers, reluctant or not. The instigators are those that determine their worth by their success in battle to achieve a win. The followers determine their self worth by adhering to a heirachial system whereby the others around them, and above them determine their worth. The instigators are at the top of the heirachy, so battle against other instigators for a separate prize is what they seek. The followers only want to be told they are doing well, and to given the opportunity to move forward to a point in front of them. Be it their next goal, their next rank, their next achievement.

Success of the instigator means success for them also. They thrive on a patriotism, on a sense of belonging to something, and being a part of a team. So where am I at, and what is beyond being an instigator? Am I there yet? In the beginning I was definitely a follower. Now I am reaching a point where I am looking to have others do my bidding. I am an ideas man. I seek others to fulfill those ideas to fruition. What is beyond even this. I do not expect to gain recognition for my ideas. But I feel more successful if I did. So what to do from here? This is about understanding myself and my motivation going forward from here. Why I am chasing this or that. ie Chasing Dubai opportunity? Money? Why am I chasing Lotto win? Money? The suzuki car? It is money. The cafe was money. What is the attraction of Money? Power to create what I want. Here we are back at the same point we have been at for years. I love puzzles, but this is a toughy. Money is the goal of followers. It is not the goal of instigators. Is this true? Money as the symbol of creative freedom? Does money have different meanings to followers than it does to instigators? Followers seek to become the instigators of their own destiny rather than than to stay in the rat race of following another person's dream. But they fail because even when they get the money, their behaviour doesn't change, so they are unable to control their power. So the goal of an instigator is the object of the battle. The goal of the follower is to become an instigator. What other job discriptions are available for me to apply for? To create without being in battle is to create something. To create in battle is to still be pursuing something therefore all that I do is a means to an end, and it is lost. So followers and instigators have this in common. All of their actions are a means to an end. Therefore to live outside this realm of this type of existance, my actions and thoughts must reside with the experience I am having, not that which I wish to have. This ties in with appreciation. I consider that the games I play give me an escape from my current reality as a follower, and for a short time enable me to become the instigator. They enable me to be a successful instigator or to erase and start again with little consequence and have another go. So interesting enough is the idea that I am still actually a follower.

I believe I had myself under the illusion that I was infact an instigator by nature. So. What would make me an instigator? Have I been a follower simply because I have been sitting on my arse waiting for things to happen. An instigator by nature doesn' t wait, he goes out and gets. What is it that I go out and get? What is it that I want. Most of my wants have revolved around a means to an end. I put all of my wants on hold until I get the money. I don't actively say I want children, because I feel I need to be in a better position financially first. I don't say I want a house because I don't have the money to buy one. And so on. I have not said I definitely want the dubai job, I have just said it would be great. But actually my academy would be better. To be an instigator, I need to make decisions. To be a follower I don't need to make any decisions, just follow the decisions made by other instigators. So what do I want to experience? Well this is an interesting question. If I won lotto, what experiences would I choose to have? Would I go to Dubai? No. Would I do the academy? No. At least not initially. And when I did do it, I would be doing it for the thrill of doing it, not for the money. Would I buy a home? Yes, virtually straight away. I would initially buy one in Auckland. I would go travelling for a year. Enjoying following spring and summer around the world, and going to various events that are on. Then I would settle down in NZ. What does settling down mean? Well, back to having kids I guess. But this is another story. The fact is, that there just aren't that many goals I have...from a strategic point of view, that have any passion behind them. I am not an instigator, nor am I a follower. What about being a follower of God? But metaphysics seems to imply that this is an illusion, and that the goal is to to be a god myself. What does that entail? Making decisions. Managing people for the betterment of themselves. I made mention before I was interested in being a life manager. Perhaps then I should be looking at practising on myself. Keeping things simple would be a great place to start. I think that is what children are for....to practise being a life manager. If I dont know what I desire to do, then I will automatically end up following the decisions of those around me, defaulting into being a follower. I think desire is actually a natural pathway. I think I stifle it, by bring in blockages, and limitations, and also I have significantly reduced my desire for anything in the process of becoming more metaphysical focused on reducing artificial value of something. Is it about setting goals, and sticking to them. Not waivering, not setting any middle management barriers or means to an end. So not focusing on Money/winning Lotto, but on the home itself.

It seems I am actually a follower who plans on being an instigator, rather than is an instigator. I plan on what I will do with my day, week, month, year. Sometimes I even do it, as long as it is within my reach. But you wont see me doing the strategic changes that would be made by an instigator. I will come close to finishing a project, but then I will change my focus just before it is completed, and go off and do something else.

I think there is a need for a strategic view on my life, no what do I want to achieve, for wanting and planning is the domain of followers, but rather what am I going to do for sure, and start it now. Then I will be an instigator. To a degree I have been avoiding doing anything or having any wants as they all seemed false, and empty, but this is preparing me so I can see now the content of what I do is irrelevant. The action is important now.

Tunnel vision

2009-09-17T19:16:00.000-07:00

I have learnt an interesting exercise the other day, for reaction time which entailed having a player chase after a shuttle that had been hit by me from behind them. It is amazing how limited our vision is when something comes from behind. This got me thinking. What we class as reality is basically what we see in front of us. Yet this would have to be such a tiny % of what is there, and all of the rest is behind our vision. Why is this I ask myself, that we have such a limited range of vision. Well, I conclude it is because a/. evolution is a part of developing our vision. Why is it not just dropped on us in God like fashion? Well, because the process is actually a bit like a movie, it is the fun part. The second is that we are afraid of what might be out there, so we don't allow anything to come in. We dare not play near the edge of our comprehension incase something we cant control gets through into our reality. What we do do is that we find things within our "reality" that we use to 'escape' our reality. This is of course an illusion. All we are in fact doing is putting our head in the sand for a short time so as to not have to look at what is in front of us, which we obviously don't like because we are seeking to escape. Appreciation must bring things into our vision from behind us, inspite of ourselves. So what is the answer. Well really it is to look in expectation and excitment at what else there is besides what is here. We have a natural instinct to be attracted to what we don't have. But usually we direct that at other things inside the 'reality' infront of us. In fact it was designed to get us to chase the ideas that we can't see yet. Here I am now in a current situation now where I am tossing up between two options or more but actually I am sure, neither of them are correct. I keep seeking to win lotto because of what it represents. I see it as a free ticket to turn around and see what is currently behind my field of vision. But of course I have a metaphysical desire which is stronger. Because of that I have a believe that I can access that area without needing to win lotto and without acruing the hassles that will come with winning large. So lets test the water. I open myself up to discover new things, that are beyond my current comprehension, without any fear, or predjudious towards anything.