A twist on wanting

I am now exploring the idea that there is a necessary tension between wanting and detachment. That this tension is what creates evolution. It is the duality of Man which enables the spark to occur.
When the mind of the host wants, it is self destructive towards spiritual evolution. When the mind of the soul wants the mind of the host gains an experience. In order for the mind of the soul to want, the attention of the personality must be gained otherwise the experience will be lost given that the observer is based within the ring pass knot of the personality vehicle. A ring pass knot can only be opened from within. Therefore the personality itself, must release its own sense of self, in order for the observer to pass beyond its boundaries. This is the equivalent (to the personality's perception) of suicide, for once the observer moves on, the personality will cease to exist. But the fact is....we were never the personality in the first place. We were always the observer. Service is the vehicle of release. As long as we believe we are the personality and therefore that our goal is to service this personality life to the best of our ability, we will always be focused on  our personality wants, with a self protection mechanism to keep us from straying beyond our illusion. This big problem with this, is that personality wanting is destructive, in that it consumes energy rather than channels it which is what we are designed to do. This debt that is created from our consumption, is reflected in what many call Karma. This continues to reflect until such time we instigate a culture of detachment to slow the ceaseless creation of more debt from personality wanting and finally become a positive contributor, not just a neutral position.

I think the wanting aspect anchors us, and detachment sets us free. When the wanting is at our current level, then we are anchoring ourselves in that level. ie if our wanting is personality based then we are anchoring our observer in the personality. We then need detachment to release the grip. This requires Will Power. The only issue here is that if we only have detachment we have no sense of connection so we end up in no mans land, which is where depression can kick in. So I think the key to spiritual evolution is to "be wanting' in the territory beyond the current observers location. In this case it would be Soul Wanting, if the observer was inside the personality ring pass knot.